Hi my readers, i know it's been a long time since i updated anything but here i brought a new chapter. Also thank you so much for all the favs and follows from this ff.

Sorry, but Kise won't be appearing on this chapter, if you don't remember last chapter he left and this chapter is from Aomine' POV, how his life had been since the blond left him hanging with his life.

The time passed by really fast we had already graduated and applied to the university of our choosing. I wasn't going to London anymore. It was stupid, now I didn't have a reason to leave Japan. Why would I go if I had no one to go with? The ironic part of all of this is that a letter arrived saying that he had been accepted for the treatment at the clinic and I went to the suburbs at night for a whole month but since that night I never saw him ever again. I was partly glad because if I didn't find him there meant he was no longer whoring himself out, but I was sad too because it meant that the only possibility of ever meeting him has evaporated. So, I was never able to tell him neither saw him again.

In the end I forgave my parents. They weren't the ones to blame as everyone had told me they just wanted what was good for me. And they were right but at that moment I wasn't able to see it, they were just worried. After a while I was able to understand what they were trying to do when they chased away Kise, but I will never agree with the methods they used to kick the blond out of my life, and besides they took a decision that it wasn't their right to make, it was my decision to make, but it seems in the end neither them or me took the decision if not was made by solely one person alone.

In the meantime my mother' condition worsened by every month that passed by, the doctors weren't lying when they said this will consume her slowly. My father and I looked like wrecks, because we still couldn't face the reality that someone as powerful as that woman was now there laying on that bed and was looking like a frail person. She had been hospitalised for the last two months because she could no longer be left alone and barely could walk. My father spent there all the day and I went every afternoon after work. Yeah I still worked in the supermarket, but now that money was directed to help pay the hospital' bills.

From time to time Kuroko and Kagami will pop up to see how I was doing and we will eat together, like all we know the one cooking will always be Kagami, And I was grateful that they did because to be honest they were the last part of my life that was still normal and I didn't want to lose that. They never brought Kise's topic. It was like Kise's existence had vanished for good from the world. Sometimes I had the feeling that I was the only mourning the lost but deep down I knew they were as hurt as me, particularly Kuroko. They had always had a deep bond even this second time we met Kise they got attached pretty soon.

Those were my days since I lost Kise, just like a routine I created to keep on going and be able to keep my mind free of thoughts of a certain someone. It was already summer vacation so on the mornings I will sleep and I will awake for the lunch then get ready to go to work and after that I will go to visit my mom at the hospital, then back home again and here is where I will meet with Kagami and Kuroko and the next I will repeat everything. Like a cycle, I felt like my life became monotonous.

Now I was at the hospital doing my usual visit to my mother. My father was dragging me out of the room to an empty corridor and here is when my alarms started to warn me that something was very wrong. He has sat me on a chair and I looked up to him with concerned eyes. This made me worry, this could only mean the worse, but I still hoped it wasn't. After all, the last thing you can lose is hope, no? No matter how desperate the situation you are in become.

Clenching my fists on my lap nervously and swallowing to keep my voice even "Is everything okay?" I asked letting out a nervous sigh.

He shook his head and with sad and tired navy orbs he looked right into mine "Daiki, the doctor had told me that your mother won't live longer than this month" he said with a broken voice. And at that precise moment I felt like my world was crumbling again.

I stood from the chair agitated by the news, looking anywhere less at the pained expression was wearing "So… by the end of the month she won't be here…." he nodded at my whispered words "Does she know?" I asked finally facing him, to seek for an answer.

He nodded once again and sighed heavily "Yeah, the doctor told both of us and she didn't have the heart to tell you, so I did" I was about to break and that was something my father wouldn't be able to view at the moment.

I swallowed hard and pulled my hair backwards "C-can you let me alone for a moment?" I asked with a wavy voice.

He nodded and offered me a strained and tight smile "Yeah, don't worry. I will be in the room and when you are ready you can come" he stated and patted my back just like a father can do.

