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"I think it's time for a break." Sakura got up to stretch. "Mmhm."
Syaoran raised an eyebrow before he followed suit.
"Come on, let's raid the kitchen." he proposed. He walked across the living room towards the kitchen.
After what had happened the last time he was there, the two weren't allowed to stay alone in Sakura's room, which was why they were situated in the living room.
So while Sakura went through the cupboards in search of junk food, Syaoran raided the refrigerator. He retrieved two cans and closed the fridge door. He placed one can on the worktop and opened the other one. He took a long gulp of his drink and then sighed in satisfaction. Sakura threw a packet at him and he caught it.
"You totally owe me- teaching is such hard work." He said to her. His friend looked at him and laughed.
"I helped you with your essay last time, remember?"
Syaoran glanced at her with a look of naughtiness.
"I don't remember a lot of work getting done, but I do remember a few other things," he smiled, staring to approach her. "What do you say we pick up where we left off?"
Sakura gave him a look that said, 'Don't go there, Sayoran'. Despite this, Syaoran reached over and touched a lock of her hair. Sakura felt herself turning pink. She got hold of his hand with both of hers.
"Syaoran..." she breathed out. 'Don't do this to me.' She added in thought. And almost as though he could read her subconscious, Syaoran's hand slipped out of hers and dropped of its own accord.
His eyes softened and bore into her eyes.
"I miss you." He confessed.
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"When you're attracted to someone it just means that your subconscious and their subconscious are attracted to each other...subconsciously. This "fate" is nothing more but two neurons that match, fitting each other."
"What?"
"I-I don't know. No-one's said a word for ages. I heard it off some guy on TV."
"Do you really believe that?" Sakura asked.
"No." Syaoran sighed. "Of course I don't."
"Why are you doing this, Syaoran?" Before Syaoran could even answer, Sakura continued. "I'm dating Shaolin." She said. "Remember Shaolin? The guy I'm currently going out with?"
When Syaoran smiled, she asked him why and he replied, "You don't call him you're boyfriend. Why is that?"
Sakura swallowed. She asked herself the same question. "I-I don't know! You don't call the girls you date your girlfriends! So there!" She was a five-year-old once more. Syaoran smiled again.
"That's because I don't consider them to be- I'm not emotionally attached to them. It's just-"
"Physical." Sakura interrupted. She looked at him. "Syaoran, you are incapable of being in a mature, stable, committed relationship. You just want to have fun- which is great—if only you would stay with that one person. Except you can't do that either." Sakura knew the harshness of her words, but she also knew how true they were. So did Syaoran.
"But you know I wouldn't cheat on you!" Syaoran argued. "And we had fun, didn't we-"
Once more, Sakura intervened.
"I love you, Syaoran. Do you know what that means? It means that I would do anything for you." She paused. "Except this. I can't...I won't let you hurt me again."
"That's...understandable. You know I would never intentionally hurt you, right Sakura?"
She nodded."I know."
"I wish...I wish I felt the same way Sakura. But I don't, at least, not yet. I just hope that if, when, I ever do feel that way, that it's not too late."
"Yeah. Me, too." Sakura added. She tip-toed and placed a kiss on his cheek.
"Does this mean we're not getting back together?"
"Yes, Syaoran."
"Can we at least make out once more, for old-times' sake?"
"No Syaoran."
"Not even one kiss?"
"I gave you one kiss."
Syaoran snorted. "You call that a kiss? This is a kiss." He said, leaning in and touching his lips with hers. If this was the last kiss they would share for a long time, Syaoran made sure it was one they would always remember.
Sakura swallowed before clearing her throat. "Right." She said. "We had better get back before Touya gets home." She said, quickly heading fro the living room. Syaoran watched her walk away. He sighed.
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"Actually, I'd better be off- I have some work that I've not even started. Besides, I think we've gone through a lot. Of...material."
"Yep." Sakura said quickly.
Syaoran grabbed his jacket and stood up. Sakura walked to the door with him. Syaoran turned to face her. He wanted to touch her again but he stopped himself. Instead, he sighed once more.
"I meant what I said on Valentine's day...night, whatever. I'll always be there for you when you need me, okay?" Sakura nodded. She was about to hug him when he took a step back.
"Bye Sakura." Syaoran put his hands in his pockets and walked away.
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When he reached the next street, Syaoran dug his phone out of his pocket. He searched through his contacts and then dialled the call button.
After a few rings someone answered. "Hello?"
"Hey, Lana." Syaoran said glumly. The voice on the other end perked up.
"Syaoran! Are you alright? You sound gutted."
"I'm fine." Syaoran said unconvincingly. "What are you doing right now?" he asked, kicking away a can in his path.
"I was just about to dye my hair," Lana replied.
"No! I mean, don't. You have such beautiful hair," Syaoran complimented. He could just see her smiling on the other end of the line.
"Really? You think so?" she asked, uncertain.
