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Chapter 25

I'm sorry that your daddy died. No child should lose his or her parent at such an early age. He had done so much wrong but he did love you and took care of you. Now you're alone, waiting for someone to find you. We're looking for you, my boy. We never stopped. Your daddy's death will give us hopefully more clues on your whereabouts.

I'm so worried. There is no one who will give you food or drinks, put you in bed, play with you, read your stories…Or is there? Is there someone who keeps you safe even though your dad isn't here anymore?

I wish that you were here. And I wish that Deeks was here. Right now he's in big trouble and we can't help him. Even Hetty can't help him. He made such a mess. He's in jail. They think he killed your dad. And I don't know what to think anymore. It's all confusing. My heart says he could have never killed your dad. He would never do something like that. But my mind is throwing in counterarguments. It's driving me crazy. How can I not know if Deeks killed your dad or not? When you love someone you should know, right?

All I know for certain right now is that we need to find you, my little boy. I want to see and hold you. I miss you so much.

Lots of love and kisses,

Your mom

Kensi glanced at the door when someone knocked on it. Sam's head appeared and he stepped inside, holding a tray with food. He put it down but instead of leaving her alone, he stayed in the room. Kensi looked questioningly at him.

'You should eat,' he said. 'And not only for the baby, but also for you. In give or take twenty weeks you'll have to deliver a baby. I have seen three of those and I can tell you that you'll need to eat to prepare.'

'I'm not hungry, Sam,' Kensi said frustrated.

'Then it's going to be a long day,' Sam said. ''Cause I won't leave until you finish that plate. Don't think I won't be able to keep that up. Ask any of my kids and they will tell you that I will stay until the plate is finished. I do it for you.' Kensi took a piece of fruit and put it in her mouth.

'Happy?' she asked him and Sam nodded.

'Keep going,' he said. 'Meanwhile, I will tell you something.' Kensi raised her eyebrows but she kept eating. Sam leaned against the dresser before he continued. 'I know this woman and she is really stubborn but she's stubborn because she's afraid. Afraid of getting hurt again. She has dealt with a lot of loss and she wants no more hurt. She doubts about her abilities of being a mom because she lost her son. But what she doesn't realize is that she was a great mom for that boy. That it isn't her fault that he's missing. The only problem is now that she is turning into the bad mom she thinks she is.' Kensi glanced down at her big belly and stroked it gently. Sam crouched down in front of her.

'Kensi, you are an amazing mom,' he told her. 'Give your little girl a change to meet her amazing mom.' Kensi nodded and suddenly she was hugging Sam.

'Thank you,' she whispered in his ear.

'Now eat your food,' Sam smiled. 'And you have an appointment with doctor Idle in two hours.'

'We talked about your blood pressure before, right?' Dr. Idle asked and Kensi nodded, slightly confused while Dr. Idle wiped the gel from her stomach. 'Well, it's still too high. This means that you'll have to stop completely with work. Your work is still causing too much stress.'

'Well, right now everything is a bit stressful,' Kensi said. 'My husband is murdered, my son is still missing and my boyfriend is in jail on suspicion of the murder.' Dr. Idle calmly wrote something down, like she heard those kind of reasons every day.

'Well, it still means that you have to stop working,' she said. 'And that not only means not going to your work but also no work at home. And I want you to come back next week to check your blood pressure again. Kensi, I really mean it. This is serious. Not only is a high blood pressure harmful for your baby but it is also harmful for you. It'll eventually harm your kidneys.' Kensi slowly nodded.

'I'll take it easy,' she said.

'Great,' Dr. Idle replied with a smile.

When Kensi walked out of the office, Callen and Sam got up from their seats and they walked towards her.

'Everything okay?' they asked worried.

'Umm, doctor Idle thinks it is wise to stop with work,' Kensi answered. She wasn't telling the complete truth to keep them from hovering. Only it didn't exactly work.

'Something wrong with you or the baby?' Sam asked worried.

'My blood pressure is too high,' Kensi told them. 'But it's caused by stress. When Deeks comes home and when we find Damian and Mark's killer, everything will be fine. I just have to take it easy now.'

