Chapter 25.
Sakura and Syaoan silently ate their food, "Please pass the salt" was all they could say to each other. Once in a while Syaoran would clear his throat, unaware of what to say, he hated silence, but he didn't know how to break it, 'What do I say?' Syaoran thought as he continued to watch Sakura pick at her food with her chopsticks. As soon as Sakura looked up to look at him, he would turn away, he needed something to break the ice, but what? He glanced at Sakura's food, then cleared his throat, "So, uh, hows the food?" He asked nervously.
Sakura let out a bored sigh, "Good." Syaoran simply nodded, 'Riiight. Now what? "Hows the drink?"?' Syaoran thought, so much for an ice breaker. He let the silence swallow them for the rest of the meal, he figured if she wanted to talk to him, then she would. 'What now?' Sakura thought, 'Am I now all of a sudden Psychic? I can now all of a sudden see in to the future?' Sakura asked herself. 'Am I suppose to say I love him or what?' She let out an annoyed grunt, her world was perfect, she had friends to do secret santa with, no one to tease her, and no wierd visions of the future, well, it was perfect, until he came.
"What?" Syaoran asked, Sakura blinked at him with confusion, "Is there something on my face?" Syaoran asked.
"Uhh..." was all Sakura could say, Syaoran raised an eye-brow at her, "Uh, no, nothing was on your face, I'm just, uh, tired. I know it's a bit early, but I have a headache, can you please take me to Tomoyo's?" Sakura asked.
Syaoran nodded his head slowly, he asked the waitress for the bill and paid, he stood up and walked over to Sakura's chair and helped her out, on the way to the car, he hung his head downwards. He opened the car door for Sakura, and then went to the driver's seat, he didn't even bother turning on the radio, he put his car keys into the ignition and went strait to Tomoyo's house. They were yet again covered in silence, Syaoran put his hand through his hair when he reached a stoplight, 'Live your life to the fullest...' Thoughts of training in the dojo came to him, he never really did what he wanted to do, he was a puppet. And, now, the thing he wanted to do the most, telling her that he loved her, seemed like it was never going to happen. He let out a sigh and parked in Tomoyo's drive-way. He was about to step out of the car when someone grabbed his arm, "No, it's ok. I can just walk myself to the door." Sakura said with a small smile.
Syaoran nodded and put his seat belt back on, he waited until Sakura reached the door, he gave her a quick nod and backed out of the driveway. She didn't need him, so much for a happy ending. Sakura reached for the door-knob, but before she even touched it, Tomoyo opened the door with a big smile on her face. "Well?" Tomoyo asked with an excited tone, Sakura could tell that Tomoyo was trying not to say 'KAWAII!' Sakura rolled her eyes and let herself in. Tomoyo's smile quickly disappeared, something had happened, something that she did not plan. Sakura threw her purse onto the couch and sat down next to it. Tomoyo looked outside to see if Syaoran was there, 'No Syaoran..' she let out a sad sigh and slowly closed the door, as if Syaoran were to magically appear, but he didn't. She studied Sakura's movements closely, 'A frown, rolling eyes, watching.. The Discovery Channel... Something was wrong.' "What happened Saku?" Tomoyo asked.
Sakura looked up at Tomoyo from were she was sitting, "Nothing Tomoyo." Sakura said with a fake smile.
Tomoyo put her hands on her hips, "Yes there is! Tell me."
Sakura narrowed her eyes at Tomoyo, "I said I was fine." Tomoyo looked at her with disbelief, "I'm ok Tomoyo! I'm not a baby!" Sakura said angrily as she turned her attention to the T.V.
Tomoyo grabbed the remote and turned off the T.V, "You'r frowning, you rolled your eyes at me, AND you were watching the Discovery Channel, you HATE that show! Somethings wrong and you know I know."
Sakura stood up and glared at Tomoyo fiercly, "There is nothing wrong! I wasn't frowning, I felt sick, I DON'T SMILE WHEN I'M SICK!"
Tomoyo slowly backed away from Sakura, "What is wrong with you?" She asked, she looked Sakura in the eyes, "People say that a person's eyes are a picture of their souls, and your eyes are telling me that your hurt."