I waved my hand in response because I knew that if I opened my mouth to talk I will break down crying, because my eyes were stinging already and the tears were begging to be freed from the prison I held them in. Reality was hitting me hard like a rock, at the end of the month I will lose another important person. A person that I loved more than my life, my mom will be gone. Then what should I do with myself? Was it really fair that all of this was only happening to myself? Was I such a bastard on my other life that now I was getting all punished by my old mistakes? If not then I couldn't understand why I was treated this badly by life.

Here is when I started to cry uncontrollably. Tears streamed down my face and I didn't even bother to rub them, I let my vision become blurry and my cheeks to wet, but I couldn't care less how I looked like. My chest constricted and ached by the heavy feeling that placed on my already wounded and broken heart. She was going and I was staying behind. People love to leave me or what? I was going to start having issues with losing people.

I wiped my tears away and I tried to calm my raged breathe, because I wanted to be by my mother's side more than ever, I wanted to see her everyday. You don't know what you have until you lost it... Never in my life could I ever agreed with something as much as I did with this, even thought she was still here now, I knew that soon she wouldn't and I was starting to miss her already. I will come everyday to be with her and spent as much time as I could and all this new memories will be held dearly and fondly on my heart and never will I forget even when she was here hospitalised because that was part of her now too. I stood from that chair and I made my way towards the room, each step was heavier than the last and I just noted how hard was it to walk towards that room, and now I wondered how I did so easily back in the past two months. When I stepped in I saw her laying on that bed, she looked so pale and frail that it broke my heart. I bit my bottom lip and I blinked away the tears that threat to fall. I took my usual spot next to her bed and she smiled warmly at me, I lifted my hand and I held her'. I returned the smile and like always we spent all day talking about the past, they both always commenting what a bratty boy I was but always they spoke with such a fondness that it warmed and it made me realized how love I was and I am still.

Late at night I kissed her good night and I went back home, just like I usually did. That was the last time I saw her smiling at me. My steps were heavier than ever, because the news was still weighed heavily on my mind. This can't be happening to me. I stared blankly at the ground and I let my feet drag me back home, there I threw myself at the couch. I've been sleeping here since the bed was very big to me and it brought bitter memories, since the blond has left I've not stepped in our room.

I closed my tired eyes and soon I drifted off. iIn the middle of the night I was awoken by my phone house. I rubbed my eyes and I glared at the clock that hung in the wall. It's 2:37 a.m, who the hell is calling at this hour? I groaned and I stood groggily, stretching my arms over my head and feeling how sore my body was because I just slept on that couch.

I extended my hand and I grabbed my phone and without looking at the dialler and I placed the phone on my ear "Yeah, Aomine speaking" I yawned and rubbed my face.

"Daiki, it's me, your father. Please rush to the hospital immediately" I heard my father said and by his tone I knew something bad had happened. Oh, how I wished this day never came.

My eyes snapped open and I was awake in an instant. I caught the first shirt I could find and I put on my shoes not bothering to tie them. I get out and I closed the door and then I rushed towards the hospital and I was grateful that I had good stamina. I ran and ran as fast as could to get to my mother' side faster. When I arrived I dashed towards my mother's room and I saw my father sitting in an empty room staring blankly at the empty bed that was now on that room, a heavy feeling placed on the pit of my stomach and I already knew what had happened without him wording it out.

I glanced at him and the mere sight was heartbreaking. A man once strong and stern was now sitting on a chair with sorrowful eyes full of tears at an empty bed and his demeanour was one of a weak and sad person. My father looked beyond broken and lonely on that chair staring at the place where my mother had been laying for the past two months.

My hands clenched tightly and I stared at the empty bed just to feel myself like crying, but I bit my bottom lip and I sucked up my tears, and then I walked towards him and when he saw me he stood from that chair and hugged me strongly. And that mere and simple gesture made me break down crying in his arms, holding onto him for dear life. My mother was gone sooner than we expected, she left without I could tell her how much I loved her and I knew my father still have many things he wanted to tell her and couldn't but that wasn't something we couldn't change now. It's on this kind of moments when you realized how much you should treasure the people you care for and always let them know how much they mean to you, because it will come a day when it will be too late for you to voice out what you feel.

He pulled away from the hug and gave a last glance at the bed before facing me "Daiki, we have to go back home" he patted my back weakly.

