Y IS FOR YOU
"If you're standing on the edge of a cliff and in front of you is a guy that's aiming SMG at your heart, on the other side of the cliff there is a guy with a sniper rifle, above you is fighter jet with its crosshairs on you and the drop below you is excessively dark but the distance is undetermined, how you rather die?"
The red head sighed loudly and took another drag of his cigarette
"And I have to die one of those ways?" He asked
"It's only theoretical I'm just curious" The blonde sitting across from him replied
"I guess I would just fall off the cliff"
"Why?"
"Because at least there is a long enough drop that I can get a cig in before I become something that resembles dog food"
Mello smiled and shook his head typical Matt, silver linings seemed to be that guy's specialty. They had only been working for four weeks and in those couple of fortnights Mello had become the only person that Matt bothered to talk to. They actually made rather great partners; they had the whole good cop bad cop vibe going on. Whispers had been floating around the precinct about Mello's unorthodox methods for getting results and others had whisper how unfortunate it was that he was stuck with Matt who no one seemed to like because he avoided people and conversations like the plague while at work but out on the field they had the same notion, do what had to be done to get the result. They had the top closed case rate and even though they weren't conventional they did get the job done which made all the other detectives jealous which resulted in childish mockery and suggestions that Matt and Mello were more than just work partners.
Matt let it slide off his back nothing really bothered him at all and besides if he was going to have a sexual relationship with another guy, as it had been suggested, it would have definitely been Mello that he would be with. He wasn't just the only person that Matt wanted to and actually liked talking to he was also the only one he trusted and Matt was the only one that Mello trusted. Within two days of meeting it was like they had been friends for years, they just got along and whilst they were completely different with Matt being quiet and had become used to solitude Mello was boisterous and a social butterfly and wasn't afraid to break someone's nose if they pissed him off they relied on each other and in fact they cared about one another's wellbeing, another thing that neither of them had actually done before.
"What about you?" Matt asked
'I wouldn't die, I wouldn't be stupid enough to get myself in that position" He replied with a smile
"Fuck! You're an asshole" Matt replied ashing out the cigarette
"How am I the asshole when you walked straight into that, don't blame me for your ignorance Detective Jeevas"
Their door suddenly opened and they were greeted by nervous rookie
"What? You don't fucking knock?" Mello asked the young man
"ah—um" The rookie raised his hand and was about to knock on the door
'Don't fucking knock now idiot, what do you want?" The blonde continued
The rookie didn't say anything instead he held out a folder with a shaky head and the moment Mello snatched it the young man quickly vanished closing the door behind him. Mello shook his head and diverted his gaze to the folder he was handed. He leaned back into his chair and propped his feet up on the desk folding one leg over the other and reached into his jacket pocket retrieve a small Hersey's Kiss chocolate ball before unwrapping it and placing it in his mouth. He opened the file and began to scan through the details
"Alright Terrance J. Paola busted for possession of crack and unlicensed weapons, served twelve years in prison before being released two days ago on good behavior and is now deceased. Tox shows lethal dose of Heroin in his blood stream however some of the evidence is showing signs he did not inject himself. According to previous details on file Terrance used to work for a Jack Mallory Junior" Mello read
Matt pulled a face of discontent and relaxed in the chair
"I can't seriously be stuck with that guy again" Matt groaned
It was before Mello's time at the precinct. Matt had dealings with Jack before, he was almost intolerable. He wasn't frightening or even intimidating he just never shut up and the problem was he never said anything of use and he also had a habit of conducting his own analysis on anyone that he met. Mello was going to be furious once he met Jack and saw what he was like, they were going to have to bring him in and question him and Matt was more than happy to take the back seat
"Who is he?" Mello asked
"Just this drug dealer unfortunately he is almost impossible to incriminate because he has friends in high places. The longest time he has served was three hours before he was let go. He is without a doubt the most frustrating person I have ever met, but you'll see for yourself"
Mello cocked an eyebrow and looked at his partner
"Wait, someone actually frustrates you?" Mello asked with surprise in his voice
"Yes and that just goes to prove how damn annoying he is, I'm telling you Mel' you'll want to kill him the moment he opens his mouth"
"I want to kill everyone went they open their mouth, of except you, you surprisingly don't irritate me"
Their discussion was interrupted by the sound of the phone ringing. Mello reached over and picked it up knowing that the red head wouldn't
"Yeah?" Mello said in his typical impolite fashion.