Sakura sat back down and buried her face into the palms of her hands. "I-I'm sorry..." She choked as tears began to stream down her face.
Tomoyo embraced Sakura tightly and rubbed her back, "It'll be ok, just tell me, what happened?"
Sakura lifted her head from her hands and turned to face Tomoyo, "Nothing happened. THAT'S the problem. Nothing happened Tomoyo... nothing." Tomoyo hugged Sakura tightly, 'Nothing happened...' "Why didn't you tell me Tomo?" Sakura asked, breaking away from Tomoyo's embrace. Tomoyo looked at her with a confused expression, "Why didn't you tell me he was leaving?"
Sakura's sad eyes were burning Tomoyo's heart, "I... I thought you knew.."
Sakura turned away, "Well I didn't."
"But... Sakura, if you wanted something to happen why don't you just tell him already?" Tomoyo asked.
"B-because." Sakura stared at Tomoyo's white walls, 'Why?' She asked herself. Tomoyo nodded her head for Sakura to go on, "Because, what if he doesn't love me back! Ever thought of that?"
Tomoyo turned away from Sakura, "Carpe Diem" Sakura stared at Tomoyo with confusion, Tomoyo slowly turned her head, "Seize the day. Life is about taking risks."
Sakura nodded her head slowly to show she understood, "But this is to big of a risk." She stood up and grabbed her purse, she started walking towards the stairs, "It was just a phase Tomoyo, let's just forget any of this happened. It was just a winter thing, maybe physical attraction, I don't really know what it is, but what I do know is that I.. Don't l-love him." Sakura said as she went upstairs to change.
Tomoyo was taken a-back with Sakura's words, she was in a state of shock, "You don't love him?" She asked specifically to no one, she turned to face the door, "Let him in Sakura, just let him in." She slowly stood up as the shock slowly left her body, she turned off the lights in the living room and went upstairs.
"WEEEEELLL!" Meiling asked excitedly as Syaoran came inside.
Syaoran raised an eye-brow at her, "Well what?"
Meiling closed the door, "Well... what happened?"
"We ate?" Syaoran answered as he threw his coat on the couch and sat down next to Eriol.
"You ate and?" Meiling asked.
"And.. we went home?" Syaoran said as he grabbed the popcorn bowl from Eriol.
"Oh how romantic! You ate and went home, what happened to the romantic Syaoran?" Eriol asked jokingly.
Syaoran glared at him, "He's not here."
Mieling stomped her foot angrily on her wood floor, "GAAAH! SYAORAN!" She yelled angrily, Syaoran quickly stood up and looked at Eriol, "IT WAS PERFECT!"
Syaoran gulped, Eriol lifted his feet from the floor, "RUN!" Eriol yelled at Syaoran.
"HOW COULD NOTHING HAPPEN? ALL YOU HAD TO SAY WAS I LOVE YOU!" Meiling yelled angrily as she started to run after Syaoran.
Syaoran quickly ran behind the couch, "BECAUSE I DON'T!"
"DON'T GIVE ME THAT CRAP! YOU DO! I KNOW! YOU KNOW! HELL, EVEN ERIOL KNOWS!" Meiling said as she angrily charged after Syaoran.
"You don't know, you THOUGHT. Teasing someone doesn't mean that person likes that person, grow up Mei, we're not in 4th grade anymore!" Syaoran said as he pulled out chairs to block Meiling.
"YOU GAVE HER A ROSE!" Meiling said, pointing an accusing finger at Syaoran.
Syaoran froze, "I gave her a what?" He asked, his eyes wide.
"You heard what I said, you love her laughter." Meiling said with a grin, she won.
"N-no I didn't." Syaoran said, "I-I'm tires, I'm going to bed." Syaoran said as he quickly went upstairs.
"He likes her." Eriol said from the couch.
--- NEXT DAY
"Sakura?" Tomoyo asked as she knocked on Sakura's door. Tomoyo waited for an answer, "Hello? Sakura?" Tomoyo asked again before turning the door knob. "Saku?" Tomoyo asked as she looked around the room, Sakura was no where in sight. "SAKU?"
"Um, sorry Miss Tomoyo, but Miss Sakura went for a walk, she said she would be back soon." A maid said. Tomoyo nodded and sat on the edge of Sakura's bed.
