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He hated the hospital so much. Everything about it. It wasn't exactly happy memories that was brought back in this place, but then again, who had happy memories from a hospital? This was where his mother had died, this was where his dad had almost died, and now apparently where he had almost died too, if he was to believe the doctors and nurses. They talked about how he was lucky to have pulled through and that he was lucky not to have any long lasting complications. Kurt didn't know if he could agree though. His body ached with a dull pain muffled by painkillers and he still slept most of the day. But he was going to be okay even if would take him weeks of not being able to eat normally and he would never be able to eat certain painkillers again. He had really managed to mess himself up, Kurt thought bitterly. He had never had the intention on hurting himself, ever but yet here he was, recovering in hospital from his injuries. Of course the broken ribs weren't his fault but no matter what his father told him, he had screwed up. Big time!

His dad had decided to go back to work yesterday after realizing he couldn't leave the piles of paper works for too long. Kurt was kind of relieved when he did anyway. Things had been awkward and tense since he woke up between the two of them. Other than his father, no one except for Blaine had visited him and Blaine went to school almost two hours away so his visits had been limited and he wouldn't be able go there again until this weekend. Kurt hated being alone, even for the few hours that he was awake the loneliness crept in on him. Carole came by whenever she had a break but their conversation was even more awkward then those with his father. After all she was Finn's mom and she was bound to be torn by the situation. She had left him a whole bunch of fashion magazine that he happily read while he waited for his dad to come back from work.

He turned the blade in the latest issue of Elle, carefully scribbling down page numbers on a small note pad a nurse had lent him. His eyes fell on his hand and the IV needle on the back of it. He grimaced in disgust and clenched his fist a couple of times, almost waiting for it to come out. Nothing happened except for a small sting in his skin. He sighed and put the note pad down on his lap.

"What are you doing" Came a small, timid voice from the door.

That was a voice he hadn't expected to hear. He glanced over to the door and saw Finn standing there, leaning heavily against the wall, with a small smile on his face and a plastic bag in his hand. He stood in the door opening for several seconds, eyes flickering between the floor and Kurt and it looked like he debated on himself whether to enter the room or not. Kurt sighed.

"Hi Finn" He said dryly. "What are you doing here? Aren't you supposed to be in glee?"

Finn shrugged and looked down again.

"Can I come in? He asked timidly and bit his lips "I got your Ipod for you"

He gestured towards the bag in his hands with a small smile. Kurt looked out of the window trying t collect his thoughts. He wasn't really up to see anybody, despite his boredom and loneliness. One the other hand he couldn't push it up forever.

"Are you gonna yell at me for blowing it at sectionals?" He couldn't help himself but ask " Because in that case I think I've had enough of that already." He added and glared at Finn.

Finn looked completely crushed by the words and he flinched noticeably.

"Yeah, you right I should just go" He said quickly entering the room the place the bag with the Ipod on Kurt's lap and then quickly turned around again to leave. When he was half way through the door he turned around and look sadly at Kurt.

"I'm so sorry, Kurt. Just let your dad know when it's okay for me to come back again. If you ever will of course"

Kurt looked down on his lap without saying anything and with on last sigh that sounded more like a choked sob Finn left the room again. A couple of seconds went by before Kurt straightened himself up in the bed and called out as loud as his he could.

"Finn!"

He hoped that Finn hadn't gotten too far away down the corridor. Almost immediately, Finn's face popped out in the doorway.

"Yeah?" He said.

"Thanks for the Ipod" Kurt said " If you want to it's okay if you stay for awhile"

Finn looked like the whole world just had been lifted of his shoulders and he nodded and a somewhat happy noise escaped from his mouth before he stumbled into the room. He clumsily sat down on one of the chairs and looked at Kurt for several long seconds before he opened his mouth.

"Look Kurt, I'm so..."

"Finn stop it" Kurt interrupted and Finn's head shot up "Hear me out, okay? I, Blaine told be everything and I know that you are sorry but I'm not ready. I just don't know if I can forgive you yet."

Finn nodded.

"Of course" He said though the devastation was clear in his voice "It's okay. I didn't expect you to. I just want to tell you myself. Burt barely let me see you. And when you finally woke up he wouldn't at all until you said it was okay but I just couldn't wait any longer. I've been here before but you've been asleep so I just stayed for a few minutes before your dad came back and then left"

"Okay" Kurt said, clearing his throat.

Neither of them said anything in awhile and Kurt fiddled with his IV needle, wincing slightly when it stung. Finn frowned and grabbed his hand and carefully put it down beside Kurt.

"You shouldn't do that" He said.

"I don't like needles very much" Kurt mumbled "Not IV:s at least"

"Yeah I know" Finn mumbled "But if it comes out you'll like bleed and have it inserted again and I know you don't like that either"

Kurt nodded.

"I guess so" He said and smiled slightly.

"Kurt, I need you to listen to me" Finn said seriously "I've been a complete jerk to you and I'm so so sorry. I've just got so caught up in Rachel and Glee and didn't realize you needed me and when you were distant I just assumed you were moody and I got angry. Especially when you and Rachel got into fights and I had to chose sides. I should have stand up for you especially when no one else did but I was afraid that I would lose my status and I like being popular and being the leader of glee is like cool and I'm not strong like you"

Kurt looked down.

"I'm not strong" He whispered "Look at me." He gestured to his own form on the bed and the hospital blanket draped over his legs and stomach. "This is not what strong looks like"

"Look at me" Finn said "You are strong, Stronger than I am. Now just listen to me"

Kurt nodded again.

"I'm so sorry. We treated you so badly by ignoring you or shutting you out and I can't believe those mean things I said to you. I don't think you are selfish and you have a great voice and you are not whiny. I can't believe you went through all of that alone. With the bullying."

