Chapter 25
For the first time in a long time Cesca drew back, the reality of their situation dawned on her unexpectedly, she hadn't felt this way about being with Jonah in a long time but the prospect of them getting caught was always at the back of her mind. She turned on her side so she didn't have to look at him, she couldnt stand it, she knew that everytime she looked at him her heart melted and she gave in, she realised the love she had for this man... boy.
Jonah was surprised too... Surprised that Cesca had suddenly ran cold, no emotion, no feeling, thats what it looked like but in reality it couldn't have been further from the truth. Cesca was confused, feeling every single emotion she could remember, every emotion she may or may not have felt before. She was never an unsure person, not until she met Jonah, since then she has only ever been unsure.
She knew more than anything that she loved him, that's the only thing she was sure about but no matter how much she tried not to think about it she wasn't allowed to do this, wasn't allowed to have these feelings but she couldn't help it, he was the one for her.
She turned back to face him and he stroked her face gently. She wrapped her arms tightly around him and buried her head into his chest and naturally he held her, stroking the back of her hair and kissing it gently.
Cesca loved Jonah's scent, it always relaxed her, always made her that little bit more zen. She cuddled up to him drifting in and out of sleep. She looked up at Jonah with sleepy eyes and for the first time in a while he spoke "Go to sleep babes!" this made Cesca smile but she wasn't ready to sleep yet "I don't want to sleep yet!" Cesca replied.
They had never had this oppurtunity before, they struggled to spend a night with one another, struggled to show their affection in public. They had six weeks now, six weeks to get to know eachother properly, no interruptions.
Cesca kissed Jonah, it was short but sweet, he kissed her back, this time it was longer, breathtaking, they knew they loved each other, had to be together, someway they would make it work. One day they wouldn't have to hide, they would be able to marry and start a family, someday...
Jonah began to trail kisses down Cesca's neck and she bit her lip gently, trying to avoid a faint moan escaping her lips but it did anyway. She fell down into the bed so her head was level with Jonah's and placing a hand on his shoulder she kissed him gently. They enjoyed this night together not knowing what tomorrow might bring...
Cesca woke abruptly sitting upright in the bed not even attempting not to wake Jonah. "Whats up?" he asked. Cesca smiled warmly "Nothing, nothing, just a bad dream that's all!" Jonah pulled Cesca down beside him holding her body close to his.
"How about we get ready and head down for breakkfast?" Cesca asked flirtatiously.
"Mmmm, how about we stay here for breakfast?" Jonah replied cheekily.
"Well you will just have to wait for that, i am hungry!" Cesca said jumping out of bed and heading for the shower..
When they were both ready they headed down hand in hand to the resturant to grab some breakfast before heading out for the rest of the day. Cesca sat down with two coffees having just ordered their food. They held hands from across the table. "Jonah, you will love me, no matter what happens won't you?" Jonah smiled reassuringly at her,
"Cesca Montoya, you know i will, stop asking silly questions!"
Cesca's smile turned to a frown "Jonah i am not being silly. I am being serious, i am risking the whole of my life for you.." But before she could finish she noticed two familiar faces behind Jonah... Tom and... Karen? Cesca couldn't believe it, how could they be in the same place? It couldn't happen, them of all people. Luckily they had their backs facing Cesca and Jonah so Cesca whispered quickly, "Jonah we need to go... now" she said leading him away from the resturant.
Returning to the safety of their room Cesca began to cry,
"Jonah... Tom and Karen... They are here."
Jonah sighed angrily, "OK, Cesca, calm down"
This made Cesca angry, how could he say that understanding the situation they were in? "Jonah?" Cesca weeped "Don't you understand, they can't see us?"
Jonah was getting angrier too "CESCA! You only care because you are ashamed of us aren't you, you don't care at all, this is just one big game for you"
Cesca couldn't believe what she had just heard, "JONAH! I don't think you understand, this is illegal, i am only doing this because i love you." Cesca sobbed.
"I am starting to doubt whether you really do, this could be some fling for you, perhaps you don't love me at all... I can't go on like this Miss. Montoya, i just can't.
This made Cesca's heart melt, Miss Montoya? She left that woman at school, she was Cesca now.. Or perhaps not seeing as she had bought the reality of the situation back into the equation... "Jonah, you need to still love him, i do love you, more than the world!"
Jonah stared at Cesca with cold, angry eyes, "I have told you Cesca, i can't do this anymore i just can't.." Cesca cried harder now, she couldn't believe this, couldn't believe this had happened to them, "We are having a baby Jonah" Cesca said shortly.