'Since when is it such a mess in here?' Kensi heard Deeks say and she turned to the front door, where he was standing with a big smile on his face. Kensi walked over to him and wrapped her arms around him. Then she kissed him, not caring about Callen and Sam who were standing in the same room. She was so happy that Deeks was back. Also the kiss was an apology. An apology for doubting him. She should have known that Deeks wouldn't have killed Mark.

'Well, that was a nice greeting,' Deeks smiled and he gave her another kiss. 'You missed me that much?'

'Yes,' Kensi answered him.

'Alright, I think that this is our cue to leave,' Sam interrupted the moment and he looked at Callen, who nodded.

'Thanks for taking care of them,' Deeks said, still holding Kensi close, like he never wanted to let her go again.

'When are you going to learn that we will always take care of them? Callen asked with a smile on his face. He and Sam quickly grabbed some of the files that were laying all over the room. They said their goodbyes and left Deeks and Kensi on their own.

'You're okay?' Kensi asked worried and she looked at him. 'Do you want anything to eat?' She was already on her way to the kitchen when Deeks stopped her by grabbing her hand, pulling her back to him.

'As horrible as the food was,' he began and he leaned in closer, 'I missed you and our girl the most. And if I want some food, I'll get it myself. Now tell me: how are you?' Tears threatened to fall and Kensi swallowed. Deeks pulled her back in the hug. 'That bad, huh?' Kensi nodded into his shoulder and Deeks rubbed her back softly.

'He's all alone now,' she sobbed and she looked Deeks into his eyes. He said nothing and he placed a kiss on her forehead. Right that moment Kensi realized how much she had missed him and how much she needed him.

Callen looked at the woman in the picture that was hanging to the left side of his wall. It was a picture of Sarah, holding her brother, and they had both big smiles on their face. That was how Callen remembered Mark. As a happy, loving person. He had liked Mark right away. The entire team had. Mark had become a friend of them. They were all happy when Kensi told them that she was getting married to him.

'If you tell me to pick you up at half past six, I'm here at half past six,' Sam said annoyed while he and Callen were driving to Kensi's place. 'You should have been ready to go!'

'I just had to get my jacket,' Callen replied. 'That took a minute.'

'Actually it took two minutes,' Sam corrected. 'And I like to be on time'

'Kensi won't be on time, so why should we?' Callen asked. 'If we arrive at her place at seven , Kensi won't be ready. You have to give her fifteen minutes extra.'

'When we're talking outside of work…you might be right,' Sam agreed.

'Might be?'

'Yes, might be. Can we discuss something else? Like the reason why Kensi is making us all dinner?' Callen nodded. That was a good question.

'All she told me was to be at her place at seven,' he told Sam. 'I didn't even need to bring beer.'

Kensi opened the door with a big smile and she was looking over her shoulder, probably listening to one of Deeks' stories.

'Deeks beat us?' Callen asked Sam softly.

'I told you we had to be here at seven,' Sam replied. But when they walked into the room, they saw that Deeks wasn't sitting on the couch. Callen had never seen the man before, or at least that he could remember. The man immediately stood up to shake their hand.

'Mark Harris,' he introduced himself with a big smile and he took a quick look at Kensi.

'Hello?' Deeks asked carefully from outside and he looked inside.

'Mark, this is Callen, Deeks and Sam,' Kensi introduced them. 'Guys, this is Mark and he…he is my boyfriend.' She looked at Mark with a smile on her face.

'Nice to meet you all,' Mark said and he slipped an arm around Kensi's waist. 'Kensi told me a lot about you all.' Callen glanced at Deeks, who was standing speechless in the room. This was going to be a fun dinner.

'I asked you all to come so that you could meet Mark,' Kensi told them and she took a look at Mark, who was cooking in the kitchen. 'And also to tell you that we're planning to move in with each other.'

'So soon?' Deeks asked in shock. Kensi smiled shyly. Callen had never seen her do that before.

'Actually we have been together for two months now,' she told them. 'We met four months ago and there was just a click…'

'Still: so soon?' Deeks repeated.

'You could be happy for me,' Kensi replied and she crossed her arms.

'Of course we're happy for you,' Sam said and he pulled her in a hug.

'Where are you going to live?' Eric asked, who had finally arrived.

'For the time being, we're going to live here,' Kensi answered. 'But we do want to get a place for the two of us.' Mark gestured her to come and she quickly left.

