Chapter 25
It was a Friday morning, and everyone was sat round at the table for breakfast. For once they'd actually all got downstairs reasonably early, so the morning hadn't been as stressful as usual. Rachel was out of school all day as she had to go to an important meeting at one of the other local secondary schools, so she needed to get the girls off to school in good time.
"Can you make me a coffee Rach" Amy asked the second Rachel stood up to get herself some toast
"oh and me" Gaby said
"It must be nice having your own personal slave" She sighed "When does anyone ever make me a coffee"
"I made you one last night" Amy pointed out
"Yeah only because you were trying to sweet talk me into letting you go to that party next week" Rachel said
"Well it worked"
"No it didn't, I said I'd think about it and it'll depend on your behaviour this week"
"Which basically means yes"
"I wouldn't be so sure young lady, we know what happened last time you went out" Rachel said raising her eyebrows slightly
This was enough to stop Amy from saying anything else, she still felt mortified about what had happened last week and hated to even think about it.
"Hannah please will you pass me the butter" Amy asked, quickly wanting to direct the conversation away from the other week
Hannah pretended she didn't hear her at first and when Amy asked again, she moodily threw it over to her
"Woah what was that about? There was no need to throw it at me"
"Well you should have got it yourself then" Hannah replied sulkily
Hannah had been in a bad mood for most of the week, Rachel had no idea why, but it was beginning to do her head in
"There's no need to speak like that" Amy said
"Oh, just shut up, just because you're too lazy to get it yourself" Hannah shouted
"It was right next to you of course I'm going to ask you to get it"
"Just stop going on at me" Hannah said
"Well don't act so unreasonably then, you've been stroppy all week"
"Shut up, I'm sick of everyone going on at me all the time" Hannah screamed
Rachel couldn't believe how badly Hannah was overreacting to such a small thing, but it wasn't the first time this week she'd flown off the handle about something really small
"Hannah apologise to Amy, she only asked you to pass the butter which was right next you" Rachel said
"You can shut up to, why do you always have to take her side with everything, it's not fair, no one ever sticks up for me" Hannah said before bursting into tears
Rachel sighed, she really didn't understand why Hannah was so emotional lately, but she realised getting angry was only going to make the situation worse
"Let's go outside, I want a quick chat with you" Rachel said calmly
Hannah reluctantly got up and walked out, slamming the door behind her
"I can't cope with that level of hormonal first thing on a Friday morning" Gaby said
Rachel didn't say anything, but she could see Gaby's point, there did seem to be something up with Hannah at the moment
"Finish your breakfast off" Rachel said
She then went outside and closed the door behind her so she could talk privately with Hannah
Hannah was on the stairs crying
"That was really out of order in there"
"It's not fair, you shouldn't have got involved it was between me and Amy and you had no right to take her side" Hannah sobbed angrily
"You need to calm yourself down" Rachel said "I don't know what's upset you so much, but you can't speak to people the way you just have, it's unacceptable is that clear?"
"But that's unreasonable when no one cares how they speak to me" Hannah yelled
"Hannah I'm not going to have a conversation with you until you're prepared to speak reasonably. I understand you might be feeling upset, but that doesn't entitle you to behave how you like"
Hannah took some deep breadths and eventually managed to feel a bit calmer, she hated feeling like this but no one understood what was going on and she felt so stressed and unsettled by everything but she couldn't tell anyone about it.
"Right, now do you want to tell me what you're so upset and angry about?"
"I'm okay now" Hannah mumbled "I don't know why I got so angry, I'm really sorry"
Hannah seemed to be flitting from one extreme to the other this week, she'd have an awful strop but then be all apologetic afterwards
Rachel sat down next to her
"But it's not just this morning, all week you seem to be having really bad mood swings. I understand that when you're the age you are your emotions are all over the place, but it's just not like you Hannah"
"I know I'm sorry"
"So what's happened huh? Whatever it is we can talk about it"
"I don't know"
"Has something happened at school or something?"
"No"
"Are you sure there's nothing you want to tell me about?"
"I'm sure"
Rachel didn't believe her, but there was no point pushing it
"Okay, well go and sort yourself out and then I want you to go and apologise to Amy, is that understood"
Hannah just nodded her head
Rachel then left her so Hannah went upstairs to her bedroom
She instantly began to cry again. All this had started a week ago, she'd just recently got a Facebook account and her Dad had started messaging her. Hannah felt so strange about getting in contact with him again, she hadn't seen him since she was really little and her memories of him hadn't been very nice, but she had started messaging him back and now he was asking to meet up tomorrow. Hannah didn't know how she felt about it all, she was so nervous to see him, but felt as if she should. She wished she could tell someone about it, but he'd made her promise not to say anything to anyone at home.
