'Renesmee, calm down. It's me.' Edward shouted when I tried to claw into him. I stopped fighting and let my body go completely limp. He took me in his arms and I couldn't help but sob. I cried against his shoulder and he let me. He didn't say anything but just let me cry. I clutched to him afraid that when I would release him my poltergeist would return to hunt me.

I don't know how long I sat there, crying in his arms. Sobbing against his chest. Maybe it were hours, maybe just minutes. I honestly didn't know. After a while he pulled me to my feet. He walked me downstairs and I made sure I didn't let him go for a second. He sat me down on the coach and Esme brought me a cup of tea. Shakenly I accepted and brought the cup to my lips. Rosalie and Bella sat down beside me trying to calm me down. They caressed my face and wrapped me into a blanket so I wouldn't get cold. I heard Edward and Carlisle have a rapid conversation behind me. I heard them use the word PTSS a few time.

I didn't know if it was indeed Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome, but it was pretty clear that I was losing it. I was going insane. There was no other explanation, I was a mental case.

I took a few deep breaths and tried to put my mind off things.

'Do you want anything dear?' Esme knelt down before me and felt my temperature. I shook my head.

'Do you want to talk about it?' Bella asked me. Again I shook my head. 'No'.

Everyone was staring at me and I couldn't help but see the irony of the situation. I was here in the Cullens Mansion with everything I ever wanted. A place to call home, a family who cared about me. Friends. And now I was too broken to even enjoy it. I wasn't worthy off all this.

'I need some air' I mumbled and rose. Quickly I walked to the backdoor and slipped through it. I sat down on the patio on the rocking chair. The cracking of the door told me I had company. It was Jasper which hesitant sat down next to me.

After a few minutes of silence he handed me my jacket.

'Why don't you take a walk with me?' He said and pulled me to my feet. I didn't feel like taking a hike, but it was better than sitting here drowning in my misery. So I followed him. We were silent for most of the time, we walked through the woods which were dark and damp. I needed to focus on my steps because Jasper had quite the pace. He had no mercy and challenged me to keep up with him. Eventually we stopped at a meadow. The moonlight lightened up the water and there were a few fireflies to complete the picture. It was beautiful.

'Let it out. Go ahead.' Jasper said to me. Confused I stared at him.

'Excuse me?' I asked him.

Then he screamed. Confused I stared at him. 'What the hell are you doing?'

'Try it, you will feel relieved. Come on.' He gave me a half smile.

I stood there building up the courage but then I let out a scream and it felt good. I did it again and again and felt a little better afterwards, just like he promised. We sat down right beside the water.

'So what are you on?' He asked me while plucking on the flower petals.

'What?'

'What are you on? Come on Renesmee I've been around long enough to notice you are high.'

My face flushed and I felt guilt and shame wash over me. My eyes were fixated on the flower in Jaspers hand, making sure we wouldn't establish any eye contact.

'Well?'

I grabbed one of the pills out of my pocket and handed it to him. He took it out of my hands and inspected it. Then without consulting me he threw it away. The pill flew through the air and into the water. For a second it flooded on the surface before it sunk down and dissolved.

With mixed feelings I stared at it. A part of me wanted to grab it out of the water on other part of me was happy it was gone. But there were a dozen more in my room. So it didn't really mattered.

'Please don't tell Carlisle or Edward.' I whispered. I was ashamed enough, I didn't want them to know this as well.

'I won't, if you tell me what happened over there.'

'Are you blackmailing me?' I countered

He shrugged his shoulders. 'Ren I don't know what happened, but you need to talk about it. I can see how it's eating you from the inside.' He cleared his throat. 'When I found you in Seattle you scared me. You really scared me, you were so thin and fragile. All beat up and with that bewildered look in your eyes. You can't do this alone, and if you don't want to talk to be about it talk to someone else. But you need to talk about this or it will get the best of you. '

I thought about his words for a while.

He continued. 'You don't have to be ashamed for whatever your father did to you.'

'Oh god you think he raped me don't you.' I mumbled. Of course after what they knew this was the most logical conclusion to jump to. I let a hand run through my hair.

'He didn't rape me. He beat me up pretty badly but before he could do anything else he was already dead.' It was weird saying those words out loud.

'I wish I could say I'm sorry, but I'm not.' Jasper said.

'Me neither.'

'Can we please go back now. I'm tired.' I said as I yawned. Jasper nodded and lead me back. I went back to bed but let the lights on, hoping the hallucination wouldn't come back tonight.

They did. Once again I dreamed that he was beside my bed. Staring at me with that twisted smile. Edward and Jasper decided to stay with me, swearing to protect me. Eventually I fell in a restless sleep.

When I woke up they were gone, giving me some privacy. I took a long shower and got dressed afterwards. I didn't bother to do any make up on. I still looked like crap, so who was I kidding?

I walked downstairs and I could hear that we had company. Jacob was sitting at the table together with another guest. At first I thought that it was Seth, but after a while I recognized him.

'Tim.' I mumbled surprised. He stood up and I leaped into his arms.

'What are you doing here?' I said while I wrapped my arms around him.

He caressed my hair. 'Jacob contacted me. He told me you were having a hard time and could use a friend to talk to. So here I am.' I stared from Tim to Jacob.

'You did?' I whispered. I just couldn't believe Jacob would do that. He seemed to dislike Tim very much, and knowing he would go through all this trouble just so I could have a listening ear was endearing. He nodded and gave me a weak smile. 'If you can't talk to us, maybe you can talk to him.'

Tim let me go and I pulled from our embrace.

'It's so good to see you.' I mumbled.

'I missed you too Ren.' He said as he gave me a light smile. I felt Jacobs piercing eyes in my back as we headed to the living room. But instead of sitting down like I expected Tim walked upstairs.

'Where are you going?' I frowned.

'We're going to pack a bag.' He said without looking over his shoulder. I hurried after him and we went to my room. He closed the door behind us and locked the door. His golden eyes, he wasn't wearing his lenses, drilled in mine. He held up his hand.

'Go get them, all of them.' He said strict.

'What do you mean?' I said.

'Don't play stupid Ren, not with me. One look and I knew enough. You're on drugs again. Don't even dare to deny it. We going to put you in rehab right now.' His tone told me he tolerated no contradiction.

So it's rehab time for Renesmee. It's a short chapter I know, but the next will be up in a hour or so. Anyway let me know what you think!