Matt watched as the blondes expressions changed throughout the conversation he as listening to
"Yeah I fucking understand, I'm not fucking stupid' Mello said angrily
Matt was curious to know what was being said although it wasn't unusual for Mello to suddenly blow up over even the smallest of things the look on his face told the red head that something was definitely not right.
'Yeah I fucking get it alright, I'll sort it out" Mello replied and threw down the phone with force
"Everything alright?" Matt asked sympathetically
Mello elevated his hand and ran it threw his long golden colored hair
'Yeah everything's fucking fine let's just go and speak with this Jack asshole"
Matt hadn't said a single world he was afraid that if he opened his mouth that he would say something to piss him off some more. Ever since the phone call that morning and after the interrogation with Jack Mello had jumped and yelled at everything including the fact that the supermarket didn't have his brand of chocolate.
He drove silently over to Mello's apartment after the blonde had kicked the shit out of his motorbike and suddenly it wasn't working so Matt had offered to take Mello home. The red head pulled up outside the apartment complex and killed the engine.
'Come in, I need a drink" Mello said before he left the car and started towards the door for the building
Matt just shrugged and he exited the driver's seat, locked the door and followed the blonde into the complex and then up a single flight of stairs before the entered another room that was marked with a four on the door. The red head closed the door behind him and watched Mello go to the kitchen and searched for some sort of alcohol.
'I only have a chocolate liqueur" The blonde called out
"That's fine I don't drink" Matt replied
"Oh well you fucking drink now"
Mello walked over to the red head and thrusted a glass into his hand and he flopped into a couch. Matt moved over and sat beside his friend and watched Mello down the glass. He was a lot more frustrated than he was normally which became very apparent when he took the glass from the red head and downed that too before slamming it down on the coffee table
'See I told you that you drink now" Mello remarked
Matt smiled and then let out a soft laugh.
"Are you going to tell me what's going on with you?" Matt finally asked
The blonde turned his head and looked into the emerald green eyes that were fixed on him. He shook his head lightly and then turned his gaze away
"No, like I said everything's fine it's not a big fucking deal" Mello replied
"I don't believe you but for the sake of not wanting to be murdered by my only friend I'll shut the fuck up" Matt replied with a smile
"I am being transferred back" Mello said after a few moments' silence
Matt frowned and continued to look at the man beside him
"Oh…why?"
"Apparently my methods that I have been using have pissed a bunch of assholes off and they are revoking my working Visa and I am being transferred back to England"
Mello had come to America via a transfer from a precinct in the United Kingdom. He wasn't born there but had been living there for many years before his transfer and clearly the transfer hadn't changed his methods in fact they made them much worse.
"But that can't be it I mean you're the best cop the precinct has regardless of your methods, we could show them our closing rates and it's gotta change their fucking minds, this can't be it Mello"
Matt said almost panicky he didn't mean to sound so desperate but Mello was his only friend. He trusted him more then he trusted himself and he was the only person he ever actually wanted to be around.