Hannah lost track of time and got a shock when she heard a knock at her door
"Hannah, we really need to get going for school now" Rachel said "Are you okay"
Hannah nodded before grabbing her school stuff and following her out, they were about to go down stairs when Rachel stopped her
"Are you sure there's nothing you want to talk about love?"
"I'm okay I promise"
"Right, and you're going to be alright at school today? You feel calm enough to go into lessons and behave sensibly?"
"Yeah I'll be fine"
"Okay, let's go downstairs then"
The two of them went downstairs together and Rachel got everyone in the car
She dropped Ivy off and then the other three girls
It felt strange driving past without going in, she never really liked not being in school for the day but she really couldn't miss the meeting today
After Rachel had dropped them off she drove straight over to the other school
Hannah felt really strange, all she could think about was seeing her Dad tomorrow, she couldn't remember what he was like really, it had always upset her that she'd never had a Dad but now he wanted to meet up she didn't know how she felt about it, especially seeing as she'd never told anyone
She could barely concentrate at all during her lessons, she didn't want to be in school at all
It was the last lesson before home time and Hannah was just staring out the window
"Hannah where's your homework" Miss Jones asked
Hannah jumped, she hadn't realised she'd been standing over her
She just shrugged her shoulders in response
"Well have you done it or not?"
"No" Hannah said
"That's not like you, why not?"
"I just haven't alright, stop going on at me" Hannah snapped, she hadn't mean to speak like that, it had just come out
"I think you're forgetting where you are young lady" she replied coolly "pass me your planner I'm writing a note in it, and you can do a detention after school"
"I've lost my planner" Hannah lied, she really didn't want her auntie finding out about this
"Fine I'll print you a note off, but it better be signed for Monday"
Hannah sighed but knew there was no point in arguing, it wasn't going to get her anywhere
She stayed quiet for the rest of the lesson
As soon as the bell rang she made a bee line for the door, but Miss Jones stopped her
"Hannah a word please"
Hannah sighed but waited back
"Is everything okay with you, you've been quiet in all your Maths lessons this week"
"Sorry"
"I'm not having a go, I'm just asking if you're okay"
"Yeah I'm fine, sorry about earlier"
"It's just not like you Hannah" She said "Are you sure there's nothing up"
"I'm sure"
"Okay, well make sure you give your auntie your note and you can do a 10 minute detention"
"But Rachel will be waiting"
"She's called a staff meeting after school, so she'll be coming in anyway"
"Oh okay"
Hannah really didn't want Rachel finding out about this and prayed that Miss Jones wouldn't say anything to her
She went off to the cooler and stayed there for 10 minutes before going up to Rachel's office
She found Gaby up there, Amy was going to a friends house so had already gone
"Have you seen my Mum anywhere?" Gaby asked
"No, I thought she'd be up here"
"So did I but she still hasn't came up"
"Miss Jones said she'd called a staff meeting"
"Oh that's a bit unfair of her on a Friday afternoon, all the teachers are probably desperate to get off"
"Hopefully she won't be long" Hannah said, before sitting down on one of the chairs
Gaby sat down next to her
"Gaby I got into trouble in Maths" Hannah said, she didn't really know why she was telling Gaby about it but she was really worried and wanted to tell someone
"What for?"
