AUTHOR'S NOTE
Yippee! So many awesome reviews! Maybe I should blackmail you guys more often *wink wink* Okay, but I have just got a few VERY IMPORTANT announcements to make. So please bear with me.
1st, I don't intend to promote molestation or rape! I find these activities heinous and personally wish all those to go to hell who do this. Nobody has the right to harm anybody in any way! I can understand that some of you might have felt that Edward is abusing Bella and to an extent you are right. But, his abuse is more verbal and not in a harming her body sort of way. Yes, he hurts her physically but not in that way. He is crazy about her but at the same time he can't be with her. And Bella, she has spent a very, very long time in shutting herself away from people and any sort of physical contact cringes her but with Edward, it is their connection which gets her past all her inhibitions and she finds herself responding to him automatically. It is not only because of their chemistry or that mate pull but also because somewhere they both connect on an emotional level even though they haven't realized it yet. I know and I understand the definition of rape in which women are unable to stop themselves from responding and later feel that their body and their mind have betrayed them but I can assure you that it was never my intention to portray this in my story. See, this is why I ask you guys for reviews because that is how I come to know what you are deciphering from the characters as well as the plot. I'm glad that you put forward your feedback which gives me the opportunity to clarify everything. And if it's any relief, I can let you guys know that in the entire story Edward won't rape Bella. Yes, he is monstrous and at times can be a total ass but rape is something he would never do. So be assured of that. This story is dark but only to a certain extent. I won't increase its darkness to that level where even I find myself unable to read the story. Molestation is a reality but I'm not yet ready to deal with it and so, I won't write about it either.
2nd, my work is purely ORIGINAL and there is NO PLAGIARISM in it. If anybody felt that I've copied something from somewhere, please let me know. I'll be happy to hunt your sorry ass down and give you a really nice kick...:D
But on a serious note, I have worked very hard on this story and it is very close to me. The idea of this story came when I was in one of the lowest phases of my life. The darkness in me prompted me to write this to let it out. That is why every now and then I face problems in continuing this story since darkness doesn't reside in you forever. Light is always there waiting for you around the corner and all you need to do is reach it. And if you can't, no problem. Just be hopeful and the light will come to you. :-)
In order to continue this story I really have to go in the depth and recall all those painful moments because come on, I'm human! I can't be sad all the time and for understanding the messed up mind of both Bella and Edward, I need to put myself out there and understand what they are going through, what they are saying to me and whether whatever they are saying to me is being presented properly to you guys or not. Trust me guys, I've written many stories but this story has been the most difficult for me to write so far. But at the same time, I LOVE this story because it came from within me and that is why, I plan to finish it.
And the reason I posted this second point regarding plagiarism is because I publish this same story on some other website as well but the names of characters are different. Here, I portray this as a Twilight fanfic where as on that other site I portray it as some other fanfic. Why do I do this? Because I find several similarities in the male protagonists. The other site where I publish this story isn't anybody's concern but actually one of my readers from that site came across this story here and thought that I was copying it from here. It hurt but her reaction was understandable. And you guys can be assured that I'm not copying this story from that site either and if you guys have any doubt, you can let me know. I'll prove it to you that I'm not copying. But trust me, you won't like my way of proving. :D
Frankly, I don't consider myself answerable to anyone especially when the work is mine but at the same time I value my readers a lot so I thought I should clear this. I hope that the one who thought I was copying would be assured after reading this that I'm not. :-)
As for the update, I'll post the new chapter on Tuesday. It is in the need of MAJOR editing because honestly right now, it appears like total crap! So give me time and you'll get it soon. And of course, the unspoken message always remains, you leave your reviews and you get the story. :D
Until then,
Ciao
Stay blessed
:-)