"Yes," Syaoran assured her. "Definitely!"
"You don't think it's a dull shade of brown?"
"Absolutely not. I think it's a lovely light brown and it brings out your green eyes." He said. Lana giggled.
"You're too sweet Syaoran. Now that you've talked me out of that, I'm free. What did you have in mind?"
Syaoran smiled. "I, uh, lied before about being fine. I need some cheering up."
"Well, my parents are away for the weekend for their anniversary. Why don't you come over? I'll make you forget all about whatever's troubling you." (a/n Oo er! Lol)
"Thanks babe, I'm on my way."
(A/n For shame Syaoran, for shame. Lol can anyone notice a change in Syaoran?)
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"I'm so proud of you Sakura!" Tomoyo said, hugging her. Sakura had told her what had happened during the study evening that she and Syaoran had. When Sakura only grunted, Tomoyo asked her what the matter was.
"I am making a huge mistake." Sakura thought out loud. She reached for her phone. Turning to Tomoyo, she asked, "Do you think I should call him? I should call him. Yep. Who would be stupid enough to give up their chance to be with the guy they love for a guy who they like?"
When Tomoyo blushed, Sakura shook her head vigorously. "Sorry. Anyway, what do you think?"
Tomoyo ran a hand through her long mahogany locks. "I'm telling you- let him stir. He let you go. He couldn't have expected you'd just run back in to his arms and all would be well again. Right now he's just jealous because you're with Shaolin. I mean, you do like being with Shaolin right?"
"Yes," Sakura paused a moment. She looked as though she was in deep thought.
"It might just have been the light,.." she continued. "but he actually looked...hurt." after processing what she had just said, Sakura shook her head at the ridiculousness of the thought. "Nah...this is Syaoran Li. He would have probably, no, definitely have-
"-picked up the phone and called some other girl." Syaoran said to Eriol, who was enjoying another slice of pizza. He pushed the box towards his cousin but Syaoran denied. "I'm not hungry."
Eriol looked at him peculiarly. "The reason we ordered pizza was because you said you were starving." He reminded him.
Syaoran ran his hands through his hair and exhaled sharply. "Okay, so I have a confession to make." He admitted. Eriol looked at him.
"You weren't hungry after all?" he took a shot in the dark.
"No, that's not it." Eriol missed terribly.
"Then what is it?" Eriol asked patiently.
"This girl- Lana. She's different. I mean, I'm not going out with her for the same reason I went out with the other girls."
Eriol nodded in understanding.
"There's a reason why you or Tomoyo or Sakura have not seen her."
"And what reason is that?"
"I didn't want you all to think that I was still hung up on Sakura."
"Why would we have thought that?"
"Because she looks like Sakura."
"Oh. I see why you would have thought we would have jumped to that conclusion then."
"She has the same hair colour; the same eye colour; same build. The only thing is...she's not Sakura."
Eriol chewed the last piece of his pizza then thought for a bit.
"So what do you do with her?"
"Things you would rather not hear about while eating." He paused. "Or while doing anything else for that matter." At the look of disgust on Eriol's face, Syaoran laughed. "I'm kidding. I mean, we make out and all but (and if you tell this to anyone so help me God I will kill you) regardless of how I act or seem, I still want my first time to be with the one I love."
"That is deep man." It wasn't Eriol, but Yamazaki who said that. He came and placed a few cans on the table."Oh I forgot the dip." He said, rushing back into the kitchen.
"Why did you invite him!?" Syaoran hissed to Eriol.
"I didn't. He overheard us when we were inviting the other guys and well, I couldn't exactly tell him he couldn't come (!)" Eriol replied. He was silenced when Yamazaki returned.
"Same goes to you Yamazaki." Syaoran said, referring to his earlier threat.
"Who am I going to tell, hn? This'll be our little secret. Just you, me and Eriol. The three musketeers, the three amigos, the-"
"Alright, can it man!" Syaoran interrupted. That boy sure got on his nerves.
"Chicks dig that kind of crap," The boy evidently didn't hear him.
"You know- the waiting and that. Not my Chiharu though."
Syaoran raised an eyebrow. "You mean you and her-"
"Did the dirty? The beast with two backs; the-"
"IT." Syaoran said sternly. He was that close to punching the lights out of him.
"Yes. We did it on-"
"We really don't want to know dude." This time it was Eriol who butted in.
"Oh. Right." Yamazaki said. It seemed he finally understood; got the gist; hit the bull's eye; got the messa-
"Anyway." Syaoran continued. "Aren't you two supposed to be in love or something?"
Yamazaki nodded. "Your point being?" This time Syaoran did punch him on the arm. Hard.
"Shut the fuck up Yamazaki!" he yelled.
Yamazaki rubbed his arm vigorously. Had he not constantly worked out for football and been weaker, it would have done more than stung.
"Li! All you had to do was ask."
