Absolute Shocker!

By JamesRoxMySox

Disclaimer: I own nothing recognisable from the Harry Potter books or movies that belongs to J.K.Rowling and Warner Brothers studios

Sunday 19th December – Hogwarts Express

I swear the world has gone mad

The earth has flipped on its axis

The sun's light is blue

The sky is orange

The trees are purple

Canaries prey on mountain lions

Pigs fly with out magical assistance

And I refuse to believe all that's been told to me

My friends are all loonies and deserve to be locked up in a nut house

You know one of those old fashioned ones with bars on the windows, sterile white walls and special rooms where they preform medical experiments such as frontal lobe lobotomies

For the last 12 or so hours I have been in a state of shock, now I have progressed to upmost denial and am verging on hysterics

At the present moment I am on the Hogwarts express hurtling to my doom, mother dearest has sent me a total of five reminders over the last week about what to pack and what is expected of me for the coming ball

I just hope Will picks me up

Pretty please let Will pick me up

Please!!!!

…

This morning I got up extra early to convince Riley to get into his cage so I could take him and my trunk down to be transferred to Hogsmeade station. I ate my breakfast in the kitchens and was one of the first students on the train

When people gave me weird looks I just gave the prefect duties spiel and they left me alone

As they bloody well should, nosy prats…

I found an empty compartment in the semi back of the train, dragged my trunk and Riley in and proceeded to barricade the door

No one is going to bother me today

No one…

What, you may ask, has made me become a grouchy, greaten faced hermit?

The sodding ball… what else?

I'll start at the beginning… always a good place to start

I managed to sneak into the dorm yesterday to get my cloak and things, the twins, Rhi and Nessa where all in the bathroom ohhhing and ahhhing over something or other. Don't ask me I was trying to get in and out of there as quickly as possible.

It was probably just how smooth Nessa got her nails from filing them or something

I made my way out on to the grounds looking for Charlie, Potter and Black and found them near the greenhouses

Poor Charlie and Mikey, they were being slaughtered by Potter, Black and Peter

Admittedly Peter was just throwing a half hearted snowball every now and then so that Charlie and Mikey could actually throw a snowball once in a while

"Hey Charlie! Can I help?"

Both Charlie and Mikey were delighted to have a bit of back up, they looked as though they were about to be forced to surrender to Marauders

"Hey that's not fair!"

"Yeah, shouldn't you be painting your nails or something?"

The outraged cries of Potter and Black

"Not fair? It may just be my screwed up sense of logic but three seventh years against two fourth years doesn't seem fair!"

I threw a snowball at Black

"Paint my nails! Who do you think I am? Bridget?"

The snowballs started coming thick and fast

But together, Mikey, Charlie and I managed to hold our own

"It's unfair because those little buggers started it!"

"I'm sure it was provoked!"

Insults started flying along with the snowballs

All in go fun of course…

I was actually enjoying myself, this is how it show be… put off getting ready till the last possible minute

Remus came running up about four o'clock

"Lily! Lily you have to go up to the tower, Dana and Bridget are going nuts looking for you"

Ugh!

Time to face reality…

"Did you tell them where I was?"

Oh no, they'll come down here in their facemasks and frog march me back to the tower!

"No, but their eyes did that weird thing where they go red, so I thought I better come get you"

Fiddlesticks!

"Okay I'm coming"

I quickly said good bye to the rest of the boys before sprinting up to the Gryffindor tower

Well I didn't really sprint… more like jogged. Okay that's a straight out lie, I dragged my feet the whole way asking the forces of the universe to just turn me into an ear wig right now and get it over with…

I have no idea what I did in that previous life of mine but it must have been some serious shit! I mean two prestigious events inflicted upon me in one week? What was I…a bloody serial killer?

No! They get off lighter than I do, they just become policemen or something to avenge the justice thing.

