Chapter 25 – Worth the Wait

Jacob

I looked at my Nessie and suddenly all of the waiting made sense. No other time would have been as right as now. Tonight, after so much time apart and uncertainty, everything was happening as it should. I watched as the candlelight danced across her skin. She turned on her side and placed one finger on my chest. That one touch almost shattered me. I closed my eyes and tried to maintain control as she ran her finger down to my waist. I slowly went down to my knees at the side of the bed before my legs gave out completely. Her eyes locked on mine as she slowly took my shirt off of me. As it fell to the floor beside me, she ran her nails softly up my chest, letting her hand rest on my neck. I wanted to have her in my arms, to feel her body next to mine.

I moved to the bed, lying down beside her. I didn't want anything to be rushed tonight. I wanted to experience all of her, and savor every second. I looked at her beautiful face and I realized that I had so much I had to say that I couldn't remember if I had since seeing her tonight. I ran my hand over her soft hair and I could see her amazing soul through her eyes. The fear of the unknown of what was about to happen still was clinging in my mind. "You are so beautiful. I love you so much. I need you Nessie. I've wanted you for so long. You need to tell me though if I hurt you."

She looked at me with such trust and I was more worried than ever that this first time together would not go as we had dreamed.

"I don't want to hurt you."

She took a deep breath and pulled herself so she was tight against me, looking into my eyes. I felt her breath on my skin and her smell intoxicated me.

"Jake, I want you. I love you. I want this. I ache for you."

I couldn't restrain myself any longer. I pulled her into a kiss and I felt like I would explode. I wanted to taste every inch of her, I wanted to see her and feel her with nothing between us.

I rolled her so that she was on her back and I started to kiss my way down her body. I ran my tongue down her neck and let her sweet scent fill my head. I wanted to block out everything but her. As I worked my way down her shoulder, my hands moved farther down her body. Out of habit, I stopped before I reached the desired destination. I rose up slightly and then Nessie's voice brought me back to the fact that there was no more waiting. This was what we had wanted and had longed for for so long.

"Don't stop Jake. Please."

I ran my hands over her breasts. I was now on the verge of going farther than we had ever gone before. This was the line that I danced on so many times; always pulling away at the last minute. I moved down her body slightly so that I could see her. I had, many times, imagined what Nessie would look like naked. I held my breath as I found the hook to her bra placed in between her breasts. I lightly ran my hand over the satin that covered them and slowly unhooked the clasp.

I didn't think it was possible for me to get any harder than I was, but the sight of her bare breasts made my jeans suddenly tighter. I felt Nessie's breath become shallow and I looked down at her and smiled. I moved slightly farther down her, rubbing myself against her leg. In all of my fantasies about this beautiful woman, none of them had done her justice. Her breasts were perfect. I move my mouth to her, kissing the side of her right breast. I ran my tongue across her nipple. I tasted her, and before I knew what was happening, my mouth was devouring her breast. I could feel her slightly arch her back and hear her moan softly under me and that just made me want her more, which I didn't think was possible. I kept moving between her breasts. "Nessie, I love you."

Suddenly, Nessie moved her hand to my neck and sent me a sensation that almost made me go over the edge. Every nerve in my body felt like it was on fire. I realized that was how I was making her feel and I wanted more. I wanted her to feel more. I slowly moved my hands down her body, reaching the thin waist band of the blue thong she was wearing. I ran my fingers just under the band and I felt Nessie holding her breath. I moved to stand so I could take her in with my eyes and as I did, I removed the last barrier the kept her from being completely and totally mine.

I stood there, committing her image to memory. As I looked at her, the fact that this was my first time doing this too flooded over me. What if I wasn't good? What if it didn't last very long? And I was still scared to death that I would cause Nessie a lot of pain.

Nessie slid down the bed and stood in front of me. My eyes scanned her body and as I did, I started to wonder how she was so good at being so damn sexy. I felt like a borderline idiot, and standing before me was a mighty seductress. She looked up at me and ran her hands across my chest. Her touch brought a fire to my skin that traveled where ever her fingers moved. Nessie slowly moved her hand down to the front of my jeans and I had to close my eyes and concentrate so I could maintain my cool. When I opened my eyes again, I looked down at her as she removed my jeans. I felt such relief to be free from those confines. Nessie ran her fingers across my underwear, and as her fingers got to the tip of me I couldn't wait any longer. As I gently grabbed her to push her back on the bed, she somehow removed the very last article of clothing between us. She gently pushed me back so I was standing in front of her.

