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Austin's POV
I open my eyes and I'm still in the backseat of my car, but the car is parked now. I've come down from my high and my head feels cloudy, honestly I feel like total shit for a multitude of different reasons right now. They've brought me to a special place, a place where I can clear my head.
" Austin, get out of the car right now!" Trish screams at me as she gets out of the passengers seat and opens the rear right passenger door. She along with Jace's help yank me up to my feet. "Okay, okay. I'm getting out." Once I'm out of the car, she slaps me upside the head, I groan in pain.
"You deserved that. You know that. I can't believe out of all the stupid things that you've done... currently this is the worst. You knew how Ally felt about cocaine and you still did it anyway. How could you do that to her Austin? And you wonder why she thinks that she means nothing to you. Well, your actions once again are the fucking reason why."
"Trish, I wasn't thinking."
"That's the problem Austin, when are you ever thinking about anyone but yourself?"
"Hey, that's not true." I attempted to argue my case, huge mistake.
"Oh, I beg to differ. Way to turn around and start acting like a fucking womanizer again! I can't deal with you anymore. You promised Ally and once again all of your promises turn out to be... Words that you just say without any real meaning."
I decide to ignore what she says, "I'd ask you where we are. but I know where we are."
"I really should kick the shit out of you."
"Trish I need to talk to Ally." I plead towards her hoping that the mention of her best friend will soften the daggers in her eyes, but she goes into super overprotective mode.
"No, don't you dare call her. She's on her private jet anyways."
"How do you?"
"Dez. I'm also still her manager as well even though I'm not with her on her tour, when I should be." She glares at me.
I've decided to go against Trish's demand and plead for me to not contact Ally as she knows that it will probably only make everything worse, but I just can't stay strong and not contact her right now. She's probably insanely worried and hysterically crying at the moment, with my luck Dez or even Logan are the one's that are comforting her.
To Ally from Austin
I know that you have seen the pictures.
To Austin from Ally
Yes, I have.
To Ally from Austin
I know that it looks bad. I know what it looks like.
To Austin from Ally
I'm sure it's exactly what it looks like.
To Ally from Austin
I wasn't thinking. I've sobered up, I swear. I'm sorry I should have known better because of everything that happened when you lost Molly.
To Austin from Ally
You just confirmed what I already knew in my heart was true. Yet another broken promise that might as well be an empty one.
To Ally from Austin
Baby, I love you and I miss you.
To Austin from Ally
I'm sorry, but I don't believe you. I wish that I could, but I just can't. Does the girl straddled on your lap bother me? Yes, but it's much more than that and you know that. The real problem is that you did it to begin with and knew how I felt about coke in general. If you really "love" me.. the second I'm guessing you were offered or about to snort a line from that girls chest you would have stopped, but you didn't. It just shows me where your priorities lie and as always on the next hottest piece of ass you can get.
To Ally from Austin
That's not true, that girl meant nothing to me, I swear. I was just hurt. I'm hurt that you're with someone else and that you have seemingly moved on. I can only assume that you're with him, even though you may not be exclusive with him or anyone at all. Ally this is tearing me up inside.
To Austin from Ally
And yet as always, when things get tough instead of alcohol this time you decided to turn to drugs, and not just any drug but the one that killed my cousin. I am trying to wrap my head around this and why you would do this, but I just can't. Molly's death isn't something that should be made a mockery of Austin. It destroyed my family. Do you have any idea how many times my aunt has cried into my shoulder because of just how much she misses her? How she wishes that she would have known sooner and that we could have stopped her? You can't even comprehend the sight that is consuming my thoughts and I have constant nightmares about. My cousin basically looking like a ghost on the bathroom floor drenched in water. Being that the bathtub was overflowing it's clear that she intended to commit suicide and drown herself after she took that entire vile.
She completely ignored what I said about Logan.
Of course she did, he has nothing to do with this. This is about you fucking up once again, Austin. This is not about Logan and his 'frielationship' with Ally.
To Ally from Austin
I'm honestly so sorry, Baby.
To Austin from Ally
I loved you Austin, hell maybe I still do. I just don't want you to end up in a coffin like Molly did. This is killing me, but honestly Austin you need to get help. We tried to get Molly help and we tried to get her to kick her addiction and it didn't work. It scares me to even have to think that you might end up where she is. I don't want you to become an addict like she was, throwing your life away. I'll admit that I'm not doing much better, but at least I'm not doing drugs.
Does that mean that my Ally still cares?
She's responding to you isn't she?
To Ally from Austin
What are you doing then?
To Austin from Ally
Coping any way I see fit.
How is she coping? I find my mind swirling with all sorts of guesses as to what she means by that. Sleeping around? Hurting herself? Drugs?
Seriously, she just told you that she's not the one doing fucking drugs. Are you sure that you've actually sobered up?
What else could it be?
Perhaps your other issue that involves your alcoholism tendencies as well. I'm not sure that even made sense, but if you can't figure out what I meant don't blame me.
To Ally from Austin
I'm going to call you, please pick up.
To Austin from Ally
I can't Austin, even if I wanted to. We're about to take off and we're on the second half of our flight going to Brazil. This is all too painful. I just think its best if we don't keep in contact for a while. You're not the only one with a broken heart right now Austin. You just seem to think that you are. I'm going to focus on my tour. I'll consider calling you while I'm in Brazil for that month, but I can't predict the future. Just like I can't predict that you will actually keep or trust that you are going to get help. That I won't have to fly back to Miami while on tour to attend your funeral. You may not be my favorite person right now, but I don't want you to end up like Molly. :'(
What?
I told you, I told you to think before you did what you did, but you didn't listen. We're a fucking mess, you're going to be quarantined. Now, are you going to pull your fucking self together?
Yes.
I wish that I believed you, but even I don't at this point in time.
I need her. I feel like I'm only half a heart without her.
Well, then you better be willing to do anything to get her back, we're going to start with fixing your poor excuse for decisions that you've made. You're going to go to rehab, as a precautionary because you need a serious fucking reality check as to how bad things can get if you don't clean yourself up. In addition to that, you are going to go see a therapist. Next, you are going to quit being a fucking narcissist and antagonizing the shit out of Ally, Dez and Trish. You will not be partying in nightclubs anymore. Bars are a completely different story. We have to fix your image. So, we're going to work on you. When we're out, you are going to show the public that you are sorry for your womanizing behavior and for hurting Ally. As a matter of fact, I think that you should make a public apology to her if we're approached by the paparazzi. You are more than welcome to write countless sad love songs and even listen to them for all I care. You want to get out then hang out with Trish and Jace. For now, you have to accept that Ally is either with Logan, Dez, both or some random guy. You can't be angry with her for finally moving on after you played with her heart carelessly for so many years. You never truly committed to her in a way that she deserved and you need to understand that. Am I clear?
I feel like I've mentally been slapped in the fucking head.
That's because you have. Now stop fucking up constantly! Do you really just want to be a sad song playing every night and day? Or do you want to get your shit together and win your girl back?
The lyrics of Stay With Me keep replaying over and over in my head. As I walk down the beach and attempt to clear my head.
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