A.N Awwwwwwwwwwwww I hate being mean to Matt, but he's such an easy target D:
Sorry for the lack of update, as I have a chemistry exam tomorrow, I decided to update rather that study :3 Feel the love.
Answering the question on my review (I can't remember the Username sorry ^^') Here's me starting to go somewhere with all the jumblie stuff I gave you over the last 5-6 chapters
Disclaimer: I do not own Death note
Matt's P.O.V
He slept for hours, still laying on top of me. I guess at some point I drifted off as well because when I opened my eyes, the comforting weight was gone and the same empty feeling came back. I don't know why I let him do that, I shouldn't of, I know I am not in the right state of mind.
And yet I didn't care.
I sat up the sheets balling up around me, picking up a corner of the duvet, I trapped it between my thumb and finger, squeezing it tightly. I glanced to the clock on the window sill. 3.48. Am or Pm I didn't know, the thick curtains blocking out any light from the outside world. I bit back the sigh that threatened to escape the confinements of my lips, I wasn't sure what this feeling was. It wasn't lonely, I knew lonely and this wasn't it. It was a feeling in the pit of my stomach, gnawing away leaving a huge bout of guilt? sadness? remorse? I bit my lip, my teeth grazing the puncture that Mello had left on my lip. The feeling was bugging me...well it was more annoying that I couldn't put my finger on it. I pushed myself off the bed in agitation. I don't get frustrated easily, but this was so irritating. I drew the curtains, the artificial light flooding through the open window. Night.
I flicked my gaze to the sky. All the light pollution had blocked out the stars, only a single glint of light remained. I shook my head, walking towards the shower. I automatically reached up to pull my shirt off, cool fingers brushed my skin before I realised that my clothes were long gone. Reaching up I flicked the switch on the wall, the warm water flowing from the shower head. Stepping under it I allowed the water to relax each and every muscle. I kept my breath steady, the feeling in my gut creeping up and dragging me under. My chest tightened and I struggled to breathe, tears slowly falling to the ground, but
I barley noticed, my thoughts exploding in my head as I struggled to regain my usual composure. My legs gave out, the resounding thud of skin on ceramics echoed around the room. I gripped my arms tightly, leaving fingerprints on the soft flesh, unable to stop crying. It was too much, my head felt like it was splitting once more, I squeezed my eyes shut and tried to block the world out, the water ever relentless beating down on my body.
Mello's P.O.V
I was called out early this morning. I didn't want to leave, but I had to. I wanted a promotion to the top of my 'branch' and if they called, I had to come running. For now.
I smirked when I strutted in, Rod giving me a look of death. If looks could kill I'd be dead a million times over. Instead I pulled my gun out and shot him in the thigh.
"Don't look at me like that." I growled, ignoring his screech of pain, blood pumping from the flesh wound that I had inflicted upon his person. Scythe stared at me. That wasn't his real name, he gained it after stabbing a farmer with his own weapon, he merely shook his head his eyes rolling in his head.
"If Mello's had enough..."
I took to my seat, keeping the smirk on my face.
"Yup."
"Good. We're getting a shipment tonight, nothing hard really but we need people to over see it and I'm-" He cut off, coughing lightly. "-Busy. So we need people to stand in."
He finished, folding his arms in his lap, the skin that ran from his eye to his chin catching the light, it suddenly becoming visable. I raised a brow as his eyes rested on my face.
"Yeah you can do it. Call it payback for shooting Rod."
"Just cause you two are fucking..." I muttered, slightly pissed off that I didn't get a harder job. I rose from the chair. "We done?" Scythe nodded, watching me walk out the door. I wanted to get home, hoping Matt hadn't woken yet.
A.N Ok, I based Matt's breakdown on one that I had on New years eve. If I described it wrong or whatever, or perhaps if you had a differance experiance, please tell me so I can make my writing better ^^