Author's Note (Monster): Hello, our lovelies. I'm sorry, but I'll make the pauses between two chapters a lot longer. I won't post every 2 days. I think I might post once a week or once in two weeks. There's a very good reason to it. My mentor decided to give me another chance BUT only if I write a mindblowing story for him and show off my talents. So I'm working on a different story. Sorry, but I've still got 12 chapters. Awoken's still ill. I fear I might lose him. Enjoy.

Bloodspinat: I, too, love those stupid conversations. There's another one coming up. I still have something in store for J-Dog and Deuce. Also for Danny and Deuce. I'm happy too to have made up with Awoken, but I don't like the lack of cigarettes. It's like my hands are empty now. Enjoy!

Airia-Chalk: Sorry to hear you had a stressful weekend. Especially since I'm always bitching while I'm just sitting on my lazy ass. Here you got what Funny Man's going to do. Enjoy

Soon Danny left along with Charlie to get some groceries. Mostly to get their minds off the ruined interview. Funny Man was still as pale as a dead man and gulped. "No one can know about me and Danny!"

"Why not?" Johnny asked.

The Mexican sighed. "It's obvious, isn't it? How many guys stop listening to their favorite band when they discover their dating each other?"

"I get your point. What are you going to do about it?"

Funny Man bit his lip. "Honestly I think I need to end things with Danny."

"What?!" Da Kurlzz yelled.

"Yeah! I mean. We're not a power couple. He fucking throws me off when we try to get intimate. He's always screaming at night, kicking me before I can comfort him. Now we're destroying the image of the band. It's obvious fate doesn't want us to be together. We're not meant to be, I guess", Funny Man answered.

"That's just your fear speaking. You love him", J-Dog assured him.

The baritone voiced rapper lowered his gaze. "That's true. I think our relationship just started too soon. We weren't supposed to get together yet. I was going to make a move after the drama. I should break up with him and get back together after all of this, right? I can do that right?"

Johnny laughed mockingly. "Good luck telling him that without watching him have a breakdown or worse; another freak out!"

"He'll understand", Funny Man hushed. Both other men weren't convinced.

"No, I don't understand!" Danny screamed at Funny Man the next morning of Day 33. He just explained how he didn't want to be together with Danny and... He didn't get to say the rest. Danny burst out angry after that one sentence and the Mexican tried to get him to understand but now he was fully screaming into his face. "Get it, Danny! You're scared of yourself right now. As long as you're not fully back to normal, I can't be in a relationship with you!"

"You said you loved me!" Danny shouted, throwing a tantrum aboard the bus. Both J-Dog and Johnny covered their ears. Da Kurlzz and Charlie fell out of their bunk, startled because of the shrieking noise. "Danny, please, don't be childish now", Funny Man hushed.

Oh snap. The lead singer's eyes burst into flames and his whole body mutated into a huge monster to shred Funny Man into pieces. No, that didn't actually happen, but it could've happened if Danny's outside would reflect his insides. He was so damn furious right now. He almost leaped at the younger one, but Johnny was right in time to grab his waist and hold him back. "Now, let's not scratch his eyes out, Danny."

"I told you he wouldn't be cool with it", Johnny scowled at Funny Man.

The Mexican ignored the remark and stepped closer to Danny. "I still love you. I'll always love you, but I can't be with you unless you're you again."

"Do you have any idea what you just told me?" Danny hissed, suddenly so calm it was frightening. His eyes held a certain hatred which made Charlie and Da Kurlzz, behind Funny Man, quake with fear. "You just told me that you love me unless I'm mentally broken. You'll let go of me as soon as I'm going through post-traumatic stress. When it gets too difficult, you take the easy way out!"

Johnny held on more tightly, fearing the other was about to snatch himself loose out of his grip any time now. J-Dog whistled impressed. "You're in deep shit, Funny Man."

Funny Man held his face in his hands. "Fine, I'm sorry! I love you no matter what!"

"Too late for that now, asshole", Danny spat. His muscles relaxed and Johnny let go, feeling like the disaster had been avoided. "Don't speak to me again", Danny warned before walking off to his bunk.

Charlie joined J-Dog's side and mimicked his whistle. "He's pissed. When Danny's pissed, you better run."

