Bonds of a Brawler Chapter 25: Checkmate, a bakugan battle brawlers fanfic

Been a while for various reasons. Blame Star for having exams and coursework to do for the last few months and tragically that's above this but hopefully it won't again too soon but I can't promise anything.

Good thing is about long breaks is that my writing comes back stronger than ever.

This chapter is more narrative if anything else so you get a real glimpse into Amoi's mind. There's not so much action, more decisions needed to be made. Yeah, that decision.

Enjoy this long awaited chapter and review.

Chapter Twenty-Five: Checkmate

I've been trapped in Marucho's house for a few days now and cabin fever could really run high considering that Elfin ran off and lost her aquas energy for example. So then there were four: Pyrus, Ventus, Darkus and Spirit. Naillkazer and I have managed to keep our game on for obvious reasons but now at last that Bakugan Interspace has been created, we didn't have much in the way of stopping us from practicing our skills although I haven't really felt up to it recently. Maybe from all the constant looking over my shoulder which is getting really old. Then again, it might have something to do with the fact that I'm caught between two guys who are amazing in their own right. Dan's fun, impulsive, funny (in his own way) and just when he wants to be rather sweet. Shun's cool, calm and collected and pretty much the opposite of Dan but even he has his sensitive side despite it being really well hidden! Also, it doesn't help when these two are best friends as well. God, I feel like Bella from Twilight and I hate Twilight but I do think Jacob is hot.

God, my life is like my own personal soap opera or teen drama, whichever works. Think about it: Constantly caught between guys, the adventure and the secrets. I never liked keeping secrets but still I think this one will just blow up in my face no matter what happens.

"Naillkazer, what would you do in a battle you can't win?" I asked.

"What do you mean exactly, Amoi?"

"Well, it's just that...you know I like Dan in more ways than one but then there's Shun."

"A love dilemma?"

"You got it in one. I just I don't which way is the right way anymore."

Life is a crossroad. You either go one way which is right and the other is wrong but there's no right or wrong to this one. Great, I just remembered that Runo is in picture and that does me no favors but what choice do I have? I hurt someone no matter what decision I make. Seriously, why did you guys have to be so wonderful! It's actually painful to think about but maybe a little musical therapy would help but I think I'll play one song that I thought I would never relate to considering...dare I say it? A Miley Cyrus song!

Smooth-talking
So rockin'
He's got everything that a girl's wantin'
Guitar cutie
He plays it groovy
And I can't keep myself from doing something stupid

Think I'm really falling for his smile
Get butterflies when he says my name

He's got something special
He's got something special
And when he's looking at me, I wanna get all sentimental
He's got something special
He's got something special
I can hardly breathe, something's been telling me, telling me maybe he could be the one
He could be the one
He could be the one
He could be the one...
He could be the one
He could be the one
He could be the one...

He's lightning
Sparks are flyin'
Everywhere I go he's always on my mind and
I'm gain' crazy
About him lately
And I can't help myself from how my heart is racing

Think I'm really digging on his vibe
He really blows me away

And he's got a way of making me feel
Like everything I do is
Perfectly fine
The stars are aligned when I'm with him
And I'm so into him...

I couldn't get images of those two out of my head as I sang that song. They could both be guys that I could spend the rest of my life but you can't always get what you want which is one of the reasons why life does suck on occasion but I can't handle this anymore. I have to make a decision: It's either Dan or Shun? Praying that someone else doesn't enter this already complicated mix.

It's strange. I mean, I spent so long closed off from things like love as I considered them pointless but I have grown up as an orphan so it would be a main reason why. Both Dan and Shun have made my heart melt to the ground because I finally found something true. If I was back home, people would think I was crazy. Still, I never cared for what the superficial thought of me; that world is such a bore.

Closed off from love

Didn't need the pain

Time starts to pass and before it

You're frozen

But something happened for the very first time with you

What if I'm not meant to get what I want? What if no-one is? And this is a TV Land world where people always have happy endings but now with me here...it just never seems to be like that here any more. I guess this is my real world.

Okay, Amoi. Decision time!

"Dan or Shun?" I asked myself.

The idea is to listen to your heart and find out who you love most or at least this is how it works in a show. I closed my eyes but then I just saw both of them even when all I could see is black. I opened my eyes automatically when that happened. Seriously, that's just cruel! Is my heart even against me now? God, you know you've reached rock bottom when you can't even trust yourself. Maybe next time when I enter a show, I'll go for a Disney one...on second thought, being in High School Musical would give me even bigger nightmares. Example: We're all in this together? Breaking Free? Maybe I'll pass.

Right, how about thinking about what guy I would normally go for? I wouldn't know, I haven't been much of a boyfriend person before. Last time I said that, someone thought I was a lesbian. No offense to any lesbian out there. I hate homophobes myself but this whole train of thought should stop now, yeah.

Back to basics in this never ending narrative in my very tortured head. Let's see...Dan is like I said fun and impulsive. I love his dark brown eyes, I could get lost in them all the time which just puts me at his mercy all the time. I never thought of Dan as the guy that would get my attention but I guess I learn a lot of things from knowing someone so well almost stalker like if only he knew. Although he isn't the brightest person in the world, he can make me laugh and makes me forget all about what would be bothering me in a second and not many people have done that for me. He's like someone I've known my entire life rather than just a few months.

Shun's just perfect, not depressing Edward Twilight perfect but just...he's real, he's cool and hot, just all round perfect. Whoever created him knew what they were doing. The raven hair, the upset light topaz eyes almost hypnotic and that he can just be so amazing and even though he's a constant stoic, he's also sensitive to others and he would help his friends at any turn which is all a person could want: Smart, attractive, cool, the eyes which could just let him into the core of my soul with no effort involved. Again, not something most people could do to me as I always kept my guard up and never let people really see the real me as I always thought I was different. I was too right there.

"Why do they both have to be so amazing? Why couldn't you be a little less perfect?" I moaned.

I'm moaning at a ceiling. Yeah, completely normal behavior, Amoi! I can't stop thinking about them. They're both so awesome and I would stay with them through it all. Come on, they've made me a romantic as well? Great, bring on the annoying need for Haagen-Dazs after this is over.

Right, calm down. I took a deep breath and really just relaxed and thought about it. Then just one person just popped into mind. I smiled at that thought and soon enough I was fast asleep although I don't think I want to wake up.

The strange thing about love is that you are always at its mercy.