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A/N I am SO sorry to everyone I upset with the last chapter. But that's how I had it planned from the start. Plus if I had made mini Elliot live, it would have screwed up something else stewing in my insanely fucked up mind. What is it? Gonna have to read this story to the end to find out :)
Fin held Tina's hand the entire time they rode to the hospital as the paramedic worked on her ankle, silently urging the driver to go faster, looking at the wall, not saying a word.
"Daddy," Tina asked as the paramedic wrapped it in gauze. "Mommy's going to be okay right?"
Fin bit his bottom lip and nodded.
"Yeah, baby. She's gonna be fine."
Turning his head from her so that she didn't see the disbelief in his eyes, nor the tears the began to shine in them.
Olivia had screamed. She had screamed harder, louder, and more horrible then anything Fin had ever heard in his life, unable to even form words. All she could was simply scream for her lost child's life as the gun shot echoed in their dungeon. She fell unconscious on her bed and she bled out, the thick red liquid taking away her very life from her body. Only then did the horrific screaming stopped.
Fin wasn't even to make a sound, much less the scream she had made. Until Joseph laughed. Just laughed uncontrollably as if he had just witnessed something hilarious. He began sobbing as he tried to get to them, desperate to kill the men who took away his sons life, who had raped and tortured his wife for hours on end.
Joseph took his time with her, ravishing her pain, her body beneath his as she struggled the first few times he had put her through hell before she stopped fighting. He had enjoyed it far more then Adam did, who looked at it as "punishment and cleansing" as he put it. What's worse, was that Fin was thanking the heavens when she stopped screaming and struggling. Every scream and plead and sob she had let out cut through him like physical pain. And he knew that it only encouraged them to push faster, to hit her harder. But she wouldn't give up, wouldn't stop fighting even when she also knew there was no hope. Until finally, she had stopped responding to it. She laid motionless and speechless, only doing and saying what was told of her.
"I should have found a way to help," he thought, more tears rolling down his face.
The ambulance rolled to a stop, breaking Fin out of his thoughts, and he sat up straight, eager to get out of here, desperate to check on Olivia.
The doctor opened the door and as soon as they were opened, he jumped out, waiting impatiently for Tina to be loaded onto the stretcher, thankful with all his heart a broken ankle was the worst extent of her damages.
As soon as she was on, he raced ahead of them, running into the hospital and looking around.
"Fin!" someone called out.
He turned hastily to see who, and saw Elliot rise from a waiting seat and raced over to him, covered in her blood, not even hiding the tears that spilled from his blue eyes.
"Where is she?" he asked, his composure hanging by a thread.
"They took her into surgery. Sh- she crashed in the ambulance. They were still trying to get her heart beat back when she went into surgery."
Fin took a step back, and the room began swirling. He placed a hand out to steady himself and Elliot caught him before he collapsed to the ground. Uttering to words that sounded a lot like, "I'm sorry," but he was too out of it to notice.
"We need a doctor over here!" Elliot cried, hoisting Fin to his feet.
Fin shook his head, trying to get the room to stop spinning around him.
"No!" he yelled, pushing Elliot away, "I need to find out if she's okay!"
Elliot tried to reason with him, placing a hand on his shoulder. "Fin, you need a doc-" Fin threw it off in anger.
"I need Olivia, okay! I need my fucking wife!"
He shook his head once more, the hospital coming back in focus. Ignoring those staring at him.
He ran to the secretary who looked at him a bit oddly, trying to decide if security needed to be called yet.
"Please!" he begged, "please, I need to find out about Olivia Benson! she was just brought in here. I'm her husband, please. I can't lose her."
"Sir, if she was just brought in, there's nothing I can tell you besides wait for the doc-"
"I don't want to fucking wait!" he screamed, his hands began shaking.
"Sir, I'm going to ask you to calm down."
"Don't tell me to calm down!" he yelled once more, tears falling fast down his brown skin "I just watched my wife go through hell, my son is dead, and my wife might be dead! So don't you dare tell me to calm down!"
"Sir, I'm sorry," the secretary said, truly feeling sorry for him. She had seen these type of things every day, desperate husbands and wives, fathers and mothers screaming and threatening her trying to get information on their loved ones. Information she would be glad to give if she had any. "But I don't have any information to give you. I promise the moment I find out anything, I will let you know. But please either sit down, or I will have security escort you out of this hospital. I don't want that, but I will if I'm forced to."
"God damn it!" he yelled, but he stormed away from the desk regardless.
Elliot went up to him, "Fin, please!" he pleaded, wanting to break down as well. "We can't do this! You can't do this! You need to stay strong for Tina."
Fin took a few shaking breaths before he let out a sob.
"My son is dead. Olivia might be dead, if she lives she'll live out the rest of her life in horrible memories... Oh god, what did I do to deserve this?"
"Fin, listen to me, listen to me!" Elliot yelled forcefully. "You did nothing to deserve this, Olivia didn't do anything to deserve this, okay? You know just as well as I do that there are some really messed up people in this world, and you guys just happened to be the target of them."
Fin let out a sob once more, shaking his head, "I just want her to be okay."
"She will be! Olivia's strong, she's going to make it."
"She has to," Elliot thought silently.
He felt horrible beyond belief that he could have prevented this. If he had just told Olivia and Fin about the phone call, the true reason beyond the fire, none of this would have happened.
"I was protecting my wife!" he thought, a tiny voice yelled, trying to justify this, but he paid no attention to it, knowing no matter what he thought. If Olivia, his best friend and woman he had trusted with his life with almost eleven years and vice versa, died because of him? He wouldn't be able to live with himself.
"Why don't," he suggested, his own eyes filling up with tears once more, "why don't we just sit down and wait for the doctor, okay?"
Finally submitting to another's will, Fin sat down on one of the waiting chairs and waited with news on Olivia.
About ten minutes into waiting, Cragen ran through the hospital doors, and as soon as he spotted Fin and Elliot, he ran up to them.
"Fin!" Oh my god, are you okay? Where's Olivia and Tina?"
"I'm fine," he told his boss, "Tina's fine, just a broken ankle, and Olivia is-" but he had to stop, the tears over taking his voice.
Cragen took a step back and shook his head. "No. She can't be... no!"
"We're not sure. Her heart stopped in the ambulance. They were trying to revive her when we got here," Elliot told him hastily, seeing his captains eyes well up with tears. "We're just waiting on the word now."
Cragen, looking slightly better, nodded before he turned towards Fin. "What happened?" Munch called me, said you've three been kidnaped, and that you're body guards were both dead..."
Fin shook his head. "I don't want to talk about it. Not until I know she's okay."
Cragen nodded before also taking a seat besides Fin. "Where's Tina?"
"They're working on her now. She should be fine. Where's Munch?"
Out of all the people he wanted to truly talk to and see was Munch. He never had the connection with Elliot like Olivia had, and he and Cragen had never gotten along like he had with Olivia and Elliot. He needed his best friend and the man who would take a bullet for him in a heart beat, here with him.
"He's processing Adam and Joseph. He called to tell me he'd be here as soon as he could."
Fin nodded before he sighed, continuing to wait on anything about Olivia.
Thirty pain staking minutes passed, before finally, a doctor walked out, a solemn look on his face.
"Olivia Benson?"
Elliot, Fin, and Cragen all jumped up, Fin rushed to the doctor.
"Is she okay? Tell me!"
The doctor took a deep breath before looking up at Fin, his face cold and expressionless.
"Mr. Tutuola. Your wife is."
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