"They've seen all that shit Matt and they don't give a fuck. Trust me if I could just beat the shit out of someone to make them change their mind I would, in a heartbeat but I like what I do, I like yelling at people and scaring the shit of them, I like the fact that I can shoot someone when I'm pissed off without questions being asked and I like working with you as much as that pains me to admit I actually like someone but it's true I like you, I've got two weeks to leave" Mello replied
Matt smiled
"I kinda like you too" He replied
"Don't make a big deal out of it and if you mention it I will kick you and then put six bullets into your stomach but I'm really going to miss you" The blonde continued
Matt sat and thought for a moment, diverting his gaze away from Mello. There had to be something he could do to get Mello to stay. It was a slightly strange feeling almost a desperate one
'We could just find you a woman to marry" Matt replied
Mello laughed out loudly, shook his head and looked at Matt and realized he was serious
"What the fuck? You're serious?" Mello asked
"Well yeah the only other way to get a Visa is by marriage so we can just go find you some woman, pay her and a year later you can get a divorce and you can still stay here" Matt continued
Mello shook his head again and got up leaving the couch to get another two drinks. He filled the glasses up near on to the brim and walked back over to the red head. He sat back down and downed both the glasses consecutively. Matt just shook his head it was amazing that someone could drink alcohol so damn quickly without even cringing. Matt could smell the aroma off of the blonde; it was a very sweet and alluring aroma even though the red head didn't have a sweet tooth.
Matt searched his pockets for his cigarettes and realized he had left them in the car
"I guess I should go, will I see you tomorrow?" Matt asked somewhat nervously before standing up to leave
"Stay with me" Mello suddenly blurted out
'You want me to stay with you?"
"That's what I fucking said, if you're going to be a cock you can just fuck off and before you accuse me of being drunk I am not it takes a lot more than four glasses for me to become pissed. If you don't want to stay then just go" Mello replied angrily
"I'll be right back"
Matt left the apartment and walked back down the stairs. He had a strange feeling in his heart and stomach. It wasn't nervousness or anything uneasy it was a good feeling knowing that Mello wanted him there with him. There was just one slight problem with that good feeling and that was he knew it wouldn't last. Mello was really leaving and he hated knowing that was going to lose the one person he wanted to be with.
The red head unlocked the car and grabbed his cigarettes, he quickly pulled on out and lit it up. It was like breathing fresh air for him. He shut the car door again, locked it and began to walk back to the apartment. He stood at the door for a while to finish his cigarette then he let himself in. He walked back up to the blonde's apartment and as he entered the sitting room he could see that Mello was walking towards his bedroom.
Matt waited a moment before following Mello, the least he could do was make sure that Mello was alright. He wasn't going to stay like Mello had asked, he really couldn't but he needed to make sure that his partner wasn't going to go into some unconscious state.
He opened the door slowly to see that Mello was climbing into the bed.
'You ok?" Matt asked
"I'll be alright, I'm just losing my fucking mind but shit happens right?"
"I can leave if you want to be alone"
"No I don't want you to leave, actually I really need you. I need you to give me a silver lining"
Mello tapped on the bed beside him gesturing for the red head to sit with him. Matt was in two minds about whether or not he should do what Mello asked but since the blonde had a habit of getting violent when he didn't get what he wanted so it was easier for him to slip off his boots and get on the bed beside the blonde
"Jesus fucking Christ Matt it's a fucking bed, lie down" Mello barked
Matt laid down and looked at the man lying beside him. Neither of them said anything they just seemed to look at each other. Their silence wasn't even awkward it was actually rather peaceful not having Mello yelling and Matt not having to worry about whether he was going to say something to make the blonde brutally murder him.
