I know I haven't posted in a while I've been a bit busy but here's an update for ya'll.

In this chapter we'll see a flashback to Robin's baby shower while Robin is about to go into labor. I still don't know what the sex or name will be for their baby so if you have any suggestions please let me know. I would like to know the sex and a name because she will be having the baby very soon. also, the following flashback is after B/R are engaged not before, I wanted to not go by the canon of the show even though I do like the way Barney found out that Robin can never have kids. Instead, in this story it's after they're engaged, around January of 2013 a month after they get engaged which is canon of the show.

As promised this chapter is part baby shower but the main theme is about the baby. If you have any ideas for baby names and gender please let me know I need suggestions.

It's too soon, this was not supposed to happen so soon since she has another two weeks to go before her due date but it is happening and it happened quite unexpectedly and quickly while laughing and having fun at her baby shower. Lily, had done a wonderful job with the shower, the decorations, the cake, the gifts, everything was so thought out and Robin was happy but yet shocked that Lily actually through her a baby shower after she completely forgot to give her a bachelorette party. But, this party went off perfectly, everybody who was invited came, the food was catered as well as the cake, the decorations that Barney helped pick out with Lily was all set up really nicely and the colors were appropriate since they didn't know the sex of the baby yet so Barney and Lily picked out yellow, green, light blue, light pink and orange for the party's theme colors.

It went off like a hit, but by the end Robin had suddenly discovered some discomfort in her abdomen which she brushed off as just cramps. But, the more the night went on the small pains began to increase . She ignored the pains as Scherbatsky's do but Barney had noticed her turning red and clutching at here stomach. In fact everyone starts to look at Robin when she screams in pain.

"Robin?" Barney stops and puts down the cake he was eating then runs over to see what's wrong with Robin.

'Are you okay?" He asks kneeling beside her where she's sitting down clutching her stomach.

Robin shakes her head with tears beginning to fall down her face.

"It's time?" Barney asks and again Robin shakes her head.

"Okay, we have to go to the hospital." Barney leaves with Robin quickly after this and takes her to the nearest hospital while Lily stayed behind to clean up the mess from the party.

They make it to the hospital in time for her to go into more stronger contractions. Their doctor was there already, Barney had called ahead to let them know that Robin's in labor and right away they were brought to the emergency room area to meet with Robin's doctor who told Barney to meet him there when they arrive. Dr. Stine, saw Robin right away as he was waiting for them to get to the hospital. They all went to a private area where the hospital allows for mothers and their families to have privacy as they give birth.

To say the labor of their baby was easy was an understatement. Robin was in serious pain for hours after arriving at the hospital, the doctor gave her something to kill or settle her pain enough to push along the labor which wasn't far along enough at this early time. Robin had some difficulties through out this pregnancy, she was on bed rest for along time period of this pregnancy. Even though this is her first pregnancy, because she believed she couldn't conceive naturally so she took that serious, as a sign that she won't ever have children. Then, after just a couple of weeks into being remarried she unexpectedly but a very excited and relieved unexpected she found out that she is pregnant and did conceive the natural way.

2013 (Flashback)

She was so scared, this was the most scariest thing she would ever do in her life. She thought she wouldn't have to do this because she thought her feelings for Barney had gone away for good. But, then after a while she realized she was still in love with Barney, more than ever before and the scary thoughts of what he would say to this news had been on her mind since finding out she could never have children. More importantly, could never have Barney's children. She thought at the time, to keep it to herself out of fear that Barney would just probably make matters even worse for her. Telling Barney that she can never have biological children when she knows he has been thinking about settling down and having one so telling him that a future with her without children could push him further away from her than she wants to be.

They had just became engaged and for the first time in years they were both truly happy. With no more fears, no more running away, no more pushing each other away, no more hiding feelings, no more tears, no more breaking hearts, nothing. Everything, all the truths, all the lies, all the fears, all went away the moment Barney asked Robin to marry him and in that moment she was no long afraid, no longer running from her heart and what she truly wants. Barney proposed, she said yes and they both can not be more at peace, more at ease and happy with each other than ever before.

So, the day/night had come this was the moment Robin had to push her final fear of losing Barney to bed and finally tell him that she can never ever give him kids even though she knows he wants children.

"Hey. Hon, had a nice day at work?" Robin had been slaving away at a meal for hours while Barney was at work all day. She had taken the day off, she thought it was the best way to give this news to Barney by catering a meal for dinner this night and for once actually cooked a real, freshly made meal that came out very nicely. She hoped it tastes good.

"Usual, just some paper work and calls I had missed for a week. The week I had taken off to spend time with you. But, overall it was a decent day. How was yours?" Barney placed his suit jacket on the coat hanger beside the front door and walked over to his fiance, giving her a quick kiss hello before looking around him.

"What's all this?" Barney is speechless as he looks around seeing the dinning table all decorated with fresh flowers and candles on top. There's a salad bowl in the center between the two candle sticks and there was one wine glass and one regular glass.

