Chapter 25

Violets Pov-

"Shit." I whispered finding my voice. Merle slowly came and sat down next to me. He had slipped on some boxers and jeans before he grabbed his shirt off of the floor and slipped it over my head. I helped him out and slipped my arms into the holes. We just sat there in complete silence; neither of us knew what to say. I was in shock not moving or speaking hell, I was hardly even breathing. Finally it all sank in. I had just lost my virginity, and now I might have gotten pregnant. A tear slid down my cheek. Merle quickly wiped it away, blew out the candle, and pulled me into his arms. We lay down; his arms never left my waist until I removed them. I stood up and slid my underwear back on; I wasn't going to sleep without them. I went back to Merle and laid down facing him. His hand rested on my hip and mine on his chest.

"What do we do Merle?" I asked.

"I don't know." Was his only reply so I nodded my head and pressed my face into his chest. His warmth calmed me enough so I could fall asleep.

"Shush shush." I began to hum to the little bundle in my arms to calm its crying. I was rocking back and forth in a rocking chair as I looked at the blue walls of the nursery that were decorated with little brown puppies. The brown baby bed had a matching bumper pad decorated with puppies and ball caps. I looked at the little bundle in my arms when its crying receded. Its blue eyes stared up at me as it sucked on a pacifier. I smiled at how much he already looked like Merle. The only thing I could see that he got from me was his naturally sun kissed skin. I kissed him on the cheek and laughed when he smiled around the pacifier. I had laid him in his bed when a walker crashed through the door and lunged at me. I didn't have a weapon on me so I fought back as best I could, but I was no match for the geek and he ripped into my throat. I screamed and the baby started crying.

I woke up screaming Merle was holding me close whispering comforting words in my ear. I stopped screaming, wiped my tears and sat up on the side of the bed. "So I guess ole Merle didn't do a good job of scarin away tha bad dreams this time." He said sitting next to me with his arm around my waist.

"Guess not." I answered and he stood up and pulled on his shirt. Tears were still falling down my face from the horrible dream and he noticed. He kneeled down in front of me and tucked my hair behind my ear.

"Do ya want to talk bout it?" he asked brushing a tear off of my face. I shrugged my shoulders and looked at the floor.

"Talk about what? What happened last night, my dream or the fact that they're connected?" The tears had stopped falling but I was still looking at the floor. He didn't say anything. I could see the panicked ''uh…'' look on his face. "Merle I dreamed that we had a baby and a zombie came into the nursery and ate me." He was still speechless. "Say something please."

"Uh…I don't…know what to say." He wasn't talking this well.

"Ok. I'll just…uh…go then." I got up and pulled my jeans on. I was about to walk out of the cell when he grabbed my wrist and pulled me back. I spun around and slammed into his chest. He wrapped his arms around me and I sighed.

"Sorry." He whispered into my hair.

"It's fine." I pulled away from him. "There's nothin we can do about it now so why don't we just go about our business like normal?" I asked and he nodded his head. We walked out of the cell and I sat at the table in the main room. Everyone eventually came out and joined the group.

"How's it look out there?" Lyla asked as Daryl walked over to the door and opened it. Sun light filled the building.

"Like we said last night, the fence is completely gone from back here. The yard is no longer safe." He shut the door and walked over to Lyla.

"Ok Merle, Daryl, and George why don't ya'll come with me and we will see if there is any portion of the fence is still standing." Lyla said and the three men gathered their weapons, and followed her out of the door. That left me and Greta alone in the main building with Cammy in her cell. No one had bothered to check on her since Merle had thrown her in there. I got up from the table and made my way over to the cell to see her laying on the bed sound asleep.

"Cammy. Cammy!" she didn't move. "CAMMY!" she still didn't move. Shit.

~The previous night~

Cammy's Pov-

I had been thrown into a cell for the second time and left to starve. These people hated me. Even the one man that I thought would appreciate having a certified whore around didn't want me. What is my purpose in this shitty stupid world? I couldn't cook to save my life. I couldn't fight, or hunt, hell I couldn't even save my own sister. The one man I thought actually cared about me had been bit and ran away like some coward. They didn't even come to make sure I was ok after a tornado had came through and probably torn up everything that made this place safe. I smirked to myself. I told Violet this place wouldn't last forever and that we were all going to die.

Well they hadn't died yet, but they were sure to when they finally chose to leave this stupid place to follow another pipe dream to god knows where. From what I have heard about Talitha's previous missions she was the exact definition of a pipe dreamer. Well not me, I refuse to go on some stupid mission and die the miserable death of being eaten by a geek. They could hope and dream all they wanted but there was no point in hope. All that brought on was heart break. That's the way it had always been before the world went to shit and that was never going to change. I had made up my mind that if they let me out again that I was going to get my hands on a pistol somehow and bring a quick end to all of this.

That was before I got board and started walking around the cell. I saw something shine out of the corner of my eye so I went and picked it up. It was a sharp pointed piece of glass. I could hear the halleluiah chorus. I smiled as I sat down on the bed and faced the corner so that no one could see if they happened to walk by. I pressed the sharpest side of the glass to my right wrist as hard as I could and slid it across the blue blood vessel. I knew I had hit my target when blood started flooding out of my wrist. I gripped the glass in my right hand and made an identical slit on my left wrist. I was rewarded with a significant amount of blood flowing out of that cut as well.

~Back to Violet~

"Shit. Greta come here please." I called and Greta came running. "Do you have a key to the cell?"

"Yeah. Merle threw them to me before the left. Why? You aren't gonna let her out are you?"

"No I'm just going to make sure she is ok, she isn't answering or even moving for that matter. Keys please?" she handed he the keys reluctantly and I opened the cell door. "Cammy? Cam?" I touched her shoulder and turned her over. I screamed at what I saw. Her lips were blue and she was covered in blood. Greta rushed to my side and pulled me out of the cell where I collapsed onto the floor. Greta sat down next to me and tried to hug me but I pushed her away. She got up and went into Cammy's cell and started examining things.

I didn't much like that girl, I mean she really was a whore, but that didn't mean she deserved to die. I was still sitting on the floor when Greta came out of the cell. She grabbed me by the arm, pulled me up and to the table. I just sat there not looking at anything in particular until the others came back.

"There isn't a single building that still has a fence around it." Lyla said when that busted through the doors making me jump. Merle only had to glace at me before he knew something was truly wrong and was at my side in a flash.

"What's wrong? What happened?" he asked us with an arm around my shoulders.

"Cammy's dead." Was all I could manage to say before Greta jumped in and started talking.

"She killed herself. She slit both of her wrists and bled out during the night. She used a piece of glass from the broken window." Every one was silent for a good while.

"Well at least we won't have to decide what to do about her when we move on." Merle chimed in.

"Merle!" all the women scolded him at once.

"What? She chose to end it. Was her choice and something tells me we wouldn't have been able to stop here if we tried." He countered.

"He has a point." Greta offered. "We do have to move on and she was crazy. She would have compromised us if we brought her along." Everyone just nodded their heads. After that we all got to talking and planning our next move. It was eventually decided that we would go to the base that Lyla had been on her way to when she ran into Daryl and Merle's first group. Lyla was even hopeful that we might run into them there if it was still a functional base.