"You should marry me" Mello suddenly said completely catching Matt off guard
Matt cocked his eyebrow he had never heard Mello's drunk talk before and it was quite humorous that the blonde would demand such a thing
'Yeah alright Mello I think you've had too much to drink" Matt said with laughter in his voice
The blonde had a very serious look in his eyes and pulled back his hand before curling it into a fist and punching Matt in the arm
'OW! What the fuck was that for?" Matt asked as he rubbed his arm where Mello had hit him quite hard
"I told you I am not fucking drunk you asshole, I am not even fucking tipsy so don't patronize me you idiot. I am fucking serious. You said the only way I am going to get to stay is if I got married right? I am not going to go out into the fucking streets and pay some woman five hundred bucks and say hey I need a fucking wife so you have to marry me. You realize that it will be suspicious as all fuck if I suddenly married someone, they take you in those fucking interrogation rooms and question you about fucking everything how the fuck am I supposed to answer questions about someone I don't fucking know huh? I have two weeks Matt, a fucking fortnight to save my ass and the only person I know everything about is you!" Mello yelled
"Mello it is going to be even more suspicious if you marry a guy and not to mention the fact that if and mean IF we did that we wouldn't be able to work together anyway. They have strict rules about co-workers being involved and those interrogations include asking those who we work with questions about our relationship"
"SO FUCKING WHAT! EVERYBODY ALREADY THINKS WE ARE FUCKING GAY ANYWAY!"
It was true the rumors were that Matt and Mello were together romantically speaking so even if they were asked questions they would only be told that it seemed like the two were already together. Matt wanted Mello to stay but pretending to be married was out of the question. Matt just shook his head; he didn't even know what to say. They did know pretty much everything about each other and they did spend pretty much all day every day together, they knew each other's habits, likes, dislikes and anything that needed to be known they would quickly learn about each other…No it couldn't happen if they got found out they would both end up in prison and yeah that would have been fine for Mello cause he was a nasty piece of work but Matt wasn't cut out for prison life he was too much of a loner and too quiet, yes he could kick ass if need be but he would be an instant target.
"Mel' I don't want to see you go, I don't, you mean a lot to me and I care about you but -"
"Please Matt, come on I never say fucking please but I don't want to go back to that shitty fucking job back to that shitty fucking apartment, my life is here and if I have to leave what the fuck do you think is going to happen to me? I am going to go back to England and lose my fucking job I will end up doing some fucking work for a drug dealer or the Mafia and eventually end up on the streets dead because I led a destructive life" Mello said quietly and as calmly as he could
Matt could feel his heart and mind leading him in two different directions his mind was telling him to get up and leave and pretend the conversation never took place but his heart was telling him to stay and help Mello.
"Even if we are going to do this we'll still end up losing our jobs anyway. They don't like your methods, they won't allow us to work together or work at the precinct at all once they find out the rumors are true and even if we still keep our jobs we are going to end up working fucked up shifts so if we try and prove that we are together their going to know straight away we are full of shit because no marriage no matter how strong it is won't withstand the ridiculous and long hours that a cop works" Matt replied rationally
"I don't care I'll find another fucking job I'm not fucking useless after all I'm sure there is something I can do that entails me beating the shit out of people. Matt just answer me something do you want me to go back there knowing what I am like? Knowing that losing my job and you is going to make me even more pissed off so I will fucking end up in jail or dead anyway?"
Matt hated it when Mello guilt tripped him he was so damn good at it and the blonde knew that he was important to Matt and that he could get his own way by making a point that he knew would affect the red head.
"Why the fuck would I want that? I fucking care about you Mello, I do. I don't want anything like that to happen to you…If we're going to do this we're going to have to make it look legitimate we are seriously going to have to make it seem like we are together" Matt replied finally giving in
"Really? You're going to do this for me?' Mello asked
The red head nodded with brief hesitation
"I think you're well aware that I would do anything for you, besides they'll only end up giving me a partner that I can't stand with the new rules so I may as well get fired for something interesting" Matt replied
Matt saw Mello smile, he had a very hypnotic smile he was charming all around that's why women loved him so much. They had been in bars after shifts and the red head watched as several women flirted with the blonde and because he was egotistical Mello lapped it up and flirted right back ending up with numbers of woman he never called. It wasn't that Matt was unattractive in fact it was the complete opposite because he had no desire to talk to anyone people picked up on it and avoided him and he was quite happy with that.
As Matt laid there silently something had occurred to him. Mello said he didn't want to go back to England because he didn't want to lose his job but then he said he didn't care if he lost it and he was well aware that they wouldn't be working together, the red head smiled when he realized that the reason Mello wanted to stay had nothing to do with the job.
