So-OMG? 211 TOTAL REVIEWS? I honestly really do love you all. Honestly. You guys make me literally one of the happiest people right now. I've been having such a shitty week and you all made it 100000000 times better. I can't convey just how grateful I am. Just… thank you!
P.S. – I've decided the main thing I don't like about twitter is the character limit. 140? How ridiculous.
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My eyes slowly peeled open, breaking crusted sleepies off of my lids and aching as a pale beam of light shone through my window. I coughed, my throat slightly sore, and covered my eyes with my arm, trying to block the light. I recognized the small, rectangular object in my hand as my phone as I readjusted my position. Automatically, my eyes reopened and flickered to my phone's screen, panicking slightly as I realized I'd fallen asleep.
No new messages...
I groaned, my eyes sliding shut again as my finger subconsciously hit the redial button. I pressed the phone lightly to my right ear, listening to the soft ringing as I waited for the answer that I knew wouldn't come.
"Hey, it's Danny. Sorry I missed your-" I hung up my phone, letting it slide down my face and fall into the crevice between my head and my chest as my hope sank. Again.
I'd stayed up all night calling Danny relentlessly after I'd sent Dougie on his way home. This battle was no different from our previous ones; I refused to go down without a fight. Eventually he would grow tired of ignoring my calls and would answer, therefore giving me a chance to explain my side of the story. Danny would realize it was just another misunderstanding and we could continue on the path to recovery that we'd previously started.
It was crazy enough to work, right?
Though, Danny seemed pretty determined to ignore my calls. I'd lost count after my tenth time of redialing. I'd sent him text messages and left him voice mails pleading for him to call me back. I never pleaded.
I glanced at my clock; my mood remaining very low as I realized it was only eight in the morning. I couldn't hear any movement anywhere else in the house, which was uniquely rare. Normally there was at least one other person, whether it was one of the boys or Izzy or Gio.
It was slightly freaky, hearing nothing but silence.
Dougie was on to something with Silence Is A Scary Sound...
I got out of bed noisily, groaning as I stretched uncomfortably in my jeans and glared down at the sneakers I'd fallen asleep in. I was normally never so careless.
My feet seemed to lead the way towards the bathroom and my hands seemed to act on their own accord as they turned the dials for a shower. I stripped off my clothes, acting more or less like a zombie as my mind reeled with plans of confrontation and apologies.
The hot water felt nice on my stiff muscles and tired frame. I'd spent nearly half the night on the phone trying to get a hold of Danny. The familiar scent of my strawberry shampoo seemed to calm me down slightly, washing away some of my repeating thoughts as I scrubbed my hair.
Though it couldn't erase all of them...
I'd been toying with the thought of being angry towards Danny all night. Surely he deserved some kind of form of distaste as he lost faith in me so quickly. How could he leave without hearing my side of the story? Or even listening to Dougie!
But I couldn't be angry with him. This entire situation was basically my fault. I definitely should've been more open with Dougie as he approached me. I knew what he was doing. I'd felt uncomfortable.
If I'd just told him to back off...
But of course, I didn't... Because I didn't want to hurt his feelings...
But now everybody was hurt.
Danny had told me once that we were destined to hate each other forever. Was this just another way of proving that statement? That we couldn't even go an entire day on good terms? It was hard to believe that we'd woken up disliking each other, kissed like angels, and then fell asleep (more or less...) with almost the same negative feelings. (Or at least... he felt them.)
My mind was tired. The engineering part of my brain seemed to be broken as I searched for a solution to my problem. But wasn't that what I always had to do? Find some kind of solution for Danny?
It was starting to grow a bit old...
But I couldn't completely give up, could I?
"Ella? I'm home. Izzy's with me!" Harry called through the bathroom door as my thoughts flew around inside my head. I pulled my eyelids open and stared at the blue tiles covering Harry's bathroom walls as I replied.
"Cool." What else was I supposed to say? 'Fantastic! Let's throw a party!' No.
