Alice/Bella
Rated M
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It didn't take long for Charlie to get me out of jail; I knew he wouldn't leave me in there with those crazy ass bitches for too long.
You're the one to talk…
Shut it!
Charlie was taking me back, I didn't have a problem with that, I did promise Alice I would try and get better. With her gone or not, I still wanted to get better, to get better for her. She might have said we were done, but I could it in her eyes that I will always hold that heart of hers.
She knows that …and I know that.
"Bella, I just want to know why?" I was wondering when he was going to speak.
"Why what, the girl made me furious and I couldn't stop, even if I wanted to. I didn't want to hurt her but, she kept fucking with me and I blew up" I did feel a little guilty but, after Rage gave me the front seat back….all I been feeling is guilt and remorse. She didn't deserve what I did, nobody does. I just hope she learned her lesson, because if she didn't than, I don't know what else to do.
"That doesn't give you the right to do what you did, it took everything I had to get you out of jail….lets hope she doesn't press charges, or your done for" I didn't think of that, but I don't see Passion doing something so pussy like. If she wanted to get back at me, she wouldn't do it like that.
"Will have to see now won't we?" I said. When we finally got back to the facility, I immediately saw Kelly, Passion Mother. She saw me and walk over, I was ready for some insults and screaming but, I was shock when she just stood there and looked at me.
"Harris"
"I know my daughter is sick, so are you. You both need help and I'm trying to do my best to cure you both of the demons that has captured your souls. You went too far Bella, you hurt my daughter. She can be over bearing but, what you did was degrading and awful. She will forever be scarred and you will forever live with guilt, I can't be anger because, your not yourself…..I know the real Bella wouldn't have done that" I frowned.
"How would you know that?" I snapped, who the hell was she to say that, I don't give a fuck if she was my doctor.
"Because, I know Bella and she's somewhere in there" she responded as I saw Charlie stick his hand out.
"Hi, I'm Charlie, Bella's Uncle" she smiled at him.
"I'm Kelly, her doctor slash therapist" I was still having argument with myself as they talked.
"Where is she now?" she turned to me.
"In the ninth ward, she's asleep now but if you want to see her you'll free to do so" I gritted my teeth, I hated when she did that shit!
"How the hell did you know I wanted to see her?" she smirked.
"Because I see the guilt all in your eyes, she will forgive you" I quickly lifted my head up and looked at her.
"I don't want her to"
"Yes you do, even after everything that's happened" I was starting to get pissed at her, I scoffed.
"Whatever, I'm going to my room" when I started to walk, I was stopped by her voice.
"Your room has been switch, they do not thrust you to live with the others patients, so they moved you to the fifth floor" my eyes went wide.
"Hell no! I can't live up there, it's practically dead up there" she shook her head.
"Well, you should've thought about that, before you did what you did. All your things has been moved already" I gritted my teeth in anger. Nobody fucking lived up on the fifth floor; I was going to be up there with boring ass security and nurses.
Fuck my life.
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The first night in my new room was scary; it was so quite and dark. I see why no one was up here, I felt like the only living thing up here at times. The security just stood there like fucking robots as the nurses where mainly down stairs where all humanity was. I just stayed in my room and looked Alice and I picture until I felt tears come and then I will cry myself to sleep. I was banned form any visitors, I was all alone.
That's how it should be, you can't thrust anybody!
I don't want to be alone forever
You came into this world alone and you will leave this world….alone!
But, what about Ali-
Fuck that bitch! I was wondering when she was going to cop out, she's weak and she can't handle us. We're like an ticking bomb, and she wasn't prepared for the explosion, we need someone you can take that shit and throw that shit right back at us.
We're sick
Better fucking believe it! And soon Alice will find out how sick we really are….no one leaves us Bella; NO ONE
I know…..
Carlisle had came up and sat down for awhile, I thought that he was going to talk about my condition and shit like that, but he quickly told me that Alice has fallen into a catatonic state since the break up. I felt my heart break but, I quickly squashed that shit real quick, it was her fault. She broke up with me not the other way around. He kept trying to make feel bad but, it failed miserable. She did it to her self, I was completely fine and in love with her but, she ripped the relationship apart. But another side of me, I felt responsible and I felt sad about what she was going through. After that, I told him that it was no use for us to speak with each other anymore, I wasn't dating his daughter anymore so, there was no reason to speak. Everything was different for me, but I didn't care anymore.
I stop caring a long time ago.
"You know Passion is being released today, she should be here for medicine time at dinner" Dell told me, as the line for our first dose of medicine came around.
"And why are you telling me this for?" I said.
"Just saying" he took a step and grabbed the little white cup and a blue little white cup and walked away. I was next and quickly drowned the pills and went back to my room; I got really good at being the only person to talk to. I found out while having this alone with myself, that I am my only friend. That I am will always be the only person to be there for me and protect me, people I say are my friends are not…I've been in this shit hole for months and not one person aside from Alice and Seth came to see me. I didn't let that make me angry or sad; it just told me that I was my own best friend. I love my family, I do. I couldn't say that before but, here I was sitting on my floor as I clutched some pictures of SuAnne as she blew out her birthday candles. I missed her birthday, that tore me up inside, Sue was sending me pictures every other week of SuAnne and the family. I only kept pictures of SuAnne and Seth but threw the others away, they weren't important.
"Swan!" I quickly got up and ran to my door, who the hell was that calling me, but more importantly…..there was someone on the fifth floor beside me!
"Who wants to know?" I said, as the guy in the white doctor coat came walking over to me, I quickly put the door between us, I didn't know this fucker, he looked at me wondering why I put the door between us.
"I am a doctor" he accused, like that will make me thrust him.
"So…doctors are creep too" I spat out as he signed, I read his name tag.
"James"
"Yes" he smiled.
"Name tag" his smiled fell, ha! He thought I knew his name.
"So James…..what do you want?"
"I'm filling in for Carlisle, some family issues came up and he has to take some weeks off" my heart went into overdrive…..family issues?
"Did he say what?" I asked.
"No, but I wouldn't blame him. People around gossip too much" I found myself smiling; I let the door open up a little, because I was still weary about this fucker.
"I don't know you, so I don't thrust you…..you might me doctor but, that's all you are. You give me my meds and that's it, no talking, no touching, no nothing….got me"
"Got you" he smiled and stuck his hand out, he had to be like twenty something. A fresh one right out of college it seems.
"Well that's over with, I'll see you tomorrow in the morning bright and early for checkup" I rolled my eyes and nodded. He left as I went back to looking at my pictures as a knock hit my ears, I signed. I see now I was going to hate this new doctor already. When I opened the door, I felt my heart sink in to my stomach….
What the fuck!
What is she doing here?
A/N: Who's at the door? Will Bella thrust James? Is Carlisle keeping something big from Bella about Alice?
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