Staring at the empty bed and not taking my eyes from there I asked "Dad, can I go home with you?"

He smiled weakly and nodded gratefully "Yeah, sure" he paused and looked down with a fond smile "Daiki, you will always be welcome, after all it will always be your home"

And like that the conversation was over, firstly we were people of many words and secondly we didn't feel like talking when we were so down as to even mutter words. We walked in silence towards the house I grew up in for so many years.

He opened the door and soon I could imagine my mother going out of the kitchen to smile at me and offer me some cookies, like she would always do. She loved to cook, she always poured her heart into her meals, she always say it was the best way to convey the love you felt for your important people. I heard my father closing the door and then he rubbed my head and muttered a goodnight softly. I responded back and I walked towards my room. I threw myself at the bed and I closed my eyes. I was tired so it wasn't hard for me to sleep, even if the bed was that tiny. And that night I dream of the past, when my mother used to wake up and the three of us will eat her delicious breakfast, how she helped me with homework or how she watched my father and me playing on the garden basketball. She was one of the kindest women I'll ever meet in my whole life.

o0o

It's been a month since the funeral had place and I had moved in with my father. He couldn't be alone on that place where so many memories were shared and I couldn't live at that apartment any longer because it was consuming me and I could barely enter a room without remembering something that happened.

He was really beat about the lost and it was visible, his demeanour changed since she left him, but it's something that happens. It is known that when someone dies it always take a part of you with them. I was mourning like him but I could hold myself in my feet.

Kagami and Kuroko had come to the funeral and had helped with everything and I was grateful to them for the gesture and now they came everyday to help me to cheer up my father and to look after me too. They both were worried about us and were trying their hardest too watch over us. My father loved Kagami's style of cooking. Thankfully it wasn't even close to my mother's style and thus it didn't remember him of how much he loved her cooking.

It's been awhile since the funeral and it become our routine, the four of us at the house talking, watching some games on TV or even cooking. I was on the kitchen with Kagami and Kuroko. Kagami was cooking and I was sitting with Kuroko. I sighed loudly and Kuroko looked at me with an arched brow.

He stared at my face and I felt like he was inspecting me closely "Aomine-kun, are you okay?" Kuroko asked concerned.

I smiled and waved a hand in front of my face to reassure him I was fine "Yeah, don't worry about me"

He let out a small sigh and rubbed his temples tiredly "Fine" he knew me better that I accepted and thus why he knew how I was feeling even without asking and that even if he made the question the answer wouldn't be the one he knew.

Turning around to face us for a moment "Do you want to go play basketball this weekend to celebrate that we've been accepted at the university?" Kagami asked contently. We hadn't celebrated yet that we had been accepted, but after all the events that had occurred on my life I wasn't for any celebration.

I was about to refuse the invitation when my father entered the room and chimed in "He will go" he looked at me and ruffled my hair fatherly like "Daiki, you need to go out and have fun with your friends. I will be fine by myself" he smiled and for the first time I noted that it wasn't forced nor faked and it relieved me.

I nodded because I knew I didn't have the will to fight and besides I will be lying if I said I didn't want to go play basketball with them after so long "Okay, dad" I responded.

He ruffled my hair with a fond and caringly smile "That's my boy"

I flushed and my father laughed along with my friends, making me feel even more embarrassed. I groaned in embarrassment and smacked my head with the table and I covered myself with my hands. I could still hear them laugh along with my father and it felt good.

But it was good because it's been awhile since I saw my father trying to smile or laugh and he was accomplishing it. I sighed relieved, it took a weigh from my shoulders. He was moving on but I knew that he will always have that thorn in his heart. I could understand him perfectly. You can seem and be happier but deep down you will never stop mourning the lost of your loved ones. There will be something even the smallest detail that will remind you of something that person did.

o0o

That Saturday I went with my friends to the court from the park in which we usually used to go and after so log without playing I felt rusty. Kagami was the first to be there, because the boy loved basketball over everything and was always ready for it and always so nervous that he will even leave his house early and will wait longer for us but he didn't mind because he will wait for us playing basketball. He was already playing by himself when I arrived at the court. Smirking at him I soon joined him, in the middle of our one-on-one he stopped and went to drink some water and I did as him.

