Chapter 25
Since the incident at the hospital, mine and Jacob's relationship has been strained to the core. I think the finally straw was when Mr. Howard gave me a lift back from the hospital. How was I supposed to had gotten home? Jacob wouldn't had gave me a ride unless I begged him and I was not going to beg him.
So, the next morning it was nothing but silence throughout the whole house. He didn't even want me to give him a kiss goodbye or any of that before he left out of the house. I love giving him kisses especially when he's leaving then it's me time. I didn't even get to tell him what happened at the hospital nor did he ask. That's how mad he was.
This school day needs to hurry up. I look at Mr. Howard writing on the chalkboard. I don't even know what he's talking about. My mind is literally gone and I should've stayed home. I have so much to do today. I go to shopping for furniture. Maybe a cheap TV. I'm tired of looking at the wall. Right, my TV that Jacob's friend probably had a dealing in trashing.
Never be welcome in my home again. "Ms. Thorne." Mr. Howard call with his back to the class. All of the students looks my way. "Sorry, Mr. Howard." I say apologizing and looking back down at my biology book. "We're on page 174." Bella whisper to me. "Thanks." I say turning the pages to 174. She turn her attention back towards the teacher.
That bell needs to hurry up and ring. "Ms. Thorne, can you stay back after class?" He asks me. The whole classroom looks at me again. "Sure, Mr. Howard." I say shaking my head and resting my head on the desk. I am so hungry and so tired. Maybe I can take a small nap. I feel someone tapping on my shoulder and I look up at the person. Bella.
"Mr. Howard is looking at you." She say pointing forward. I turn my head towards the front of the class to see him staring directly in my face along with the rest of the students. I can't catch a break today. I can't do this no more and it's getting too much. "Is there a problem, Ms. Thorne?" He asks going to his desk. "Yeah, this is too much and I can't take it no more." I say shaking my head as Bella looks at me worried.
"What is?" He asks. "Life in general. It's too much going on in my life and I'm not ready." I say shaking my head at the students looking in my face. "Are you sick?" Bella whisper. I shake my head no. "Everybody's not ready for life but we take it one step at a time." He say. "I know but...Yeah, this isn't going to work. I can't come to school with too much on my mind." I say closing my book and packing up.
He doesn't say anything to me. I shake my head rubbing on my head feeling a strong headache hit me as Bella rubs on my back. "I'm going to the nurse's office." I say voice cracking getting up from the chair and leaving my things as I walk pass the watchful eyes of the students and Mr. Howard and towards the door opening it up and leaving out the classroom. I feel a hand on my back as the person help's me towards the Nurse's office.
"Are you okay?" A man's voice asks me. "My head hurts." I say massaging my forehead. "Let's get you to the nurse's office. I'm sure she's in right now." He say helping me walking into office where the Nurse is taking care of another student. "Help her on the bed and I'll be with her shortly." She say looking at me than back at the student. The male student help's me on the bed.
"Thank you." I say while he stares in my face. "No problem." He say walking out of the nurse's office not before giving me another look. I think he's another one with a crush on me. I shake my head laying back on the bed while holding my head and looking out of the window to see that it's still raining. All week it's been nothing but rain and cold weather. This fall is no joke. Oh, this headache.
I look at the rain dripping down on the window and close my eyes to listen to it but can't block out the sound of the nurse and the other student talking to each other. I sigh looking closely at the rain drops. "I think it's the weather that got me under the weather." I say nodding my head. "I'll be with you in a minute, Lacie." The nurse say. "Okay." I say nodding my head while going back to massaging my head.
I look at the door sensing someone's on the other side. I left my books and bookbag in class. School is about to be over in a couple of minutes. I look back out of the window as the Nurse help the student sit up. "It might be something going around. It's fall time and the flu is out and circulating around the school." She say. "I have been throwing up lately." The female student say.
"Hope not pregnant."I joke out grinning at her. "Hope not." She say frowning getting off the bed. "Let's get you back to class." The nurse say helping her. "It's not all cracked up to be especially in high school." I say looking at the nurse help her outta the office. She closes the door behind her. I breathe out. "So, what's the problem for today?" She asks walking to her desk and sitting down.