Sakura silently hummed to herself as she entered the small rec. center, she looked through the many store windows, especially the bakery. She wanted to buy Tomoyo cookies or perhaps a cake to show how much she was sorry. She walked in to Starbucks and bought a Strawberry and Creme, she took a seat in one of the tables outside, she took a sip of her drink and let it's coolness rush through her body, she tilted her head slightly, and looked at the people inside the caf'e, drinking their warm coffee or hot coco, they were probably staring like she was crazy, she was wearing jeans, a shirt and had an eskimo jacket on, she was outside in the cold, drinking a Strawberry and Creme frap. She let out a sigh and watched her breath make a faint white color in the air, being outside was better than being cooped inside a Caf'e with 20 other people, after what happened last night, she wanted to be alone.
She grabbed a napkin and took out a pen, When i stare at the midnight So no one can hear. Star light,
star Give
me a sign; "
"This
feeling i feel.
It just wont leave.
Why couldnt it just
be,
me and you...
It seemed like it was
planned out by fate
and
destiny.
sky; all i can see
are the stars
that shine so bright. And I make
my wish,
silently to myself.
bright, grant me this one wish... just
for tonight.
that he's still mine."
"Um, yeah, thanks." Sakura said, she placed the crumpled napkin on the table, and stood up, "What are you doing here Syaoran?"
Syaoran grabbed the napkin before Sakura could stop him, "Do you always write random poems on napkins then crumple them up?"
Sakura rolled her eyes, "Do you always sneak up behind people and read what they write?"
"Eh, only on Tuesdays." Syaoran said with a small smile, as he started unfolding the napkin.
Sakura couldn't help but smile little, "What are you doing?" She asked as she watched Syaoran closely.
"I like this." He said pointing to the poem.
Sakura shrugged her shoulders, "Thanks I guess."
"Can you write me one?" Syaoran asked.
Sakura nearly fell, "WHAT?" She asked.
"OW! My ears!" Syaoran said dropping the napkin.
"Sorry!" Sakura said as she looked at the people around her.
"Well? Can you write me one?" Syaoran asked.
"Uh. I'll get back to you on that.. I got to go." Syaoran nodded, "Later!" Sakura yelled as she ran into a nearby bakery store, she ordered a medium sized cake and walked to Tomoyo's house. '"Can you write me one?"' Sakura secretly smiled to herself, she knocked on the door and was ushered in by a maid, Sakura skipped inside her best friends mansion, and placed the cake on the table, she took out to plates and two forks and she hummed a happy tune.
"Woooah." Tomoyo said as she walked towards Sakura, "What happened to you?" Tomoyo asked with a smile as she sat down.
"Something happened." Sakura said happily.
Tomoyo's eyebrows shot up, "Whats the cake for?"
"You! It's an 'I'm sorry cake.'" Sakura said giving Tomoyo a slice, "Forgive me?"
Tomoyo took a bite out of the cake, "Yeah. So what happened?"
Sakura took a bite out of her cake, "Well, it's not really a BIG soemthing, but it was better than nothing..." Sakura continued telling Tomoyo about her encounter with Syaoran earlier that morning. "And, it'll be the perfect secret santa gift alongwithateddybear." Sakura said with a smile.
"A WHAT!" Tomoyo asked excitedly.
Sakura giggled and shoved a piece of cake into Tomoyo's mouth, "Shut up and eat cake." Sakura said as she and Tomoyo fell into a fit of laughter.
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AUTHORS
NOTE: SNAAAAP! Sorry for the VERY LATE UPDATE! It's just, the
past two weeks before Spring break were... tough. And, it's probably
going to get tougher. Also, my internet hasn't been working T.T So, i
blaim my internet! I'm really sorry, but i hope you like this
chapter. I'll try to update faster, but i might not be able to
because i have this super huge algebra packet, and a math test to
"revise". I hope you all like this chappie & continue
to read this story, there might be a little bit of "ups and
downs" between Sakura and Syaoran but, bear with me. They'll be
together.
thank you to all reviewers! & To happysakura,
she put me back on track (:
i do not own ccs. / sorry for
gramatical errors.
;candee