"Not handing homework in and being rude"
"I'm sure there's been worse things happen here" Gaby said laughing
"I have to give Rachel a note to sign"
"Oh now I get why you're worried" Gaby said smiling slightly "Look I've had to give her loads of notes over the years, she'll get a bit angry but just let her have her rant that she seems to think is compulsory about how important school is and how she's disappointed in your behaviour, just nod your head to it all and say you're really sorry, she'll be over it in 5 minutes trust me"
Hannah laughed a bit at this, it did make her feel slightly better
Rachel seemed to be taking forever, she'd been at least half an hour so the two of them were getting really bored
"Won't she be late for Ivy at this rate, her after school club only goes on till 4.45" Gaby said
"Ivy's sleeping at Grandma's tonight, she's picking her up from school remember"
"Oh yeah, they're going to the cinema aren't they?" Gaby said "I'm so bored, do you want to walk to the shop with me, it'll only take 10 minutes"
"Sure"
The girls went out to the shop to get some drinks and crisps
They couldn't believe Rachel still wasn't back by the time they got back to her office
"What the hell is she doing?" Gaby sighed "We could have walked back in this time"
"I hope Mrs Jones isn't talking to her" Hannah said
"I think you'd have had to have murdered someone for her to need to talk to her for this long"
About 10 minutes later Rachel walked in looking stressed
"Mum you've been ages, where were you"
"Sorry, sorry I've been speaking to the staff for the past hour… it's all so stressful we've been trying to get everything organised"
"What for?" Gaby asked
Rachel sighed "I had a lovely call at about 2 this afternoon, we've got Ofsted coming in on Monday"
"Oh no really" Gaby said "You must all be so stressed"
"Yep you can say that again" Rachel said "Listen I'm going to be here till well gone 9 so I'll drive you two home and Gaby will you be okay in charge? Ivy's not there so it's not like you'll have to look after her, I'll give you some money and you girls can get a takeaway or something"
"Yeah that's fine, how come you've got to stay that long?"
Rachel looked at her as if she was mad "You've got no idea what a big deal this is Gaby, if we fail I'm sacked on the spot you do realise that?"
"Alright I get it, you'll be fine though" Gaby said
"Sorry, everything's just so stressful at the moment. Look I'm going to be at school most of the weekend. Ivy can stay at Grandma's for the weekend but you can too if you want. I'll have to apologise in advance because I'm going to be an absolute nightmare to live with this weekend"
"No it's fine I've got loads of homework so I'll just stop home" Gaby said
"I'm going round to Isabelle's house all day tomorrow so I'll be fine too" Hannah said, she was kind of glad Rachel wouldn't be around because she'd ask her loads of questions
"Okay sounds like you're sorted then, I'm sorry about this girls."
"It's okay t's not your fault" Gaby said
"Right let's go home, I want to get changed anyway" Rachel said
"Won't you need tea"
"All the staff are ordering pizza later, so I'll probably have some of that"
"Is everyone staying till late"
"Yep everyone's freaking out over it, we weren't due one for about another year so it's such a shock"
The three of them walked over to the car and Rachel drove back home
As soon as they got in, Rachel got changed and then went downstairs to make a coffee, she definitely needed one before going back to school
Hannah came into the kitchen
"Rachel will you sign a letter for me" Hannah asked, before passing it to her
Rachel rolled her eyes as she read it
"for gods sake Hannah, you know better than to act up in lessons, I don't know what your problem is this week but I'm warning you it needs sorting out now, have you got any idea how hard the teachers in school work, and they don't deserve to be treated like this. And you know fine well you need to hand homework in on time" Rachel snapped
"Sorry"
"You know what I don't even want to hear it, you need to seriously sort your attitude out" she said
It came out harsher than she intended, she was just so stressed anyway so she really didn't need anything else adding to it
She sighed and quickly signed the letter before giving it back to Hannah
Hannah ran upstairs before Rachel had chance to say anything else
As she was driving back to school, Rachel started to feel really bad about snapping at Hannah like she had, it wasn't as if she'd done anything that serious after all
Hannah spent most of the evening up in her room. Her Dad was messaging her about tomorrow and she was beginning to feel sick about it all, she really didn't know what to do. They'd arranged to meet at the local park, it wasn't far at all and apparently, he was living close by.
She just felt totally unsettled by it all
Rachel had spent all evening trying to get things sorted, when it turned 10, she realised she really should get home, all the staff had left about an hour ago and she needed to check up on the girls, she was absolutely shattered too
She packed some stuff to take home with her
When Rachel got in she found Gaby in the kitchen, she'd text her to let her know she was on her way back
"Hey Mum, I made you coffee and a sandwich"
"Oh thanks darling, I'm absolutely starving"
"You look knackered"
"I feel bloody knackered, god it's going to be a bad few days, I'll be so glad when it's over"
"It'll be fine, you do a great job at school"
Rachel smiled "Thanks love, nobody likes inspections that's all"
"What time will you go to school tomorrow"
"Probably about 9 ish then come back about 5 for some tea then I'll try and do some more work back home"
"Sounds grim" Gaby said
"I'm sure we'll get through it" Rachel said "How's Hannah, is she asleep?"