See with karma, apparently you balance everything out, so if you were a criminal like the example above in your next life you become a policeman or detective or something to do with justice so the two lives will cancel each other out…

So since I have a great dislike for social climbers, prestigious events and high society in a previous life I must have been…

… like my MOTHER!!!!!!!!

Sweet Merlin

I think I will just go throw myself off the back of the train…

…

Bugger

As I was making my way down the train looking for a suitable window, carriage or door from which I could make my leap of faith, faith in the fact I wouldn't survive, when I ran into him

Literally

I cant even walk death row with grace

Sod the whole sodding concept

I don't even have faith in the leap of faith thing any more

Well of course I didn't realise who I had run into and I started apologising/rambling profusely, explaining how disturbingly klutzy I am and that god or whoever has a damn lot to answer for in the way of innocent people being harmed by yours truly

"Lily?"

Oh bollocks

It's him

The one person I want to avoid

I looked him in the eye for a split second before sprinting back to my compartment and preforming every locking spell I knew on the damn door

Don't worry I wasn't actually making my way to experiment the exact effects of iron, wood and crushed rocks have on the human body when flung from a moving vehicle with a speed of 90 miles per hour…

I was heading for the toilet but I felt like venting my anger in a melodramatic and artistic manner

Bloody coward more like!

Anyway back on topic…

I finally got back to my dorm when I was leapt upon by all four of my so called friends

"Aaaahhhhhhhhhhhgggggggg!"

I was wrestled into the bathroom and promptly thrown into a freezing cold shower

"What the bloody hell do you think you're doing?!"

Damn that water is cold

"Making you presentable! Do I even want to know what you've been doing all day?"

Only Dana could pull off that harassed mother like tone…

"Having a snowball fight, and does making me presentable require freezing me to the point of comatose?"

No change in the water

Apparently I need to have any form of bacteria or molecule of dirt frozen from my body

"Stop complaining and just wash your hair"

Like bloody hell I will!

My blood is about to congeal and they want me to wash my hair!

We finally came to the compromise that I could have hot water if I wash my hair and use Rhi's special body soap stuff

After I got out the shower, I was presented with only clean undergarments and my bathrobe

I was about to tell them to sod off when Bridget cut me off

"Save it Lily"

I was rather taken aback by her abruptness

"Yeah, we've all done our make up and hair all that's left is nail polish and our number one concern – you"

My eyes widened as I looked at them

They had all indeed been made up, they all looked drop dead gorgeous in my opinion

See some girls look beautiful and entrancing when make up is added, they acquire this enchanting quality about them. The make-up and hair styles enhance their features making them nothing shot of enticing

So for me, a girl who throws her hair in a simple ponytail every day and does not wear a skerrick of make up, this is all quite foreign and intimidating. I mean did you know you can actually blow dry your hair straight? Bloody amazing if you ask me

On the odd occasion that my mother has me all dolled up I feel completely out of place. I don't feel comfortable with my hair all styled and my face plastered in gunk, I don't feel any prettier or more feminine than usual as most girls say they do.

I'm weird I know but I don't see what's so special about it

Like when Dana and Bridget played stylist at the beginning of term, I felt like a little girl who has got into her mother's make up, ending up wearing to much rogue and bright red lipstick in an effort to be grown up and just like the mother she idolises

I just don't fell comfortable…

Dear lord this is depressing, but when I always feel like an ugly duckling compared to my friends. Rhiannon is the original Spanish beauty being the human cappuccino, Nessa has the girl next door look that makes you wonder and the twins, well the twins are the pin up girls for how many Europeans would like to be.

I'm different though…

Which I have to admit I like, I wouldn't change myself for the world… but I still have my insecurities

But I wasn't really given the choice right then about whether I was comfortable or not

I believe we had a half an hour long argument over how my hair was to be styled, it seemed a vote had been taken before I arrived that I was to have it half up and half down

Ugh!

I hate that hair style! It just looks weird, I argued my point and refused point blank to let them do that to me. I weakened when I saw Dana and Bridget's faces. How can you say know to those big grey eyes?

