a/N: Last Kim chapter before a Jared POV. I pray you don't hate me for this chapter....

**runs to hide from angry readers**

I go ballistic!!Yeah you make me a crazy chick.

25. Game over

An imprint is supposed to be completely perfect for her imprinter. She can do no wrong , her likes, her dislikes, her activities, her faults, and her strong points will somehow match his. It might be that they share them or that they are complete opposite in a very perfect complimenting kind of way. Making them two halves that fit perfectly. So I would think after that load of crap, picking a birthday present would be the easiest task. Of course when thinking about it I discovered it was not. Music seemed too generic, clothes were out of the question since he barely dressed now a days. It was too early to make him a kind of artsy crafty piece of sentimental shit.

When I had asked for help, I had not gotten much of it. Emily had assured me that any little thoughtful trinket would do. Lexie had suggested putting a bow on myself, and going commando to his birthday party. Maddie, well she didn't talk much to me anymore. Things were still strained between us. And as much as I had stop with the fucking up, I had yet to apologize to her and talk about it. I wasn't doing crap anymore but I was still not ready to talk about it.

So I turned to the person who I thought could be helpful in the matter. She knew how much it meant to me and she would right out tell me if I was being ridiculous without caring about my feelings. Leah. We hadn't spoken since the little camping trip. Mostly because I was embarrassed about the whole orgy sort of thing and I think she regretted the little heart to heart. We were not friends yet, but I could definitely see the possibility of it becoming a reality in a not so distant future.

I walked to the Clearwater's following my brother's directions. She actually lived one block from Jared's so it was not hard getting to the right house. Fortunately for me, or unfortunately, only her brother was there when I got there.

"Just knock on her door"The youngest Clearwater said leading me upstairs.

"Won't she get mad?"I asked afraid of Leah's reaction to my intrusion. Seth seemed to ponder the possibility and knocked on the door.

"Leah,Kim's here" After his yell there was a loud thud, a man's complaining noises and Leah's swearing. Seth's eyes only seemed to pop out of his head.

"Ewww Leah, I'm telling mom on you" He yelled his face green and running all the way to his bedroom, forgetting all about me and shutting himself. After some more cursing and what I recognized Paul's groaning. Leah was opening the door zipping up her jeans, her hair an obvious mess zooming out towards Seth's door and knocking on his door.

"Nice Kimmie"Paul snickered as he watched amused Leah threatening to bust Seth's door open.

"She told me to meet her here at four"I whispered wincing at the same time, as she resorted to punching the door.

"You're going to get that hand splintered babe"Paul said

"Urgh! You're such afucking asshole. Get out of my house!!What are you still doing here?" When Paul only laughed. She started walking menancingly towards us, and I couldn't help taking two steps back."Go!!" Paul just kept laughing as he finished buttoning the shirt he was wearing.

"Kim make yourself useful and get that bag of shit out of my house before girly Seth comes out and throws another tantrum"Leah said annoyed.

"I'm not a girl"We heard Seth's indignant yell muffled. So Leah turned her back on us and went back to yell at Seth, while I walked with Paul downstairs

"You have no shame"I said "What if I had been her parents, you are just waiting for another Sam temper tantrum"

"Easy there knicks. Parents are at the Makah rez for the whole weekend"He wagged his eyebrows suggestively and I was digusted.

"Knicks?" I asked "Why am I knicks and why are you all dressed up fancy pants. I thought you only wore cut offs and sneakers now a days"

"I was planning on spending all day here and then heading to your lover's boy party. But it seems I'll have some time on my hands. Which is perfect because then I can get him a very well deserved birthday present. Unlike some people I know"

I sneered. Of course Leah would tell him she was helping me to get Jared a gift on the last minute. Great. There was no hiding that little fact from my boyfriend now.

"The long face doesn't suit you knicks" Paul laughed .

"GOOD BYE!"And I closed the fucking door on his face. Putting a great value on my persona andmy safety I decided the most safe thing would be staying downstairs and wait for her. There was still some serious yelling upstairs, and being and expert on fights with little brothers, I was aware of how quickly they could escalate.

Finally after what seemed ages, but were barely twenty minutes, Leah was running downstairs looking in a better mood and keys ready in her hand. Guess we were driving up to Forks.

Once I had secured the seatbelt. And Leah had started humming a song from the radio, I braved myself enough to start adressing the matter at hand.

