Sorry for my absence.

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Clare's POV

"I'm sorry" I finally spoke. Eli pulled his hands out of his pocket and walked closer to me. I met him half way and he immediately wrapped his arms around me. I started crying again and I dug my head into his chest. "I'm so, so sorry"

"Why are you sorry?" he whispered to me.

"I don't know, I'm just… sorry"

"Well don't be. You did nothing wrong. As much as it pains me to say this, but you loved him and he played you" I could hear the pain in Eli's voice. But that's when I realized; if the way I feel about Eli is love, then there is no way I loved Fitz.

I pulled away and looked up at Eli.

"No, I didn't love him." Eli pinned his eyebrows together in confusion. "If love is how I feel about you, then there is no way I loved Fitz."

Eli sighed in relief and smiled a little. "You have no idea how happy I am to hear that." He pulled me closer and kissed my forehead. "And if anyone should be sorry, it should be me"

"What? Why?"

"Because, this night should have been amazing, but me being me, had to make it the exact opposite" he sighed.

"Don't say that. If anything you made this one of the best nights of my life. Fitz is the one who ruined the end, but I'm not going to let him get to me anymore"

He smiled and nodded before giving me a sweet kiss. I smiled as we pulled away and said, "Come on, let's go"

He nodded and took my hand before walking to Morty. That's when I noticed a dark figure standing next to Morty. As we got closer I noticed it was Fitz.

I stepped in front of Eli and said, "You should stay here" I pushed him back a little. He was about to protest but I glared at him and he sighed and nodded.

I walked over to Fitz.

"What do you want?" I asked.

"You" he replied.

I fake laughed, making it noticeable that it was fake. "Bull shit."

"It's true" he said shrugging his shoulders.

"Oh really. Because when I actually gave myself to you, you just used me and then ignored me for a stupid bet." I spat. "Yeah, that's romantic" I said sarcastically.

"I know I was jerk but I really do want you back" for a moment I almost believed him but only for a moment.

"Well guess what? I don't want you back. I don't even want to be near you" I took a step forward with every sentence. "Because you disgust me" I spat.

I could see his face expression get angrier by each sentence and I knew he was going to snap. I wanted him to snap. I wanted him to do something to me, so then I could tell principle Simpson and ask him to expel Fitz.

Fitz took a step forward and he glared at me.

"Why don't you just get lost and leave us alone?" I asked, my tone harsh.

"Why don't you just drop dead, along with that bitch you call your sister" he spat back.

On the inside I was screaming with anger and I had a gun that I placed to the side of his head and pulled the trigger. But on the outside, I just smirked. I lifted my knee and slammed it against his most sensitive area. He groaned and bent over.

"You really underestimate what I can do" I told him as I glared at him.

He regained his posture and glared at me. His hand came up and he slapped me across the face. To be honest I didn't know it was coming, but I didn't care. Sure it stung but I never really focused on the pain.

"Don't you fucking touch her!" Eli yelled from behind me.

I turned around and pushed Eli back further. He looked at me confused but I told him to stay there. I turned around and walked back over to Fitz.

"Is that all you got?" I asked.

I could tell he was about to do more but he looked over to the school doors when they opened. He looked back at me and glared at me before walking away. I looked over at the school and noticed Principal Simpson was standing there.

I turned back over to Eli and I hugged him. He wrapped his arms around me and rubbed my back.

"Why didn't you let me rip his face off?" he asked.

"Because, I need to fight my own battles." I said. "Beside it was kind of fun watching him bent over in pain" I giggled.

I pulled away from Eli and he looked down at me.

"Clare, you let him hit you" he whispered.

"Yes, but he hits like a girl so it's all good" I smiled.

He chuckled slightly and shook his head.

"Alright, no more talk about that douche bag" I said.

"What douche bag?" Eli asked, smirking.

"Thank you" I smiled. "Now, let's go"

I took his hand and dragged him over to Morty and we got in.

The ride was silent, but it was comforting silence. Eli's hand was on mine, and he was rubbing his thumb back and forth on the back of my hand.

Once we got to his house, we walked in and walked upstairs. I just wanted to lay in bed and go to sleep with Eli next to me.

I just finished changing into my PJ's, as did Eli, and I sat on his bed, with my back against the headboard. I had the covers over the bottom half of my body and my hands in my lap, twirling my thumbs around each other. Should I ask him? Yes, no, maybe, I don't know. What if it's too weird?

"Are you okay?" Eli asked as he sat next to me.

Uh oh, I guess it's now or never. "Can I ask you something?"

"Yeah, sure"

"You promise not to be all weird about it?" I asked.

"Depends, what's this about?" he smirked and I glared at him. "Okay, I promise"

"You promise not to laugh?"

"Okay?"

I took a deep breath. "Is… sex… suppose to… hurt?" I bit my bottom lip nervously.

He opened his mouth and then closed it, like he was trying to find the right words. After a few moments of silence, he spoke. "Uh, for your first time yes. But it gets better. Shouldn't you know this?" he asked confused.

I sighed and looked down. "It didn't get better" I whispered.

"What do you mean?" he lifted my chin so I would look into his eyes.