"Hey, did Doug come by last night? I forgot to tell you he was supposed to chill here," Harry continued, his voice unperturbed by my lack of enthusiasm.
"Yeah, he showed up."
"He didn't stay the night?"
"No?" Did Harry expect him to? How weird.
"Oh, okay. Hey, how long have you been in there? You're not the one paying the water bill, you know!"
"I'm getting out now..." I mumbled, turning off the faucet and grabbing my towel. Harry could be such a dad sometimes.
"You okay, Ella? You're not going to hide up here in your room again, are you?" Harry asked, looking worried as I opened the bathroom door and stepped out. "I don't think Danny's coming over today. He told me he was feeling ill," he continued as I readjusted my towel.
So Harry had been able to talk to Danny? He hadn't lost his phone or been sleeping this entire time? Danny had been alert enough to hold an entire conversation with my brother?
"Actually..." I gulped as my chest tightened at the sudden realization, "I'm not feeling all too well either."
"Really? Maybe there's a bug going around. Do you need a doctor?" Concern coated Harry's face as he looked down at me critically, judging my well-being on his own.
"I should be all right. Just need a bit of rest,"
"Funny, that's what Danny said. Maybe there's something down in my pantry. You two were locked in there long enough that you were probably breathing in the same germs." Harry continued conversationally as I stood, dripping, in the hallway.
"Mhm..." I mumbled, feeling my chest contract even more. If it got any tighter, I wouldn't be able to breathe.
"Maybe I should get it inspected... Who knows what kind of mold is growing down there. Maybe you really should go to the doctor, now that I think about it. You know, just to be safe-" He was really starting to work himself up.
"Harry, I'll be fine. Honestly. Let me go change into something warm and I'll come downstairs with you and Izzy for a bit. Then, after that, I think I'm going to head back to bed." I tried to sooth him, smiling my best fake smile. He smiled back, seeming to believe it.
"All right. I'll have Izzy make you some tea. She puts just enough lemon in it and it'll make you feel wonderful." I was so lucky he was my brother.
"Thanks, Harry. I'll be down in a minute." I smiled a real smile this time, appreciating his concern, before closing my bedroom door behind me. I threw my dirty close in my hamper and pulled out my biggest, warmest sweats. After donning them in record time, I pulled my hair up into a messy bun and held my phone in my pruney hands. Danny hadn't called back while I was in the shower.
Instead of calling (again) I decided to text (again.). What was one more? Either he'd reply eventually or he wouldn't.
Danny, please, please, please call me back. I just want to talk. Just... please? -Ella
I sighed, dropping my phone carelessly onto my unmade bed and throwing my body down beside it. I wasn't sure how long I stayed in my face-plant position. All I was paying attention to was the silence coming from my phone. Every ounce of my being was expecting it to vibrate with a new message.
Nothing.
He wasn't going to answer.
And that, ladies and gentlemen, was when my chest tightened so much that I could barely breath. Who knew you could still cry when your body lacked air?
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That girl16 – Haha, you sound speechless. (Is that ironic or an oxymoron? Hm…sounding speechless? Lmao) And I love your use of the word "epic," I highly appreciate it! But winning the award? Really? Well… thank you! That's quite the compliment!! =D
TigerLilly1221 – Yeah, it all kind of happened really fast! I had to go back and re-read a few things just to make sure I was getting it right! Sorry if it's starting to come out a bit confusing! (How many times can I use the exclamation mark? Really!?!) And I couldn't have Dougie and Danny duke it out, no matter how necessary it may have been. I'm horrible at creating McFights! (This is the new term that a few of my reviewers have used. I highly enjoy it!) And how lucky is Ella, really? Two famous McFly guys lusting after her. I'd kill to be her, even fictionally. And to be the sister of Harry Judd? Jeez, she might as well be Tom's best friend too! That'll get everyone covered! Lmao. Thank you for the review! Peace, my friend!