"So what are you wearing tonight?" Okay so maybe some friendly conversation opener wouldn't hurt.

"I don't know Kim"She said in a condescending tone "I don't think much about what I wear anymore. A dress I guess, maybe. I don't know" I guess it might not have been what I was expecting but at least she was talking. "Look this is probably pointless but do you have any ideas?"

I seriously tried to come up with something. Something to make look less pathetic, but my mind was completely blank. "No"

"Fine" She snorted and kept silent for the rest of the ride. Trusting my gut and her sudden change of mood I mirrored her silence. Finally when we got to Forks. She pulled up outside a litle gift shop. There were all kinds of stuffed animals, and mostly mushy stuff guys got for their girlfriends.

"There."She said pointing to the store as I was retarded and thought that maybe it was in the coffe shop where we were getting Jared's gift. If I thought the store was mushy from the outside, on the inside it was worse. I couldn't picture what Leah had in mind but I was almost regretting asking for her help in the first place.

"Leah?"I asked

"Yeah"she seemed to be scanning through the shelves.

"Are we looking or do you have something specific in mind"

"I'm looking" She laughed "And when I find it you'll see it"

"Great"I murmured. There was a cute stuffed panda bear I really liked. It was only eight dollars and if Jared's gift wasn't that expensive I was going to buy it for myself. Actually most of the little stuffed animals were kind of cute.

"Aww"I couldn't help squealing when I found a little brown wolf beanie baby. When I was a little girl I used to love beany babies, actually I had many still. Whatever Leah was thinking I was getting him that.

Leah only scoffed and kept looking, when she saw what I was holding. Finally she gave a triumphant yes, and called me over.

"Here" She said handing me package. "They are called love tokens. He can exchange them for a kiss, a hug, lalala. You get the idea right?" She explaining looking over them longingly.

"That's sweet"I said. It was the perfect gift, something romantic and cute, but not hand made or expensive. Something no one else could get him.

It was perfect.

On the ride back home Leah finally started talking.

"I gave those to Sam on our third month anniversary"She finally sighed "Jared will like them I am sure. "

"Thank you. "I said honestly "I really was lost."

"I understand"Leah sighed. "And the stuffed animal isn't that pathetic" She said laughing. And I laughed, going along with her, now that she seemed a little less brooding. She was all over the place and she was making me nervous

"Paul looked really good today"

"Well.."Leah said "I like him better on the nude"

"Oh my god "I gasped

"Don't act like a prude"She laughed "Because I know for a fact that you're not"

"Hey Leah" I said braving up.

"Yeah?"

"Would you like to get ready at my house?" It was the sacred bond ritual between teen girls. And it could be the first stone ina future friendship.

"Mmmm you can't help it can you?" Leah asked amused.

"What?"I asked feeling afraid if she was going to make feel ridiculous or something like that.

"The girly stuff"Leah laughed "We could paint each other's nails and do each other's hair" She said in a very high pitched voice. I sunk in my seat feeling the heat manifesting in my cheeks.

"My house" Leah said eyeing me amused. The brick was placed. Now I could get to work on the rest.

Yes her house was definitely one of the bestest ideas she had. Leah had booze, and ignoring my common sense I figured it would be a good idea to drink before the party. By the time I had finished ironing my hair, I was already tipsy or drunk. I couldn't tell exactly or make the most accurate assesment. Leah was very similar to Lexie, hanging out with her was pretty much the same, except for those little moody episodes she would have. They would also happen when we got too close to the Sam. So defying the odds and what I had imagined so far. I think we were oficially friends now.

I had borrowed a dress, product of her insistence. And she was wearing my shoes. I actually looked better than I usually did. Maybe a little slutty, some would think, but I liked it. I actually looked pretty, not just okay.

We walked to the party,the boys would probably drive us home. My curfew had been extended until two with the promise that Ade would get me home on time if Jared was not able to. It was quite a relief having my parents up and riding the Jared boat. When we arrived the party was in full swing. We didn't have to ring. The door was open. I had been expecting a small gathering with his closest friends, but it seemed like everyone was here. It was crowded, it was rowdy and it was making me very dizzy.

"Knicks" Someone yelled pulling us into what usually was the study but now was full of people dancing.

"What is this?"I asked looking around trying to spot Jared.

