I swung open the door, "what the hell is wrong with you?! Do you know what you just caused?!" I hollered walking up to Brooke, Ryder and the guys came down the hall as Trsh and the girls followed in behind me. Brooke just stared at me, then she quietly laughed, my jaw locked, "what is so funny?" I spat through my teeth, she stopped and straightened her expression, "Austin she needed to see and hear that its only the truth, Its better now dont you thi..." she stopped, she stared at me confused, I could feel the flames building up inme, my fists balled up tighter, my face burned with rage, "you knew she was there?" I asked quietl through gritted teeth. Brook closed her eyes breathing a sigh, "yes, she walked in right after you were talking about how you think you lover her..." I burst, "I don't think I love her Brooke! I know I love her, and you, you said all of that on purpose because you knew she was listening, " I took a step closer to her, my whole body shook with anger, Ryder stepped up to me, putting a hand to my shoulder, "c'mon Austin, back up man she's not worth it." I kept my eyes piercing through her, Trish walked up to her as Ryder pushed me back. "Brooke I'm going to give you two seconds to get your boney ass out of this building before I personally kick you out myself." Brooke glared at her, "this is between me and Austin," she growled, Trish laughed, "oh no honey, see its between you and I now, why because you messed with the wrong couple, you got one now." Trish hissed back. Brooke looked from Trish to me, "we'll talk later Austin," as she slowly made her way to the door, I lost it breaking out of Ryders grip I sprinted to the door slamming it shut before she could exit, "NO! We won't, your going to stay the fuck away from me, my friends, and by all that is holy if you even think of Ally let alone go near her, Brooke so help me." My eyes burned into hers, and finally I saw fear in them. She went to open the dorr as I slammed it shut again, "do you understand me!?" I yelled again, her eyes met mine she nodded her head understanding. I broke away from the door running down the hall back to the studio, I grabbed my keys and phone running back towards the door, "where are you going?!" Trish yelled from behind me as I ran out to the parking lot, "Ally's I'm not going to loose her." I answered back as I hopped into my truck and headed for her house.
I drove, I didn't know where I was going I just needed to drive. Everything that just happened replayed in my head over and over again. He told me he loved me, yet he hesitated on what he felt for her, what does that mean? Maybe I assumed to much, did I over re-act? No but wait all was said right there in front of me, he could of told her to leave and we wouldn't be in this position right now, I'd be sitting on the couch in the studio right now listening to his voice as they practiced, I'd be smiling rather than crying, my heart would be warm with love and butterflies rather than feeling like sharp knives were sticking out of it. I took a deep breath and continued driving through the streets of Miami, I love him I know I do, but all of this is happening to quickly and all at once, first Jimmy, then everything, Halloween, prankers, Brooke, this, its all so much to handle right now. I didn't want to go home, he'd be there, or the shop, or dad, then I thought of my one place I could always go to, and with todays weather no one would be there, I could clear my mind I could breathe, I could think about everything. I changed lanes and made a right heading towards the pier parking lot, I parked my car, I got out and started walking, my phone started vibrating, I didn't bother to look at the caller I.D. I just hit ignore and kept walking. It was still raining but no as hard now, I walked along the pier all the shops were closed due to it being Sunday, but there was still a few people walking the evening lanterns lit the boardwalk with a golden glow a marine layer was moving in everything looked like a dream but I felt like I was in a nightmare. I headed down the steps to the sand, not a soul was out here, so I could be at complete peace. My phone kept vibrating non-stop, but I just continued to hit ignore, I inhaled the cool sea breeze, tears fell from my eyes staining my cheeks I couldn't help them they just continued to fall. I don't know where I was headed I just kept walking until I found myself at the hill on the beach that Austin and I came to the night of our first date, a small smile formed on my face as I walked to the base of and sat down, I brought my knees to my chest and just stared out at the water. I heard nothing just the sound of the wind and the crashing of the waves on the sand, it was peaceful, but lonely.
I rang the doorbell numerous times, knocking frantically, but no one was home. I had driven to Allys house but her car wasn't there, I went to Sonic Boom but neither her or her dad were there, I now stood outside her dads house, his car was in the drive there was a light on in the living room and in the upstairs window, but still no one answered. I pulled out my phone dialing Ally's number for the fifth time, it rang a couple times before going to voicemail her angelic voice came through my earpiece...
"hey you've reach Ally, leave a message!" Beeeep..
"Ally, baby please where are you?! I need to talk to you and I've everywhere looking for you, you have to believe me Alls I love you and only you. Call me please."
I hung up, "you lookin for Lester?" a voice asked from behind me, I turned to see an older man with his german sheperd stopped in front of the Dawsons home, "yes I am! do you know where I could find him or his daughter Ally?" I asked trying to not sound frantic or desperate. "Oh well Lesters out of town wont be back until Wednesday, as for Ally she came by Friday before her dad left, havn't seen her since I pick up Lester mail and newspapers while he's gone, sorry son." I nodded with a weak smile, waving him off, "thanks anyway sir," he nodded and continued on his evening walk. I headed back to my truck, I sat in the drivers seat for a few minutes with my head to my steering wheel, 'where are you Alls?' I asked aloud to myself, I pulled my phone out again dialing Trishs number, 'please answer, please...'