Side glancing me nervously and clearing his throat "Aomine, how are you?" he asked.

I arched a brow mildly confused at his attitude "I'm fine" I responded shrugging.

He sighed and rubbed his hair back "I mean with everything that is going on, first Kise and later your mom. Kuroko and I are worried about you" speaking softly he stared at the floor.

I turned around to face him but he still wouldn't meet my eyes "You want me to be honest?" I saw him nodding and I sighed heavily. Pulled my hair backwards "I'm awful. I thought about jumping down a bridge but then I thought that it wasn't fair for my father or you both" I smiled bitterly at the stupid thought that had crossed my mind when everything of my world started to crumbled. It was a really weak and idiotic move of me.

He rubbed my back in a friendly way and with concerned eyes and a very serious expression "When you are feeling like that why you don't talk about it? You will feel better"

I rolled my eyes "And with whom I talk about that? You know it's not that easy, even with Kise it was hard to bring that kind of topic. I'm not good at talking about feelings. I can barely show them" I hid my face on my hands and let out a sigh.

His voice turned soft "You miss him, don't you?" he asked looking up the sky.

I looked down and I bit my bottom lip. Nodding after closing my eyes tightly I answered "A lot. I wish I could go back in time and stop him from going the first time, like that anything bad will had happened to him" I rubbed my head tiredly "I'm sorry, I hit you that day. I was really mad but now I see that if I had obligated him to come back he will just have flew away again. It was no use, he had always been really stubborn even more than me" I laughed at the memory of Kise being the most stubborn one. The blond was childish, kind, over emotional, friendly and caringly but over all when he set his mind on something he will accomplish it until the very end and no one will make him change his mind, not even Kuroko could. And because of all of that I loved him.

Kagami patted my back and offered me a small smile "You see, it isn't that bad to talk about him"

I arched my brow confused "But weren't Tetsu and you the ones avoiding the topic?" I asked speaking the thought that had been dancing on my mind for a very long time.

He shook his head "We were afraid that you might snap at us and go basilisk and with your mother loss it was even harder to bring the topic" he explained with a very pained expression.

I cupped my face on my hands "I'm sorry guys. I'm making you both worry about me all the time but I'm better, now I won't go berserk if you talk about him" I stated calmly.

"That's good to know" he grinned and stood walking towards the forgotten ball.

"What's taking Tetsu that long?" I asked looking around and not seeing him here yet.

He shrugged not knowing "I don't know. He said he will come a bit late because he had some things to do, that's all" he started to bounce the ball.

"Do what?" I asked arching a brow.

He threw me the ball and I caught without any effort "I asked him but he just told me he couldn't say me" he responded with a shrug.

I sighed and I stood bouncing the ball towards him "Let's keep playing then"

We resumed our playing and after some hours Kuroko finally appeared out of breath, because it seemed he had rushed towards the court. Which it irked me, was that he was wearing a big grin and radiated happiness. Kagami and I stopped playing to stare at the teal haired boy that just arrived. Kagami walked towards him with an arched brow.

Crossing his arms over his chest "Kuroko, why are you so happy?" he asked curiously.

The smaller boy shrugged "Because I am, good things can happen in the end" he responded and then he went after the ball "So, are we playing or not?" he changed the topic easily.

We didn't pry any further because we just had been waiting for him all day and now we wanted to play to our hearts content just like we used to. Since it was summer it was harder to tell when it was late so after some hours of playing non-stop we decided it was time to go to the Maji burger like always, a routine that hardly died on us, perhaps was because we loved to eat at that place a lot.

Upon arriving at the establishment I stopped on my tracks when through the corner of my eye I saw a glimpse of gold. I snapped my head towards the direction but I felt disappointed when I saw it was just a little girl with the same hair and eye colour than Kise. What was I expecting? Even thought it was impossible, I still hoped to meet with Kise by chance. The girl smiled looking towards us and waving happily. I turned to see that Kuroko was waving at her.

I looked from the girl to my friend "You know her, Tetsu?" I asked.

He nodded and offered her a small smile "Yeah, I'm working part-time in a small kindergarten, where the kids come to play at summer and she is one of them" he responded.

