Bella's POV

I was staring at myself, horrified by the reflection in the mirror. For a vampire I hadn't looked so hideous like this in my existence. Also seeing a bulge on my lower abdomen, was the now forever reminder that what could've been, would now... never be. I was forever pregnant, stuck with Jasper's baby. No thanks to Carlisle. The baby that I was carrying, was killed, only because of a stupid, and pitiful secret trying so hard to be kept hidden. Edward walked in on my horrible moment I was having. He knew.. he had to of. I was not sure if Edward was there while I was laying helplessly on the ground in Jasper's arms. Telling him what I had such a hard time remembering before that I wanted to tell him them.

The false pregnancy. Being held captive by Jake for those seven horrible years. Practically everything that was bad.... It seemed like it was always happening to me. He wrapped his arms around my waist. Which made me shiver quickly to his sudden touch. His hands tracing the small lines of my abdomen, to where the baby stopped growing and eventually died down. Which also made me shiver. Uncomfortable by his touch. The memories came back, and I was now bursting into tears. Wishing it was Jasper that was holding me tightly in his arms. Kissing me, and calming me. Assuring me that everything would once again be sane. I was hoping that day would come soon, but unfortunately to my dismay, things would only turn out as I'd hoped if I was with Jasper again, happily married, but he then fell for my daughter, as I disappeared for a while. None of this would of happened if I hadn't overdosed

Most of this situation was my fault. But when I overdosed, I was under so much stress, disbelief, and drenched with too much pain. I was what most people would classify as depressed, and in most cases like that, it could lead to questionable thoughts about life, and the point to it. I could feel Edward's breath hit hard against my cool, and hard skin. His lips moving towards my neck. Moans slightly escaping my lips, but they weren't intentional. I was imagining it as Jasper. I wouldn't force myself to fall in love with someone else, who I truly didn't have much feelings for anymore. Edward brought that on himself. It was most certainly not my fault I lost all my trust him. " Edward." I began to whimper now. I wanted to tell him the truth about how I felt, but it wouldn't matter. If I did then I would be alone, by myself, aching, wanting someone to love immensely. How did my life finally come down to this? What had started all the corruption in my life.

I looked up to Edward again.... Oh, yeah, right. I forgot. " Edward." I said again, barely making an attempt to push him away.

" Bella." He whispered.

"Stop." I spoke softly turning my head away from him.

" What's wrong, my sweet Bella?" He bit the end of my ear lobe.

" Nothing's wrong." I lied, wiping the evidence from my eyes, as the tears came pouring out.

" You're crying, there must be something wrong." He admitted helping me erase the evidence.

" We're getting married in less then a month." I said to myself. He looked at me confused.

" Yes..." He replied slowly.

" And Jasper's getting married the day after we are...." I added. I didn't want it to sound as wrong as it came out. I did love Edward, but not like old times, like he was hoping.

" Yes... what is it, Bella?" He asked now concerned. Maybe he knew that I felt like backing out. Maybe he could see it in my eyes. That wasn't good.

" Nothing, Edward." I replied rather annoyed he kept replying to me. He began to kiss my forehead which made it almost impossible for me to think. All I knew is that I needed to do something before it was too late, and both Jasper, and I make a huge mistake, both marrying the wrong people. I needed a plan, and a back up, but I was not that smart, or devious in those relations of deceit, but I knew someone who was... Someone I could always rely on to give me a plan certain to prevail. I needed him the most right now. My big teddy bear of a brother.

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" Emmett, you have to help me with this." I begged. I knew he would give in eventually, but how long could begging and pleading take? minutes, hours, days? I didn't have time for that. Jasper's wedding was in less than two weeks time, and so was mine... I gulped at that.

" Relax, Bella. I will see what I can do with my brilliant expertise." I rolled my eyes and began to sigh.

Oh brother, prideful much?

"That's great, Emmett." I smiled, playing along with his happy go lucky mood.

" On one condition." He paused, putting his poker face on. I began to groan. The consequences couldn't possibly be good. Not the way Emmett worked, sadly.

" What?" I began to sigh heavily. " What could you possibly want from me?" I had to ask.

" If you and Jasper... you know.... do work out, then I want complete dibs on best man." Well that wasn't the worst thing possible he could've asked from me.

" What? You're not going ask for money from me?" He nodded his head no and smiled content.

" Nah.. I already got all the money I need." He then paused and began to open his mouth. " Can you tell me one thing? Why have you drawn such a liking to Jasper, what does he have that Edward doesn't." Even I thought it was ridiculous to ask... It was quite a good question.

" I don't know," I shrugged my shoulders and laughed. I couldn't even answer the question. It shouldn't have been hard to answer at all. " I mean, Jasper, would always make me laugh, and there's just such a different passion, I have between the two. Edward does show his love to me, but Jasper does even more than that. Whenever I'm scared, or hurt. He'll help clean me up, or put me to sleep. Whenever we would argue, he would always be right, of course, but tell me that no matter what it doesn't matter. He holds me tight whenever I'm cold. And then Anna... I have never seen someone care for someone else's child like that, even when it wasn't there's. He was so protective over her. And I always felt safe with him too. Edward, is a different story. He shows his love towards me, but that's all he ever does. If something's wrong, or I'm upset, he asked what's wrong, but doesn't do anything. He just sighs and leaves. Edward, I love, but more like a friend, and I don't think that will ever change. Unless for some reason it does, and I'll be happy again, but I can't wait for that day. I need him. I haven't been happy since the day Jasper was cleaning my cuts up. I felt cared for, and love when that day happened." I sighed, remembering everything I lost.

" Can ask another thing... Why did you marry Edward, if you knew that all you felt towards him was a friendship, and nothing more. You could've saved him, an extreme load of trouble, going through all this." He looked at me, with sudden confusion.

" I know, and I was stupid. I was afraid that if I said no, I would be alone again. And I didn't want to go back to that. I never want to go back to that." I said, picking at my distorted finger nails.

" Well, I think you should go to him and Edward both, before the weddings. Just be careful." He warned.

" Do you think I have a chance with Jasper, Emmett?" I asked trying to keep tears of confusion flowing off my face.

" Anything is possible. Especially when it comes to love. It can find anyone, Bella." He said smirking. He was a good advice giver, I had to give him that much.

" Thanks, Emmett." I smiled and hugged him tightly. He felt the bulge that was hanging off my stomach. He looked down, and noticed that.

" What happened to you, Bella?" He asked touching it. I didn't mind it.. It was just somewhat embarrassing.

" I guess, to a vampire it would be a miscarriage, but I was bitten while pregnant. Carlisle couldn't wait, so now I'm stuck like this forever. I just wish he would've waited until after she was born, but it couldn't wait I guess." I was now patting my stomach. " I was going to name her, Emma Grace, but it didn't happen." I began to tear up.

" Bella, I'm so sorry." He hugged me tightly against his chest.

" It's alright. No harm no fowl." I lied. I was upset about this, but it was the past. Over and done with. " It's getting late, I should go." I said getting up and wiping the tears from my eyes.

" Alright, see you, Bella. And good luck with the love triangle." He smiled slightly, as I walked out and into the car. He helped somewhat, also made me feel better about picking Jasper. And now, I understand why I love Jasper more. But I had to come up with what I was going to do, before everyone would marry the wrong person.