"A party"Paul laughed. His hand was already crawling its way down Leah's back into her ass.

"I'm going to go and find Jared" I said but I wasn't very sure they had heard me.

I didn't understand why were all these people here. Why had he invited half the school, and after chatting up with a very shy Emily and an annoyed Sam. They had called it a night . Sam had promised to come back and help clean Jared's house. He was not playing good cop tonight, only because it was Jared's birthday and apparently him and Paul had promised to keep things under control. No drugs, and the alcohol had to be kept to a minimum. Not that it would stop people from sneaking in their own bottles. Still I was sure Sam leaving had more to do with a certain twosome who couldn't keep their hands off each other.

One of the participants in said twosome was putting up a show especially for Sam, I was afraid. And it was killing him. So it was best for them to leave.

Besides I finally had the so much needed alone time I wanted with my boyfriend.

"Finally" He said as we sneaked into his bedroom.

"Turn them off" I said leaving my shoes by the door. "We gotta be quick" I whispered feeling a rush of adrenaline, just from knowing there was a sea of people in the house. luckily for me I didn't have to tell him two times. He was colliding with me, landing us in the bed, and kissing me. His hands reached for my thighs crawling their way up and finding the other birthday surprise I had for him.

"Holy mother"He grunted "You're not wearing anything" He whispered before letting his hand work their magic.

"Happy birthday"I panted between short breaths. I was already worked up and I was sure in no time he would have me exactly where he wanted. And where I was dying to get.

"Moore"I pleaded. I let my teeth sink into the skin on his neck to keep myself from screaming as I much wanted to do. The pace of his fingers was driving me crazy and I was not very sure how much longer I could hold for.

And just as the last wave of pleasure hit me and I found release, there was a loud knock on the door. Jared who didn't even seem that drunk kissed me before pulling down my dress and going to the door and see who it was.

"Paul"Jared groaned."Get lost"Paul seemed to say something but I didn't have superwolf hearing

"Fine. We'll be down in a minute." Jared huffed.

"What's wrong?"I asked getting up and pressing myself against him

"We have to go back. "Jared said kissing me again "I'll guess this will have to wait."

"It's okay, it's your birthday. You should enjoy it with everybody" I said putting my shoes back on.

"It's good seeing everyone again" He smiled as we left his bedroom. Right. I had forgotten Jared used to have many friends before the whole wolf thing. A whole life before me. I knew some of them. But we didn't actually move in the same circle.

I prepared myself for the worst. I was going to have to sit there and be judged by his friends. His lifetime long friends.

Just when I thought I was done with the judging. I had to do it all over again.

"Aren't you excited about it Kim?"Cynthia asked. Leah glared at her, from her sitting place in Paul's lap. And I just stared having no idea what the hell was she talking about. Cynthia, Paul's ex girlfriend, Leah ex girl-friend apparently. And Jared's friend... how had I forgotten that little detail....

"Yeah" I said reaching for a glass of someone else and downing its contents. This sucked. We were sitting in the living room, surrounded by Jared's friend, some of them, the boys especially were Leah's friends too. But since I had arrived it was very clear I was not very well liked.

Apparently I was blamed for Jared's absent period. They hadn't so much said it, Jared would've snapped. But they had implied it, especially Cynthia, who apparently was still harboring some kind of hate and resentment for what I had done months ago with Paul.I really wasn't cut for dealing with subtle attacks, smirks, scowls when Jared wasn't looking and double entendre phrases that were meant to ridicule me. The worst part of all was that I didn't want to seem like a wuss and leave. But I honestly felt like crying and going home. I didn't feel comfortable under the judgemental stares of all of them.

"See Jared you should play" Matt said punching Jared in the arm "You're all buffed up now. And the team needs you"

"Maybe Kim can join the cheerleading team"Cynthia smirked. "I mean I've seeing you dance but you do have some school spirit"

"Right so her and Jared can turn into one of those ridiculous cliched couples" Leah snorted

Cynthia laughed "You're right, we wouldn't want her to end up like you and Sam."Leah's drink was instantly splashed all over Cynthia's dress and the latter was shrieking, horrified with the prospect of her dress being completely ruined.

Paul tried to restrain her arms and pull her back. And that only seemed to spite Cynthia even more.

