Author note: The main characters are Harry/Draco not as romantic, but because the story's focus is Harry's struggle for belonging, and Draco is core to that. Cannon Percy I'd never write with Harry, but I hope you'll give mine a chance. I am having trouble deciding which couple will adopt Harry, feedback welcome, but as always thank you for continuing to read and review my story

Chapter 25 Needing some decissions

Harry had been asleep for some hours; well they had all been for it was well past midnight the following weekend, when Lucius bolted up in bed. Charlie sat up as well, both hearing muffled sounds from the next room, and knowing Harry was having a bad dream, or assumed. Lucius motioned his husband back to bed; Charlie had worked double shifts three times that week, and needed the rest. He would be happy when Charlie was done school, these crazy schedules would go away, and if they had their wish soon, the late nights, would be feedings. For Harry though, neither minded being up, knowing he needed it.

As he walked into Harry's room he found sure enough Harry was thrashing around in bed, not really screaming, but crying. Lucius was careful, he definitely didn't want to scare Harry any more then he already was, but he sat down on the bed. He didn't shake Harry; he drew him into his arm, trying to soothe him like a baby.

When Harry had slowly calmed and came around he looked surprised at Lucius."I am sorry for waking you."

Lucius just summoned an elf with warm milk and honey for Harry. "You know I don't mind. Charlie and I have told you, you could wake us at any time."

As Harry sat against the pillows drinking the warm milk, he knew Harry felt guilty, especially about Charlie. Lucius was self employed, he could just go into work later if needed, and since it was a weekend, he usually didn't. His life had changed so much for the better since the war ended, and not simply because he was not a spy, for one he actually had a life. He travelled and worked less, because he had a husband to come home to, whom he loved, and two sons he could be hands on with. As odd as it sounded, he looked forward to poopy diapers and midnight feeds, thanks to Narcissa, he never got to enjoy them with Draco.

Harry was calming down a bit, but he was worried, knowing Lucius would want to talk to him. The only time Harry had ever mentioned any memories of the sexual abuse was the night he walked in on Remus and Severus, and it brought up memories.

Lucius put the glass down."Harry you know I will not force you, but I think you need to talk about this. I have a feeling this is not the first time this week."

Harry had known how to erect spells for privacy since he was little. "I don't know if I can tell.......it's not like when he kicked me. You guys saw."

Reminded that Harry had undergone years of abuse, and had hid it from everyone, Lucius was not surprised Harry was scared to talk. The twins and others suspected Harry to have been abused, but no one had confronted him, and Harry had remained in the abusive home. If he had not been beaten to within an inch of his life, and wound up in the hospital, they likely would still have no idea. As sickening as t was to think, his being left in the dumpster, was a blessing of sorts.

He quiet reminded Harry they knew, the doctors had reported signs of continued sexual abuse, when he was found. And though h could only make a few words out, the night Harry walked in on sex; Harry had shared a bit of a memory then.

Lucius kissed him on the head. "You were an innocent little boy, who deserved to be protected. Nothing you say will ever make me love you less. You are my son."

Harry refused to look at him."I was on the kitchen floor; I could hear the ticking clock."

It seemed the oddest start, but Lucius was soon to learn why, Harry having slept in a cupboard for years, not large enough for his Uncle. He would be made to lay naked on the kitchen floor, as his Uncle touched and kissed him all over. Lucius was nearly sick to hear, a four year old had known what another man's cock felt like.

He knew it went further, from the scarring, but Harry could not handle more. Lucius took Harry into his lap and rocked him. "It's okay Harry. I promise, I promise."

Harry didn't fight him like that night in the den, he allowed himself the comfort."Please don't leave me."

He knew it was not a simple request to stay with him that night, though that was part; Harry was begging Lucius to stay as his dad, his family. Lucius moved so they were both against the pillows, and held Harry as he sobbed himself to sleep. Lucius hated making Harry talk about it, but as painful as it was, he knew he was right.

He was not all that surprised when his husband appeared in the door. "I hope you don't mind a bed alone tonight. I think Harry needs me more right now."

Charlie came and kissed them both. "I think it is time the four of us sit down with Harry and discus the adoption papers."

Both couples had never wanted to pressure Harry, and he didn't need to be adopted by anyone, but it seemed Harry needed it. As much as they kept assuring him of their love, and that they would all be there for him, it wasn't enough really. Harry's parents were killed when he was a baby, and since then he had not had much security, and right now he seemed to need tangible proof, that he would always have a family to call his own.

Lucius nodded. "I know there is a good chance he will choose Remus, and I can live with that. But I have come to see him as a son, and papers won't change that."

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Harry was shocked when he found Lucius still with him the next morning, and he felt guilty, but Lucius assured him it had been his choice. They decided not to address what they spoke of when he slept, with him right away, but spoke to the other two. They were all in agreement that they would talk to Harry soon, and would have him decide what papers to sign, and make sure he understood he still had them all. Harry wanted that next step, they knew he needed it, he was simply scared.

It was a week later when the six, Draco having come as well, sat down to talk. Remus and Severus had some news to share, it was the official reason for the dinner, not wanting to scare Harry off, or corner him. Draco had his suspicions there was more, but he was happy to be there for his brother.

Remus showed his hand. "We know we have only been official back together for a few months, but Severus and I have decided we want to get married."

Lucius smiled. "Five months, Severus you were never one for quick moves. But I am happy for you."

The couple had thought about being engaged by Christmas, but the adoption issue with Harry had come up. They didn't need to be married for custody of him, but they wanted to be a proper family, and it simply made Severus realize how much he wanted it. The couple planned to be married at Christmas time, in a small ceremony right before he Malfoys were to head off on their honeymoon which had been on hold, when the would take their own.

Remus looked at Harry. "Lucius and I have the adoption papers for either choice. I think by Christmas, our wedding, one set should be signed."

Harry was surprised for they had kept repeating time over and over. "I have to choose?"

Shaking their heads, they reminded Harry of what they always said, even if he became a Malfoy or a Lupin, he would always have all four of them. He could continue having rooms in both apartments, and could always rely on all four; none of them would change that. They reminded Harry he had been the one to ask, before the Malfoy wedding, and they knew the question was on his mind, ever since then. He was floundering, needing the security of knowing he permanently and completely belonged some where, and they knew this was a step he needed to take.

Harry looked back and forth. "I want to, I want a real family, but I don't know who. I don't want to hurt any of you."

Charlie squeezed his hand. "You won't hurt us Harry; we will all have you in our lives, two as dads and two as Uncles. This is about you, what you need from us."

Though Draco had not known before hand, he was quick to help, and assured Harry they were brothers either way. He thought it would be cool if they were both Malfoys, especially when Charlie and Lucius had a baby, for them all to be, but he could live with a Lupin. If he could live with a lion before, he could live with this.

Draco made a small joke as he knew Harry and Percy were talking a lot last week. "Though I will not date Ginny, the Weasley-Malfoy unions will end with you."