I sure as hell don't know how…

I finally agreed to let them do what they wanted so long as it was not half up and half down. I shut my eyes and thought longingly of the chocolate chip cookies Annie, our cook, makes at home, they'd be waiting for me when I got home from the station tomorrow…

Then it came to make up

Double ugh!

Did I really have to have paint on my face?

I was met with a very enthusiastic yes by four slightly irritated teenage girls

I took my chances and shut my gob

I refused to let the twins do my make up, look what happened last time, I ended up looking like a slapper! Rhi did my make up for me, she's actually very good and I knew she wouldn't pile it on… at least not as much as Dana or Bridget

After that ordeal was over I relaxed slightly and we all painted our nails, manicure and pedicure

I admit I have another slightly girly fetish – nail polish

I wanted to get all creative with the black, red and white but those colours were forcefully snatched from my hands by Nessa, shaking her head at me

They were replaced by a grey

How boring!

How as I supposed to make things interesting with just one colour?

"Grey! You want me to paint my nails grey?! Can't I at least have a red to liven things up a little?"

I got a look from Nessa

"It's not grey! It's a light shifting silver, now shut up and put it on"

Bloody spoil sports

I was muttering away to myself by the injustice of it all when Dana announced that it was time to put on our gowns

gag

It's only a dress!

Again an argument erupted between myself and the twins

"I am not wearing green"

I abhor green and refuse to wear it to matter how much it 'brings out my eyes'

"Come on Banana, it looks really good on you"

Pft! Never mind that I dislike it immensely as long as it's pleasing to the eyes of others

"Sod off! I don't know where the hell you got that but I'm not wearing it"

I stormed off to my bed and pulled the curtains tight around me, I already had a dress and I thought it was quite nice thank you very much

It was the colour and texture of an invisibility cloak, silver and silky, very flowy

It was simple, timeless, A line dress

Matched with a simple wrap and a pair of killer stilettos

I'm serious these are awesome shoes, they are a soft grey colour darker than the dress, they have bright clear jewels all over them so they are awfully sparkly. Plus they happen to have a 3 inch heel

I'm in love

I think I will wear these shoes till they literally fall apart

…

Oh for Christs sake

Cam and Tristan are at the door trying to get me to let them in

Pft! As if!

I'm officially not talking to them, especially not Cam he'll be lucky if I talk to him before the turn of the centaury…

"Bugger off!"

"Come on Lily, you can't stay in there forever"

"Wanna bet?"

Silence for a second, they seemed to be changing tactics

"We've got some cookies" Cam taunted in a sing song voice

Bloody amateurs

"So do I" I called backing the same teasing voice

I had already scabbed some off the house elves this morning when I went down there for my breakfast

Muffled arguing

"Look Lily, we're really sorry okay? But what else could we do? We would have been dismembered –"

"I'm sorry – do I appear to care?"

"Lily!"

"Nope, I don't want to hear it!"

"Stop being so bloody stubborn and open the bloody door"

Sod 'em I'm not talking to them and that's final

…

Ah, they got bored and wandered off to tell the others how they failed miserably at getting me talk to them civilly or they might go in search of the food cart

The latter is more likely when I think about it

But back to the night of horror

Once Bridget and Dana had decided we all looked perfect, that took for ever, it was 7:30 pm and time for us all to go down

I sat on my bed as the twins prepared for their 'great descent'

Oh please, give me a break

Nessa and I shared a look as the twins continued to primp themselves

Once Dana and Bridget had gone down, separately of course with Rhi in between them so that there was no confusion about who was who, Nessa gave a great sigh

Her turn

"Wish me luck"

I gave her an encouraging smile

"Good luck and don't worry you'll knock Tristan out, you look fabulouso!"