"My head just started hurting today in class and I don't know why. I think it might be because of the weather or something." I say looking out of the window at the rain. "It is flu season." She say opening up her notebook and grabbing a pen. "What class was you in?" She asks. "Mr. Howard class." I answer. She laugh. "I think it's more than just the weather." She say turning around in her chair smiling at me.
"I don't know. It's been kind of weird and I think it might be the rain." I say pointing to the window. "I think it's how Mr. Howard attitude is and how he treats you." She say and I give it some thoughts. I don't know. He came back to town after I found out about the pregnancy and everything. "I don't know." I say unconvinced. But, it does hold some truth. Every time Mr. Howard is around my body does go crazy.
She raise her eyebrow up at me. "You might be right, Nurse. I went to the hospital the other day." I say bringing it up to prove her theory wrong. "For what?" She asks curious. "I was dehydrated and I needed an IV. I got it right in my hand." I say tapping on my left hand. I had to change gloves because I left one at the hospital when the male nurse took it off.
"Are you okay now?" She asks turning around to write in her books. "I am okay. I didn't think I was that dehydrated till I fainted in the hospital plus I been the normal tired. So, yeah." I say playing with my hand. She nods still writing. "You didn't call me." She say. Hm. "Because I didn't want a woman in her life." "And, your mother?" She asks. "She's not around. So, yeah." I say nodding my head.
"You're dealing with your pregnancy alone?" She asks me. "I'm not alone because I have my boyfriend Jacob and our friends. So, we're in this together for our daughter." "A girl?" She asks turning around with her arms crossed. "He think it's a girl name Sarah but I still hold out that it's probably a boy but I don't bring it up because we're stuck on Sarah." I say.
"Beautiful name." She say smiling. "Thank you." I say looking out the window again. I never cleaned up that mud stain in the car. I think it's permanent. Hm. "Do you have a name if it's a boy?" She asks bringing me out of my thoughts. "Not yet but we hope to have one probably named after him." I say guessing. I don't know yet but hope he doesn't want a Junior.
The school bell rings. "Oh, I guess class is over." She say looking at the clock. "Thank god." I say rubbing on my head. "How's your headache?" She asks me crossing her legs. "It's gone." I say looking outside one more time. "It was probably Mr. Howard. You're not the first student that he sent to the clinic and probably won't be the last." "Yeah, I wonder how his wife treats him." I joke out.
I look at her face changing up. I guess I said the wrong thing. "I'm sure he treats his wife with the utmost respect." She say. "How when she dead?" I ask confused. The door opens up before the nurse can speak. We both look to see who it is. "How you doing, Ms. Thorne? Ms. Miller?" Mr. Howard asks looking at both me and her but mostly on me.
"I'm doing fine." I answer nodding my head. "We're doing fine, Mr. Howard." She answers looking at him. It get silent in the room. "Is everything okay?" He asks me. "I think I need to stop hanging around you, Mr. Howard." I say turning on my side. "And, why is that?" He asks. "Because I think you're making me sick." "Or it's just nerves. You are in your first trimester. You'll fell overwhelmed and emotions taking control of your body." She say.
Mr. Howard looks at me to respond. "So, it's just when I bascially get nervous or something because I never experienced a headache before." I say shaking my head and feeling one starting to form. "You was treated for dehydration yesterday." She say. "I was. I didn't finish the treatment and I don't know how long I had the IV in my hand." I say.
"Why didn't you finish?" Mr. Howard asks as the nurse opens her mouth. "Because I got overwhelmed and it just got to me being in the hospital with an IV in my hand. It's all too real." I say sitting up. I need to call Jacob. "Hearing the baby's heartbeat wasn't real for you?" The nurse asks me while Mr. Howard stares in my face. "Not yet. The situation is way different from your average pregnancy." I say.
"How so?" "Because of my current situation." "Which is why you need a woman in your life? A mother figure. Your mother is not around you?" "No, she is not but that's not the reason." I say shaking my head. "Ms. Thorne, you need a woman in your life to help you through situations like this." Mr. Howard say once again before the nurse can open her mouth.
