CHAPTER 25

Appreciation

I woke up with the sun streaming through my curtains and a slight breeze circulating through the room that felt fresh. I got up, showered and changed for another chillaxing day. Once I tied my hair into a ponytail, I ran to the house to see if Dad was there. I hadn't seen him for over twenty four hours and I wanted to know , the house was almost empty. Only Alice. "Hey Alice."

"Hello Nessie. And how are you this fine morning?"

"I'm alright. Where's Dad?"

"Running an errand."

I sat down beside her. "Is there something wrong? Cos that is the reply I keep getting from all of you and its bugging me."

Alice wrapped her stone cold hands around mine. "Nessie, we would tell you if there was something wrong. Your Dad and Emmett are running an errand. That is all you need to know sweetie."

"Ugh!" I pulled my hands out from Alice's. "That is so frustrating!"

"I know," she smiled serenely. "Don't you want to know where everyone else is?"

"Are you actually going to tell me?"

"Of course. Mr Jenks called this morning to say Keith's documents are ready so Bella and Jazz are off to pick them up."

"That's good of them," I sat back against the sofa. "Are Esme and Carlisle working?"

"Mmm mmm," Alice had that look about her. She smiled.

"What are you seeing?"

"Nothing," she replied. She pulled out her mobile and sent a text. Who to, I had no idea.

"How can someone so small be so annoying?" I said exasperatedly.

"You wouldn't be the first person to think that," she chimed, she had that look again. I grabbed her arm and concentrated. "Hey! That's cheating," she pulled away. "You shouldn't do that without permission."

"Says you."

"What did you see?""Nothing, you pulled away before I could catch what you were doing."

"Don't do that again," she scolded. I gave her my puppy dog eyes. "Don't give me the eyes either," she wagged a finger at me.

"Please, tell me what's happening," I pleaded.

"No," she folded her arms.

I got up and made my way to the kitchen to fix myself a snack. I cheated by putting some donated blood into the microwave. I just couldn't be bothered hunting. I still had a heavy period, but not as bad or painful as it had been the last two days. Today was Friday and the start to the weekend in my book. I pulled out my phone and texted Lottie to let her know I would be over in an hour to watch the rest of South Park with I was out of my sweats. I put on a nice pair of figure hugging boot cut dark blue jeans, a new top that was three quarter length and red with black flower embroidery on it. I was wearing my black glittery pumps to match.I after eating (and drinking) I ran to Lottie's house. I never needed to bring anything other than myself and my phone; Lottie had a supply of everything, which also meant sanitary towels. It meant not having the burden of a bag. The only thing I needed was my mobile.I reached Lottie's in less than ten minutes. I wasn't running fast so it took me a little longer. There was no one at the little hut at the beginning of the drive so I ran up freely. I knew no one would be there when there was no one stationed at the front. I rapped the front door and I heard Lottie shout "Come in."

"Lazy so and so," I joked as I plonked myself down next to her on the sofas.

"So? Face look bothered?"

"Not really."

"There you go. Now stop moaning and start watching." Lottie was wearing dark blue boyfriend jeans and a pink top (that went light pink at the top to dark towards the bottom) that had thick straps with butterflies and glitter on the front. She had taken her hair out of her plait and it cascaded in tight waves down her back. Her glasses were keeping it from hiding her face as it made her hair look so were through another season (each episode was about twenty- twenty five minutes long) when Lottie's phone starting singing Smells like Teen Spirit. "Hello?" she answered. "Oh cool." she looked at me and mouthed Keith. "Will I get to see it later?...mmm mmm….Aye…..when do you get the keys?...Cool….Ok, I'll see you later love." She hung up.

"That sounded good."

"It is," Lottie clapped her hands together.

I laughed at her. "That is the most girlest thing I have ever seen you do."

"Thanks. Keith is getting a house. It's in Forks and it is like yours."

"Oh? Like ours?"

"Yep, it is a few miles down from here; the land is right next to this one. And he is only five minutes away from La Push."

"Bet that cost him."

"It did, but he has the money and he wants to stay here so why not!"

The way all our houses were set out were like this: Cullen residence at the top end of Forks, then Lottie's at the other end as you travel to La Push, now Keith's then Jacobs. They were all onto the forest line which was also very handy. "Do you know I have never seen a house on the same road as yours."

"You have to go in a little like yours and this one. It needs some work doing do it, but then that gives him something to do. The money that he inherited gains so much interest everyday he doesn't really need to work. But that money he can use to restore it."

"I take it needs a lot of work?"

"Yeah, it's practically a shell. The inside he says needs completely guttering and the walls, ceilings and floorboards replacing. The land is in dire need of trimming as well. I am going to see it later and he is going to ask Esme if she would like to come too."

"Oh dear. Once Esme is involved there is no stopping her. Can I come with you?"

"Aye, course you can. He is meeting me here at four. They just gave him the keys outright."

"Shall we take my car?"

"Either that or run. I think we should take the car, appreciate the mess of his house."

"Is he going to stay there?"

"Nah, Jacob said he can stay there until it is finished. The house isn't liveable yet."

"That bad?""I think so. His Mum liked renovating houses, and she did a lot of the work to the house in England. Keith is going to take me there next year."

"Should I text Esme and ask her to meet us there?"

"I can do that. Keith sent me the address so I'll pass it on." Lottie quickly sent a text.

We finished watching South Park around 3.45 pm. I just couldn't believe the stuff that was shown. "Do you know Emmett would like this?" I said to Lottie.

"Oh I bet he's already seen it."