"I made dinner for us." Robin smiles at Barney then goes over to the oven to take out the chicken she made for them.

"Wow, what's the occasion?" Barney's impressed. Shocked that she actually knows how to use an oven but nonetheless impressed with how thoughtful she's being by making him dinner.

"Nothing. I wanted to make my fiance dinner." She has a plan, she can''t blow it so early on into the dinner so she stays cool

Barney sat down at the table, placing his napkin that was nicely placed in his wine glass onto his dressy

suit shirt.

"That's what I love about you, you never want to dirty your clothes it's like you're taking care of your babies." Robin set a plate with the food in front of Barney after pouring him a glass of white wine.

"You know what happens when I dirty a shirt or tie I freak out. I hate seeing my expensive clothes get dirty so I take care of them."

"I know." Robin sits down opposite her fiance and places her napkin on her lap.

"Why aren't you having wine?" He asks unknowing what she's about to tell him.

"I didn't want any."

"Oh. Oh, wait are you pregnant?" He just jumps to that conclusion which isn't surprising cause he knows she always has some drink with any and every meal she has after 2pm of course.

"No, not pregnant but I do have some news. I just didn't want to drink any alcohol tonight."

"What news? What's going on?" He asks worried

"Well, I'm definitely not pregnant but I have other news. Something I've been putting off telling you because I'm terrified of how you will react to this news." Robin wants to stay calm and not breakdown right at this moment so she continues.

"I... I can't have a b..b...y." Her voice breaking at the last word as she tried to hold be the tears that were pricking her eyes.

"What?" Barney had started to eat his salad when Robin suddenly sprung this on him. He literally didn't know what to say after this suddenly unexpected news.

"I can't have a baby." Robin says again, the moment she said it again the tears she was holding in started to pour out of her eyes so fast that her vision started to get blurry. She didn't even realize that Barney was at her side pulling her into an embrace.

"Oh, my god. When? How? Where?" There is so many questions in a short amount of time.

Robin kept crying for a few more minutes as Barney just held her. Her head rested on his shoulder crying more all over his nice dress shirt.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to get your shirt all wet with my tears. I promised myself I wouldn't cry telling you this." Barney let his hold on her go and she picked her head up to look at him more clearer now that the tears had stopped and she can see better, more clearer.

"That's not important. When did you find out?" Barney wanted to know everything but started again with when she found out.

"Around Christmas, two years ago. You know, when I thought I was pregnant after we cheated. After we met with Dr. Sonia, the doctors office called me again to come in and that's when they told me. Dr. Sonia said that there are some tests they took just as a precaution and that's when she saw, rather found out that I can never conceive naturally. I'm, infertile." Barney didn't know what to say he just pulled her back in to hug her. There is no words to express, this is shocking to him and he hates himself for not being there for her at the time, the time she truly needed him the most.

"Why didn't you tell me sooner?" Barney let her go again after along comforting hug.

It always feels good, safe being in his arms. From his intense but great smell of his aftershave and the smell of his cologne, to his strong but soft arms around her waist to the gentle way he pets her head, almost like petting a dog it always felt so good just being held by him. Neither ever admit it to anyone but they love to cuddle, late at night or early morning his embrace of his strong protective arms and his very chiseled chest, her favorite part of his body has always been his pecs. Strong but soft like a pillow, it always feels so great under her head or under her hand. She has always loved the gentleness of his touches.

"I. I needed sometime to myself to process the news. It took me two months to really have it all sink, I was shocked but then began to just let the news settle into my mind and after a while I just didn't think I should bother anyone about this especially you, knowing that I hurt you so much after choosing Kevin. I just didn't tell anyone until I told Marshall and Lily. But, you were the only one I was truly worried about telling because of the way things were between us at the time and not knowing how you would react to it. I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner." Barney's shocked by this news, now he wasn't expecting to have kids, he knew she didn't want them but knowing that she found out this news and never told him stings a little bit.

"I'm not mad at you for telling me. I mean I am a little disappointed that you kept this from me for so long cause I would've been there for you if you just asked. But, I'm not mad. I'm more mad at myself for not being there for you at a time when you needed me the most but I would've been there to support you even when things between us wasn't great. I love you, I loved you then and the fact that you kept it from me, it stings a little but I understand why you didn't tell me." He just hugs her again and kisses her forehead the way he's done many times before.

"I just was scared that you wouldn't take the news well. I'm truly am regretful that I kept this from the most important person in my life, then and now and I know you're a little mad at me but I get it. I love you, loved you when we were such a mess back then and telling you this scared me cause I thought I lost you forever and I almost did." Barney's content with the news but all he wanted to do right then is hold her long enough for them both to forget what happened in the past between them.

They finish dinner and go right to bed holding each other until both were asleep. They talked for a while before officially going to sleep this night and really they talked about everything that had happened in the last few years.