Funny Man groaned and flopped down on the couch. "You guys are NOT helping!"

"Of course not. We're siding with Danny, man. It's an asshole trick to let him down now that he needs you most", Da Kurlzz stated, earning agreeing nods from Charlie, Johnny and J-Dog. The Mexican flailed his arms angrily. "NOT HELPING! You know I mean no harm, right? I love the kid! All I want now, is for him to forgive me and love me."

"Good luck", J-Dog wished him.

And he would need the luck. Each time he tried to talk to Danny, he got the silent treatment. The older one didn't speak a word to him. To no one. He just lied in his bunk, facing the wall. He didn't come out to eat or drink. Instead Charlie brought him a plate of food and a bottle of water. Each time the plate and bottle were empty when he came back. That was a good sign. A sign he wasn't starving himself. The Mexican felt guilty and tried to persuade him out of his bunk, to no avail. He didn't listen, didn't talk, didn't look at him. Nothing. He might've as well been dead this whole time.

That night. The night of Day 33, Funny Man got into his own bunk. Charlie had brought Danny his pills, which he didn't want to take at first, but eventually he gave in and took them. Then he fell asleep. Just like the others. He remained asleep, unlike the others. All five of them were wide awake because Danny was screaming his lungs out. He was having a terrible nightmare. Funny Man put his head underneath his pillow and grit his teeth. He didn't want to hear his screams. He didn't want to feel his pain.

When Danny was kidnapped, he felt his feelings inside his own heart. Because they were separated. While they were together, he never felt it anymore and simply slept through his nightmares until one of the bandmates shook him awake to tell him about the nightmare. Now they were apart again. Separated at heart and Funny Man felt his pain flare up inside. It was pure terror and agony. It hurt so much. He wished for it to disappear. His Danny was suffering and he felt it. He couldn't get up there to comfort him.

He couldn't.

They had broken up and he was no longer in charge of comforting him. He could try, but he knew Danny would get angry and kick him out of his bunk. So they listened to his screams. Charlie glared at Funny Man multiple times to go help him, but he couldn't. All four of them had their gazes pointed at the Mexican. Didn't they understand? They were no longer an item! He couldn't just get in bed with him and pet him and tell him everything would be fine! No one wants their ex to do that.

Instead he grit his teeth harder together and forced all of his love towards their connection at heart. He didn't know if it would work because in his mind he was sending all of his positive feelings towards Danny, but he didn't know if it actually worked. He could only try. And trying he did. He tried to shove all of his sweetness towards his ex-boyfriend. Strangely, it worked. Danny's screaming ceased to soft sobbing. Whether it was a coincidence or because it worked, he didn't know, but it didn't matter. Danny's pain was fading away. He felt it. In his heart the agony was slowly lessening. The fear was still there but he sent him some soothing thoughts. Soon the lead singer fell completely silent and Funny Man breathed out in relief. "Now happy?" he whispered towards the others.

They looked at him weirdly. "You didn't do anything."

"We've got a connection in our hearts, remember? I did comfort him", the Mexican snapped. Johnny rolled over. "I hate this sappy talk."

"Thanks", Charlie smiled and turned his back towards him. Within 15 minutes they were already asleep and snoring. Only Funny Man was wide awake. He felt the soft heartbeat of his loved one. It was steady but not slow enough. Not slow enough to convince him the other was actually asleep. He gulped, inhaled deeply and exhaled after holding his breath for a while. As if the air held the answer he just couldn't find. "I'm sorry, Danny", he whispered so quietly. He wasn't even sure if he had pronounced the words or thought about them, but the shifting in the bunk above confirmed he had pronounced them. He heard a deep sigh from the other and a deep pain in his chest.

He closed his eyes and in his mind, he caressed the other while he was falling asleep. Danny lay there, trying to fall asleep again after waking up harshly. He had heard Funny Man whispering and he had felt the soft sweetness radiating off him into his chest. He enjoyed it, but at the same time, he hated it. He didn't want to forgive the one who hurt him so deeply. It was just so unfair. Why did he love him? Why? He felt a soft caress and opened his eyes to find no one. It was all in his mind. In his heart.

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