Sorry for the spelling/grammer/typo errors. I am currently writing this on notepad, and i dont have a beta.
Chapter 24:Caught
The Easter holidays passed way more quickly then they came. Mrs P. was fussing over me non-stop, as if i would drop at any moment. It was really annoying. Remus got rid of my well-paid muggle smokes ("You need to quit!"), i was a tad moody all week. I totaly fliped out at anything and everything. Mr P suggested that i find a replacment, like gum or something. There were three problems with this:
1- If i make a replacement, it most likely will something fatty. I would end up gaining a lot of weight or become unhealthy (which was one of the things smoking did to you.
2-Where was i suposed to buy all of it?
3-Nothing is the same and i most-likely would get bored with it.
I spent my holiday doing revision for the upcoming exams in June. They drew closer day-by-day and had to be prepared. Sirius and James simply refused point-blank to even consider picking up a book. I also, did not completely ignore Sirius, but i had rules. I was never left alone with him, i never flirted with him and i tried my very best not to mention Addan around him or James. Now that two people that they hate, wait three. Malfoy, Addan and Jason. But they hated Malfoy before i met him. Wow, stacking pretty high. How do i end up in these situations? Anyway they still were pretty mad. They planned to ambush and hex him, but i stoped that, i still had uses for him. They decided pranks were good enough for him, which i did not get into.
We were currently stepping off the Hogwarts Express into the Hogsmeade Station.
"C'mon Allie, lets find a carrige." Remus said, as i stopped and looked around.
"Yeah..yeah.. i will be right there, go on." I said absentmindedly, with a wave of my hand. Remus gave me a puzzled look and dismissed it. He joined the boys in the carrige.
Truth was...and i know it was a bad idea and that the Marauders would kill me if they found out...i was meeting Addan in private.
Yes, i know its stupid and everything, but i had to buy my muggle-smokes off of him. I can stop whenever i want...but i choose not too. Thats what they all say! A voice in my head said, i ignored it. When i saw that Hagrid had left with the first-years, and that the carriges have gone, i made my way.
I walked swiftly, with my hands in my robe pockets down the road. The general Hogsmeade village was about a minute walk away from the station. When i got there, not too many shops were open still. The Hogshead and Three Broomsticks were still open. I walked down the dark street, and into the Hogshead bar. I thought no one hear would care about my buisness, unlike Madam Rosemerta, who knew Dumbledore. Only a couple of people were inside. Some dark-hooded figures where talking in a corner table. As first, i thought they were death-eaters, but they seemed to talking in a diffrent language. There was also a man and a woman. The woman looked supiciously like a hag, the man looked like he was purple...it was wierd. There was also a person, male or female that had a long viel over his or her face. He or she was ordering fire whisky shots from the bartender.
Ahh, the bartender. He eyed me suspiciously then started cleaning his glasses again. Her looked vaugley familliar, but that was absurd because she had never seen him out of this bar. I sat down on a near table to the door. The bar tender had white hair and beard, not too long but not cut clean. He had blue eyes and was old. No where hear as old as Dumbledore, might i add. Or so it looked.
A boy came through the door and sat down infront of me, Addan.
"Hey gorgeous, how've ya been?" He asked cheekily. I glared at him.
"Lets get this over with. I want a pack of 40. How much?" I said hastily. The bartender looked as if he was hearing us.
"Not so fast, i want a butterbeer." Addan said, signaling to the bartender. Soon, the man approched us suspiciously, handing Addan his drink and took his money.
"Hurry up! So is that forty galleons?" I spat.
"Yes, geez Alls, whats wrong with you?" He said slowly. He put the package on the table and i looked it over. It was satisfying enough so i payed him his money and stood. The Barman looked at me then put his head in the emerald fire behind him. This worried me incase he was alerting people. He talked quickly and quietly. I left swiftly. I had to leave before Addan caught up with me.
I was going to take the boats the first-years usually use to get to the castle. I planned on skipping the feast, to not cause suspicion. They always left a single boat behind. Since these took you to the grounds, unlike the carriages that led to the school gates, it would be so much easier.
The lake was very dark and fore bonding. I never had the opportunity to take the boats, so i had no idea how to work them. I cautiously steped into the small boat, but it just started towards its destination. Easy, just sit back and enjoy. I am so lucky it's a clear night. I looked up and the almost full moon. It looked like in a couple of days The Marauders would be out. Of course my surgery had to mess up my plans. I could be animagi like them, out in the night. But no, Clark ruined that, like almost every other part of my life.
I saw the giant squid lazily swiming around the nightime waters.
If i got caught, i might be expelled, or suspended. Most of all, I'd get disappointed looks from everyone. Professor Dumbledore, the other professers, students in the halls (not too many) Mr and Mrs Potter, and most of all my friends. Lily Evans, Remus Lupin, Peter Pettigrew, James Potter and Sirius Black.
They would be so angry with me. If i was caught, would it really be worth it?
Yes!
No...
Maybe...?
Ahh! I have no clue! These things are amazing, but UN-healthy. They totally calm me down better then anything else, but are illigal in Hogwarts.
