Chapter 25
The first day back turned out to be a long one and Mya felt more tired than she let on, knowing if the boys found out she was tired they'd probably be carrying her back to her dorm and not letting her walk to dinner. She sat at the table not eating much, the Great Hall was very noisy and somehow in her time at home she'd managed to forget that.
Forgetting things was going to become normal though isn't it? She thought to herself.
She wondered what memories had been lost… what if they were important.
She pushed the food across her plate again. She wanted to know what exactly had happened and no one seemed to want to tell her, she was pretty sure no one had told Blaise… knowing she would have it out of him in a second. She smiled fondly after thinking of the secrets she'd forced out of him in the past.
Hang on?
The facts seemed to be mounting up here… something had changed. She remembered a hell of a lot more about her childhood. Why would that happen? She was supposed to have lost memories not gained them.
She pushed the food a little further around her plate looking down at what used to be mashed potato and carrots and gravy and now just looked like slop, cold slop. She put her fork down. She wasn't hungry anyway.
Blaise and Draco were talking next to her and Pansy was no where in sight. She couldn't stay here with all this noise if she was going to work out what the hell people weren't telling her. She stood up abruptly and turned around walking briskly out of the Great Hall.
Behind her Blaise and Draco stopped talking and both looked at her plate, there was barely anything missing… she'd been pushing food around since dinner began. Draco scolded himself for not paying more attention and moved to get up.
"Maybe she just needs sometime to think" Blaise told him
"She's not eating, she's been quiet all afternoon, something's wrong she didn't even say anything about the sprouts… you know she loves them." Draco replied concern etched in to his face
"Yeah, she didn't even have one… but maybe give her half an hour, maybe she can talk some sense in to Pansy or something. I wanna know what's going on there!" Blaise gritted out getting more agitated as he thought about it.
"Yeah, ill leave her for a while I guess" Draco mused, relaxing back in to his seat.
Mya went straight to the Head Girl's dorm; she lay down on her, bed her mind was buzzing. What the hell had happened, she was trying to remember what it was that she was supposed to have lost. A pointless exercise she realised but she couldn't understand how losing more recent memories would have brought others to the surface.
Dear Diary
Hey… its me as usual feeling a little glum, first day back today was pretty ruff going, and I'm really tired which is more than just a little annoying. Can't work out what's wrong with my memory, I remember things from when I was younger like they were last week… and it only just occurred to me, I didn't really spend a lot of time thinking about it when I first found out I didn't focus on trying to remember, although I didn't try now either.
This is so weird!
The thing is I don't really remember not knowing things about my family, did I always have the knowledge but it was just locked in my brain? Was it always there and now I've had this 'illness' its coming back like it was knocked lose from wherever it was being kept?
Is that what the DL was doing? Trying to knock those memories out? I know dad wanted me to remember stuff and so did bear. Neither of them could have done that to me… maybe he did it for them?
Why are all these images just filtering through my brain now, I've been better for a while now. Why the fuck wont someone tell me what the fuck is going on!? This is giving me a fucking headache now!
What could do this; there are no spells that are that specific there are only… potions… Sev
Coming to the conclusion that she didn't give a shit how she was going to get answers from the man she stood up and stormed out of her dorm. She marched her way to the potions lab, where Sev was normally found most nights after tea, which was just finishing and found it empty. She continued on the corridor, berating herself for how long it took her to figure out something was wrong.
Pansy walked in to the Great Hall towards the end of dinner and sat down in her usual seat. She refused to look at Draco and Blaise but she want going to let the world know they had fallen out, she wasn't a Gryffindor after all.
"Pans I know your pissed but have you seen My?" Draco asked her
"No" She replied evenly
"Oh, she kind of walked off while we were talking about what happened this morning, and I know this isn't the place before you scream at us, but we assumed she'd gone to find you, she hasn't eaten much either, I'm a little worried" Draco confessed
"You are always worried. She's probably in her dorm, how long has she been gone?" Pansy asked knowing more than the boys about how much today had really taken it out of her friend.
"I don't know, I suppose I should check on her." Draco shrugged, not wanting to be annoying and over protective again.
"She's probably sleeping" Pansy said
"Why would she be sleeping its not even half seven yet?" Blaise cut in
"Pans, are you covering for her? Where is she?" Draco asked ignoring Blaise's comment as Pansy hadn't acknowledged it either.
