Guess what Guys! We hit 50 reviews! Yay! Well this website is kinda weird about when new reviews appear on an actual story but I get an email everytime a new one is posted so I would like to give A VERY BIG thanks you to RbsCdc , Guest , Guest , Xxxx4evaSummerxxxx , and Allie shimoni ! In reply to some of those reviews, Yes Emma and Leo are together in this story, and YES there will be some Beedi action in this next chapter but to hold you off until then I'm keeping my promise and posting this super special update! A lot of these questions/topics I came up with myself and I feel like this will be a great way to give you guys a more personal side of Bee. Most of these things are little details I wouldn't include in the story but through writing this I have further developed Phoebe as a character which will overall provide a better reading experience for you guys! Like I said this is NOT a new chapter, just my gift to you guys for all the loving support you have given me! Thanks again so much I love you all!
Lots of Love - Britt
Introduction: My name is a Phoebe Johnson, but everyone just calls me Bee. I'm almost fifteen and a half so technically I'm fifteen and a fourth if you like to do math, which I do not.
Appearance: Light blonde hair that I often curl to frame my face. I'm about 5'4. I have light blue eyes that lighten and darken upon my mood. My style consists of cute aztec style sweaters with crop tops underneath and skater skirts or leggings. I'm also a big fan of rider boots and scarfs, I'm very fashion savvy. I like to dress up and I'm very girly but I always make sure I have something on that's long sleeved. I've been told I look a lot like Resse Witherspoon but with a slightly rounder face.
Hobbies: I am a Student Ambassador for my school and often someone people come to when they need help. I've always been seen as the "Nice Girl" that no one could ever dislike. I've always been an extremely social person and I'm often invited to many parties. I like to make appearances but as soon as the illegal stuff comes out I'm gone. Everybody expects that out of me so in a way it's almost like if they want me at their event they will behave. I'm pretty respected among my peers but I'm also known to be lots of fun. Don't ask how but I'm constantly told I'm funny and fun to be around, I honestly have no idea why. Everything I do I do with my twin sister Claire. I am also a volleyball player and a cheerleader.
Family: Oh God, I'll just keep this formal and simple because quite frankly I don't know if I can talk about this just yet. Mom: (Anne) Has short cute blonde bob and a kind face with gentle blue eyes She has fair skin and I favor her looks dramatically. Dad (Danny) Much tanner than Anne with warm brown eyes and dimples that rounded his eyes when he laughed. Claire favors his looks over Anne's. He often times is away for work but still very family oriented and always looking to joke and have fun. Twin Sister (Claire) Favors Danny's tan skin and brown eyes. She has thick auburn hair that ends right below her shoulder blades. The only way people say they could see that she and I were twins were our smiles and our laughs. Of course we have similar face shape and both have similar body types but that's what people point out most often
Friends: From home: Katherine, Emlyn, Anna, Kae
From hospital: Emma, Leo, Dash, Charlie, and Jodi
Reason why I'm in the hospital: Depression, self harm, and attempted suicide, by book definition. I prefer the more Disney Princess version that goes somewhat along the lines of my evil Aunt locking me away in this place until Prince Charming comes along to rescue me, or at least that's what I'm expecting to happen.
My First Love: Toby Lee in 6th grade. Oh man he was an absolute heart-throb. Still is. With his blonde softly spiked hair, ice blue eyes and chiseled jaw line any preteen girl would be cooing all over him. He was the Zack Effron of Mrs. Ellis's 6th grade class. I was the lucky one who got to be his girl, that is until he started ditching me on the playground for Lexi Owens. I ended that real quick, but not before I stole his kiss virginity.
My first kiss: I may have stolen Toby Lee's kiss virginity but that doesn't mean he took mine. By then I was halfway an expert. Sure Toby was my first love but that doesn't mean that I didn't have other "Boyfriends" in my elementary school days. My first kiss was Elliott Howell in third grade. I guess you could say I got the cooties virus at a young age, my friends would always tell me I'd be the first to get Herpes too. That kiss didn't end up being a bad thing though. Little Eli went around to tell all of his buddies telling them that I was the best kisser ever and next thing you know I was locking lips with Jake Bates under the swirly slide. Hey, experience is experience and I've become quite a pro if I do say so myself.
What I ate today: Um, I had some coffee. Maybe a bite of peanut butter toast or a few spicy Funyuns. I honestly haven't been that hungry.
My definition of love: A too powerful word that should hardly ever be used. In my case anything I love ends up either dying or abandoning me. I'll try to keep that in mind during my stay here.
My typical day: Try to bargain with Nurse J to let me sleep in more. Get dressed before being dragged to an early morning appointment with Dr. Heart. Leave in a worse mood than what I came in with. Normally go back to my room to sleep off the meeting before being awoken by Emma and going off to do something with the Red Bands. Oh not to mention avoiding Kara, and my dark emotions on a constant basis. Throw in a little bit of twisted romance and those natural awkward teenage crushes and that's about my life story since I've been here.