She gave me a smile before sweeping off down the stairs…

And I was telling the truth there she did look gorgeous, with her shimmery blue dress and her wavy dark hair pulled to back on one side

Oh and yes she is going with Tristan, they're both a little nervous seeing as it was just recently they admitted they had feelings for one another

I coerced Tri to admit his feelings and then convinced him to ask Nessa to the ball

My smile slid off my face as Nessa shut the door, wondering if I could get away with not actually going down those stairs until tomorrow morning for breakfast

But I resigned myself to the fate worse than death made my way down the stairs

The common room was full of noise and laughter, people coming and going, joking with their friends, I scanned the room looking for Daniel

I spotted him sitting by the fire waiting patiently

I made my way through the congregation of students to Daniel

"Ready?"

He looked up

"Oh sure! You look great Lils"

"Thank you, you manage to scrub up well yourself"

"Yes, well it did take me a couple of hours but I eventually got to the point where I'm acceptable"

I couldn't help but laugh

"Shall we descend to the great hall Ms Evans?"

Daniel imitated the twins' theatrics in a posh voice

"We shall"

We linked arms and made our way down to the Great Hall

Once in the entrance hall we had a few minutes before the hall was opened, the noise level was unbelievable as people rushed around gushing to their friends about how good everyone looked

I couldn't help but smile, school uniforms of black robes and grey jumpers had been traded in for dazzling dresses and tempting tuxedos, it was fascinating

Though I have no idea where these inane people lost in their worlds of romance get their ideas. You hear about the room going quiet and people become stunned as one girl comes down the stairs

What a load of wank!

Everyone looks gorgeous and glamorous, you can't possibly choose one person who stands out from all the rest.

I dragged Daniel off to find Abby, I don't care if he has to open the ball with me his date is Abby

"Come on we have to find Abby"

"We do?"

"Of course! What were going to do after the first dance? Mosey on over to her table?"

He looked at me bewildered

That was exactly what he was going to do

I rolled my eyes

Bloody boys, not a romantic bone in their bodies

I conjured a romantic red rose for him to give her when we were just a little way off

"Alright now go shower her with compliments, give her the rose and arrange a place to meet after the first dance. I'll be waiting for you at the doors"

With that I rushed of to see my friends

Rhi was going with a very handsome Ravenclaw, she has this uncanny talent for attracting that sort, they were talking quietly when I bounded over trying with all my might to enjoy this infernal ball

"Oh Lily, this is Robert my date from Ravenclaw"

"Please call me Robbie, it's nice to meet you"

"It's lovely to meet you as well, I hope you have fun"

After a quick introduction I left them to it

Dana was becoming acquainted with her 7th year Ravenclaw dates clique of friends, pretty smart really since she would be spending most of her evening with them

Bridget was enthralled wither date – Sirius Black. I don't know who looked happier about this, Black or Bridget. I didn't really feel like interrupting either of the twins and left them to ooze charm and make googly eyes while I flounced off to see Nessa and Tri

Cam was there with his date as well, a fifth year Gryffindor, who I suspect was one of the ones flirting with him at the Marauder party

Wait… don't think about that, do not think about that, it can only make my cheeks become a stunning ruby red

Especially now

We chatted for a while, mainly about quidditch and Christmas decorations

Very polite

Very reserved

Very boring

I wanted to gag

Thankfully Amy called all the prefects over before I made a retching sound that would have earned me daggers from my three friends

Amy looked exquisite in a snow white strapless gown with a little gold wreath in her hair, the original Christmas angel. Thankfully she was quite pleased with how everything had turned out wasn't about to pop a vein any time soon

I found Daniel and linked arms as we waited for the rest of the students to enter

What a stupid tradition, I mean what's the point of it? It's supposed to be a privilege for students to open the ball. Personally I can't think of a worse punishment.

We all filed in once the rest of the student body had taken their seats and fanned out across the floor just as we had practiced, it's a good thing Amy and Potter are so far away in the middle or else Daniel would have to hold me back from ramming this damn record down Amy's throat

I love Amy dearly and she's a wonderful friend, but she has a dreadful perfectionist streak that could make me look slack. Add the pressure that she's Head girl this year and in charge of the whole ball thing and you get a very scary, very determined person.