"I want to look at you. I want to look at the man I love." I watched as her eyes scanned my body. I saw her eyes widen as she truly saw me for the first time. I could almost see the look of doubt on her face, wondering how and if we would fit together. Then I started to wonder the same thing. I had seen so many movies about what a first time was like for a woman that they would be in pain with an average man. Well because of my freaky DNA, I was no average man. But then again, Nessie was no average woman.

"I don't want to cause you any pain Nessie. You have to tell me if I do." I just wanted everything to be perfect. "I love you so much. You are my whole world."

She reached out and grabbed my hand, pulling me to her as she moved back to lay on the pillows. I felt her body under me, her nipples hard against my chest. I just looked into her eyes as my hand moved down to her waist. I wanted to try to do this in stages. I thought it would be better. My hand moved down to her thigh as I moved my body slightly lower and positioned myself to her side. I moved my hand slowly up the inside of her thigh and I let my fingers run along the wetness I found there. I slowly moved one finger, looking in her eyes as I entered her. She winced slightly and then looked at me as I moved into her deeper. Her body wrapped around my finger as I moved in her. Nessie ran her hand down my back and sent a sensation through me that made me know that I couldn't wait any longer.

"Oh God." I wanted to be inside her. I needed to take her as mine. I slowly pulled my finger from her and as I did her desire for me came pouring out.

"I want you Jacob. I want to feel you inside me. I need you now."

I kissed her deeply as I positioned myself between her legs. She was so wet and I wanted her so badly, I had to concentrate not to just plunge myself inside her. I looked into her eyes as I slowly entered her. She was so tight and her body was pushing against me as I steadily made my way deeper inside her. I saw the pain color her face and I started to pull myself out of her.

"Nessie are you okay?" I didn't know what to do. I didn't know if I should stop, or keep going.

Nessie made the decision for me. She wrapped her legs around me, pushing me deeper into her. "Don't stop Jacob. I want all of you. I need all of you."

I worked my way deeper inside her with each thrust. She was moving against me, and soon I was all the way inside of her. I kissed her, letting her body wrap around me, sucking me deeper inside. I had never imagined making love to Nessie would feel this good. Being one with her would be this amazing.

Suddenly I felt Nessie's body start to contract around me. She moved her hand to my neck and I could feel her orgasm build. I knew I couldn't hold out much longer, especially with her sending me what she was feeling. I moved faster, we were moving together harder. My whole body started to tense and I knew my release was not going to wait much longer.

"Oh God Nessie. That's right. Come. I can't last much longer. Come with me." I felt the walls that surrounded me contract. Nessie's orgasm brought mine with it. As I released inside her I felt more alive than I ever knew possible. There was not a feeling in the world that compared with this. The sensation seemed to last forever, but was still over way too soon.

My body was motionless as Nessie held me close. "I love you Jacob Black. I want to share everything with you. And I want to do that as often as possible."

That made me laugh and I felt the walls that still contained me squeeze slightly. I slowly left Nessie's body and I felt exhausted but happy.

"I couldn't agree more."

Nessie moved into my side, placing her head on my chest. I pulled the covers over us. I realized that I hadn't told her about any of the changes that had taken place back home.

"I have a lot to tell you. So much has happened it just the last week; you aren't going to believe it."

Nessie's words were slurred with exhaustion, "What happened?"

I laughed because I knew that no matter what I told her she wouldn't remember. "Sleep now Baby. We can talk in the morning. I am so in love with you Renesmee Carlie Cullen that I can't stand it. And I am planning on making love to you as often as humanly possible."

As she drifted off to sleep, I was so thankful for my life. As messed up as it may seem to outsiders, because of all the craziness, I had Nessie.

As I started to drift off to sleep, I laughed to myself slightly. Nessie and I would have to come up with a great way to block our thoughts from Edward. Worst case scenario, at least I wouldn't die a virgin.