Looking back at the girl which really resembled Kise "I see" I responded softly.

The girl looked like Kise a lot, just tinier and female but everything else was the same. The hair and eye colour, the cheerfulness and happiness, how she bounced while walking, said girl dashed out of the Maji burger and my eyes followed her unconsciously.

I saw her going out and lunging at the leg of the man that was standing back to us outside the place. I couldn't see his face because he was back at us, but the man had black hair. The man patted her head affectionately and she held his hand happily. The man wasn't one bit alike to her, but maybe the girl just looked like her mother. I shook my head and I turned around, we took our orders and sat at our usual seats, we ate and talked about anything, mostly about how university will go, we were really nervous about it, because we were going to a foreign and new place and for the first time we will go separately.

oo0oo

And just like that in the blink of an eye the summer ended and we began university, which caused us to meet less and less but when we had time we went to the court, because we had established to never lose all contact. University was really stressing and was taking a lot of my time but at least it got my mind busy and my thoughts didn't wander to the blond as much as before.

I was starting to stabilize my life once again. I was grateful for this new change on my life, finally I felt that everything was back to normal. I lived with my father and he was really progressing, I knew he was still sad because of my mother but he was trying his best to move on and that was like a burden lift from my shoulders. Now I realized that my life had not been as hard as I thought it was, at that moment I couldn't see it but now with a clear head and more calmly when I sat to look back I even understood why Kise left.

In the university I made new friends, even thought I was still antisocial, I was glad I made and I even felt lucky to even made one. When I told Kuroko and Kagami, the teal haired one had smirked and with a mocking expression he had honestly me told that he was surprised that I even managed to made one friend, which at that moment annoyed me and made want to strangle but for his luck Kagami was there and stopped me before I committed homicide.

One of the new friends I made was a girl with pink haired who was always nagging me that I should go to class and study properly and that over all I should stop asking for her notes, but what could I do when she had such a neat and perfect notes, which always helped me to pass. I did consider her a good friend, she was called Satsuki Momoi. Another was a brown haired boy that was in my class too whom always was apologising for anything he did at the beginning was even amusing to watch and by the end you got used to it, he was called Ryou Sakurai. We hang out a lot mostly because Momoi wanted and was always pulling our little group together.

After another year at the university my group of friends widened, but not because I wanted, the two new additions were really annoying and it always made me explode. One was blond and was always in a really bad mood, searching to pick a fight with me, he was called Kousuke Wakamatsu. And the other was a really creepy and annoying guy, he was older than us, he had black haired and wore glasses, he was called Shoichi Imayoshi.

I had presented them to Kagami and Kuroko and surprisingly they got along well and thus made our group even bigger. Momoi seemed to have a crush on Kuroko, I pitied her, because Kuroko and Kagami were officially dating and she knew but she told me that even if the man was taking her feelings wouldn't change that easily. And now we used to go every Sunday to the court to play basketball, the others were good as well and now we were more and it was more challenging. It had become a lively routine for us, I felt like I did change from the past and I was proud of myself mostly.

oo0oo

And before I knew it I ended university and I was a cop and I couldn't believe it, time sure flies. My university' life had been one full of happiness and fond memories that no matter what I wouldn't change it for anything else.

Since I had ranked the best of my year I was luckily assigned to a police station from my town were for my luck I had Imayoshi as a superior. I dreaded that little detail, but everything else was perfect, because I got to work on my town and I didn't have to move to another place and leave my father behind. I was put a test but in this area there aren't much of a crime, maybe a lost wallet or pertinence, sometimes a lost small kid, but not much. Over all it was a calm and quiet place to live on. It was paperwork all day long and it was really boring.

And then I met with someone of the past. My yes couldn't believe what I was seeing and I even thought they were playing a trick on me. I wasn't expecting to see that person and to tell the truth I didn't even remembered him, because he hadn't been a really good memory. He was accused of stealing armed on a small store from near the station. I told Imayoshi to let me handle him because I already knew him and he let me do without questioning me.