I think we practiced this one dance for about two hours on Friday

Ugh!

I was ecstatic when it was over

The most tiring five minutes of my life, thank all the things I hold dear it was only five minutes

I curtsied to Daniel, finally in a much better mood seeing as I wouldn't be putting another foot on that dance floor except on my way out

Nessa had saved me a seat at the table she had with Tri and Cam

I took it gratefully and started nibbling at the snacks put out on the table before me. Amy had decided that a sit down dinner wasn't appropriate since it was a week before Christmas, she settled on leaving out food on the tables so that people could pick at food as they felt like it

I was quite happy sitting there, minding my own business, all right so I didn't really mind my own business, I forced Nessa and Tristan to go dance. But I was on my best behaviour, I didn't even curse Rosie's perfectly styled curls as she swanned past on some 7th years arm

…

Bugger!

He found me

What it wasn't enough to literally run into me today? He had to come find me as well?

Sod him!

I'm not talking to the gigantic prat

"Lily"

Nu uh

I refuse point blank

"Come on Lily, you have to talk to me at one point or another"

How about another?

Let's say another in the undecided future when I can't possibly avoid you… say in seventy years or so if we are committed to the same retirement home and are placed in armchairs next o each other and my legs are too old to carry my weight and there is no other possible way of getting away from you

Yeah that sounds about right, how about I pencil you in for then? That good for you?

Hopefully he'd be dead or better yet I'd be dead by that time seeing as that would take me about five years over my expected expiry date with my muggle heritage and all

He's still banging on the blasted door

Maybe if I pretend I'm asleep he'll go away…

"Lily, I know you're awake I saw you writing in that bloody book just a minute ago"

Bollocks!

Bloody windows, they may be rippled but you can still see through them

What the hell can I do now?

"Lily open the door! I have to talk to you"

Yeah, you and every other Tom, Dick and Harry

Ewwwwwwww!

I just managed to gross myself out

Don't mind me I have a childish, disgusting mind, actually it's excellent when you want to distract yourself from something… or someone

However that someone is making it terribly hard for me to block him out, I'm sure he's about to break the bleeding door down. I would dearly love to tell him to go rot in hell but that would require conversing with him so I have to ignore it…

"You can't ignore me forever Lily! I can see you're awake and I'm going to talk to you at some stage"

Pft! That's what you think!

Not during this train ride you're not!

I have other plans

I pulled down the blinds using my wand, I was not going to get up and go any where near the jerk of the universe

That solved one problem, he can't see me any more

Just how do I get him to go away?

I suppose I just have to wait till he gives up and slinks off

Lucky thing I have a strong bladder

But speaking of him…

He's the reason why I'm in such a foul mood; I was actually enjoying myself sitting placidly at the table nibbling away at the smorgasbord on offer, but nooooooo he had to show up…

Sodding Potter

The root of all my sordid problems… all right not all my problems but the vast majority of them

As I said I was happy just sitting there, actually behaving myself for a change when Potter dragged himself over to say hello to Tri and Nessa and offer his congratulations that they finally got it together

True it was partly because of him that they admitted they fancy each other. He had the do some research on a certain chaser move that needed hours of reading being holed up in the dusty old library. According to him it benefited the team and got those two to fess up…

When Tri and Nessa went off to dance again I was left with Potter, not too bad seeing as how I could easily ignore him and get lost in my own little world of day dreams, a big plus was that I was in a unnaturally happy state of mind due to how I had got off scot free from this date thing due to Daniel

I had just begun contemplating how horrid my mother was for ruining my favourite day of the year with her bloody social status crap when I noticed Potter had been unusually quite

"What's the matter Potter, did you leave your personality in your dorm" I joked

That didn't go down well

"Er… I was just joking, um… what's the matter? How come you're not off dancing with one of your adoring fans?"