"She's been in her room all night so I don't really know"
"I had such a go at her earlier, I feel awful now"
"What's up with her? She's been so weird all week"
"I don't know she's not told me anything"
Gaby and Rachel stayed up talking for a bit longer and then Gaby decided to go up to bed
Rachel decided to finish off checking some assessment data in her study, she really wanted to go to bed but if she did this now it would be one less thing to do in the morning. She put her glasses on and grabbed her notebook before going up
Hannah had been trying to get to sleep for ages but she couldn't settle
In the end she decided to get out of bed to see Rachel
She noticed the light was on in her study so went through
Rachel jumped when she saw her
"Hannah you gave me a fright, I thought you were asleep" Rachel said
Hannah suddenly burst into tears, she didn't understand why but everything had just got too much
She ran over to Rachel and wrapped her arms around her
"Hey sweetie, what's the matter?" Rachel asked her voice full of worry
Hannah didn't know what to say, she just continued to cry into her
"Come on, I'm done in here, let's go through to my room we can have a chat"
Hannah followed Rachel through Rachel sat on her bed and Hannah sat down next to her
"Rachel I don't know why I'm crying, I just got upset about earlier"
"What about me shouting at you? Oh love, I'm sorry, I wasn't angry at you, not really I'm just very stressed at the moment and I took it out on you, I shouldn't have done though"
"It's okay" Hannah mumbled
"Are you sure that's all that's upset you? You do know you can tell me anything, if there is something going on we can talk about it"
"There's nothing I promise"
"Okay, well I'm always here if you do want to talk"
"I know" Hannah said "I'm going to go to bed now"
"Alright well just come back and see me if you can't sleep or whatever"
Rachel still felt really worried about Hannah, she knew there was something going on with her
She quickly got changed into pyjamas and got into bed, within a couple of minutes she fell into a deep sleep, she was so tired after her day
Rachel woke up at about 8, she got dressed and had breakfast before leaving the house as quietly as possible so as not to wake the girls up
Hannah woke up at about 9.30, it felt so strange with Rachel not being there
She felt so scared when she realised she was meant to be meeting her Dad in just a couple of hours, she was terrified about what he would be like
She spent quite a while choosing an outfit and getting ready
Gaby had made her breakfast, but she was too nervous to eat it
"Do you want me to walk you round to Isabelle's house?"
"No it's okay" Hannah said quickly "She only lives round the corner"
"You sure? I honestly don't mind"
"It's fine, thanks though"
After an hour or so had past, Hannah realised she needed to set off
She felt sick as she left the house, she couldn't remember what her Dad looked like or anything, she was so scared to meet him
Hannah walked over to the park and sat down on one of the benches
She looked at the time, he was due to get there any minute, her heart was pounding now
Suddenly Hannah saw a man coming towards her, her smiled and waved so she waved back
Hannah felt so nervous as he walked over to her
"Hannah is that you? God you look so much like your Mum"
Hannah took in his appearance, he was quite tall and muscular and had tattoos all down his arm, he didn't really look like how she'd imagined him to
"Yeah it's me" Hannah said, she felt really awkward, she really didn't know what to say to him
He asked all the general questions about school and stuff, so gradually Hannah became more relaxed and felt at ease
They walked round the park together for a bit before heading out to go to a café for something to eat
"So who you living with now then?"
"My auntie Rachel, we live on Watergate street"
"Oh I've met Rachel loads of times, we used to get on alright, do you like It there? She must have a decent job if she's living there"
"Yeah, she's been so nice to me ever since Mum died, but she's quite strict about school and stuff because she's my headteacher"
"Oh that must be a bit strange for you"
"Yeah it is, but I guess I'm kind of used to it now"
They ended up staying in there for quite some time, Hannah felt really relaxed now and was quite enjoying her Dad's company
He ended up taking her into Manchester to go to the sea life centre
They were having a really nice day together and were enjoying getting to know one another
Tony decided to take Hannah back to his house for some tea before getting her home
When Hannah went into his house she couldn't help but start to feel uncomfortable, it was nice inside and everything but it just felt strange being in someone else's house
But Tony soon made her feel at home and they sat in the living room together and chatted some more
"Dad, how often can I see you now?" Hannah asked
It was obvious that Tony was shocked by this question
"Oh Han, things are complicated now" he sighed
"What do you mean?"
