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Chapter 25 :: Aqua

"What about this Carlos?" Logan held up an old looking vintage clay pot for Carlos to see.
"...yeah.." he said quietly. "I'll be right back." Carlos got up and briskly jogged upstairs and into the bathroom. He barely made it in time, before he collapsed onto the floor almost in the fetal position. He laid there holding himself on the cold floor, crying himself into calmness. It was one thing to go to his mother's funeral. But sorting through all of the house objects and deciding on what he was going to keep was even harder than that. Too many memories rushed into his mind. Everything from his first memory he could recall; which was eating sea-salt ice cream pop with his mom. To when he was 10 and fell down from his bike, scraping his knee.. Oh how we wished his mother was here with him. Carlos cried.. And cried... And cried...
"Carlos? Bear?" Logan's voice called out from the corner of the slowly creaking door. Logan saw Carlos lying on the floor and immediately rushed over to his fiance.
"Carlos!" Logan pulled Carlos up and held him in his arms. Carlos was awkwardly positioned in Logan's lap, but it didn't matter right now. Carlos' loss over his mother hurt more than his side being bent over Logan's leg. Carlos broke bawled into Logan's tight chest. Logan held him so close and tried to muffle the sound of Carlos's cries as best as he could. It hurt him so much just to hear how much pain his lover was going through. And the worst part of it was he couldn't do anything about it. After a few minutes of nothing but muffled cries on the cold bathroom floor, Logan grew tired and frustrated of his situation. Logan threw an arm over his shoulder, wrapped Carlos legs around his waist and lifted him off the ground with a gruff. After regaining his balance he patted Carlos on the back and hushed the love of his life quietly as he walked out of the bathroom and into his mother's old room.
Logan gently laid Carlos down on the bed, took off his shirt and crawled up the bed. Laying down in a spot supported by the pillows, Logan gently pulled Carlos up to his chest and slipped the covers over them.
I hope this works...
Logan scooted slightly closer to the foot of the bed, as to lay more properly down and allow Carlos to lay his head and cry the feelings out. Logan's warm tight toned chest became drenched in Carlos' tears, but it helped. Logan's body heat reminded him of how his mother used to hold him whenever he thought about his dad. Even though it reminded him of his mom, it helped sooth his sadness and made him sleepy. Logan sensed this and acted upon it by stroking his head and neck to help him sleep. It wasn't long before Carlos drifted into a fatigued slumber due to several days of lack of sleep.

A few hours later Carlos woke up on top of something firm and warm. Like a counter top with a warm blanket over it. Only it wasn't fuzzy... Carlos wiped the dried tears from his eyes and laid his hand down on what he was lying on. It was skin. Muscly and toned. He looked up and saw Logan's angelic face asleep on a purple pillow. He was trying to remember why they were here when he recalled the cold bathroom floor and the blur of tears that draped over his eyes...
Logan must have found me and carried me here...I love you Logie.

And how could he not? He spoiled him like he would a child and never hurt him intentionally. He was quite literally perfect for Carlos. Strong, masculine, yet sensitive and emotional. He was man enough to wrestle around with Carlos which got his rough side out, but he was sensitive enough to hug and cuddle with him and told him how much he loved him. And he would always tell Carlos how important he was to him.
How... How awful am I?... My mother just died, yet here I am thinking about Logan like he was brand new!... Well.. he is brand new, but still... Why is this.. so easy for me?.. Why is it that I can forget all my troubles when I'm with him? First my dad. Now.. Now my mom? It's hardly been two weeks and he's already making me...forget? No... not forget.. But get over it, I guess...He makes everything okay for me. Even in my own mother's arms, I've never felt so secure. Logan keeps me safe inside his towering arms and it feels nice. Knowing I'll be safe and loved.
Carlos slowly picked himself up careful not to wake Logan up. But to no avail. Logan awoke with a half inhale and darted his head slowly and looked around and saw that Carlos had woken up.
"Hey you..." Logan said strained as he stretched in bed and yawned towards the end.
"Hey Logie..." Carlos rested his chin in the middle of Logan's abs and smiled.
"Thank you"
"For what?"