"I have Jacob and I perfer him." I say to both of them. "But going through your first pregnancy and being in high school with graduation around the corner. It's very overwhelming when a girl does not have her mother." She say. I nod at her what's she saying. She's right. I do need a woman in my life. "Every daughter needs a mother in her life." She say. I nod my head again. Right.
"Do you still have my number?" She asks me. "No, I left it in my pants and I probably washed the number away." I say to her turning around and writing it down again. "This time call me." She say ripping the piece of paper and I get off the bed to take it. I look down at the number. "All you have to do is call me." She say. I nod my head thinking about it.
"Okay." I say nodding my head and walking past Mr. Howard and leaving out of the clinic and feeling his eyes on me. I need to go back and get my bookbag than I'm leaving school early. I'll skip next class. I shake my head walking down the hall and back to the classroom to retrieve my stuff. I hope Mr. Howard is not following behind me. I know he's making me sick.
I walk into the classroom and look around the new students that's occupying the class in search for my bookbag and books but I don't see it. "It's on my desk." Mr. Howard say from behind me. Damn! "Right." I say walking to his desk and grabbing my bookbag off it. I see the name plaque is still up there. I turn around almost bumping into him.
"Sorry." I say at the same time as him as some of the students look at our interaction. I move to the side opening my bookbag up and see that my biology book and notebooks are in it. Bella must've put it in there after I left out. I close the book bag up and leave out of the classroom with all eyes on me. I shake my head taking out my phone to call Jacob to come pick me up early.
I'm riding in the car with Jacob after calling him to come pick me up. It's been a silent since I got in the car. He glances at me before turning his attention back to the road. "Sam still doesn't want me?" "No." He answers. I nod my head holding his hand. He doesn't grip mine. I guess he's still in his mood. "The nurse told me that it's my emotions and nerves that's making me sick." "And, I told you that." He say.
I don't remember he told me that. "I don't recall you telling me anything, Jacob. I been kind of busy. Have you talked to Paul?" I ask changing the subject. "For what reason? He didn't vandalize your house, Lacie. We told you that." He say.
"And, I'm supposed to believe your word about Paul or you." "You believe what you want, Lacie." He say stopping at a stop light. "No, Jacob. This is serious. How would you feel if someone trashed your house?" "No one would do that." He say looking at me. I put my legs in the seat turning to him. "You're not getting it because you're still under that dark cloud." I say slowly for him.
"I get it, Lacie." He say. I'mma drop it. This is a little boy I'm talking too. "You know what, Jacob. Just take me to the store so I can buy some more cleaning supplies and maybe shop for a small cheap TV. I'm tired of looking at the wall and looking at your ugly face." I say. "Same for me." He mutter. I leave it alone while he turns down a street.
"You not going to mess up my house and think to get away with it. You don't understand that." I say shaking my head turning back around. He's silent. "Whatever." I say scratching my head as the ride is silent till we reach the shopping center. "You need to change your attitude and get rid of that I'm a little boy syndrome. It's not doing you no good in this situation and I'm starting to think twice." I say looking at the side of his face to get a reaction but he doesn't respond.
"I'm the one pregnant. My life is the one changed. Jacob, how are you doing?" I ask realizing I never asked how he was doing. He looks at me when we pull up to another stop light. I rub on his face wanting him to tell me about what's been going on in his life. Bella and Everything.
"Things has changed when dealing with Bella." He say. I just nod my head. I'm not on that situation no more but I'll love to hear about him and Bella. "Okay, what has changed?" I ask. "I can't tell you." He say. After he said that, I knew after that moment Jacob Black and his friends ain't shit. "You don't want to tell me what's going on with Bella?" I ask him.
"No, I do not." He say going back to driving the light hit green. I nod my head turning forward. "It must be something very important and my insides are telling me to force my way into learning what it is but it is for the best that I do not know?" I ask him. "Right." He say. "Okay, do you want to know what happened today?" I ask him. "What happened, Lacie?" He asks not interested.