"You are probably right there. Did Gemma call your Mom?"

Lottie's smile faded. "She sure did. Laid into her. Then Mum wanted to speak to me and it was just the same as the other day. I can't win. I put her on speakerphone so Gemma could hear. Gemma asked her if she was favoured over her own daughter and Mum hesitated. So she confirmed it there and then."

"That's awful," I said astounded. "How can she do that?"

"She can do what she likes, she said. She says she still loves me but feels that I am a stranger. I did tell her that I have tried making the effort and she said she knew but she has too much going on her life to try and make the effort with me. To be honest, having her fleet in and out of my life is too confusing, I'd rather she did get everything out the way then concentrate on getting to know me, if that's what she wants."

"Why didn't you tell me earlier? I could've-"

"What, give me the sympathetic look you are giving me now? Nah," Lottie dismissed. "I lost Dad earlier this year. Mum living here allowed me to make friends who were generous enough to come to the UK to support me when I needed it the most. I have a good bunch of mates now and I have you as a best mate, Keith as my soul mate and everyone else surrounding that. I have family, just not the conventional type. I love Mum, and I know she loves me but there is only so much rejection I can take from her. And like I said, it's too confusing."

"Did she threaten to throw you out again?"

"Nope, she said she is happy to continue to provide for me as she thinks that's the least she can do. She apologised for the way she is but she can't change that, although I told her she could. She isn't happy about getting me another car even when I told how I stopped the lorry, she said I was still irresponsible for leaving it out in the middle of the road, but said when she is back in a few months she might go with me to get one although there are no guarantees. I'd rather spend time with her than get a car. It isn't the relationship I visioned and I don't want her to think I am using her like a cash machine. But she is happy with that. What more can I do?"

"What did Gemma say?"

"She wasn't impressed. She even got her Dad on the phone but there was no moving Mum. Mike tried talking to her but she said she will get to know me properly when she is ready. I told her that life is too short and she cut me off saying that had to go as they had a conference."

"At least you tried. You know you always have us." I patted her knee.

"I know I do. Keith was livid when I told him; he said the same. Even asked me to move in with him once he has renovated his house."

"Really?"

"Yeah, but that is going to take at least a year so it's quite far away."

"Not if Esme has anything to do with it," I smiled. "You know you can talk to me if you need to."

"I know Ness and I do appreciate that. You're a star. C'mon, Keith will be here in a min and we can get your car all ready," Lottie said as she got up from the sofa, put her trainers on and shoved her phone in her pocket. She checked her hair in the mirror and walked to the main door and I followed. "Did you ever find out how much this bad boy cost?" she said as she patted my mini.

"Yeah, after all the added extras, which was everything Dad could think of, they put bigger alloys on it, blue tooth, air con, paint work, leather interior it cost roughly under $45,000."

Lottie looked up as if she was calculating something. "Roughly thirty grand then?" I nodded. "Nice!" Lottie said as she got into the passenger side. "A lot of money for a car though, don't you think? My wee bug was only nine grand and that was the Zetec."

"For my family, I think that's nothing."

"Oh. What do I know then?" she shrugged. "And here is mother dearest slamming me about nine grand when she owns a car that costs the same as a three bed roomed semi," she shrugged her shoulders again. "I suppose I will never understand her. The horses cost four times that."

"But she knows you would never leave them all alone in the middle of the road." I started the car and made our way down the drive.

"No, I suppose not. Damien has been good and has been riding them for me."

"You know you can take my baby out whenever you need to. Has Keith got himself a car yet?" I pulled out from the drive onto the main road. I knew it wouldn't take long to find the obscure drive of Keith's new property.

"Keith got all his documents today courtesy of Bella and Jasper, which was how he was able to buy the house. His next item will be a car. He isn't really into cars but I think he has his eye on something. He won't tell me what though."

"Mystery all round. Emmett and Dad have been on an 'errand'," I used a finger quote. "For the best part of two days. I have no idea what they are doing and no-one will tell me."

"There is your turning," Lottie pointed. "Very strange. Emmett can't actually be up to something with Edward around."

"Oh I don't know," I said as I turned into the derelict driveway. "If it has anything to do with playing a joke on Jacob, then yes, Dad would only be too happy to let Emmett run away with himself. Oh my god. Is this it?" I brought the car to a stop in front a large house. The driveway was similar to Lottie's but without the centre to it. There were outhouses to the left of the house and a path to get round to the back via the it was the house, which was covered in vines, climbing plants, you name it. It was green from the outside. You couldn't even make out any windows. Lottie and I got out and found Keith and Esme chatting just inside the door. The door itself was a large black heavy monstrosity but did look quite nice. It had one of those gargoyle knockers on the front of it. There were a few marble steps leading into it.

"Hello Keith, Esme," Lottie called. "You said it needed work doing honey but I didn't think it would be so much!" Lottie found Keith's hand. She smiled at Esme.

"I know," he said excitedly. "Needs a lot, but Esme is going to give me a hand with it so I know I am in good hands." Esme beamed at him.

I looked around. "It is similar to the layout of your house Lottie."

"It is, not so many bedrooms, but the bottom looks to be the same," she said looking around.

"I found out that Lottie's Mom's house and now Keith's house used to belong to two major army figures during the American Civil War between 1861 and 1865. The big house was used to plan strategies, housed the higher ranked soldiers and provide healthcare when needed. The General of the Army that was in this area lived in your house Lottie, and his second in command lived here; Lieutenant-General. This house hasn't been inhabited since the last known descendent of the Lieutenant–General died in 1950. The house has been empty since. It was handed over to the state and they found it cost too much money to restore it to its natural beauty," Esme said in wonderment.