Something moved in the water by the boat "Lumos!" I whispered and peered over the side, it turns out it was just the Giant Squid. I was a little nervous, he was too close to the boat for my liking.
Remus once told me the squid was friendly...
Sev said it was despicable.
In the middle of my thoughts, everything became darker. I looked around and realized i came into a tunnel. An idea flashed through my mind. I reached into my bag, and pulled out a purple muggle marker. I always keep muggle utensils around, just in case. My quil would break if it went across this rock. I quickly un-capped the purple marker, and wrote 'A. G. F. was here!' across the wall of rock in medium lettering. Now everyone would know i was here. Eventually, in time it would ware off, but not in a hurry. I smiled of accomplishment and put the muggle marker back in my bag.
The boat slowed into a small harbour-like moor. The boat stopped at the bank and i climbed out. I pushed the wall of leaves from a low-hanging willow branch and steeped into the Hogwarts grounds. This was going smoothly. I could see the castle lights from here. I strolled up into the big doors, and sat on the steps. I took a fresh ciggarete out of the pack, and lit it with my wand. As soon as i smoked it, i felt relived and calm. I was just about done, when i decided to step inside the big oak doors.
"Allie! Where have you been? We were looking all over for you!" I heard a voice behind me say. It was James and Sirius coming towards me. I quickly hid my hand containing the smoking muggle-smoke behind my back.
"I just decided to skip the feast, and take a stroll around the grounds..." I lied. Since meeting Addan, i was much better at it. Sirius arched his eyebrow.
"What's this?" he asked, lifting my hand and seeing the lit muggle-smoke.
"ALLISON! Where did you get that?" James snarled and grabbed it out of my hand.
"I-i bought them.." I stutterd, fully knowing what was coming.
"From who?" Sirius said in a deadly quiet voice. I stiffined.
"A-a-Addan." I said quietly.
"WHAT THE BLOODY HELL WHERE YOU DOING AROUND HIM, ALONE?" James shouted.
"Buying this! And it cost my forty galleons, so you are not having the lot!"
"Accio!" Sirius said and pulled the pack out of my hands.
"Give those back!" I said and reached for them. He was a head taller then me so it was a hard task.
"You are not aloud to have those! I am so dissopointed in you! God damnnit what happened to you? Now, you just act like some slut, smokey-drugee -" James contiuned on, naming horrible things.
"James, stop it." I said quietly.
"- like some whore; by the way, since when did you sit at the Slytherin table? You -" James contiuned.
"James." Sirius said rationally, i ignored him.
"Shut-up, James." I said deadly whisper, he continued.
"-girl who will probably ending up working corners! I do not want that for you! I'd be glad to help you out Allie, but you have to co-operate." He said, as if talking to a two-year old child.
SMACK!
I hit James so hard across the face, that it was cherry-red where my hand mark was. He looked at me shocked, so did Sirius.
"James, i-i-" I stammered, looking at me hand. How could i have just hit him?
"No. Allie you completely changed. I have no idea what goes on in that head of yours. Just stay away from me." He said and walked off, leaving me with Sirius. I grabbed the bag out of his hands and walked outside, he followed me.
"What was that?" He said quietly, sitting beside me on the front steps. I already had a new-muggle smoke in my hand. He did not bother taking it from me. I hid the bag from him.
"I dont know. I just lost control... he is right." I said quietly, my voice cracking due to tears threating to fall.
"I am a slut, whore and a drunk. I smoke all the time, i belong in some sort of ward, where i can't harm anyone! Ever since w -" I stopped, i almost admitted that this all started since we ended things.
"No, your not. You are just confused." Sirius said lightly, pulling me into him so i rested in his shoulder.
"Your wrong. I was stupid. I felt intimidated by him and his friends, like i had to do whatever to fit in with them. Sure it was fun while it lasted, but it is not worth it. My grades are down, exams coming up. I lost a lot of my friends... i almost got bloody raped!" I sobbed.
"That was not your fault." Sirius said sternly. "But why would you go back to him, to buy this rubbish?" Sirius said, reaching over and grabbing the bag out of my pocket. He threw it down the steps.
"I, i thought i needed it. Because im weak and stupid. My life has been so wrong and terrible lately. With Mary gone, so violently too, and loosing Metemorphamagus powers...and the Animagus potion going wrong...its all going down the drain! And ive been so lonely, and too myself. No one knows how i feel!" I said, crying. Sirius sighed.
"You are never alone." He said and leaned his head on mine. I felt content, like this was right. But i was slowly slipping back to him.
Then, the oak doors creaked open, McGonagall looked down upon us.
"Ahh, ms. Fererra, there you are! I got a message that you were left in Hogsmeade, young lady! And Black wha-" She started to say, but then saw the bag of muggle-smokes. Her face hardened.
Oh crap.
I originally was going to stop putting them up so fast...but i felt genrous. =] I usualy put something up every second day, and i felt that was too fast. Im working on the end of this fic right now, and i comeing near. Hope u liked it!
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