ArtemisPhantom – Hahaha!! You're first like… 3 lines made me laugh hysterically. Please don't virtually slap Dougie. He's simple minded, remember that. He's apparently very bad at reading body language =] And I'm sorry that this chapter couldn't cheer you up =[ I mean, you haven't reviewed it (obviously!) but I'm pretty sure no one's going to be exactly "happy" about it! Lmao. Tah tah lovely!
XMcflyxLoverxKatiex – I love you so much!!!! Just the fact that you love basically everything makes me love you. In a very platonic way, I promise lmao. =] Don't worry, I also promise, promise, promise that things will get better! PROMISE!!!!!!
Alexis Gage – Gah! I know exactly what you mean! I was feeling bad that Danny and Ella are fighting and then I was like "But Ella could be with Dougie!" and then I was like "No, because she's with Danny!" It was very hard to fight with myself lol. And my computer needs a new router! Or however you spell it! Ours is from like… the 20th century and is basically a zombie. Horrible. Blah. And I really would love to get to your fic, but at the moment I'm completely SWAMPED with school work. Give me about a week and I'll be back to normal lmao. I've turned into an insane girl this week!!!!
Holly360 – Thank you! And I'm trying to make the situation as least harmful to Dougie as possible! I don't want to hurt him =[ and then the Danny/Ella situation… that might be a bit more difficult lol. You'll seeeeeee!!!! Thank you lovely!!!!
Ducky – Haha, he's an adorable idiot! He didn't know what he was doing! I thought he was being rather bold for our normally shy Dougie! And I was actually kind of mad at myself. I was like "Couldn't you just write out there one date, and THEN ruin everything?" But no. I had to be a butt. And I'll suggest that you don't come to Rhode Island lol. You'll like it better that way =] Oh my gosh! You're like the third person from my reviewers to express a need to go to England! I vote we create a huge gang of us FF people and meet over there because the other girls are pretty dang determined! It's crazy! And here was me thinking I was the only one! Anywayyyy!!!! Peace lovely! (I'm apologizing right now… I feel as though this reply was jumbled and made no sense lmao. SORRY!)
Zabster95 – I'm pretty sure I was watching the Justin Lee Collins one again. I was looking through the comments because I was uber bored and then I was like "GAH! I KNOW HER!" haha! If I see it again I'll definitely leave you a reply! And I do have a Myspace, but I neverrrr go on it anymore. I'm kind of addicted to facebook now. All of my friends migrated to facebook and no one I know really uses Myspace anymore. Le sigh =[ Anyway! Thanks for the review! =]]]]]]]]]]]
McFlYiNgHiGh – Gahh! Yeah, I figured Ella and Dougie needed to be on the same terms – I couldn't hurt Dougie! I'm so pathetic! Lmao. Honestly, I find it completely awesome that I've found someone who's just as amazingly obsessed with London as I am. Everyone thinks I'm a freak! We'll be island-dwellers-fake-tears-soul mates for life, my friend! Ha, and I love talking with you on twitter – it REALLY annoys me that I can't put long drawling rants as an update! I hope they'll eventually change that. I think they will, especially because twitters becoming more popular. BHJLS;ADFJKL;S! (Random keyboard spasm!) And I'm very proud that you're managing to not delete your reviews now! I hope I didn't just jinx it, ha. Peace lovely!
Younggryffindor – Dude we're meant to be geeky soul mates. You've named ALL of my favorites! I wish I had a kid cool enough in my school to dress up as Darth Vador. I did have a mega debate with a girl once because she was absolutely convinced he was "Dark" Vador, not "Darth" Vador. I won lol. AND ARE YOU EXCITED FOR THE HARRY POTTER MOVIE!?!?! I'm so worried that it's going to be crap! But I hope it isn't. The last one was the worst! (In my opinion!) But I paid $30 to see it the night it came out… so I might've been a bit pissed lmao. ANYWAY. It totally killed me to make Ella and Danny fight… again… but it's the way the story has to go! I don't know why lmao. And I didn't want Dougie to get super hurt. That would've really bugged me. =[ Anyway, I'm off, my lovely geeky twin. May the force be with you!!!!