"Do you think it would be similar to mine?"

"Oh I think so, if you come into the dining area, you can see that the wooden panelling you have surrounding the walls is in here but in dire need of repair." We followed Esme into the kitchen.

We looked around and it was similar to Lottie's. "How come we have never noticed it before on our travels," Lottie asked.

"I think because the forest is so dense here, and has been allowed to grow. You can hardly move out back for trees. And I also think after you pass the entrance to the house, the road curves to the left which leads to Jacob's, you wouldn't really pass this house unless you took a detour. It is very well hidden. In fact, I think these trees have been here since the house was erected."

"What about upstairs?" Lottie asked Keith.

"We need to fix the flooring – which is structurally sound. Esme has had a good look and thinks all we need to do to the fixtures is put in new ceilings, replace some walls and re-floorboard everything. There are only this floor, upstairs and the attic. There is probably a basement as well."

"That isn't as bad as what I thought. Is it safe to go upstairs?" I asked this time.

"No, the stair case needs replacing," Esme said softly. Her eyes darted all over the place. I could see her calculating every move.

"Everything needs redoing really," Keith started. "Once the walls, ceilings and floors are done, this room, the kitchen, the living room, all the bedrooms and bathrooms need rennovating. The garage off to the left will need knocking down and rebuilding and the trees are going to need chopping to make a garden and an entry to the forest which I would really like."

"Everything Keith has said can be done. The trees won't be a problem and I think my sons are willing to help. Emmett may be too enthusiastic in bringing a few trees down. Sam is going to see if his boss will buy the trees that we take down. Saves us trying to dispose of them somewhere," Esme said excitedly.

Lottie looked at me and smiled. "So you are going to have a busy year ahead then?"

"Oh no. I bet we can get this house done in a month," Esme stated.

Keith coughed and looked at Esme in shock. "A month? No danger Esme. Even you, who is the master of feng shui will not get this house done in a month," he snorted

Esme set her mouth into a hard line. "Oh I will Mr Lambert. Don't you worry. You asked me to help and help you shall get."

"In other words, shall I just hand you the keys?" Keith joked.

"I think that would be a good idea," Esme bluffed. Keith balked a little. "Don't be silly. But I will take this very seriously. I have taken pictures of all the rooms at different angles. Come back to our residence and we can lay them down onto blue prints and decide where to start first. We will get our supplies ordered tonight for them to be delivered tomorrow. We start with the any of the walls needing replacing, then the ceilings, then the floors. But first we have to get rid of any debris that is in here so I will order a skip to sit outside where we can leave all the rubbish. We also need to take care of the plant problem that is all around this house. The boys have finished Jacob's extension, and I think they are only too happy to help. I know Jasper said he would be round tonight." Esme said without taking a breath, not that she would need to.

Keith could only stare at her wide eyed. "Ok Esme, you are freakily on the ball right now!"

"I have been doing this for years. I am a pro," she softened and smiled. "Now why don't we let the girls get on with what they were doing and we can get as much stuff outside as we can. We are lucky this house has no leaks or holes or we would be dealing with a lot of mess. One good thing about it being built in the eighteen hundreds; they were built to last anything."

"So no damp or mould?" Lottie asked.

"I can't smell any. Whoever looked after it before did a good job. The state only locked the doors and ensured there was no damage to it. The roof is in a good state of repair, I think that was done fifty years ago so there is really no need to touch that. I am surprised that there were no leaks. But that's a good thing," Esme said as she took another picture of the kitchen.

Lottie gave Keith a quick peck on the lips. "I think you have resurrected a demon. Or Hitler. Good luck!" she smiled. "At least it isn't rank." Keith nodded but you could tell he was happy to let Esme have free reign. I hugged my nana goodbye as Lottie and I left them to it. We wandered outside as I was curious to see the back of the house. We couldn't see the garden cos of the trees. We giggled at the sight and wandered back to the car.

"You know Lottie, there are probably passageways underneath the houses," I said. I started the car and made our way back to my house. We talked about the passageways along the road. Lottie thought if it was definitely and Army station, there is bound to be some sort of make shift prison cell. I thought it was possible for those who mutinied. Made sense reached the main house to find Emmett's jeep sitting abandoned in front of the garage. "Hey, Dad and Emmett are back," I said excitedly. I squealed to a stop behind Emmett's jeep and we both got out. I had missed him these past two days but I wanted to know what the secrecy was all about.

"Where do you think they have been?" Lottie asked.

"I have no idea, but I am about to find out."

We went inside to find all our family talking in low voices around the kitchen. Dad spotted me and flashed to my side pulling me in for a hug. "How are you sweetie? I missed you," he planted a light cool kiss on my forehead.

"Where have you been?" I asked.

"Wouldn't you like to know midget!" Emmett boomed from the kitchen. He had his arms around Rosalie's waist. Rose was snuggling into him.

"I would actually," I crossed my arms.

"Hey Emmett. Been nice and quiet without you here," Lottie beamed at him.

"I bet it has little bint. Your hair is a marked improvement from the last time I seen ya!"

"Shut it bawjaws," Lottie stuck out her tongue, and Emmett looked confused. "Keith got a house."

"Esme just sent us a message. We are heading there in a while. I'm pleased Keith involved Esme because she would be chomping at the bit to get involved," Emmett said as he was still looking at Lottie in confusion.

"I don't know that insult, please explain?"

