Disclaimer: Twilight belongs to Stephenie Meyer. She messed up the story when she made Jake imprint on Nessie. Fortunately for us there's always the world of fanfictions.

Author/Note: This is a Leah/Jacob story with all the normal pairings and the events in Breaking Dawn never happened, because just like my cousin said, Breaking Dawn shouldn't even be considered a book.

Translation to English of O Nosso Amanhecer 2. This version was subjected to a few changes from the original in Portuguese.

This translation was a request by FantasyLover74.

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Alert: the characters in this story curse a lot.

Our Dawn

Part II

Leah Clearwater

25. Gone

When I woke up I couldn't see anything but a bright white light. The right side of my body was numb and I was feeling tired even though I had just woke up. I tried to move and felt extremely uncomfortable. It was only then that I realised I was sleeping on the floor. Well that explained a lot of things. But seriously? What the hell was I doing sleeping on the floor? What was going on? I didn't remember my floor being made of wood…I didn't remember my window being so large. I didn't remember my room smelling like pine and rainy days…

My heart was racing when I realised I wasn't home. I tried to get up but something was holding me there so I turned around and I panicked: a sleeping Jacob was holding me tightly. Correction: a sleeping naked Jacob was holding my also naked body, on his bedroom's floor. We were just covered with a thin blue sheet.

I closed my eyes for a second, hoping to be dreaming. This had to be a dream, right? I opened my eyes again and everything was the same. My body started to heat up while flashes of last night started to come to my mind. I was completely stunned. Jacob and I? Seriously? How the hell did that happen anyway?

I forced my mind to give me the answer and I recalled every piece of memory I had. I couldn't help to blush in a deep red. We had done it all and I didn't even know if Billy or Rachel, or both, were at home while we were making love.

Making love…well to me had been love, to him probably not so much. Suddenly I felt fear. I had to go home. I couldn't face him after what we've done. I mean sure it had been amazing, at least to me, but Jacob would be totally shocked and ashamed.

I was in deep shit. I had slept with a seventeen year old. I had slept with my alpha. I had slept with my seventeen year old, non imprinted alpha. Shit. How could I be so stupid?

I removed his arm from my waist and got up as fast as I could. I quickly searched for my clothes and put them on. It was only then I realised why we were sleeping on the floor. His bed was broken and I actually had a few vague memories about how it got broken which made me blush…again.

I was about to leave the room when I realised that maybe I should go out through the window. I mean it was seven in the morning, what if Billy or Rachel were already up? I didn't have a plausible motive to be in their house, in Jacob's bedroom at that hour.

I opened the window trying not to make any noise and before I could leave I looked back. I immediately felt the urge to go back to Jacob's arms. But I couldn't. Things between us were different now. He had just tried to comfort me and things had gotten out of control, turning into a blissful love making session, but I knew those feelings were one-sided. He did not feel the same.

To him last night had probably been a mistake. He would regret it once he woke up. Jacob was a decent guy and he would never say that in front of me because he would try not to hurt my feelings, but I was pretty convinced that he wanted to save his first time to his imprint and now…well I guess it was too late so he would probably want to forget about it.

Leaving the crime scene behind I ran to the forest until I reached my house. And yes...I felt like a criminal I mean let's face it Jacob was jail-bait.

When I got home, and for the first time in my life, I felt actually lucky. Seth was sleeping in his own bedroom and I went straight to the bathroom to take a shower. I could smell Jacob's scent all over me and I didn't want Seth to know about what happened.

As the water poured on my body I felt the panic strike again. I was so stupid. I should've never gone to his place to talk. I should've never allowed him to see that I was hurting and vulnerable. I should've fought against the desire that consumed me as soon as his lips touched mine.

Now I was stuck in a vortex of endless pain. I was in love with another wolf. I didn't regret it. Jacob had changed me. I felt a better person when I was with him. But last night was a mistake. I wasn't sorry about spending the night with him, I was sorry because it would never happen again, it could never happen again.

I tried to focus on what I should do but the only thing that came into my mind was the easy way: the escape route. What else could I do now? It was either leave or facing rejection for the second time. I wouldn't listen to the same words twice.