"I did fucking ask. Didn't I fucking ask?" he asked Eriol, who nodded.
"He did...ask." he said to Yamazaki. "So what's your problem then, Syaoran?"
"I don't know man. I want her back. I can't stand seeing her with him."
"I think you sound like a jealous ex." Yamazaki offered.
"I don't care what you think." Syaoran narrowed his eyes at Yamazaki. Then turning to his cousin he asked, "What do you think Eriol?"
"I'm afraid I've got to side with Yamazaki on this one. You do sound like a jealous ex boyfriend. Perhaps you only want her back because Sakura has got another boyfriend."
Syaoran groaned. "Enough. You're both wrong. I'm not jealous. Syaoran Li does not do 'jealous ex'."
Yamazaki put his hand up as though he was in class. Syaoran rolled his eyes. It seemed everything Yamazaki did annoyed the hell out of him.
"Yes?"
"Maybe it's because Sakura's not like any of the other girls you dated. She's your best friend so you knew what she was like this as a person- whereas the other girls were just pretty faces and you didn't really want to know them, or stay with any of them long enough to know them- so she was sort of the your first proper girlfriend, you know? I mean, you did go out with her far longer than anyone else."
"Tina-talks-a-lot makes a very good point, Syaoran." Eriol agreed.
"Oh. This phase then, this 'jealousy', it does pass right?" Syaoran asked. Eriol unintentionally let out a humourless laugh, remembering his frequent taste of the emotion when Tomoyo was with Jed.
"Why not, eh?"
"Great." Syaoran said, pleased. "All I have to do is stay out of their way and wait for it to pass." He reached over for a slice of pizza. "I'm starving."
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Meanwhile, at Tomoeda Community College, Touya awoke from a deep sleep.
"How long does it take you to get here?" Touya asked Kiisu. It turned out that she had almost the same timetable as him. They were at Psychology at present.
Kiisu didn't look at him, nor did she stop writing.
"Too long." She sighed. Then she did stop. She looked up at him. Before saying anything she looked ahead to the front of the class. When she saw the teacher had his back to them, she turned back to look at Touya.
"Five. That's how many lessons we had together today, and not once did I see you even attempt to do any work." She hissed. Touya shrugged.
"I've got a photographic memory which means I don't really need to." He shrugged again.
Kiisu turned her attention back to her writing.
"That's.." stupid! Of course you've got to pay attention! "..lucky." She was trying hard to be nice to people. She may not like to admit it out loud, but she needed a friend. Except, she had to try twice as hard with this guy because he was so annoying.
Sensing that Kiisu was not very impressed with the piece of information he had just shared with her, Touya picked up a pen. He looked at the blank page of his book. He nudged Kiisu.
"He's wiped off the first part of Freud's theory. Do you mind if I copy it off-" Touya was not able to finish that sentence as the bell rang, signalling the end of the lesson.
Touya sighed. "Never mind." He packed his books away.
"How are you getting home?" Touya asked.
Kiisu flung her bag over her shoulder. She walked out of the classroom. Touya followed her.
"Why are you so interested?" Kiisu asked as she approached her locker. Touya shrugged. "I'm not. I'm just asking."
"Of course you are. You asked a question, which means you're interested in the answer." Kiisu closed her locker door. After waiting a while, Touya asked, "So...?"
"What?" Kiisu asked.
"You haven't answered my question."
"I'm not."
"Why not? It's just a question."
Kiisu smiled. "No, I mean my answer is 'I'm not'. At least, not any time soon."
Touya nodded. "Oh..Okay. So where will you go now?"
Kiisu shrugged. "No plans. The library, perhaps."
Touya shook his head in disbelief. "The library!?" he said dramatically. "I've watched you take notes in five lessons, for the whole lesson and now you want to go to the library to do more studying?"
Kiisu rolled her eyes. "I wanted to catch up with the curriculum because I started late in the year. Anyway, where do you suggest I go?"
Touya shrugged. "There's this cool place where they serve really good shakes. I could even go with you- if you like. So that you don't look like a loner."
"Aw gee, thanks (!)" Kiisu said. Touya laughed.
"Come on."
As they walked through the double doors that were the entrance to the school, Kiisu smiled maliciously.
"So..." she looked at Touya. "You've been watching me?" Touya's face turned red.
"No! I mean, not in that sense. You were sat next to me so obviously I saw you every time I had my head up!" he argued. Kiisu laughed.
"I told you that you were interested."
"I am not keen on you!" Touya bellowed, walking faster. Kiisu rushed up to his side.
"See? Who said anything about being keen on me? I just said you were interested- like in the same sense as a question, but...okay." she laughed again.
Touya thought about how beautiful she looked when she was smiling- which was not that often, he had noticed. He refrained himself from thinking anymore of these thoughts. His challenge was to create a friendship between them. Nothing more.
He pushed her away gently but she bounced back.
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