"You know if I was really getting married to a guy, I would marry you and I'd even let you suck my cock" Mello replied
Matt shook his head at the blonde he was charming when he wanted to be but the rest of the time he was just Mello.
"You know that we are going to have to live together" Matt replied
"Of course I fucking know that and if anything you're moving here I am not moving into that shitty apartment you have with that fucking cereal box fortress that is supposed to be a fucking kitchen, you're a slob and I have never once since you clean up anything so you can move here because at least it's already clean and I can make you clean up after yourself" Mello replied
Matt was definitely not the cleanest person and the cereal box fortress was in fact his kitchen that had just happened to have boxes of cereal stored in every cupboard. Matt couldn't cook so cereal and take away junk food was his main diet.
"OH! Fucking brilliant idea!" The blonde said loudly before Matt had a chance to reply
"We're going to get fired tomorrow" He continued
Matt looked curiously at the blonde
"We are?" he asked
"Yeah, we have to make this believable right? I've got a plan and like all my plans it's fucking perfect"
"Ok that's great and all but care to fill me in?" Matt asked
Mello smiled almost devilishly
"No just trust me this is too fucking good and if I tell you now it will ruin the whole element of surprise"
Matt had been sitting at the desk waiting for the red head to come back in from his cigarette break which was a lot more frequent than usual, it was clear that Matt was uneasy.
Matt entered the office he walked over to his side of the desk
"Don't sit down" The blonde said before the red head could take a seat
Matt obeyed without arguing or questioning anything he just stood there waiting. Mello stood up and opened the blinds slightly over the window and the glass embedded in the door so it would have been easy for anyone to see into the office. He sat back down in the chair and tucked is legs under the desk
"Get under the table" He commanded
Matt looked at Mello like he had lost his mind
"Don't fucking look at me like that and get the fuck under the table"
"Why the fuck am I getting under the table?"
Mello rolled his eyes and let out a growl
'Get under the fucking table!" He yelled loudly
Whatever the blonde was up to Matt had to trust him, he didn't want to lose Mello and he didn't want to fuck him over so whatever Mello's reasons were he felt obligated to go along with it.
The red head reluctantly got under the desk
"Now what?" The red head asked
"Oh Matt, you're such a dirty pervert sucking me off when we're supposed to be working"
"HUH WHAT THE FU—"
"Just shut up and stay there until I tell you otherwise" Mello whispered
He moaned and panted loudly. The blonde closed his eyes and reached under the table so it made it look as if he had his fingers in with the vermillion tresses
"OH FUCK! You're going to make me cum Matt"
Mello smiled when he noticed a few sets of eyes looking into the room
"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU LOOKING AT?!" Mello yelled out
He watched the other officers and detectives move away from the room.
"Ok you can move now" The blonde said calmly
"Ah… I will think I will just stay here for a moment"
Mello pulled his chair out slightly and cocked his head so he was looking at the red head under the desk
'Are you trying to say that you're turned on right now?" Mello asked
"It's kind of hard to ignore someone moaning and panting my name even if it is fake" Matt replied
"You know that's pretty flattering knowing I can make you hard by faking orgasm sounds, Christ imagine what I could do to you if they were real"
They arrived back at the apartment after they had been fired just as Mello predicted. They fake blow job at work had caused them to be dismissed from work and whilst it meant the red head would have to find another job that didn't require a reference he was actually quite happy. He liked his job but without Mello as his partner it just wasn't worth being a cop anymore. He figured he could be a private investigator or something, but it was something he would work out down the line the most important thing was them figuring out how to make their relationship legitimate looking, file for marriage and then go about dealing with fraud investigators and such.