My heart wouldn't take it. I had my crown of glory. I had made Jacob Black a man. But that was all. I didn't even know what he thought of me? Did he think of me as a fragile, broken-hearted girl who needed comfort? Did he think I was a slut? Did he think of me as an easy fuck? Did he use me to replace Bella? Did he think he could overcome my bitchiness by getting me laid? I had no fucking clue and I was shitless scared because of that.

Right now I was sure about something. I would never forget last night. Every time I closed my eyes I could see Jacob's face over mine, kissing me, caressing me with his large hands, pressing down his body to mine, making my heart race as if I were a teenager in love.

His intoxicating smell was still in my skin when I finished my shower. It was camouflaged with the smell of my strawberry shampoo but it was still there. I would never know why I had let my guard down with Jacob. Why I had allowed myself to fall in love again or why my resistance to have human or wolf contact had crumbled down last night. But I knew that to me it felt right and I wouldn't forget the moment we looked into each other's eyes while our bodies were entirely connected in a powerful and amazing act of bliss.

Before I could start crying I left the bathroom and went to the kitchen to drink some coffee. I needed tons of caffeine right now.

"Hey there. Where have you been all night?"

I froze when Seth walked into the kitchen. Only God knew how much I needed to be alone in that moment. I was trying to make a decision and being questioned by my brother wasn't definitely on my plans. At least not today.

"Hi…" I managed to say timidly. Was that voice really mine? Why was I sounding so damn girly? One night with Jacob and I had went through the weirdest changes ever.

"You disappeared last night…what happened?" Seth asked again.

What was I supposed to say? I went to Jacob's place and we slept together? I don't think so.

"I needed to clear my head." I lied. I really did a lot more than to clear my mind last night.

"Well you were not the only one to leave the party…Jacob left too."

I gulped. Was it possible that my baby brother knew about me and Jacob?

"Billy had to go home with Rachel and Paul because Jake disappeared."

"He did? Poor Billy…And…what time was that?"

"Two…maybe three in the morning."

Were we still making love at three in the morning? I didn't have a fucking clue, I was too busy to think about the hours then, but I didn't remember to hear Billy, Rachel or even Paul coming home last night.

"Are you ok, sis? You're a bit flushed…are you sick?"

"I'm fine."

"You spent the night in the forest? I didn't hear you coming home."

"Of course not. When I got here you were completely out so I went to my room…besides it was really late."

I guess that my answer was somehow believable but Seth noticed a thin layer of panic in my voice.

"What's wrong?" He asked.

"Nothing's wrong."

"You're acting weird and you…smell weird too."

Oh shit. This could not be happening. Damn wolf powers.

"What the hell are you talking about Seth?"

"You smell like Rosalie's perfume…it's obnoxious."

"Well that's what happens when you have a fucking leech for a stepsister." I know it wasn't fair blaming it on Bella but at least she was being helpful for once…maybe twice, since she had played a major part in the fight against the Italian leeches.

"Whatever." Seth shrugged.

I went to my bedroom before Seth could really identify the scent he could smell in me. I laid there for about one hour until I decided to start packing. I didn't have much money but it was enough to rent a room in Seatlle and live a decent life for a few months and then I would have to find a good job.

I didn't know how to say goodbye to my family but I had to figure something out fast. Maybe it was better if I left first. Once in Seattle I could phone them and explain my reasons to leave. Of course I had no intention to mention my moment of weakness with my alpha. I could lie and say that I was upset about Emily and Sam becoming parents and all that crap. No one would doubt me.

When I finally heard my brother going to the bathroom to have a shower I took that chance to put my things in the car and I was about to leave when Charlie's patrol car appeared out of nowhere. I guess my luck had just ran out.

"Thanks Charlie. Leah will take me to Forks later." My mum said coming out of the car. Charlie waved at me and left.

"Good morning honey. Where are you going?" She asked me.

"I'm…I was going to Forks. I need to buy some stuff." I lied. It was becoming a habit to lie to my family but right now I had no other choice.

"I'm sorry but that will have to wait."

"Why?"

"We have to go to Billy's place."

I almost panicked.

"What? Why?"

"We need to discuss a few things about the pack."

"I don't know why I have to go…"

"You're beta. Sam will be there too."

"No. I can't go."

My mother looked at me with curiosity.

"Why not?" She inquired.