I entered the room and he was sitting with a lost gaze. His eyes were glassy and red. He looked like he was in another place afar from here. I closed the door and I sat in front of him, he furrowed his brows to focus his gaze and then I saw a hint of realization in his eyes and he chuckled dryly. He wasn't very amused to have me there as the police in turn to interrogate him.

Letting out an airy laugh and leaning back on his chair "My, my, look who we have here" he said with a smirk "Feeling superior like always?" he clicked his tongue a bit annoyed.

I sighed and I rubbed my nape shaking my head "I never felt that way" I informed him.

He pursed his lips not agreeing with my statement "Let me doubt it" he played with his fingers and stared at them, his demeanour changed drastically, his shoulders sank and felt how the aura around him turned gloomy "You had everything I ever dreamed of" he paused and closing his eyes "You had a high upbringing, you came from a normal family, you went to high school and then you stole Ryouta away" he looked directly into my eyes with a pained expression "What did I have left then?" he asked more to himself than to me.

It surprised me to see such a weak Haizaki right in front of me, I could barely recognize the man that was now sitting in front of me "Haizaki, I didn't know that you…" I trailed off.

He smiled bitterly shaking his head "That I loved him? Yes, I did. I was so hang up on him that I couldn't bear to see him going so happy with you. It tore me apart. And in the end I just screw everything. I lost him and I broke him. And then he just came to say he was leaving for good…" he dug his nails at his head and I saw fury on his eyes but for the first time it wasn't directed at me if not at him.

I raised a brow mildly confused at the piece of information he said "What do you mean he left for good?"

He looked up with wide eyes and a shocked expression "He didn't tell you…?" he laughed and shook his head "I see. It's weird because he told to that midget with teal hair"

"Tetsu?" I said surprised. Now I was left to pounder on why Kise hadn't told me anything and why Kuroko hadn't spoken a word either.

He nodded and let out a tired sigh "I don't know if I should tell you?" he smirked and I glared at him, he lifted his hands in amusement "Okay, okay, bad guy. He went to London in the end. He changed, you know. When I saw him again that summer he wasn't the same Ryouta I knew. He was different, I don't know how to explain and something else happened. I guess you wouldn't believe it, but is the truth" he looked down like if he was recalling that memory "He came with his father. He was going with him"

I stood from the chair in utter disbelief "Kise's father?" that man. Was he joking? The person that mistreated Kise? The one that made Kise be afraid of everything?

He nodded and by the face he wore I knew we were sharing the same train of thoughts "I know, hard to believe, eh?" he laughed dryly "But is the truth" he shrugged and then looked at me with a smirk "Shouldn't you be interrogating me for what I did?"

I rubbed my hair and cleared my throat embarrassed to have been so lost in the past that I forgot what was I supposed to do "Yeah, sorry. Well, Haizaki you are accus—"he cut me off.

He wore an unreadable expression and looked straight into my eyes "I'm guilty of those charges" he stated calmly and honestly.

I raised a brow at how easily has he admitted his crimes "Why are you telling that you did it so easily?"

He shrugged and leaned his head backwards on the chair "Because I did it" and then a sad smile formed on his lips "Besides I want to start anew and I think I need a time in jail to refresh myself" he clarified.

I stood from the chair and went to the door and without looking back "Are you doing this to punish yourself?" I asked, but I knew the answer to that question. The moment I saw that man on that chair I clear noted the regret and guiltiness he was carrying over his shoulders.

I heard him laugh from behind "Maybe?" he responded with another question.

I went out without another word to him and talked with Imayoshi about how things went and how the man in charge had declared that he was guilty of the actions he was charged for. He took care of the rest and Haizaki was sent to jail for half a year. I was surprised to have had such a calm talk with him, even thought I was the reason he lost Kise, he didn't blame me, he blamed himself for losing the blond. Partly I understood him. I know what it meant to lose someone like Kise. That blond could bright your life with just a small smile and for some of us was like our path to follow, but once you lose that path where are you supposed to go?

Next chapter will be Kise' POv, so if you missed him on this chapter next one we will see him and his first encounter with Aomine, but it won't turn out as you all are expecting xD

I don't know if will be able to update next weekend but i will try, because life had been chaotic lately and i've been trying to cope with everything.

Thanks for reading and i hope you enjoyed this new chapter! : D