They had stopped by Matt's old apartment and collected his belongings which only filled three measly boxes. The red head was packing some of his clothes away when Mello came into the room and looking around with a frown on his face
"If you had never been here before would you say this as a gay apartment?" The blonde asked as he continued to scrutinize the bedroom
"I am not entirely sure what one is supposed to look like so I don't know if the apartment is gay" The red head replied
He packed away the rest of his clothes and turned to face the blonde
"Will you just fucking humor me and tell me if this looks like the type of apartment a gay man would have?" Mello asked
"Well it's excessively clean and it smells like chocolate and some sort of flower room spray so I suppose so"
Mello looked at Matt and furrowed his brows deeper
"Well it's settled we are going to have to gay this up"
'Gay it up?" Matt asked curiously
"Yeah you know fancy furniture and stack some fucking gay porn in the living room, decorate the fucking walls with rainbows and shit. I don't know we just have to make it a little more gay in here, not too much we don't want it to look like we are trying too hard but just a couple of things" Mello replied
Matt just shook his head and left the room to go out onto the balcony to have a cigarette. He wouldn't have admitted it but being Mello's boyfriend was not easy. The blonde was hard to please and he got annoyed with pretty much everything. He was charming around women and strangers but then when he was with Matt it was like there was no filtering system between his brain and his mouth.
He sat down and looked below him at the street, he never expected life to be so complicated but at least since the blonde had been a part of his life it was a lot more exciting and there was very few moments where the red head was bored.
"You don't have to do this if you don't want to you know" Mello said calmly from behind him
The red head didn't bother to turn around he just took another drag of his cigarette and flicked the ash towards the ground.
"I want to, I don't particularly like the thought that I will end up with a boring life again, where nothing changes and everything is still" He replied
Mello shifted from behind Matt and sat down next to him.
"Did I really turn you on before?" Mello asked still remaining calm
Matt slightly blushed and tried to hide it by lowering his head and taking another drag of his cigarette
'Yeah, you did but don't give me hell for it ok it's been quite a long time since I've heard noises like that come from anyone that wasn't on a fucking TV screen" The red head finally replied
"I wasn't going to give you hell for it, I'm glad that I had that effect on you it's really quite the ego boost, how long has it been since you've been with someone anyway?"
"Mmm well let's see I'm thirty years old now so… sixteen years and that was because I was high as a kite and I thought it would be fun to try and have sex with the girl who lived next door, turned out she was the city's famous bicycle service and would have slept with anyone so you know that was quite the highlight of my life" The red head replied
Mello smiled and placed his hand on Matt's knee
"Not yet" He said
The red head turned his gaze to Mello
"You're thirty on the first of February still another three and half weeks away"
"You remember my birthday?" Matt asked
"I remember everything about you as you remember everything about me, that's something we have in common we retain information like sponges. So this disaster of a sexual experience that happened a million years ago why was it the last time?" Mello asked
Matt smiled and finished off his cigarette
"Do you really need to ask? You know me Mello I'm pretty sure it's obvious why I haven't had sex since I was fourteen"
"Cause you're my anti-social weirdo that apparently enjoys masturbation over stepping outside his comfort zone to have sex" Mello replied with laughter in his voice
"Bingo"
Mello gripped hold of the red head's knee tighter and then pulled himself up
"Come with me"
"Where are we going?"
"Indoors idiot it's fucking freezing out here and we have something we need to do"
Matt was slightly apprehensive but he got up anyway and followed Mello back into the house. He led them into the bedroom and he turned on the television, encouraged Matt to sit down and then sat down beside him
"If we are really going to do this then we can't fuck up we are going to have to make it seem like we are together. So whatever it was that turned you on before keep thinking about that cause we are going to need to turn you into someone who exudes sexual confidence"
"What is exuding sexual confidence have anything to do with being gay?"