"Nope, go and work it out yourself!"

"Jacob's extension was completed last night and he is ready to go. So we are free to give Keith a hand," Dad said. "Plus it gives us something to do."

"Little bit bored?" Lottie asked.

"So where were you then Dad?"Dad smiled and tapped my nose. "Never you mind missy. We were running an errand," he turned to Mom and grabbed her into his arms.

I looked at Lottie who smirked. She grabbed my hand and let me to the sofa. She didn't let go even when we sat down. I concentrated. Something is going on, you should try and cuddle your Mum or Dad and find out what is going on.

By you saying that Lottie, Dad would have heard that.

No he wouldn't, I have my little bubble over us. He said himself he can't hear a thing when it's over now that its strong.

You are very cunning. I tried that with Alice this morning but she had a little go at me.

Then do it subtlety. Go and give your Dad a big cuddle, or Emmett.

I had best not. You know it can only lead to me getting into trouble.

Wimp. Lottie grinned at me. She let go of my hand and presumably the little bubble she had around me and we flicked though the were all discussing Keith's newly bought house. Like Lottie, I wasn't really interested in things like that. They were making plans to go over tonight and tomorrow morning. No doubt Mom and Dad wanted to 'catch up'. I shuddered. Didn't need the continued for another hour when Esme called us to the kitchen to get some well deserved tea. The others were going for a hunt leaving Lottie and me behind, but Esme was serving us first.

"You should two should be ok for an hour," Mom said. "I went the other day but I want to spend time with your father," she smiled.

"No probs Bella. I can destroy anything that comes our way," Lottie shrugged.

"That's what I am worried about. Ben and Tia have been looking for their own property, not in this area and should be back tonight," Dad said.

"I wondered where they went." I pondered. I hadn't even noticed them leave. How self involved was I?

"You have had a few busy days sweetie," Dad stroked my hair. "We will be back in an hour." His eyes were dark and he had shadows underneath. He hadn't hunted for few days, neither had Emmett who was teasing Lottie by smelling her hair.

"Good enough to eat….tasty," he smiled wickedly licking his lips.

Lottie looked at him like an insect ready to be squashed. "I would make sure you would choke."

"You would as well gobby. I am going before I do make you a snack." Rose was behind him rolling her eyes.

"I would love to see you try Emmett." Lottie splayed her hands in a motion that could make Emmett go paler than he already was. That motion was enough to remind him what she did to him in the clearing all those months ago.

"You wouldn't dare," he taunted.

"Try me."

"Come on Emmett. You are back two minutes and trying to cause an argument already," Rose slapped him upside the head.

"Hey!" Emmett rubbed the bit Rose hit. "Do you mind?"

"No, come on." Rose grabbed his hand and tried to pull him out the door. "You two are like bickering brother and sister."

Lottie stuck her tongue out at him and Emmett flipped her the birdie. Lottie giggled. "He is endless. Does he pick on you the way he does me?" she asked me.

Everyone had now gone. Esme left us with pork chops and steamed potatoes. "He calls me midget now and then. I think he actually sees you as a little annoying sister. He likes it though, he can't remember his human life very well but he told me once he had a younger sister. He said that she had light brown curly hair and she was built like you. I think he relates you to her a lot. In a good way and nothing to be offended at."

"I'm not offended. I like him as an annoying brother as well; I do like the banter with him. although sometimes I am not sure where I stand with Rosalie."

"I think Rosalie likes you as well. She knows you would never want to be turned, she didn't like Bella for long enough as that was her decision but then they gained their friendship when I was conceived. She thinks you and Emmett are funny. Emmett also finds humans quite amusing though, especially when he tries to intimidate them with his size."

We ate our tea in silence, enjoying Esme's gourmet cooking. Once we finished, we washed and dried our dishes and sat in our usual spot in front of the TV watching drivel. An hour passed when everyone returned including Esme. Dad and Emmett's colour looked brighter and their eyes were golden again. They all sat down around us with the sofa's. "Bella told me what happened with your Mom, Lottie. Not very nice," Emmett said.

Lottie shook her head. "Nope. She openly admitted she isn't interested. Don't get me wrong, I am glad I moved here. I have wonderful friends and a great boyfriend, but why uproot me from somewhere I know if she isn't willing to make the effort. Bad sport."

I reached over and touched Emmett and Rosalie. Alice and Jasper put their hands on my free skin as did Carlisle and Esme. I had found as I matured, so did my gift. Like I said before, I was able to project to two people when touching. Now if someone touched me when I projected to someone else, they seen it as well. Dad would have heard it from Emmett and the others but he touched my cheek. I shut my eyes and showed them what Lottie told me about her mother. Everyone had a faraway look on them as I showed them our conversations.

"Oh no, Lottie," Esme exclaimed.

"I'm not looking for sympathy," Lottie shook her head. "I don't want it."

Esme was about to speak but stopped when Emmett shook his head. "Don't worry Lottie," he stared. "We will always have your back," he smiled.

"I appreciated that," Lottie returned the smile.

"But there is something that I would like you to have though," he said quickly. "It's from Edward and me, but I added all the extras."

"I don't need anything," Lottie looked puzzled. "I won't take it," she crossed her arms.

"Damn right you will Charlotte," Emmett growled as he stood up, looked down at her and crossed him arms. He meant business. "Edward and I have travelled a lot these past two days to find something we thought was perfect for you. So you will take it. And it's too late anyway as all the paperwork, ownership and insurance is in your name now anyway."

"Eh? You've lost me Emmett. And when do you call me Charlotte?"