"I didn't really have choice" Kurt mumbled "You didn't pay attention and I didn't want to bother you with my small problems" He said honestly.

"I know," Finn said. "Blaine told me everything. He kinda screamed at everyone in the waiting room when we waited for you. Even Santana looked scared. I guess we deserved it. He let us know how bad we had treated you and how much we had hurt you. I'm so sorry Kurt. I can't say it enough times but I'm so sorry"

Kurt knew he was sorry. Everything about Finn's posture told him so but it as so hard to just forgive like this. He had been hurt so much. Crushed even by everything that had happened and it was hard to believe that it was because of all his friends.

"I wished I had protected you" Finn continued "I wished I had been there for you and I hate myself for turning you down like this for some stupid reasons like being popular. It doesn't mean anything to me. I just saw you on the floor passed out and unmoving and I knew something was wrong. I had even sensed it that morning but I was just angry with you fr skipping last practice so I didn't care and then when I thought I heard you throw up I ignored that too. But you just lay there on the stage and all I could think about was how I couldn't get to you fast enough and how I needed to help you. Everyone panicked and Mr Shue tried to wake you up but you didn't and I knew something was badly wrong. Oh god. I thought you were going to die"

Tears formed in Finn's eyes and he sniffled.

"It's my fault you are here and I hate myself for it. If I had just been a real brother to you I should have helped you and I should have stood up for you against the others and against the bullies and I should have seen that you were hurt and taken you to the hospital made sure you were okay. You almost died Kurt. You could have died. I don't care how long it takes but I'll do anything for you to forgive me. Anything."

Kurt felt tears in his own eyes.

"I just need time" He whispered "I'm trying to forgive you but I need some time. You hurt me really bad Finn. I'm not gonna lie to you but you weren't the only one and I know that it's not easy to be Rachel's boyfriend and all that but I just wished that you would have stuck up for me only once when she said all those things to me. I think that is what hurt me most with you Finn. You knew how much she hurt me but you took her side anyway. We are supposed to be brother's Finn but I don't now. Brother's don't do things like this"

Kurt half expected Finn to snap in irritation at him but instead he looked even sadder and he cried even harder.

"I know, I'm so so sorry. If I could take it back I would I promise."

Kurt nodded feeling a little more composed.

"I know. Just give me time, okay?"

Finn nodded.

"Yeah of course. I'll do anything to earn your trust again" He tried his eyes with his sleeve and chuckled bit. "God, I'm a mess. He mumbled. "How are you feeling? Last time I saw you you didn't look so good"

Kurt smiled humourlessly.

"It's okay. I'm tired all the time and it kinda hurts. My ribs are finally healing but I'm not allowed to do anything for like a month just because they need my body to heal and recover from everything it went through. I won't be able to take an aspirin ever again even one. Guess I messed up big time. Not only sectionals I mean."

"It's not your fault. If you wouldn't have felt so pressured this wouldn't have happened so if it's anybody's fault it's us who pressured you"

"I don't think everybody agrees with that" Kurt mumbled.

"No body blame's you for sectionals. The Warblers was way better than us this year. And technically you past out after our number so it didn't effect it. Mr Shue asked the judges and they said the Warblers felt more dynamic. Even Rachel agrees with them"

Kurt was just about to say that he didn't believe that when they were interrupted by knock on the door and when Kurt turned his head toward the door he saw the whole glee club standing in the door way with happy smiles on their faces.

Kurt looked down and felt himself go cold. He clenched is hands into hard fists and bit his lip hard enough to draw blood. He focused on the coppery taste on his tongue and refused to meet his friends eyes even though he could feel their expecting eyes burning wholes in him. What did they expect for him? That he would just let them step into his hospital room and pretend that everything was all right? He couldn't do that. He wouldn't do that.

"Surprise" Someone said cheerily, probably Mercedes. Kurt didn't care.

"Please go away" He whispered brokenly feeling tears in his eyes.

"But, Kurt we want to tell you how sorry we are" This time it was definitely Mercedes but Kurt couldn't bring himself to look at her.

"We just want to explain"

"You need to give us a chance"

"Go away" He said again, louder this time.

His eyes spilled over with tears and his voice was close to breaking.

"Just go away. I don't want you here. Go away"

When no one moved he janked up in the bed so fast that the pain ripped through him and he felt himself get dizzy. He ignored the pain and dizziness and looked up at them again.

"GO AWAY" He screamed and they flinched away at his voice.

Mercedes and Tina started to cry but they all began to move.

"I'm so sorry" Mercedes cried as she left the room.

Kurt looked away again.

"Kurt you should lie back down" Finn mumbled and put his arm on Kurt's to help him lean back against the pillows again.

"Don't touch me" Kurt snapped and jerked his arm free "Just go away. I want to be alone"

"But..." Finn started softly and tried to touch Kurt again.

"No, Get out." Kurt said panting hard through the pain. "I just want to be alone"

Finn nodded and got up from his seat.

"Tell my dad I don't want him to come by today" Kurt mumbled as Finn was about to leave.

Finn didn't answer and as soon as the other teen was out of the room, Kurt fell back on the bed again and rolled over to his side so he was facing the wall instead of the door. He wrapped the blanker closer around him and curled up as best as he could while the tears rolled down his face.

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Lots of you didn't want Kurt to forgive Finn and I can agree with you but on the other hand it hard to ot forgive people close to you. For me at least. Well he didn't really forgive him and there will be more walking later n. I kind of feel lik there is alt of talking right now I hope it doesn't bore you. If you have ideas to make it less boring I'm eagerly listening :) And don't forget the poll! :)