"Everything, haven't you ever seen a gay guy on fucking movie before? They flounce around like they own the fucking place. Their confident, loud and they don't care what people think about them and best of all they have an attitude problem, they're bitches, I'm the perfect gay guy…I'm not sure if I am offended or complimented by my own observation" Mello said more to himself then to Matt
"At least you didn't get hard over another guy make fake sex sounds"
Mello let out a small laugh
"No I didn't but it's probably a good time to tell you that knowing you got aroused by me turned me on so you weren't the only one who got hard over another guy"
Matt furrowed his brows and turned his head to look at the blonde
"Am I really gay?" The red head asked somewhat confusingly
"…That would probably entail enjoying having sex with another guy and I know cause you're a stuck up ignoramus you definitely haven't had sex with another guy before it's not exactly something I can say for certain, besides in the off chance that you are gay you would never be able to have me anyway" Mello replied confidently
Matt smiled and snickered
"You are the one that said if you were gay you would want me so then why couldn't I have you?" Matt asked
"Why? Because you don't know how to flirt, what you think just because we are friends and the closest thing to family either of us have got that I am just going to give myself to you like I'm some kind of slut? I don't fucking think so asshole"
"Well that's not exactly fair; I am fucking hopeless with people I have never even fucking seduced anyone not while I'm completely with it anyway. Why would you make this difficult for me?" Matt asked
"Hang on just one fucking second you expect me to be with you without even as much as you asking me out? Just because you're socially awkward by which in this instance is void because you already know me and you already mingle with me so you should be able to at least flirt with me"
Mello sat back into the head board and crossed his arms over his chest
"Flirt with me and I'll consider being with you"
"You really don't have much choice when think about it, I'm all you got unless you hire some woman to be your wife I'm your only chance of staying here so I'm not going to flirt with you" Matt replied
Mello unfolded his arms and cocked his eyebrow looking at the red head curiously
"Look at that you do have balls, I can't believe that you were just stern with me. That's kinda a turn on Matt, come on just try it flirt with me, tell me how much you want me" Mello said in the sweetest voice he could conjure up
"Mello I can't flirt" Matt said loudly
"Come on do it, how are we going to prove that we are together if you can't even flirt with me? come on DO IT!"
Matt suddenly jumped and straddled Mello's hips and pinned his shoulders to the mattress. He could see the sudden shock in the aquamarine orbs. The red head looked down and eyed over the lean yet tone body beneath him and then slowly made his eyes back up and connected them with the blondes. He released one of Mello's shoulders and then gently glided it down the side of his face before pushing some of the long loose strands behind his ear. He smiled only slightly before edging himself down so his lips were only inches away from the blondes, their gaze stayed connected
"You remind me of summer. A perfect cloudless sky, a full beaming warm sun, the most enticing and stimulating smell. You are very, very beautiful"
The red head inched his mouth closer to the blondes he could feel Mello's body slightly shudder beneath him. Matt grazed his hand along Mello's free arm and grasped his wrist before gently moving it to his jeans and resting the blondes hand against his hard cock. Matt smiled as Mello grasped the expanding bulge in the confines of his jeans.
"Satisfied?" Matt asked still smiling
Mello bit into his bottom lip and shook his head slowly. He placed his fingers on the button of Matt's jeans and he slowly undid it before pinching the zip and pulling it downwards. The blonde swiftly and roughly pulled out from under Matt's hold on his shoulder. He sat up and wrapped his right hand around the back of the red heads neck and placed his lips so close that they were breathing the same humid air.
"Is this what happens when someone flirts with you?" Matt asked cheekily and with a smile
"Are you insinuating that I am easy and a slut?" The blonde asked
He looked down at Matt's lips then back up to his eyes
"Not at all I am just curious"
They could both feel their hearts beating hard and fast. It had all been an act so far but things were becoming intense and the red head couldn't help but think it was no longer about acting anymore. He had been falling in love since they had met and without saying so that love was becoming very apparant
The blonde shook his head
"No it's not. It never goes past flirting, it hasn't for seven maybe eight years" The blonde said almost sheepishly
"I always thought you were the type of guy who could have anyone you wanted. I mean I have seen the way women hopelessly flirt with you" Matt replied only realizing after he said the words could have been taken as offensive.