"Because I don't want to." I couldn't say more than that or she would be suspicious and Sue Clearwater would never let it go if she had the feeling someone was holding a secret from her.

"We're both going and that's final. Now get out of the car and let's go."

"Mum…" I whined. I could not be in the same room as Jacob Black right now. For crying out loud I had just slept with him.

Maybe Jacob had amnesia or something like that. That was what I kept hoping all the way from my house until we reached his. When my mother knocked I felt I was suffocating. This was going to be a thousand times worst than I ever imagined. The infamous morning after would be totally humiliating unless he couldn't remember anything or one of us died suddenly.

Rachel opened the door and greeted us with a smile then she grabbed a black jacket that was on a chair and announced she was going over to Paul's house to return his jacket besides she wasn't interested in the pack's businesses.

"Sue, Leah…I'm just going to call Jacob…he's still sleeping. I don't know what happened to him, he usually gets up early in the morning." Billy said.

I did my best to hide my embarrassment. I guess I was the reason he was still sleeping. Thinking about it, if it weren't for our wolf powers I would probably be too tired and sore to get out of the bed or floor...in this case.

"I'll go wake him up." A voice said.

I looked to my left and saw Sam leaning against the wall. I hadn't even realised he was there. Would he be able to figure out what had happened between me and Jacob? I haven't left anything that belonged to me in his room but Sam could pick up my scent.

I wanted to get out of there so badly I wasn't even paying attention to what mum and Billy were saying.

"Leah? Did you hear me?" Billy asked.

"Sorry…I was…thinking about something."

"Billy was saying that you and Sam had done a great job as betas." My mum said.

"Right…"

In that moment I heard Sam and Jacob talking. Their low voices were almost imperceptible but I was still a wolf.

"Don't go near her again." Sam spat coldly.

"What the fuck…You don't tell me what to do Sam!"

"You're going to Canada soon…how could you play her like this?"

He knew. Sam knew what had happened. If Sam knew everyone else would know pretty soon. But that wasn't the problem. The problem was that Jacob was really going to Canada to live with the Cullens, to live with her. My body started trembling and I felt my control slipping away.

"I'm sorry mum but I need to go." I got up and when I was going out of the door his voice called my name.

"Where are you going Leah?" He asked me.

"Home." I didn't even turn around to face him.

"But Jacob was going to tell us if he's going with the Cullens…" Billy informed.

"He already made up his mind, Billy." I declared. "I guess he deserves a break. He needs to do what his heart is telling him to do. I wish him happiness…"

"Do you really think is wise to let him go Billy?" My mother asked.

"He has finished High School. I can't stop him from going."

"Do you want me to go?" He asked. That question was directed at me but no one realised that.

"I want you to do what you want. I guess the Council owes you that." Billy answered. "Besides the danger is over now and Sam or Leah can take your place."

"Since Jacob wants to go…I'll accept the alpha position." Sam said.

"My daughter can also assume the alpha position." My mother announced.

"No, I can't." I stated keeping my voice steady and holding back my tears. "I don't want to be the alpha. I want to stop phasing. I want to forget about this nightmare. Everything in my life was a damn mistake."

I said those words intentionally.

"Be happy with Bella." I added.

"I don't know if I want to go anymore…" Jacob mentioned. "I mean what about last…" He hesitated because we weren't alone.

I finally turned around to face him. I wished I could tell him I wanted him to stay with me, I wanted to tell him that last night wasn't a mistake. But there was no point doing that. Even if he didn't go with Bella, he would imprint someday. I couldn't risk another heartbreak.

"We don't need you Jacob." I said. "I don't need you. You're free to do what you want. Just take the chance and don't ever think about this again because I won't either."

I took a look at his face and saw a mixture of emotions that I couldn't actually recognise. Everyone else in the room was a bit surprised by my words but no one commented. I left shortly after.

As far as I was concerned there was nothing more for me there. I had to leave La Push before I'd go crazy. From now on Leah Clearwater was a lone wolf…a renegade…a rejected. Never again I would submit myself to others. Never again I would love again. After today it was just me and the world.

A/Note (2): Don't worry, they will meet again soon. Leah's just too scared to be with an non-imprinted wolf and Jacob is just scared because he thinks she doesn't love him. Thank you for all your reviews and support.

Karisan