He just stared at his butter beer

"Oh for goodness sake get some fire whiskey if you're going to drown your sorrows, at least then you can actually forget what ever it is that's bugging you"

He just sat there

This is not the James Potter I'm used to

James Potter does not sit lifelessly at the edge of a dance floor trying to get drunk off of butter beer. James Potter dances in the very middle of the floor with the prettiest girl available, jolly from a capful or two of Ogden's that were slung back in the boys dorms at the pre-ball celebrations

I racked my brains trying to think what had the mighty James Potter in such a dark mood

A light bulb clicked on and I narrowed my eyes at him

"Is this about the girl you've been obsessing over?"

Potter finally dragged his gaze away from his bottle to look at my face quickly before refocusing on his beloved beverage

"Cameron said you mentioned that"

Mentioned?

Wouldn't let up about it is more accurate

"Well I know you couldn't exactly ask her to the Ball seeing as technically Amy is your date but have you at least asked her to dance?"

Silence

"You haven't asked her to dance?" I asked incredulously

Potter just glared sullenly at his bottle

"She wouldn't want to dance with me"

This took me by surprise; the great James Potter was doubting his abilities and sex appeal

"In case you haven't noticed, the majority of Hogwarts female population believes you to be one of the finest male specimens to roam the earth, I'm sure she'd jump at the chance to dance with you"

"No, she wouldn't"

"How do you know? Is she here with someone else?"

"Not that I know of, but she just wouldn't"

That bottle is about to shatter from the ferocity of his glares in a second…

"Would you stop sulking? Go ask her before you become manic depressive"

"She'd just say no"

At this point I'd had enough

"All you have to do is be polite and sweet, I'm sure you can pull that off"

I got out of my chair and tried to pull him to his feet

"I mean if you were sweet and polite enough even I would dance with you… by the way did you know that you weight a ton?"

I got him to his feet, puffing slightly from the effort since he is about twice the size of me

"Now go swipe a rose from some where and sweep her off her feet" I concluded giving him a small push in the back of the direction of the drinks

At this point I was actually feeling quite jealous of that girl, whoever she was, she had one of the most wanted bachelors of our school after her. And it turns out that he's not actually half bad… most of the time. He can be sweet, funny and very helpful

At that moment I was actually thinking how lucky that girl was and I was feeling quite disappointed that this girl wasn't me

I can say quite confidently that I am the biggest bloody idiot to ever come into existence

…

"No Bridget I am not going to let you in!"

Bridget, Dana, Rhi and Nessa have come to see if they can have better luck than Cam, Tri and Potter

"Lily, please! We feel really horrid"

"So you bloody well should Nessa! You were one of the first to realise what was going on and yet you treated like a big joke"

"Please Banana, we can work it out, he really is a good guy"

Good guy my arse!

Manipulative son of a –

"Don't call me that! I don't wan to talk to any of you, you treated me worse than you would treat Rosemary MacDonald for god's sake! Go away!"

You know what I seriously feel like crying my eyes out now

It may seem as though I'm over reacting but my friends were scheming behind my back, tweaking my life style and influencing my emotions without my permission or knowledge

It's nasty and under handed, I'm serious when I say they wouldn't even do this to Rosie, they just let her get on with her life and occasionally laugh at her for her disturbingly idiotic antics

Bloody Potter

Why the hell did he ever have to show up and become a daily nuisance in my life?

Really this is all his fault

I mean I was sitting there thinking that James Potter was actually a very nice person and wouldn't mind if he asked me out some time when all of a sudden a white rose came into my line of vision

I looked up only to be met with Potter's face

I gave him a searching look

"Lily would you please honour me with this dance?"

I figured he must just be following me up on my offer because the girl had said no and I said I would dance with him if he asked politely enough

He gave me that puppy dog look that the twins always use, the one I can never refuse

As he lead me out to the dance floor I was rather curious as to why he had asked

I settled for surveying him scrutinisingly, searching for a reason. I came up with nothing, so my curiosity got the best of me and I blurted out my question

"Did she say no then?"

