"Take me to the library." I said quietly.

"What?" Light asked.

"I said, take me to the library."

Light sighed and made a right, parking in front of the library. I raced up the stairs, bursting through the doors and panting.

"Excuse me, do you have records of a gang shooting from the 80's or 90's?" I asked, trying to catch my breath.

I had forgotten I couldn't run like that anymore with my asthma. The woman said nothing and handed me a few disks to which I put them into a slide projector in a dark room. Light quietly snuck up behind me and covered me eyes as I flipped through 1983.

"Guess who?" He joked.

"Gee, could it be my knight in shining armor?" I asked sarcastically.

Light sighed and sat next to me as I flipped through many records of gang shootings. I had no idea there were so many in the span of about twenty years. A few hours flashed by me as I blinked in darkness, finding nothing about a Namida until 1992."

"Light, look!"

He had fallen asleep and was startled when I shook him awake. I thought my brother had been killed in the attack, and maybe that was why my parents never mentioned him, but I was wrong. He was the one who led the attack and killed dozens of kids.

Wait, kids?!

I had read right. He killed kids ages twelve to fourteen, kids who thought since they didn't belong with the 'in' crowd, that they would belong with a gang. How wrong they were. I read on in the article and found that L himself had investigated this crime. Apparently it took years for the police to find him, so they brought L in. Funny, L never mentioned anything about investigating a crime that involved my brother. What was more interesting was..

Kira hadn't caught him yet.

I ran from the projector onto the computer and quickly typed in 'Akemi Namida' and saw that he was on death row in America, scheduled to be put to death in the next few weeks.

"The American government can't do that.." I mumbled.

"Yes they can." Light said, studying the projector carefully.

Before I knew it, Light was scribbling away in his death note. I gasped and tackled him to the floor. I slapped his book away as Malak and Ryuk simply stood over us, wondering what was transpiring.

"Light, you bastard!" I grunted, grabbing the notebook.

It was too late. Akemi Namida was scribbled in, scheduled to die of a heart attack.

"Look what you've done!" I screamed, hurling his book at him.

I didn't bother to wait for him give me the stupid 'God-of-the-new-world' crap, so I stormed outside and walked home.

--

"Tsukiko honey, where have you been? Light's been waiting for you!" Mrs. Yagami said sweetly.

I ignored her and went upstairs to Light's room, opening the door and seeing Light and Misa suck each other's faces off.

"Totally walked in on the wrong time." I sighed and left.

"Tsukiko, wait!"

I stopped on the stairs as Light shoved his laptop into my hands. A webpage appeared before my eyes that read:

AKEMI NAMIDA, WHO WAS SCHEDULED TO BE PUT TO DEATH FOR HIS HORRIBLE CRIME, DIED OF A HEART ATTACK TODAY, LIKELY SET FORTH BY OUR GOD, KIRA.

"Just figured you should know." Light said with mock sympathy.

I tugged on his shirt collar and pulled his ear close to my lips.

"You are no God, Light Yagami."

And with that, I stormed out of the house and into town, hoping to find Ryuzaki and just vent. As I walked into town, people brushed past me, others asking for money, even more asking for drugs, and it made me realize I was not important in this world. I was like a pebble in the ocean. I sighed and walked up to a shady looking man.

"You looking to buy?" He whispered.

"Yeah," I whispered shamefully, "Just some cocaine."

He slipped a bag into my hand and I slipped a hundred dollar bill into his and we both walked away. I didn't even know why I bought this, I'm no drug addict. Maybe things would be easier if I was though. I was losing Ryuzaki to the Kira case, and I had already lost Light to Misa. My mother was dead and my father was in jail for life. I had a brother, but before I could even talk to him, he was killed by Kira. I shuffled into the hotel, going to the top floor and knocking on Ryuzaki's door. I heard shuffling behind the door and a sigh.

"What is it Tsukiko? I'm very busy." He sighed in frustration.

"Oh, never mind then. I'll go home." I replied sadly.

I heard the clink of a lock and he opened the door, his hair a mess as usual, and he was in bare feet, as usual. He waved his hand and I walked inside, noticing the amount of paperwork that was strewn all over hell's half acre and his laptop that had a giant old English 'W' on it. I kicked my feet nervously and sat on the couch, resting my head in my hands. Ryuzaki said nothing and went back to his work. I sighed and excused myself to the bathroom, turning on the light and seeing my face. My black hair was a frizzy mess, heavy bags rested under my eyes, and I had even put on a little weight. I emptied the bag onto the counter as my heart raced and butterflies settled in my stomach. I disassembled a razor and straightened the cocaine with one of the razors. I got down on my knees and found that I was eye-to-eye with the drug. Teachers drilled it into me that drugs were never an answer to anything, but then again, they haven't lived a life close to mine.

Maybe that sounds selfish, but I don't care anymore. I stood up slightly and snorted hard.

--RYUZAKI'S POV--

Tsukiko excused herself to the bathroom, so I let her. I didn't much care at this point, the Kira case is far too important to be dawdling in relationships anyway. I was going over an internet article about Tsukiko's brother and how he was finally caught by Kira.

"What a shame." I sighed and wondered if she knew about him.

Suddenly I heard a crash in the bathroom and glass break. I didn't move.

"Tsukiko, is everything alright?"

No answer.

"Tsukiko, are you okay?"

Still no answer.

I sighed and stood up, walking into the bathroom with my eyes closed.

"Alright Tsukiko, are you--"

What I saw truly shocked me. The toothbrush holder, soap dish and glass were knocked to the ground and broken, the mirror was cracked slightly and Tsukiko was no where in sight. The bathroom window was open and on the counter was a faint white residue and a razor. I wiped the powder with my finger and sniffed it slightly.

"Oh Tsukiko, you're so much better than this." I whispered and grabbed my cell phone to call Light.

"Yes?" Light said quietly.

"Light, I'm afraid we have a problem."

"Define 'problem'." He sighed.

"I think Tsukiko is high on cocaine and she's no where in sight."

"We'll be there in ten minutes." He said frantically and hung up.

--

Matsuda, Aizowa, Soichiro Light and Misa stood in my hotel room. I gritted my teeth slightly, irritated that this was setting back progress with the Kira case.

"Where do we start looking for her?" Matsuda asked.

"That's a good question. Light, Misa and I will look for her on the west side of town, Soichiro, Aizowa and Matsuda take the east side of town, and we'll meet up in the middle."

Everyone nodded slightly and left the hotel room, splitting into opposite directions.

What made Tsukiko think that cocaine would solve her problems?