"You know what." Carlos teased, reaching up and stroking Logan's cheek with his thumb.

"God... I love you... I know you know that, but jeez..." Carlos didn't exactly know what to say. What hasn't he already said to the man he loves. "I don't know... I know this makes me sound like a horrible person. But when I'm with you... Nothing else matters. Even things that SHOULD matter. It never does... I don't know if that's a bad thing or good thing. All I know is I like it." Carlos ended with a little smile on his face before looking at his thumbs which were fiddling in between his hands.
For once Logan had no idea what to say. He started to wonder whether or not it was actually a good thing that Carlos was able to forget about his Mother's death or if it was bad for that exact same reason.
"Carlos I-i." Logan stuttered. With eyes closed he tried to think of the right words to say to make sure no offense could possibly be implied.
"I love you. Soooo much. But i'm not sure if us being together is healthy for you." Carlos froze mid-sentence and looked up at Logan.
"What?" Carlos said with disbelief. "A-are you. Are you saying you don't want to be with me?" Carlos' eyes trickled with tears at what he just heard. This was Carlos' absolute breaking point. If what he feared was true. He would surely. Kill himself...
"NO! I do! How can you even think that? I'm just saying that I DO NOT think that the fact that being with me makes you forget about your recently deceased mother, is healthy. Can't you see?"
"And what will you have me do? HUH!" Carlos looked upset beyond comprehension. Face red with his loud voice and blurry eyes dammed with his tears.
"Should I- DWELL on this! I don't want to think about it right now Logan! I just lost my Mother, so i'm an emotional wreck. Don't DO THIS! PLEASE! I don't want to think about it because it hurts too damn much Logan! The only thing worse than this now is-.." Carlos cut off buried his face into his palms before all out crying.
"fuuuck..." Logan said. He combed his fingers through his hair in frustration and regret. He didn't MEAN to hurt Carlos. He just wanted to make sure this was alright. That everything was alright.

"shh shh shh..." Embracing Carlos in his arms, he combed his hands through his short hair.
"I-I'm sorry. I didn't mean to upset you even further."
Logan thought about what he could do to alter the situation. And then it hit him.
"My parents are getting a divorce.."
Carlos froze. What Logan just said made Carlos shut down. He couldn't think.
"What?" Carlos said looking up with tears still falling from his face.
"My mother found out the reason why he was gone so much. He's been seeing some woman name Shannon. I guess she works with my Dad. She's not sure how long it's been going on, but she didn't care. She confronted him about it and he was upfront. There isn't any... animosity between them, which I thought was weird, but I guess mom and dad never felt like they were soul-mates. Mom gets the house here and everything in it. Dad has his own estates and is completely fine. Anyway, I didn't tell you this to steal the attention or spotlight from you. The reason is, without having to tell my Father right away and with the divorce. My Mother would like you to move in with us." Carlos was breathless.
"Well I mean I was going to ask you anyway, but my Mom wants you to so i-i-i-it makes it even easier."
Logan was stuttering so much. Nervous chills ran up and down Logan's spine and he wasn't even looking at Carlos when he spoke.
"I-i-i-don't know if you want to, and it's okay if you don't I mean, i'm not gonna make the decisions for you, cause I know I can't, cause i'm not the boss of you, but I am your fiance and i-"
"hush Logie." Carlos pressed his finger against the other boy's lips and kissed them softly.
"I would love to move in with you."

AUTHOR'S NOTE :: Okay Lame chapter I know, but felt like giving something just to read I suppose. But the last review is right, I don't see why you guys read this story. Enjoy what you like though!
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P.s :: Aqua :: kingdom Hearts Birth By Sleep & 358/2 days OST