"No I'm not covering, honestly I haven't seen her, but she was tired so she might have gone to bed"
"She said she was feeling fine" Blaise said
"Pansy how do you mean tired?" Draco asked
"Tried like today's taken it out of her that's all" Pansy had resigned herself to being in trouble today why not take a bit more
"What? She said she felt fine! Why wouldn't she say if she was tired? We went out for a walk around the lake earlier; I should never have suggested it!" Draco fumed to himself
"That's probably why she didn't say, she probably had a nice day but she's just tired now, just because it tired her out doesn't mean she wouldn't have wanted to do it and you holding her back and mollycoddling her will only annoy her Drake you need to calm down." Pansy replied calmly
"Calm down, the girls not eating properly, she's lying to me. She was barely talking this afternoon, and she seems bothered by something but wont tell me what" I have reasons to be worried he glared at her
"Then go check on her" Pansy sighed resigned to the inevitable
"I will" Draco huffed.
"I'll come with you" Blaise chimed in after watching the exchange
"I think you should stay and sort your life out mate" Draco said before grabbing his bag and walking out, knowing Blaise was glaring daggers at his back.
Reaching the office Mya knocked once and entered when told she could. Severus eyebrow shot up when he saw her.
"What can I do for you?" He asked her as soon as she'd shut the door and sat down.
"You can tell me what's going on" She replied evenly
"I'm sure I don't know what you're talking about…" Severus began
"Cut the bullshit Sev" Mya interrupted glaring at him in a way that even Lucius would be proud of.
"What do you know?" he asked resigned to his fate… Alberto was going to kill him
"I've lost memories, but I've gained others, I wanna know if the DL did this o purpose because Lucius and my dad couldn't?" She asked
"You weren't supposed to lose memories"
"So this was on purpose then"
"You had a mind block; they are hard to dissolve with potions alone unless you begin the process with physical magic and then move on to potions. The only problem being that the DL as you put it got a little too excited by all the information you held about Potter and left some legions we believe on your memories."
"What does that mean?" She asked
"The memories are still there, they are just damaged and you can't read them, there are potions to help with repairs but they have been deemed too risky. I'm sorry"
"Why are they risky?"
"They can if brewed incorrectly impair your cognitive function, they could do nothing, or you could react to them badly possibly resulting in death."
"If brewed incorrectly?"
"Yes"
"Then why haven't you started brewing them?" Mya asked looking a little bewildered
"Your father says he would rather have you like this than risk losing you again" Severus looked tired like he had fought this fight more than once and normally it was him on the fighting for it side.
"I don't care… get to work, I trust you. I want you to do it"
Draco reached the Heads dorm and walked in; going to Mya's room he knocked and entered not seeing her anywhere. He looked at the bed… shed been here the sheets were ruffled. He saw the book laid on the bed, scanning the entry he became more worried, getting to the last word he stood up and marched in the same direction he was pretty sure she went in.
"Sev" Draco called walking straight in to the office
"My my I am popular today" Severus sarked
"Yeah sure, I'm looking for Mya" Draco blurted
"She is not here" Severus pointed out the obvious
"Have you seen her" Draco asked
"Yes, she left about five minutes ago"
"Why was she here?" Draco questioned
"I think you should ask her, now if you don't mind I have work to do." Severus said briskly
Draco left going back to the Head dorms hoping to catch Mya there. He wondered what she had asked Sev, what had he told her and why wouldn't he tell him? He reached the dorms and muttered the password walking in pleased to see Mya sat on the sofa cuddled under a blanket reading a book.
"Hey you" She said smiling
"Hey" He replied
"Been looking everywhere for you" He said moving her so he could sit with her leaning on him
"Really, why?" She asked yawning and putting her book down shifting so she was just snuggling him.
"Pansy said you were tired, and you didn't eat much at dinner, something's been bugging you all day and I intend to get it out of you, tickle torture or not your choice" He said hoping he sounded serious but light hearted too so he wasn't been overprotective boy again
"Well if it's the only way to get your hands all over my body ill take the tickling, otherwise…" She looked up at him smiling deviously
He smirked "Mya… you know you can't look at me like that and expect me not to want to ravish you right here"
"Maybe I want you to" She countered biting her lip
Draco groaned she knew exactly how to get him. Crashing their lips together and pulling her up so their bodies were flush together he forgot completely about getting anything out of her and concentrated more fully on getting her out of that pesky clothing…
They enjoyed both passion and love that night and both slept soundly sated and naked on the couch.
Mya was the first to wake the next day and pealing herself away from Draco she noted that there was a blanket around them and that the fire had gone down making it a little chilly. She put the blanket around Draco and went to shower; she had things to do today.
It was still early but being that she had put Harry off meeting her yesterday telling him she was tired she had to make that up by having an early breakfast by the lake with him. She dressed and left the room leaving a note to let Draco know where she was and putting a spell on the sofa to make it vibrate if he wasn't up soon. They had classes after all.
A.N. Well there we go… leave me a review… we might be looking at more frequent updates for a while