"you talk to her?" Trish's voice immediately asked from the other line
"no I can't find her, she's not at home, her dads, or the store, have any of you talked to her?" I asked
"nope" she answered
..."have you been calling her?" I heard Cassidy ask in the background
I sighed, "of course I've been calling her, she's not answering though."
"Do you blame her Austin, geez you hurt her, with everything that has been going on that was the last thing she needed well that you both needed." Trish yelled through the phone.
"I know Trish, I know! Im trying to make this right, please is there anywhere you can think she may go? Please Trish, I can't loose her." I pleaded into the phone
There was silence on the other end, she took a deep breathe, "the only place I can think of is the pier, Ally used to always go there when she wanted to be alone, whether it was stress, work, school, Jimmy, anything she'd go there at dark cuz no one would be there and she could be alone."
"Thank you Trish, thank you so much!"
"Get her back Austin, make it right." she said before hanging up.
I pulled out of Mr. Dawsons driveway and headed to the beach. As I pulled into the parking lot I immediately spotted Ally's car, I parked next to it jumping out and hurrying towards the pier. I walked back and forth but didn't see her, then I stared down at the sand, we came here on our date..maybe...I ran down the steps to the sand and headed in the direction of the hill.
It was completely dark, the rain had finally stopped, I glanced down at my phone it was after 6, I had missed calls from Austin and Trish and a voicemail. I sighed and put my phone back in my jacket, I was tired and getting cold, I figured it was time to head home, I just wanted to crawl into my bed and sleep forever and forget about all of this, anything that would keep my heart from hurting, I stood up and brushed the damp sand off of me, "Alls?" I heard his voice from behind me, I stopped what I was doing and turned slowly to face him, his blonde hair was shaggy and wet from the rain, he was slightly out of breathe, his eyes, his beautiful golden brown eyes glistened over with fear, worry, and hurt. "Austin? wh-what are you doing here?" I asked quietly, he let out a sigh, "I should ask you the same question, I've been everywhere looking for you." I looked down at the sand shuffling my boots through it, "what brought you to this spot, we havn't been here since our first date," he continued, I smiled, "honestly I didn't know where I was going I just ended up here, and I just started thinking" I said looking back up at him. Austin moved closer to me, "what about?" he asked, "everything really, my life, career, you, us...today." I answered looking back down at the sand at the last part trying to fight back tears, I continued, "Austin a lot has happened since we both came home, good, great, bad," he nodded in agreement, "yea it has, but its life Ally, good, bad, great things are going to happen all the time." He grabbed my hand in his intwining our fingers, "ally I need you to know that your the only one for me, not Brooke not anyone, what happened today was out of no where I didn't know she was coming, hell she even admitted coming through the back door because she knew the guys would of stopped her. When I said she had a spot in my heart, I meant it metaphorically, because she was my first real serious relationship and I thought I loved her then, she was a big part of my life growing up and through high school, just as I'm sure Jimmy was for you. But Ally she's not you, I know what love feels like when I'm with you, real love." I held his hand tight in mine, "your right Austin good and bad will happen, but it shouldn't happen this fast and all at once. You say she has a part in you the way Jimmy has one in mine the difference is you never abused Brooke nor did she abuse you, Jimmy doesn't have a part of me anymore because I'm not that girl anymore." my voice shook in anger as I spoke his name, "I can't help but think that all of this is a sign, and I feel its not the end, you have Brooke to deal with and well I still have all my 'visitor' drama to figure out, and our careers Austin, we can't let all of this effect our music, you know it and I know it." The hurt in his eyes only escalated, "so we have to give up on us because everyone wants to tear us apart, so your answer is to give them what they want." he said raising his voice a little, I let out a sigh, "your making it about everyone else again Austin its about us, if we continue like this its going to tear us apart, permanently, I can't handle that. I'm just saying maybe we should take a step back, I'm not giving up on us I just don't know what else to do!" He wrapped hi s arms tightly around my waist pulling me close, "we need to look at what we want and what we need." my voice cracked as I looked away from him.
Austin's fingers lifted my chin to make eye contact with him, "I want you Ally, I don't want to loose us, I need you in my life, I love you Ally. We can get through this together." I let out a small laugh, leaning my head against his, I could feel the tears coming and I fought them back, but my voice shaking as I spoke couldn't hide it, "I love you Austin, more that you could ever know, but I want time to think, and I need you to respect that, please," he closed his eyes, his breathing was shaky as he let out a deep sigh, he nodded, "I'd do anything for you, even if it killed me inside, if you need some space, then I'll respect that." A tear escaped my eye as ours met, "it'll be okay, classes are on Thanksgiving break, so not seeing each other won't be to difficult." he nodded, I continued "I rather this happen now, rather than later Austin," I cupped his face in my hands, "I'd rather it never happen at all" he said quietly, I wrapped him in a hug, heaving another sigh, "I should go," I said pulling away, his arms dropped from my sides and I felt cold again, I leaned up kissing him on the cheek, "bye Austin" I started walking away, "Ally wait!" his hand was around my wrist whipping me around again as his lips met mine, my finger immediately found their spot at the baby hairs on the back of his neck, my knees went weak. We stood there in our kiss, til' I broke it for air, he leaned his forehead to mine again, "just a reminder for you, I'm here when your ready." I smiled a weak smile, "I'll see you in LA," I turned and walked away letting the tears fall.
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