"Cos I'm full naming ya. Taking a leaf out of your book. And I'll last name you as well if you don't comply," Emmett pointed at her trying to suppress a smile. He threw her own words back at her. He grabbed her by her good arm and pulled her up from the sofa. "Your Mom may not care, but we do. We all do especially me. Ninety-nine point nine percent of the time I find you so annoying, irritating, gobby, blunt-"

"Don't hold back now," Lottie snorted.

"A pain in my ass, annoying-"

"You said that already," Lottie rolled her eyes.

I had no idea what was happening. I looked around at my family who were all smiling at their exchange.

"Infuriating, grating, a mouthpiece, exasperating, clumsy, in fact you have the coordination of someone who is on drugs-"

"Way to go in making me feel better you balm."

"Insulting."

"Thanks."

"What I am trying to say is that I like you a lot; without that sounding creepy by the way. I had a little sister in my human life, who was just as charming as you. I don't remember her too well but you bring back those memories. I feel a little protective," he puffed out his chest as he put his large arm around Lottie's shoulders.

"Freak," Lottie giggled.

"I know. They all understand, Esme most of all as she sees us as her children. Rosalie gets it. In fact she told me she reminded her of two warring siblings. It was then I remembered about my sister decades ago," he winked at her and she beamed back. Mom told me her story and why Rosalie found Emmett so compelling. I could see why Emmett felt this way about Lottie. She was my best friend. I could tell her anything. And they did fight like brother and sister.

"Are you going spit it out or keep on sleathering?" Lottie gave Emmett her look.

"What I am trying to say, is that you are welcome here any time. We have told you this in the past, but we mean it. You saved my niece the other day, destroyed your own car to ensure we weren't found out. You mean a lot to this family like Jacob does to us too, although don't tell him that as his over inflated ego won't fit through the door."

"Look who's talking!" I shouted. "Jacob doesn't have an ego!"

"Hey, I am trying to get my point across," he snapped at me in a humorous way. He turned to Lottie again. "You are part of this family whether you like it or not and with that comes certain things you just have to accept."

"What if I don't want to accept it?"

"Then I will kick your ass."

"I would love to see you try."

"Oh c'mon!" he yanked Lottie carefully and took her outside. The rest of my family got up swiftly so I followed them.

I heard a gasp. "You did not you big goon. Why did you go and do that? She will think I bought it myself!"

"No she won't. Cos we will tell her something. What we will tell her I have no idea, I am not so good at making up the crap that everyone believes but someone will."

"Oh Emmett. I can't believe you and Edward did this. I didn't need one." I could hear Lottie's voice wobble a little. I followed my family outside and saw Lottie covering her mouth with her good hand whilst looking at something by the garage. I peered over Dad's shoulder.

It was a car. Not only any car but a brand new performance blue Ford Focus Rally Sport (RS). It had large shiny alloys, a massive exhaust, blacked out privacy windows and a spoiler on the back. It was so shiny, like mines was when I got the mini on my birthday.

I smiled. I couldn't help but smile. My Dad and Emmett were so thoughtful; this is what they were up to the entire time they were away. I knew Lottie loved her car and was gutted when she had to smash it as I knew the driver had seen me. She covered up and made herself look stupid for supposedly leaving her car in the middle of the road. She took crap from her Mom, the police (not Grandpa) for leaving it there, and from her friends as they were worried about her. She lost her means of transportation. She did it to protect our secret, the pack's secret and her own. If anyone had found out, it would have been a domino effect; everyone would have been found out. The Volturi would come and we would not have and Lottie walked forward towards it. "I think this is the first time she has ever been speechless," Jasper chuckled.

"You got that right," Emmett laughed over his shoulder.

"I am sure Jacob said it would take coma or death to do it but I think we found a safer way!" Jasper said.

I leaned forward and put my arm through Dad's elbow. "That is a wonderful thing you did Dad. Thank you."

"Wasn't my idea sweetie. I hadn't even thought about it until Emmett told me the night of your accident. That's when we decided sooner the better. He picked the car. We both paid for it but Emmett paid for the added extras."

I was touching his cool skin. Can I be cheeky and ask how much it cost?

Dad smiled. A few thousand less than yours. Does that bother you?

Hell no! I was just being curious! I smiled again. She deserves it.

She does. She did a lot that night, covering for us, finding you and effectively keeping you alive. I was stupid enough to phone you that night to cause all of this.

Daddy….I have told you to not blame yourself. I just won't accept it. I was the stupid one. I was the one that knocked her out the way when she was more than capable of stopping that lorry. Sometimes I wish I could do what she could do.

Dad frowned. You have a special gift Renesmee and don't you forget it! You are still maturing and with that so is your gift. Who knows what else you are capable of. She sometimes wishes she wasn't such a freak. She is a little envious of your family life, the one thing she actually wants and it was torn away from her this year and she can't it have now. She would trade everything in to have her father back. I paused. She never told me that I thought. Why would she Nessie. She knows it isn't your fault for having a caring family. She doesn't resent you for that. She just wishes for one of her own. She has one now; she is part of ours but she finds it hard to accept it. But she thinks your gift is, and her words; bitchin'. She can get terrible headaches when she uses her gift. Less now thanks to Jasper. She gets tired out easily when she does use it. It's not all what it's cracked up to be.

I didn't realise…..why didn't she tell me?She doesn't want to burden you with that. She enjoys the training, and she knows Jasper pushes her to be the best she can. The training has helped so much, but she still has times that it hurts like hell for her. She knows it is because she is human. She also knows if she was a vampire it would be a hell of a talent. Not something she has ever considered mind she unwell the other night?

