I know, I know. I'm a horrible person for not updating. I've had a crazy couple of months and couldn't find the time to update between hospital visits and other jazz. I'll try to have more frequent updates in the future!
I almost took the stupid thing off because of the looks that I was getting from some of Stark's party guests. It was nice to know that people still recognized me but I didn't like how they whispered as I walked past them. I wasn't anything special to look at but maybe someone here found me special to look at.
I got flashes of people's pasts, secrets and private affairs. It was kind of rude of me to do but I still hadn't found a way to shut it on and off. Besides it wasn't like I would tell these secrets to the world or anything. I wasn't that much of an idiot. But I was glad to know that my powers were somewhat growing stronger because these flashes were more vivid.
I went up the stairs to where it was less crowded and I could have a moment of peace without someone looking at me oddly. I then saw Sam and Steve watching over the party through the glass. They were talking about something and I knew that it would be kind of rude to interrupt their conversation. I tried to stay out of their eye line but it seemed that fate had a cruel sense of humor.
I looked out onto the city's glittering skyline and then saw Steve stand beside me.
"Why-"
"You were talking and I thought that it would be rude to interrupt."
"Sam was just telling me about all the dead ends about Bucky."
"Another thing I'm not a part of."
"Jay-"
"I need a drink."
I quickly left his side and went back downstairs to the bar to see Maria, Rhodes, Stark and Thor all gathered around where the beer was, not that I drank beer anyways. I walked past them and leaned against the bar.
"What's your poison?" Nat asked.
"Rosé."
"Fancy."
"Yeah well I need it."
She grabbed a glass and I sat down on the stool.
"You look beautiful Jay. I like that dress on you."
"It feels like I'm being choked from the outside in."
"I'm sure that's an exaggeration. How do you think I feel in that cat suit day in and day out?"
"You're used to it. I'm not."
"I wish that you were back on the team. We could have used you in Slokovia."
"That makes one of you. Everyone else, minus Steve, avoids me like I'm the plague. Stark and Banner are only interested in my powers for the scientific benefits. I feel like a guinea pig."
"When you put it like that, you are."
"Not helping Nat."
"You were the one who brought it up, not me."
"Fair point."
She slid the rosé across the table and I caught it in my open hand.
"Thanks Nat."
"No problem Jay. I'll bring the others around and you'll be back on the team in no time."
"What if they're right? What if I have the potential for something dangerous?"
"In all the years I've known you; I do believe that you only have the potential for good Jay. You wouldn't ever hurt us."
I managed a small smile.
"Thanks."
"Again not a problem. Now what's up with you and Rogers? Do I hear wedding bells-"
"Grow up Nat. There's nothing between us."
"There's so much sexual tension between you two it's almost repulsing."
"Ew! Nat, that's gross to think of."
I took a long drink.
"Fine. I'll say its "chemistry" then. But its there, plain as day. You two are the only ones who have failed to see that."
"It's for good reason. I'm not fit for a relationship anyways. Besides, who knows if either one of us will come home from a mission?"
That was all too true with our line of work. WE could die on a mission and what would we leave behind besides a legacy and an empty floor in this tower? Sure people would mourn but what else as there with remembering? Kill count, body toll? How cool we looked in our outfits and how they'd never be seen in public or strike fear in the hearts of our enemies?
"Besides, he only has eyes for Peggy."
That we both couldn't deny.
Yeah so I'll try to be more frequent with the updates. I do know where I'm going with this, hopefully. Review and stay awesome!
-AriaNorth