"Come on Leah. That was not cool" Jared said offering some napkins to Cynthia. "You both need to cool it off. "

"Let go Paul" She got out. Leah stared for a moment and Cynthia studying her, she started to lose the scowl when she looked at Jared and then at Paul and back at me. Before any of us where in the joke she was laughing in that evil and scary way only Leah managed. Like a true villain.

"Green doesn't suit you"Leah smirked "I should've figured it out sooner"Leah laughed again. Cynthia only seemed to get even redder.

"Leah?"Paul asked unsure.

"She's just being a bitch because she couldn't keep you or Jared"Leah declared, and when Jared's eyes popped out and Paul swore, she realized she had said something she wasn't supposed to.

"Jared?"I whispered confused, what did Cynthia had to do with him."You were Paul's girlfriend"I stuttered.

"And I was dating Jared when you were kissy kissy with him"Cynthia smirked pointing to Paul and obviously pleased with how the tables had turned.

"Kim..."I heard Jared say

"And I'm not jealous"Cynthia declared proudly "You can have my sloppy seconds"

"Kim!!!" I didn't want to stay and hear anything else I locked myself in the bathroom sinking to the floor, not being able to supress my sobs. It was not that he cheated or anything. It was the humillation, and my insecurities coming up, the alcohol, and the guilt. It was everything.

"Kim we're here"I woke up in someone's car. I was a little fuzzy about the details on what had happened. I remembered getting out of the bathroom, fighting with Jared and then drinking myself again until alcohol felt like water going down my throat.

"It was stupid" I said to nobody.

"You cousin called your mom and told her you were staying at Madison's." Paul said. I looked around, but it was only him and me in the car. He looked tired and handsome. I had to do a double take, it had been so long since I had thought of Paul in that way.

I was drunk, completely drunk. Moral compass thrown away. This was not good.

"Thanks"I murmured opening the door immediately, and tried to get out, unfortunately I landed flat on the ground

"Kim!"Paul jumped out of the car and in an instant he was at my side. My nose was hurting and I quickly felt the liquid trickling down my upper lip. The smell filling my nostrils. I was bleeding. Shit

"You're a mess" Paul murmured pressing a napkin to my face. I broke out crying again.

"Kim what the hell are you doing"He sighed patting my shoulder.

"I don't know"I croaked. A question many people had asked and one I didn't have an answer for "Leah I could handle "I started the word vomit "But Cynthia and Leah and who else,all of them beautiful. I just ..."

"He imprinted on you. You're pefect for him"Paul said giving up and sitting next to me in the street.

"Imprint. Don't you see he loves me because of the wolf, he would be with Cynthia or someone else as beautiful as them if it weren't for the imprinting. And I hate that!"I yelled. "Like how Sam loves Leah even though he imprinted on Emily."

"Sam doesn't love her"Paul's said his voice getting lower.

"Pleeeasee"I said "If I got paid a dollar for everytime he looks at her with loving eyes, I would be a millionare right now. Open your eyes Paul. People who imprint can love on the side, can like someone else..."

"They can"I sobbed. I looked up at Paul's face, the poor sucker was in it for more than the physical. I wasn't surprised, guess girls like Leah and Cynthia could have that effect on people. He had fallen for both and only snogged me.

"Paul"I said looking up

"Are they really that much prettier than me?" I asked.

"Kim you're beautiful" He said, and I couldn't help my hand reaching to push back his hair as I usually did with Jared.

"What are you doing?" He said pulling back, immediately. I broke into more crying, at the rejection. Not seeing how wrong it was for me to even attempt it.

"Don't cry, look everything will work out."He said leaning again and pulling me up again. Uncharacteristically for him he wrapped his arms around me in an awkward hug and let me sob.

"You should go inside"He said. I shook my head and as he brought my chin up, I was closing the distance between us.

"Kim"He said sternly taking a step back and I was breaking in sobs again. And then poof. He was being tackled taking me to the ground with him. Someone had appeared out nowhere at his side.

Jared.

The shit was about to hit the fan.

Game over Kim.

a/N: Okay so cynthia is the girl Jared was having sex with when he imprinted on Kim. I know many things in chapter seem random but as you've been seeing I bring them back into the plot because that's how i think life works. paul doesn't like kim, and he was not going to kiss her or anything. unfortunately for them it was very bad timing. the fight and what happened between jared and kim before will be on next chapter. will try to post this weekend. hopefully.

tomorrow new moon movie, im so excited hahahaha