No. I think adrenaline had a lot to play for that part. For which I am thankful for. He squeezed my hand.

I love you Dad. You and Emmett did a nice thing. What are you going to say to her Mom?

That it was an anonymous donation. We will think of something.I looked over to Lottie who surprised Emmett by hugging him hard. She had tears rolling down her cheeks, it was strange seeing Lottie cry, not something I saw very often. Emmett looked surprised for a moment then wrapped his burly arms around her. In another life he could have been her brother. I felt tears prick my eyes at the scene before me.

Do you want to know what she is thinking? Dad asked me while I was still holding his hand. I nodded. She is crying because the last time she got a hug like that was when her father was still alive. With Keith it is different, which it's bound to be. He has held her like that but as her lover, her soul mate. This feels like to her when her Dad was affectionate with her. She hasn't had any affection like that from her Mom since she was twelve.I wiped a tear that rolled down my cheek. Esme looked on like a loving parent, Rose looked so proud of her man. Carlisle was smiling as was Alice and Mom. Jasper had that serene look on his face like he smoked too many funny cigarettes. Dad chuckled quietly into my hair. Lottie pulled away and sniffed. "Uh, sorry for acting like such a girl," she mocked punched his big arm.

"No worries," Emmett had a smile like a Cheshire cat and punched her back just as affectionately (obviously not hard!). "I won't tell anyone. Don't want to ruin your reputation of being a cold hearted pain in my ass!"

Lottie wiped her face roughly with both hands. "Ok...you gonna show me what this bad boy can do?"

"Hell yeah!" Emmett pulled the keys from his pocket and opened it by pressing a button. "Wait a sec, the car needs a name."

"Eh?"

"You named your last car The Bug, I have no idea why-"

"Cos the previous models reminded me of a lady bird which is a bug. I have no idea what I am calling this bad boy," she ran her hand along the exterior then got into the passenger side. Emmett dashed over to the other side and got in. He started it and the engine roared to life along with the exhaust as Emmett kept revving it.

It was loud. Very loud. I could feel it vibrate along the ground. "Oh man!" Jasper shouted. "We are still going to be able to hear her before we see her."

Alice let out a bell like laugh. "We always could Jazz, are you just realising that now?"

"No, it is just another noise that I have to adjust to!"

There was a cloud of dust as Emmett roared his way down the driveway. I listened as he squealed onto the main road. We wandered back into the main house, my arm still linked with Dad's. I was grateful for my relationship with my parents. Really, I was. Dad moved his arm and placed it around me. "You have had another interesting week sweetie."

"I know Dad. In a way I'll be glad when it's over. I'm missing Jacob as well. I apologised and so did he but I have barely seen him this week."

"He has genuinely been busy sweetheart. He really has. His business has gone manic, which is a good thing, but he has to put in a lot of time."

"I know Dad. I would never ask him to drop his work but I do miss him." we sat back onto the sofa.

"It's almost seven, why don't you go over and surprise him? I know he would just be packing up right about now and I know Esme is dying for us to see Keith's house, so that's where we will be." he lightly kissed my forehead. I jumped up and raced out the house. I ran as fast my legs would go. I wanted to see my honey.

I reached his house within five minutes. I stopped and smelled the air. I knew he was underneath a car in the new part of his garage. The music was loud and the base was booming. I knew he would be concentrating and when he was like that he was in the zone - as he called it. I walked over to where he was working, shouldn't he be clearing up by now? Who knows. The car was on the ramp, but not really raised and he was on one of these sliding boards that he used. His foot was tapping to the music beat and I could hear him sing badly to the tune.I stifled a giggle as I crept over to him and suddenly grabbed his knees.

"What?…..oof!….Ow! There was a loud bang as it sounded like Jacob banging his head on the underside of the car. He wheeled himself out from underneath the car. "Ness! What are you doing?" his forehead had a large gash which oozed blood. I found a clean towel and threw it at him.

"Sorry," I cringed. "I didn't think you would have hurt yourself."

Jacob rubbed the towel over his forehead. His wound had closed already leaving an angry red line which was also disappearing quickly. "Its ok Ness. You are really beating me up this week," he snorted.

My stomach dropped. He was right; I had done nothing but hurt him this week. Tears stung my eyes again. I was just a walking baseball bat. I stepped back and leaned against the counter. I wiped away a tear that spilled.

"Oh no Ness, I didn't mean it that way, completely wrong thing to say honey," he got up from the ground and rushed over to me. "Hey, I was being tactless. C'mere." he tore off his gloves and pulled me into a cuddle. I sniffed as I controlled my tears. I knew he didn't mean it, but it hurt to be reminded of what I did.

"I'm over reacting Jacob. Stupid half human side of me."

"I like that half human side of you," Jacob smiled into me. He stroked my head. "Stop dissing it."

"Ok," I mumbled. "Are you finished?"

"I can be if you want me to be. I am just fitting an exhaust; the rest of it can wait until tomorrow." He pulled me with him out of the garage. He shut the garage door along with the rest then took my hand as we walked into the house.

Jacob and I burst out laughing. Seth, Embry and Quil were sitting on the floor with Claire applying her finishing touches of lipstick to each one. They had their hair in various styles, full face of make up, although they looked like men who applied make up for the first time. "Well hello Lindsey Lohan, Paris Hilton and….Amy Winehouse," Jacob laughed. "Looking hot!" Jacob pronounced the T.