"I got my first big headache and it was terrible. I think the weather is making me sick along with being in my first trimester. The nurse gave me her number." I say taking out of the piece of paper. He snatch the paper from me and look at the number. He glances at me than back at the road. "What?" I ask taking the paper back. "Nothing. Are you going to call her?" He asks me.
"I might. I mean she made a good point about having a woman in my life and Mr. Howard was there too. I couldn't turn her down. So, I'll talk to her and ask her advice. She's a nurse. She might know more than anybody." I say looking at the paper and putting it back into my pant's pocket.
"Yeah, I might. She broke me down today and gave me insight that I can't keep counting on you because you're not a girl and wouldn't understand plus you're dealing with your own thing." I say. He nods his head. I guess he's not going to comment on Mr. Howard being there. "Let's just shop for a new TV than we'll go from there. We can actually sit down and talk." I say going back to looking out of the window.
He doesn't respond. I shake my head whatever as the rest of the drive to the shopping center is silent. He parks in the middle of the parking lot. I get out of the car looking around at the other cars. The parking lot is kind of packed. Thanksgiving will be coming up in a few more weeks well after Halloween if you think about it but don't people go to work especially on a rainy day.
I shake my head putting on my hoodie and looking at Jacob. He looks at me. "I guess you're not going to hold my hand." I say holding out my hand for him to take. "No, I'm not." He say. I nod my head walking towards the electronic store with him following behind me but as close as I want him. Yeah, something has to give in this relationship. It's too much going on.
I walk into the store and take off my hoodie while looking around for the cheapest TVs that's probably under a hundred or something. Something small and cheap to go in the living room. Jacob looks around too. "How can we help you?" A nice employee asks walking over to us. Jacob looks at me. "We're looking for a small TV. I had a break in the other day and it damaged my semi-flat screen." I say to the nice young man.
"We have a selection of different ranges of TV that best describes what you're looking for." He say leading me and Jacob over to section of TVs. Small TVs. "What's your price range?" The young man asks me. "Hm, About one hundred." I say looking in his eyes. "Okay, I have the perfect TV for you." He say walking to a TV. I follow behind him looking at Jacob.
He looks at me before looking back at the TV. "This is around $80." Is all I hear him say while he's describing what it does. "I'll take it and how soon can it be boxed up?" I ask going into my pockets and realizing I don't have my wallet. "As soon as one of the employees go get it from the back of the store." He answers. "Jacob, I left my wallet in the car. Can you go get it? Or can you pay for it?" I ask him.
"Lacie, I don't have no money." He say looking at me. The young man looks at me. "You don't have no money?" I ask him. "No, I do not. You knew you was going to shop for a TV. Why would you ask me to bring you if you didn't have the money?" He asks. "Because I just wanted to look around and get you out of the mood that you're in. Is this going to be available?" I ask turning back to the employee.
"It is." He answers looking at both me and Jacob. "I'll be back for the TV later on. " I say to him. "So, you're not going to buy the TV?" He asks me while Jacob shake his head. "No, I am not." I say shaking my head. "Well, I'll leave you two. Have a good day." The employee say and walk away to help another customer. Jacob looks at me before walking out of the store.
I shake my head following behind him putting my hoodie on. "You wasted my time, Lacie." He say ready to start arguing. "I wanted us to hang out and go out on a date, Jacob. When was the last time we actually went out? Never." I answer before he can answer the question. "I don't have time to go out on dates." He say shaking my head.
"Tell me what..You know what...Yeah." I say shaking at Jacob. Time to rethink this whole thing. "Let me get my book bag and you can go about your business." I say walking towards his car and he follow behind me opening up his car door and unlocking doors. I open the car door grabbing my bookbag and looking Jacob in his face. He look into mine.
Yeah, always the first one to talk or him always in an attitude. "I don't want to catch you at my house. Don't call my phone or whatever it is. It is a break up, Jacob." I say closing the door and putting on my bookbag. "You deal with your situation and I'll deal with my mine. I am done." I say walking away towards the shopping center. I so done with him and his attitude. I hear him starting his car up and see him driving out of the parking lot. Yeah, it's definitely over.