"It didn't get better. I was in pain throughout the whole thing, which was only about 5 minutes." I explained. "He didn't wait for me to adjust or anything; he just did whatever he wanted. I thought that's how it was supposed to feel but I guess not." I shook my head as I remembered that dreadful night. "I'm sorry if you don't want to hear this-

"No, no it's okay. You can tell me anything." He whispered and pulled me closer to him, bringing me in a side hug. "Besides, he's a jack ass"

I laughed and nodded. I took a deep breath and sat up again. I am not going to let that jackass ruin my life anymore. I have Eli and he has helped me more than I thought was possible.

I looked over at Eli, who seemed to be in his own little world. But I knew he was thinking about Fitz. His eyes were dark, his jaw was clenched, and his hands were balled up into fists.

"Hey" I turned his head towards me. "Come here" I patted the spot in front of me, right in between my legs. He looked confused but did it anyway. He sat with his back facing me and I slowly pulled him down so he was lying on me. I could tell he tried not to put all of his body weight on me. "Just relax" I whispered.

He did and I could feel him loosen up a bit. I started running my fingers through his hair and massaging his scalp. I figured this could help him calm down; whenever I feel stressed Alli or Fiona would play with my hair. It always made me feel better.

I heard him sigh and he put his full body weight on me. I didn't mind though, it was nice. I kept running my fingers though his hair, occasionally grazing my nails on his scalp. "This feels so nice" he whispered.

"I know" I smiled even though he can't see me.

I kept running my fingers through his hair and listened as he was breathing. For some strange reason, it comforted me. My eyelids were suddenly feeling heavy; I tried to keep them open but it just didn't work. I soon found myself falling into a deep sleep.

…

I woke up to a movement from something in my lap. I opened my eyes to see Eli trying to get up slowly. He saw me and said, "Sorry, did I wake you?"

I rubbed my eyes and said, "Sort of, but it's okay"

He lay down next to me and ran his fingers through my hair. "You should go back to sleep"

"But I don't want to" I whined as I turned on my side and wrapped my arm around his waist. He chuckled and wrapped his arm around me. I looked up at him and started laughing. "Nice bed head." His hair was stuck up in random places.

"Oh you know you love it" he smirked as he ran his hand through his hair.

"Oh I do" I reached up and ruffled his hair.

We started laughing but we were interrupted by my phone ringing. I rolled over and picked it up.

"Hello?" I asked. Eli smirked and started kissing my neck.

"Hey Clare, I was wondering if you and Eli wanted to come over later?"

"Hey Fiona" Eli started to occasionally switching to biting. "When?"

"In a few hours"

"Uh, I would have to ask Eli"

"Well where is he?" Eli hit the one spot that made me melt. I let out a quiet moan.

"Right there" I moaned. Then my head shot up, "I mean here, he's right here." Eli started chuckling as he started nibbling on that spot. I quickly jumped up and got out of the bed before things got very uncomfortable for Fiona.

"Did you ask him yet?" I heard Fiona say.

"What? Uh no, not yet. One second" I put my hand over the speaker part and glared at Eli who was smirking. "Fiona wants to know if we wanted to go over there in a few hours"

"I guess" he shrugged.

I put the phone back up to my ear and said, "Sure"

"Great, see you later"

"Bye" I then hung up.

I picked up a pillow and hit Eli with it.

"Hey, no need to get abusive"

I smirked and started hitting him repeatedly as he tried blocking himself with his arms. I kept hitting him and he kept telling me to stop, but he was laughing so I didn't. He ripped the pillow out of my hand and jumped up before grabbing me and pulling me down on the bed. I squealed as he did this. Soon he was hovering over me.

He looked into my eyes for a brief moment before slowly closing the gap between us. His lips slowly moved with mine as I wrapped my arms around his neck. He soon deepened the kiss by sliding his tongue across my bottom lip, and I gladly opened up for him. His tongue glided in my mouth and started playing with mine. I slowly wrapped my legs around his waist, pulling him closer.

We were then interrupted again, but this time it was the house phone. Eli groaned and bowed his head.

"Go answer it, I'll still be here when you get back" I smirked.

"Don't move." he kissed me quickly and then ran downstairs to answer the phone.

I could faintly hear Eli talking, but not enough to make out what he was saying. A few minutes later he came running up the stairs.

"That was CeCe, she said they won't be back until Monday" he shrugged and walked over to the bed before climbing on top of me again.

"You mean we have this house to ourselves for the rest of the weekend?" I tried saying with a seductive tone.

"That's exactly what I'm saying" he smirked.

"Now" I started sliding my hands inside his shirt and over his abs. "What are we going to do for the rest of the weekend, in this empty house, that we have to ourselves?"

"Oh I'm sure we can figure something out" he wiggled his eyebrows. "Now where were we?" he asked right before he crashed his lips to mine. I laughed and started to move my lips with his.

Even though he was eager, his kisses were still so sweet. I never understood how he could control himself so much, even if he just wanted to lose control; he never did, and I adore him for that. He always put me first, instead of himself. He would always ask if he could do something to me rather than force it. His touch would always be so gentle and he always knew what to say. This is when I realized that I wanted to show him how much he means to me; I'm ready.

I reached up and cupped his cheek before I slowly pulled away. I looked into his eyes and he looked into mine.

"I'm ready" I whispered.

So, I think it's pretty obvious as to what she means ;)

What do you think Eli's reaction will be?

P.S. This story will be ending, pretty soon. I'm getting bored with it and honestly, I feel like I'm dragging this on.

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