"Shut up Jake. Claire Bear just wanted a model," Quil defended looking at Claire and sticking out his tongue at her.

"Yeah, shut up Jakey. I am at work. Do not disturb!" she waved a hand dismissively at us. She had a serious pout and she traced Quil's lips with a bright pink lip gloss.

"Ok little miss makeup artist. We will get out of your way," Jacob gave Claire a little bow. "See you later ladies," Jacob snorted as he grabbed my hand and dragged me upstairs.

We ran to his room giggling at the sight we just seen. "She has that boy wrapped round her little finger," I giggled.

"How she got the other two to play dress up I will never know. I would never succumb to her."

"You would."

"Would not."

"You did when I wanted someone to play with."

"Oh….yeah. I distinctly remember the bright green eye shadow and the fuchsia lipstick," Jacob grimaced.

"That was fun. You even let me paint your nails and toe nails bright red."

"Oh yeah and I forgot that night and phased in front of everyone and my claws were bright red!"

We both dumped ourselves on the bed and burst out laughing at the memory. Our laughing subsided and we both laid back on the bed. I was on his right and I turned to face him and him me. He caressed my face lightly. I decided to change the subject altogether. "Um…Dad and I discussed about me going on the pill. Said it would help my period and if I wanted to…you know," I trailed off.

"I think it is a good idea. If it will help with the pain and the heaviness then definitely a good idea."

"But also as a contraception."

"Yes," Jacob said slowly trying not to smile. "Don't worry Ness, I am not backing out. Like I said; when I am ready. But it is a good idea to think ahead. But I don't want you going on purely for contraceptive purposes."

"It is mainly to help me out with controlling my periods but yeah, a little to do with contraception."

"Better safe than sorry I guess. And Edward suggested it?"

"Yep. I think he is thinking ahead as well."

"Not a bad thing. So how are you today?" he pulled me in closer.

"I am ok. Pain is gone, feeling a little less hormonal. So all is good. I am liking the time off from school."

"How is school at the moment?"

"I like it. The classes are dull I know a lot of the stuff anyway but I like the friends I have made."

"You have a good set of friends."

"I do, they are a diverse bunch but a good bunch. Even though they don't know my secret they know Lottie's and they have never told anyone and they protect her. I know I can't tell them about me but it is good to know if worst comes to the worst and they had to find out I know that I would be able to trust them."

"Do your friends ask many questions about us?"

"No, not really. They say that you lot are big, that's about it."

"How are Gemma and Adeline coping with the whole big secret?"

"They are fine," I just had a memory flash back at me. "They asked last week why they were imprinted on and not the girls from the reservation. I remembered the conversation just then," I said more to myself. "I am not girl from the res. You would have thought to make the next generation as true to the Quileute tribe as possible-"

"I don't think it works like that," Jacob interrupted. "I honestly believe it is the wolf's true heart that leads them. I don't think it matters whether the girl is pure Quileute or not, I think its what's in here," he tapped his heart.

"I was just asking, not that it matters," I added quickly. "It was something brought up last week and we thought the same as you. We just wondered that's all. Have any of the others imprinted yet?"

"Nope. Just us so far. We thought it had stopped with me then Keith, Seth and Embry go and spoil it by imprinting. I think it is anyone's game now. I would like to think Brady and Collin may find someone soon. The younger ones, I think are too young, but those two are about seventeen and look older than that."

"We should get Kirsty and Julie to see them and see if they imprint. Kirsty is dying for a man."

"I don't think it would that way honey," Jacob chuckled.

"Worth a go though, don't you think?"

Jacob's chuckle rumbled down into his belly. "Yeah we will need to get a beach party going and invite everyone. In fact we should get everyone down for Thanksgiving. Have a big meal in the community centre."

"You know, I think I should ask Lottie to hold it. She won't really celebrate Thanksgiving with being a Brit, but she has that big dining hall and I'm sure she wouldn't mind. Get all the pack down and their families, my family, Lottie's friends. If she gives Matt enough notice and he can being his boyfriend it can be a proper party."

"Why don't you ask her before setting anything in stone. She might not want to."

"Nah, she totally would," I sat up and pulled my phone from my pocket. "I'll text her now." I quickly tapped the buttons then pressed send.

"You have it all sorted don't you honey?" Jacob tapped my nose."Only if Lottie says yes, if not we can go for the community centre on the res."

"It can be a nice family event, it would be nice to get everyone in. I am sure leaving one night off for patrolling should be ok."

"One night should be ok," I echoed his words. "Someone can go out for ten minutes each hour. Then at least we are not unguarded. Alice wouldn't be able to see with you all around."

"That's a good idea."

"Oh forgot to say, Dad and Emmett bought Lottie a car to replace her Bug."

"Oh nice, what kind?" I touched his face to show him Lottie's reaction to seeing it. I showed him up until Dad told me to come and see Jacob. "She was very touched."

"I see that. Nice ride though. Is she still having hassle with her Mom?"

I nodded. "It's sad really. She has us, her friends and Keith. She will be ok."

"I know she will be. She's tough but not having that connection with her Mom is pretty sad, especially if it's the parent being a pain." My phone beeped. "Ooh, Lottie said yes. She asked Matt and he is happy to cook up a feast. He is happy for anyone to bring food as well. He just needs to know numbers. Cool," I smiled.

"So seeing as it's your idea, you are going to sort it all?"

"Yep."

Jacob sighed. "Thank god for that."

