AN: Just a heads up that this chapter is rather long and

I honestly do not have a clue how to space it out more

because every time I save it in draft mode, FF kicks in & just removes them.

If you guys know, do share via review.

The sun shone through Bella's windows as she rolled over to face Jacob who was lying next to her on the bed. She smiled kindly towards Jacob who was still asleep.

"I can feel you smiling at me, Bella" Jacob muttered as she was startled by him.

"Sorry" She mumbled as Jacob opened his eyes to see Bella gazing into his deeply.

"What's on your mind?" He asked with a small smile that made Bella feel safer.

"I.. I need to shower" She mumbled as Jacob's smile dropped.

"Bella, I-" Jacob was cut off by Bella raising her finger to his lips.

"I will be fine" She spoke as she got up from her bed but quickly hopped back on and gave Jacob a small kiss.

She quickly grabbed her towel and closed the bathroom door behind her. The first thing she noticed was the mirror but she look away quickly, banishing that memory from resurfacing instantly. She turned on the taps in the shower as she took off her clothes. She did her best not to look into the cracked mirror but there was this nagging feeling at the back of her mind, begging her to look once.

She sighed quietly as she turned away from the shower and faced the mirror. She was somewhat surprised to see the bruises disappearing quickly but she saw the cuts and a tear fell down her cheek.

Suddenly anger washes over her, she hated the scars and the person who did this to her. She clenched her palms and just wanted to punch something. There was a warm touch on her right arm as she turned to see Jacob standing there with a worried look.

"I'm fine" Bella spoke as she gave Jacob a weak smile.

"No, you're not" Jacob replied as he pulled her into his arms once again. She let a few more tears fall as Jacob kissed her head.

"Come on" He spoke softly as he pulled Bella towards the shower and they both climbed into the warm rushing water. Bella let the water wash away her tears as Jacob kissed her shoulders. Bella turned around to face Jacob. She held his hands and stood on her toes to kiss Jacob's warm soft lips.

Jacob returned the kiss passionately as Bella moaned softly. His hands were on Bella's hips while hers were on Jacob's shoulders as they continued to kiss under the water.

Bella started to pull Jacob's hair gently as she felt his hands around her breasts. She moaned as he touches them. Jacob couldn't help it but Bella felt his boner poking her.

She broke away from his lips as he quickly apologised for it but Bella cut his words off abruptly. She didn't care; she just wanted his touch and no one else. So she
resumed kissing Jacob as he took the sign that she was okay.

Jacob gently pulled her up as she wrapped her legs around his waist and let her current feelings take over the negative ones she had been experiencing. He moaned loudly as Bella nibbled on his left ear. Bella could feel his dick moving closer to her as she gripped his shoulders more tightly as Jacob shove his tongue into her mouth. Then he pulled away from her face with a cautious look.

"I'm okay" She whispers as she gave him a passionate kiss that shown her approval for him to enter her. She braced herself as Jacob positioned himself before entering her slowly. She gasped as Jacob stopped.

"Go on" She spoke urgently as Jacob slowly continued pushing himself in her.

She moaned loudly as Jacob entered her fully. He paused for a few moments, allowing Bella to breath properly again as she nodded as a sign to continue.

He slowly began pumping in and out of her as she gripped his shoulders more.

She moaned as he began to fasten his pace. Jacob kissed her lips rashly as Bella bit his lower lip. He groaned softly. He thrust into her harder as Bella groaned. Suddenly, she felt his hand on her scar above her navel and a flash back occurred to her of Jaq's touch.

She cried out "Stop! Please!"

Jacob immediately stopped as he stared at Bella with a shocked look.

"I'm so sorry" He said as Bella winced. He slowly withdrawn himself from her and gently put her down.

"It's... It's not your fault" She spoke abruptly as she tried to control her emotions. She felt tears building up as her breathing were shallow and fast.

"Bella, breath" Jacob said with a worried voice.

She began hyperventilating as she gripped Jacob's arms. She felt dizzy as she sobbed loudly. Her emotions were all over the place. She felt terrified as she continued to have flashbacks of the horrific events.

"No" She wailed as she slid to the floor, shaking uncontrollably as Jacob kneeled by her and held her hands.

"Bella, come back to me" He spoke as she shook her head.

"Leave me" She whispers as she stared at the ground.

"No, I won't. Bella I want you to take a deep breath and fight through this" He said as Bella gripped his hands tight and tried to take a deep breath and exhaled.

Slowly, she regained colour to her face and her head had stopped spinning. She was still shaken up and sobbing quietly as Jacob pulled her out of the shower & wrapped a towel around her.

"I'm sorry Bella, I shouldn't have done that" He spoke softly as Bella look towards him.

"It's... It's not your... Fault, Jacob" She stuttered as she tried to restrain herself from shaking.

"It was stupid of me to have done that" He added as Bella took another deep breath and exhaled.

She walk towards him and held his hand. She could see the anger rising as she kissed his hand.

"It's not your fault, okay" She whispers as Jacob calmed himself down.

"Sorry"

"Will you stop apologising please?" Bella asked as Jacob sat down on her bed with a towel around his waist.

Bella grabbed her loose shirt and pulled it over her then sat down by Jacob side. She held his hand and rested her head on his shoulders.

"It's not your fault" Bella spoke softly as Jacob sighed quietly. She looks up to see Jacob with a stern expression then she look down to their hands entwined together.

"Do you want to go outside today?" Bella asked as Jacob replaced his stern expression with a surprise one.

"Are you..." He tried to ask her but was cut off with Bella nodding.

"I think it will do us some good" She spoke as she got up and got dressed properly. Jacob grabbed his clothes and quickly threw them on as Bella tied up her shoes.