Author's Note: Sorry I didn't post this earlier today. I planned on it, but I was having a rough time with it. Let's just say, unfortunately, I can relate to Karofsky's situation more than I'd like to, and it was really hard to write this entry since I based it off my own experience, minus the suspension. That being said, please be kind towards this chapter. Normally, I like any review, good or bad, but if you have something bad to say regarding this chapter, can you please keep it to yourself. Enjoy. : )

Entry 22

It's good to see you again Dave! I was kind of actually worried about you. How did your seven day suspension go? Were your parents pissed?

Kurt.

My parents were very pissed. Hey, I really did want to apologize. I didn't mean any of that shit I said… I'm just… stressed out, big time.

Dave.

What happened? Don't say nothing. I'm not an idiot. Something big happened.

Kurt.

I told my parents.

Dave.

Oh, and I'm guessing that didn't go well.

Kurt.

That'd be a nice way of putting it.

Dave.

They aren't throwing you out, are they?

Kurt.

No, they're just going to make my life a living hell. I have to go to some special camp over the summer, and I have to do an hour worth of Bible study every day. They want me to pray away the gay.

Dave.

Ouch. That sounds pretty rough. How did they take it initially?

Kurt.

My mom wouldn't look at me. My dad cried. Dammit. I made my dad cry.

Dave.

Dave, do you want to step out into the hall? You look like you're going to cry.

Miss. Brown.

Ok, uh, while you're calming down, I'm going to try and give my two cents. First off, I can't imagine your dad crying. He's a big guy, but I think it's just because he's worried about you. I mean, he's probably worried about you being picked on, and how it'll reflect on him and whatever else.

As far as the camp thing goes, I've heard nothing but terrible things about those. You are graduating this year, so maybe you could move out before they get the chance to ship you there?

Kurt.

Ok, I'm back. Sorry about that. I doubt I'll get to do that. I'm not getting my college paid for anymore, so my chances of even getting to go to college have basically slimmed down to nothing. You don't get it Kurt. Your dad accepted you, like it was nothing. My mom sat there and told me how I just crushed her hopes and dreams for me. How I ruined her dream of me having kids and having a family. She told me that I'll never be able to get a job, and how I'll never be able to play football because guys will be grossed out by me. Meanwhile, my dad sat there, crying, not saying anything to me. He won't even look at me.

And now, we just pretend that nothing's wrong. My brothers don't know, because my parents "don't want them to think lower of me". I almost wish they did throw me out, so I wouldn't have to deal with the looks. Every time one of my own parents look at me, they look like they're about to cry. Then they go on about how I wouldn't really know until I kissed a girl and how I'm not giving the other side a chance.

Dave.

Dave, I know this is going to be hard on you, but you just need to be strong. It isn't your job to change for them. They need to learn to accept you.

Miss. Brown.

Yea, like Miss. Brown said, don't try and change yourself for them. I tried that route once. It just makes you hate yourself.

Kurt.

Ok… Uh, Kurt, could I take you up on that offer?

Dave.

What offer?

Kurt.

I want to sing a song… Not in front of the glee club though. I've never really sung for anything, other than the fun of it and the church choir, but I think I have the perfect song.

Dave.

What song? I can help you with it.

Kurt.

Numb by Linkin Park.

Dave.

Not familiar with it, but I'll look it up during study hall. Meet me after school in the auditorium.

Kurt.

Ok. See you there. Thanks.

Dave.

Author's Note #2: Don't forget to go cast your votes! I finally got the poll working, so yea. I'll probably post quite a bit on Saturday, but nothing Sunday. Easter is important to me. : )