My Best Friend: Katherine Tucker. We've been acquaintances throughout our childhood. Her mom had been our volleyball coach. She was always pretty quiet but really sweet. During my identity crisis of 8th grade, we became super close. She was a great listener and supported me while I tried to find my friend group. However at the peak of my situation she transferred schools. We've kept in touch pretty well but soon she moved to be closer to her school and I found my new friends, which just happened to be the "popular" girls. We drifted even farther apart but we still loved each other. When the accident happened, she wasn't really around to help be my support system. Sure I had all these new friends but none of them were just as supportive or understood like she would. I guess that loneliness helped push me to do what I did. There's also Emlyn Carson. She's one of those in between girls, not a snobby popular or a nerd but just one of those pretty girls who just go with the flow. We started drifting apart though as I grew closer with the popular girls she despised. Anytime I'd stick up for my new friends would be a whole big fight. Oh, not to mention an incident where I caught her locking lips with my now ex-boyfriend.
A moment: Claire was wearing her pink Aurora dress, I my yellow Belle one. I look awful in yellow, it's my least favorite color but Belle was my favorite princess. "Sissy." Claire would say. "I will do your hair to make you look like a real princess." She's always liked anything with hair or makeup. So I'd sit there for what seemed like hours of her yanking and tugging on my hair. I would never say a word though. I'd sit and play my DS until she'd finally say she was done. Over the years she's gotten better, she'd always used me as her practice dummy. Yeah, there would be those times where I just looked God awful but again and again I'd let her practice on me. Once we were in high school all of these girls would just flock to our house the night of homecoming or even for some of our upperclassmen friends, prom. I would never tell her but I was always so proud of her, and I could always see the happiness in her eyes. I probably should've told her before you know… Yeah
My beliefs: I believe in same sex marriage. I believe in world peace. I don't care too much for certain sides of politics, I don't believe a single person could be characterized by a title such as republican or democrat. I believe that when I can vote I will vote for someone's morals and their promises not their political viewpoint. I believe that there should be peace in the middle east, and I believe in putting others before myself. I believe that if I try hard enough I will be normal and the bad thoughts will just go away, so far it hasn't been working. I believe in true love but not necessarily love at first sight. I believe in friendship and kindness but to be strong enough not to let others walk all over me. I believe I will get better.
What I wore today: A grey and white oversized aztec sweater with a maroon red scarf, leggings and medium tan fold over combat boots. My hair was in loose curls and I wore my Beautiful Day perfume from Bath and Body Works. Man I love that stuff.
What's in my bag: Lip Gloss that tastes like strawberries, my white sunglasses I got last summer in Europe, my cell-phone which I'm super careful to hide from Nurse Jackson because I'm not supposed to have it, some mascara, foundation powder, bubble gum wrappers, cherry jolly ranchers, loose change, hair ties, bobby pins, neosporin, sugar packets, and nail clippers.
This week: This week I've arrived at Ocean Park. I've met the Red Band Society and technically became a member. I've developed a crush on a cute Hispanic guy but acted like a complete fool more than once. However he's forgiven me and still acts super cute when we are together. I've gotten myself a freako roommate who I ultimately hate. I've bumped into another cute guy named Hayden, who just happens to be related to Megabitch Kara's boy toy Hunter. Not to mention suffering through grueling therapy sessions with my psychiatrist Dr. Heart. I also tried to jump off the hospital's roof but I won't go into too much detail there.
My dreams: I want to go to an Ivy League college and I've been striving to get good grades as to receive a scholarship. Beside my dream of becoming a successful millionaire, I would also like to travel the world while I am still young. I want to backpack in Europe, and help build homes in Brazil. I want to visit orphanages in India and Taiwan. I want to go snorkeling in the coral reefs of Australia, feel like a princess outside of the Buckingham Palace, and ride sailboats in Monte Carlo. I want to see the Northern Lights in Iceland, and be kissed under the Eiffel Tower. Will all of these things happen to just a normal suburb girl like me? Most likely not, but what were the odds of me losing almost all of my family members in a car accident? Trust me, I'll find a way to make it happen.
My favorite memory: I don't even know how to choose.
How do I want to die: Happy.
Things that annoy me: Negativity, boring people, math, being told what to do, when people mixed up Claire and I, attitudes, limited freedoms. Typical teenager stuff.
My favorite movie(s): Mean Girls and Miss Congeniality. Typical chick flicks I know but they get me laughing every time!
Goals for the next 30 days: Get out of this damned hospital and get on with my life.
Something that makes me feel better: Ice cream… and hugs and all that mushy stuff that I would never tell anyone. Like people playing with my hair or wiping my tears. I swear to God if anyone gets a hold of this…
Something I regret: This one is interesting. I used to never regret anything, I'm a big believer in fate and stuff, but up to now I regret so much. I regret everything that's happened since the accident. Not being able to save my family being the number one thing at the top of my list. I regret everything that's followed after that and trust me I do mean everything.
My fears: Spiders, snakes, death but then again living mostly because either way I feel like I'll be alone. I fear falling asleep at night because I know I'll be plagued with all these thoughts and memories that remind me of my useless cowardness. I fear the darkness but not because I think there are monsters under my bed. I fear it because it's suffocating and I can't see my hands two inches in front of my face.
Something that makes me cry: I try not to think about it
Guess which Hogwarts house each Red Band would be in: Okay, don't hate me. I have never seen or read any Harry Potter books or movies. I know, I know but after extensive research I think I have a vague idea. I myself would obviously be a Gryffindor because that's like the leaders and stuff I think. I also think Leo would be in there with me. Emma would be Ravenclaw because she's so smart. Kara would be a Slytherin because let's face it, that chick is one psychotic bitch, I've heard otherwise but my opinion stands. Finally I think Dash and Charlie would be Hufflepuffs because they are both so kind and nice even though I haven't really had the chance to exactly meet Charlie I get that impression.