"You want to know why I flirt with women the way I do?" Mello asked
Matt nodded his head continuing to straddle the blonde who was holding his neck lightly
"You know that I'm an asshole and somehow you still like being around me but those women they don't know that I am a loud, rude and a complete jerk. They have no idea that if I went home with them that I would probably fuck them, forget their name and then move to entirely new apartment just in case they are psychotic and try to track me down. I flirt because for those brief five to ten minutes I'm just a normal guy not the asshole with the bad fucking attitude that I am" Mello said with a very slight smile
"I don't think you're an asshole, I think you are a little over the top sometimes but that's about it. I've thought anything bad about you and I get it, I get what it is a relief to be something you're not even if it is for a few minutes"
Mello took his hand away from the back of Matt's neck and then placed his hands against the red heads waist.
"I want to do this with you and I don't mean just for show either" the blonde said after taking a deep breath
Matt's eyes widened as he looked seriously into the blonde's eyes
"You want to be with me…you want to be with…me?" He asked shocked
Mello was a really good looking guy and despite the fact he blew up over nothing he was intelligent, he knew what he wanted and he was extremely determined and stopped at nothing to have what he wanted and Matt was antisocial, rude, cocky and smoked enough cigarettes to kill a thousand people.
"Why do you say that like I'm too good for you or something?"
"Probably because you are, come on Mel' look at me, I couldn't even flirt with you for fuck sakes all I did was think with my dick and that is how I am straddling you now and even then look what I did I more or less molested you and told you that you were beautiful, I'm pathetic" Matt said with laughter in his voice
"You think you're pathetic because you said I was beautiful? You said the sweetest fucking thing I have ever heard. You made my heart feel like it was going to fucking explode Matt. Don't get all fucking cocky about it or make a fuss but I don't just want to be with you if I was gay I wanna be with you because I like you, I trust you, you're the only person I give a damn about and because I am gay"
Matt dropped open his mouth and his eyes bulged he had no idea that the man he was going to marry was actually gay. It was completely shocking but it was a pleasant jolt.
"Why didn't you tell me Mello?" Matt asked softening his face as he looked at the aquamarine pools
"What the fuck was I supposed to say Matt? It's not like it is an easy thing to say or even admit to why do you think I said flirting with women makes me feel normal? I'm only telling you now because while I know your only doing this for me so I don't get deported I'm doing this because I want to stay with you. It's not just about staying here it about staying with someone I genuinely care about" Mello replied
Matt raised his hands and placed them on the blonde's cheek and placed his lips against Mello's and kissed him passionately. The red head lips grazed along the blondes rose pink pillows and slowly moved his hands away from Mello's cheeks and laced his left fingers in with the golden strands. He pulled away from Mello's lips and then kissed up his jawline. The blonde moaned and panted heavily as he gripped the red heads hips tightly
Matt finally pulled away and their gaze met once again
"Matt?" Mello questioned and he breathed lightly
"I want to marry you not just so you can stay in the country either, I want to have the chance to be the guy that you want and need, I want to be more than just your friend it may take some time for me to work out exactly what you want but I'll keep trying" Matt said earnestly
"You're not freaked out about having sex with another guy or being married to one?" Mello asked
Matt shook his head
"Well I mean I probably would be if it was another man but it's you and your not just some guy, you're everything, at least to me anyway. Sex, marriage, love if it's with you I'll never be freaked out" Matt replied
Mello smiled and kissed the red head softly again
"I would have been with you regardless if you flirted with me or not Matt, I care about you I trust you and I love you. It's just you" He said as he pulled away from the kiss
"I love you too" Matt replied without hesitation
"Just as a friend or more?" Mello asked
Matt smiled sweetly
"So much more, it's just you too"
Hello everyone, sorry it's taken me so long to write this it's no been exactly easy so sorry for the crappy chapter. Well one chapter to go before this series ends and that sucks. Thank you to everyone that has supported these chapters you guys are freaking awesome xx