"I'll need to get some invites, speak to Lottie. I can actually organise something without having Alice taking over. She won't be able to see anything right now or even on the day as the wolves are all there."

"There you go honey," Jacob smiled. He pulled me in closer as I texted Lottie back to say I would get round tomorrow to organise it with her. Jacob took my phone out of my hand and placed it out of reach. "Hey!"

"C'mere," he growled as he kissed me hard. His tongue immediately asked for entrance and I let it.

He climbed on top and pulled his head back from mine and took my face in his hands. He plummeted his lips onto tingle returned a while back but it was here full force. I wrapped my legs around his waist. I could feel his hardness again and I loved it. His hands ran over my breasts that were hidden by my clothes. His hand brushed my hard nipple "Stop!" I groaned. "I can't honey. This is making me really frustrated!"

Jacob climbed down from me. "That's ok, I just had to kiss you. We can kiss if you like?"

"I would like. Very much," I growled at him this time. We were lying side by side and I pulled him in this time towards my lips.

"Mmmmm," he moaned. His tongue asked for entrance again as it toyed with mine. His lips were hot and soft. His tongue was hotter.

He trailed soft kisses from my lips, along my jaw line to my ear lobe. He lightly sucked on it and sent a little huff of breath into my ear making me buzz. He trailed more kisses down my neck sending shivers down my spine. I arched my back into his. His kisses travelled round to the other side of my neck, back up to my ear lobe then back to my lips. My hands roamed into his silky hair, which was getting longer. He usually kept it short but recently he had been letting it grow as he knew I liked it when it was longer. Our bodies were close and I could feel the heat radiating from him. It was bouncing off me in waves."Nessie," he moaned. I bit down on his soft juicy bottom lip, not enough to draw blood but enough to make it pleasurable. He did the same to me and it sent sharp shocks up and down my body. I pulled back as I was getting frustrated again.

"Oh Jacob, Jacob, Jacob. What am I going to do with you? You drive me insane."

Jacob's lips were slightly swollen from our kissing, I imagined mines were too. "I know, I have that effect on women."

"Woman. One. Plural."

"Ok, you then," he tapped my nose again. "I love you Ness."

I noticed his eyes drooping a little. "Are you sleepy?" I imitated Claire when she asked Quil that in front of everyone. It was so cute to see her care about him like that.

"A little. I haven't stopped all day. And I patrolled last night. Sorry."

"Don't apologise. You are a working man now with the pack on top of that. You should see if Collin and Brady would like a Saturday job if they are interested in mechanics-"

"I can only have Seth, Embry and Quil during the week as that is all the college will pay for. They wouldn't pay for a Saturday which means I have to work it."

"Have a few days off during the week. You said yourself that their tutor is thinking of letting them graduate early cos they are picking it up so quickly. You need to let them loose if you think that they are that good. Give yourself a break. They would know to phone you if they got a job that was too big for them."

"I suppose."

"Or you could just pay them on a Saturday if they wanted the extra money. They are young guys; they are bound to want extra money. I don't want you running yourself into the ground."

"I wouldn't-"

"But it's only about eight and you are dead on your feet. I know you want to lead but part of leading is learning how to trust and delegate your workload."

Jacob narrowed his eyes. "When did you get so wise?"

"Cos I have great boyfriend and family. What can I say?" I smiled. "Go and get some dinner and get to bed. I can wait for another day to spend some time with you. Life doesn't always revolve around me," I kissed him on his nose then he yawed. "I am going to head back home, get an early night myself." I got up from the bed, but finding it hard to peel myself away from him.

"Are you sure?"

"Of course I am honey. Get some food, shower, sleep. I will see you tomorrow."

"I don't want you to go."

"I know, I find it hard to let go to. I hate leaving you but I will see you tomorrow." I got up, grabbed my phone and got to the door.

Jacob was up a in flash, arms circling my waist. He gave me one last soft kiss on my lips. "Do you want me to run home with you?"

"No, I am a big girl now. I can look after myself."

"I know you can. Just don't be getting hit by any lorries, ok?"

"I will even text you when I get home," I smiled.

"Ok, go before I make you stay," he kissed me again. I tried to make it longer but he pulled away before I could. He took my hand and he led me the front door. I walked out the front door but my hand still in Jacob's. We both stretched out until I couldn't hold onto his hand anymore and it flopped to my side as Jacob's flopped to his.

"Night honey," I waved as I made my way across into the trees.

"Night sexy," he winked. I giggled. He had a way of making me giggle like a silly little girl. I don't know why. I turned and ran fast all the way home. As I reached the cottage I couldn't hear any voices. I raced in and to my room. I needed a cold shower and I needed it now. I was so frustrated it was getting to me a little. I peeled off my clothes, dumped them on the floor, tied my hair in a clip, turned the shower on, grabbed a towel; all at vampire speed. I jumped in. "Aaaahhhhhhhh. That feels so good!" I said to myself as the cold jets of water hit my face.

AN - Ok readers – I need a name for Lottie's car! I have no idea so far and I'm stuck for one. It is a performance blue Ford Focus RS. Please review, each one makes me buzz and I love getting them so I keep saying PLEASE REVIEW!

Thats me signed off work now cos of my knee, so bloody painful and the job i'm in is very demanding and quite a risky one so i need to be off it to allow it to rest (damaged it again last week), but on the plus side, it gives me more time to write more of my story!

Key:

Rank - something horrible, disgusting, sick.

Balm – Used as an insult 'You balm!'

Bawjaws - Someone who is acting like a fanny or a retard and deserves to be verbally abused or a greeting used between close friends.