He gave me a searching look before answering

"No"

Shock

That was my initial reaction

Denial followed closely

Then realisation

My eyes got wide and I stood stock still

No!

He wouldn't

He couldn't

He can't!

I pulled away from him still looking at him with big eyes

"Lily please"

I started shaking my head

How could he?

What about what Sirius did to… Daniel!

Oh Daniel!

Poor Daniel! I feel so bad

And Remus!

All those cryptic messages!

What about my friends?

They knew!

They knew all this time and they didn't say anything!

Cam!

I swung around and stared straight at them, they were al at a table talking and laughing

Tears started nipping at the corners of my eyes

How could they do this to me? They knew all about this and all the pain it put me through and yet they did nothing!

I turned around again and spotted Daniel and Abby dancing

That could have been me! If it wasn't for Potter that could have been me in Daniel's arms not Abby

All my logic and rational thoughts went right out the window

Never mind the fact that I didn't actually like Daniel any more it was the principal of the thing. If it hadn't been for Potter Daniel and I would be together

I turned back to Potter with tear filled eyes

All those things he had done, all those awful, horrible, under handed things he had done flooded my brain

I looked at him straight in the eye before turning on my heel and walking straight out the hall

I ripped off my beloved shoes before sprinting all the way back to Gryffindor tower

Once safely in my bed with the curtains firmly shut and a repelling charm and a silencing charm cast on my hangings I proceeded to scream, cry and insult my lungs out

I think I called Potter, his friends and my friends every name under the sun… I even invented a few of my own

But as I sobbed my self to sleep last night I realised how everything now made sense, all of it, every single thing that had confused me over the last few months finally clicked into place because of that one event

…

The sound of Star Boy hammering away at the damn door has rudely awakened me from my emotional over load induced nap

I must say crying certainly takes it out of you, the previous part of my entry in covered in tear drops and the inks all smudged. I'm still trying to get hold of my emotions on this issue

"Evans!"

Sod.

Off.

"Hey Evans!"

Go away, please just go away

"EVANS!"

"What?"

"Locking yourself away isn't going to accomplish anything you know"

"What do you care Black?"

"I care cos my buddy James is heart broken"

"Why should I care? Between the two of you I ended up with a broken heart!"

"What?! After all James did for you?"

"Did for me! Oh yes, bullying people, glaring at me, getting people to INTIMIDATE THE GUY I LIKE IS CERTAINLY IN MY BEST INTEREST! You should be ashamed of yourself!"

"What did I ever do?"

"Scarring the shit out of Daniel Diggory on Potter's orders! Sound familiar?"

"Oh, right about that –"

"I don't want to know, I know he asked you to and I know you went through with it I was there! So sod off Black and leave me alone!"

"Evans look it's not li –"

"No I don't want to know and I'm not going to listen to what you have to say. Since the beginning of the year Potter has done nothing but manipulate me and my life to suit himself! I have nothing more to say on the matter. NOW LEAVE ME ALONE BLACK!"

He went away after that thank god!

I just got changed into my jeans and jumper, I really should put on a skirt and cardigan to skip the feminine lecture from mother but it's winter and I feel rotten

Please, please, please let William be here to greet me

YES!!!!!!!!

My darling older brother is here to save me

Hi everyone! I'm really sorry this took so long but I had to go stay with my grandmother for the week. That was certainly an experience… which never want to endure again! Dear lord, if I have to eat one more piece of tinned cucumber I think I will throw up! Apparently tinned cucumbers taste better, yeah they taste better if you don't have any taste buds! Ugh! Also I will do a Picasso and cut off my ear if I have to listen to another lecture on proper conduct

Any way thank you all for your lovely reviews, I'm sorry I haven't written individual reviews as promised but I promise to try next time

Now this is very important was this Chapter believable?

I had trouble writing it but please tell me what you think and…

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