CrushedCoppelia (You get a bazillion!) – Number 1:It's fine that you weren't able to review. I understand the hectic week (This is me that we're talking about here. The queeeeeeen of hectic weeks!) Ha! I imaged Ella going up to Danny "We totally could've worked out if maybe… well… if you weren't you. Maybe you could be the barman for an evening?" HAHAHAHA!!! See where my imagination goes when I talked to you? CRAZYY! And I was kind of bummed with he cut his curls too. When he first got them a year or two ago, I was REALLY mad, but now I don't want them to go! I love the curls! =[ And I've never actually fancied (that's such a British word… why am I using it? Hm..?) Harry the most. So you're free to have him =]
Number 2: My computer has this sick, twisted love for killing me. I'll load the Internet and then while I'm in the middle of doing something it'll just shut down. Then I'll have to wait another 10 thousand YEARS for it to load again. I miss my laptop =[
Number 3: Um… you're definitely going to have to explain more about these zombie ants. I'm completely enthralled. Are these things real? ARE THEY HALF DEAD?! This is science at it's best. Zombie ants. Amazing. ANYWAY. So we'll kidnap McFly, have them sing awesome jingles for our babysitting/ice cream business that we open on the E-Moon. Does that cover everything? Actually, we'll invite the Busted guys and SOD too… Then it'll be a party! =] And I'm sorry you spilt your juice! Go get some more! =]
NUMBER 4: Danny Jones can never be too damn cute. Honestly, he's probably one of the cutest men on the planet. No joke. Even in fictional stories. That's just how amazing he is. And you're still welcome to do a spin off thingy for Douglas if that catches your fancy. You pretty much know how the story ends so go be your creative self and give Dougie his little fantasy! I'm sure he'd appreciate it =]
NUMBER 5?!?!: Ha, you'll never give up on Harry knowing. You already know the story! You know everything that Harry knows! I promise!!! Know what? If you really want Harry to know, it can be in your spin off story. There, happy? Good =] GAH! And I have NO IDEA where all these amazing people who review my story are coming from! I was so excited to see that I have more than 200. I nearly had a heart attack! (maybe it's due to the fact that you reviewed like… 5 times? Who knows!) HA! I love you!!!! (OMG AND I TOTALLY JUST REALIZED YOU'RE SEEING MCFLY REALLY SOON. AND YOUR BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP. COULD I BE ANYMORE JEALOUS?!?)
Um… that was amazingly long. Wow.
Hollis2020 – Ha, I'm too much of a wimp to actually break something! I would freak out last minute! I've never broken a bone yet and I'm absolutely terrified that one day I will. I could barely handle getting a Novocain shot from my dentist when I got my first cavity last year. Yeah. I'm THAT much of a baby. But that just shows you the sketchy things I was considering in order to get out of my presentation. Mhm. OH MY GOSH I HOPE YOU CAN GO TO BLINK!!!! I haven't checked yet to see where they're coming near me! I hope they are! But… I heard they were touring with Fall Out Boy (and personally I'm not a huge fan of the FOB. Pete Wentz annoys the freaking shit outta me… but that's just me!) and that kind of put me off. But how can I deny BLINK just because of FOB?!?!?! I'd be freaking insane! ANYWAY lol. Thank you for the review! Tah tah lovely!
Alysmiley – Thank you! I had to re-write that last sentence like 10 times because it never sounded right. Eventually it was good enough =] Ha! And feeling fictionally sorry for them? I love that! That's perfect! (Well, I mean it's sad that you feel sad but that's a GREAT way of saying it!) And you did read about a new fic! It's not up yet – I've only gotten the first two chapters sketched out… and on my school's computer… It's for Mr. Harry Judd! Wohoo! Aw! And your smooth bread and butter metaphore made me smile! Really! Ha, I always smile with alysmiley! (How horrible was that? Yes. Very bad. Very…) ANYWAY. Before I embarrass myself further – tah tah lovely!