'Well, that was a surprise,' Eric said.

'Yeah, not what I expected when she asked me to come over for dinner,' Deeks said.

'They look really happy,' Callen noted, who was looking at Kensi and Mark. Mark gave her a quick kiss and it looked like Kensi was giggling.

'So, I hated her that she was right there, ruining my best shirt and my meeting,' Mark told them laughing. 'But over the next couple of days, I couldn't forget her. Mainly because she owned me money for the drycleaners. And when I went to a bar a few days later, I saw her sitting at the bar. That was the moment I thought: why do I hate her? I should get to know her better.' He looked lovingly at Kensi and he held her hand. 'But that was more than enough about me. I would like to get to know Kensi's friends.'

'We like to keep our lives private,' Deeks told him bitterly.

'Don't pay attention to Deeks,' Kensi said. 'He doesn't like surprises.'

'Deeks? So you're the one keeping Kensi safe?' Mark asked Deeks.

'We're the ones who make sure he doesn't mess up,' Sam said.

'Well, I thank you all,' Mark smiled and he gave Kensi a kiss, who was smiling. The guys weren't used to see Kensi like this. But Callen didn't mind to see her like that. She looked happy. Mark seemed like a good guy, who really cared about Kensi.

But it had been all a lie. Mark had threatened to kill Kensi to keep Deeks silent. What kind of person threatens to kill his own wife?

Sam looked at his kids, making homework and Nina, supervising them. He thought about how close Mark had been to his family. Mark had danced with Sam's family. And Sam hadn't suspected a thing. He was genuinely shocked when Deeks told them everything. He didn't even believe him for the first minutes. He thought it was jealous talk of Deeks. Until they arrived at the cabin, finding Damian all alone, with no sign of Kensi or Mark. That was when Sam knew Deeks was right about Mark because Kensi would never leave Damian alone.

When Eric looked again at the information about Mark, he noticed something and he felt so stupid. While he checked the database and his mail, he called Callen and Sam to let them know what he had found.

'Okay, Abby tested Mark's clothes for all kinds of things but came up with almost nothing,' Eric told Callen and Sam. They were at Ops working on Damian's case. 'He had polls on his clothes but those polls can be found all over America, so useless. McGee and I checked his credit cards but that's all over the place. We were trying to pinpoint his location but that's causing us some trouble.'

'So we got nothing new,' Sam concluded.

'I didn't say that,' Eric said. 'Somewhere I came across Sarah Williams' phone records. She has been called by her brother several times.'

'And you could find his location by the GPS of the phone?' Callen asked.

'No, it was a burner phone' Eric said. 'But Sarah has been talking with her brother. It started about two and a half years ago.'

'Which means that she might know where Mister Harris has been living,' Hetty said, walking into the room. 'I suggest you go talk to her, Mister Callen and Hanna.'

'Why do I have to come here, again?' Sarah asked. 'My brother was killed. I need to arrange his funeral…wait…do you...You don't think I killed my brother, right?' Once again Callen and Sam were shocked by the resemblance between Mark and Sarah. Both had dark brown hair and bright green eyes that looked so trustworthy. And of course they saw some of Damian's features in the woman's face.

'We don't work on your brother's case,' Sam told her. 'We're not allowed…'

'Because of Kensi's partner right?' Sarah said. 'Because he probably killed my brother.'

'We're working on your nephew's case,' Sam continued, not reacting to her question. 'Damian is still missing and now without someone who can take care of him. We need you to tell us where he is.' Sarah shook her head.

'Mark was so happy with his son,' she told them with a sad tone in her voice. 'It's horrible that he won't be able to see his son grow up.'

'Neither could Kensi, his mother, for the past four years,' Callen replied. 'And it wasn't like your brother was an innocent person. He killed seven people.'

'Stop telling me that!' Sarah said frustrated. 'Mark wasn't well then. He is…was a great person, a great dad. I don't want to hear it anymore!'

'It'll be something that you'll keep hearing since it is the truth,' Callen replied. 'Now please tell us where Mark lived for the last couple of years so that we can find Damian!' Sarah stared at the table and after a minute or so, she looked up.

'Can I tell Kensi?' she asked and Callen and Sam glanced at each other.

TBC.

I don't have enough time to update this weekend but I did found time to update today =D Hope you liked it