"I wanted to see you because I haven't seen you for so long and I thought I should, especially with your Mum dying, and the truth is … well it might be one of the only chances I ever get to again"
Hannah's heart sank, she really thought after her Dad had got in touch he wanted to be a part of her life again, that she meant something to him, especially after they'd had such a nice time
"I don't get it"
"Hannah I've got a new wife now and things are just complicated, and one of the reasons I wanted to see you is … well I haven't got very long to live, I've got a brain tumour"
Hannah suddenly felt all dizzy and sick, she couldn't believe what she was hearing and she didn't understand why it was upsetting her so much, but she felt tears fill her eyes
"I don't get it" Hannah stammered "You've barely seen me and now we finally get to see each other and I could have had a Dad and now … now you're going to die, why would you do this to me?"
Hannah didn't know why she was getting so angry, everything just seemed so unfair
"Han I'm sorry, maybe it was selfish of me for getting in touch and …"
Hannah felt like she couldn't breathe, the room was spinning and she felt like she needed to get out
She ran out the door, she could barely see what she was doing but she kept on running
It wasn't far to go to Rachel's house so she kept going towards it
Suddenly she tripped over and fell hard onto the concrete floor
Instantly pain spread through her, her knees were throbbing and when she stood up she realised they were covered in blood
This panicked her even more and she began to get more hysterical
It seemed to take her ages to get home
Wen she got through the door, Rachel instantly came rushing
"Where the hell have you been, I've been worried sick! You weren't at Isabelle's house I rang her Mum when you weren't in for 6, I was about to call the police" She shouted
However, then she took in Hannah's face, she looked down and gasped when she saw her trousers were covered in blood
Hannah was sobbing, nothing seemed real, she couldn't take anything in, her heart was pounding from the shock of everything
Suddenly she began to feel really dizzy and collapsed to the ground
Hannah came around a couple of minutes later, she could hear her aunties voice but also a mans too
"Hannah, can you hear me" Rachel said sounding really worried
Slowly Hannah opened her eyes, she was shocked when she saw Rachel and also her Dad there too
"Dad what are you doing here?" She asked groggily
"I came straight after you, I saw you fall and ran after you but you were too quick, so I followed you home" he said
Hannah had left the front door open when she came in, Rachel had nearly fainted herself when she saw Tony but he'd quickly explained things, Rachel was absolutely furious with him for not letting her know he was taking Hannah out and he'd obviously upset her in some way, but she hadn't had time to talk to him about any of it yet, she was too worried about Hannah
"Hannah, how are you feeling?" Rachel asked gently
"Okay" she said, sitting up, but she was shaking violently
"You're in shock I think, let me help you into the back room, and we'll get you into some nice warm pyjamas, I'll get blankets and a hot drink, then I'll need to have a look at your legs, you must have taken quite a fall"
"Rachel I'm sorry, I thought you'd say no if I told you and …"
"Shh it's alright love, we'll talk about it all later, let's just get you feeling better first"
Rachel helped her up and got her onto the sofa In the back room
"I'll be 2 minutes" she said
She closed the door behind her and turned her attention to Tony
"Do you know I've got a good mind to report you to the police, how dare you get chatting to her on facebook and get her to spend the day with you, have you got any idea how irresponsible that is, I was worried out of my mind" she hissed, trying to be quiet enough for Hannah not to hear "You don't have anything to do with her for years and then you just rock up into her life, do you have any idea how unsettling that can be for kid"
"I'm sorry, she told me you were okay with it, that you knew all about it"
"And you didn't once think it would be a good idea to contact me directly" Rachel said
"I've messed up, I'm sorry" Tony said, he sounded like he was on the verge of tears himself
"Yes you bloody well have, and what the hell did you do to get her so upset she ran off like that?"
"It's complicated, look please just give me some time to explain everything to you properly"
"As if I owe you any favours"
"Please"
"Well you'll have to wait till I've sorted Hannah out, she's in a right state now thanks to you"
"That's fine I don't mind waiting"
Rachel shook her head before going upstairs to get pyjamas and blankets, she made some hot chocolate and got some stuff to clean Hannah's knee
Hannah was still shaking when she went back in
"Come on sweetheart, let's get you cleaned up a bit, even your hands are all cut you poor thing"
Hannah got changed into pyjamas and wrapped the blanket round her
"now you don't have to explain anything at all not yet, let me just have a look at those knees"
Hannah couldn't believe how much blood there was
"this is going to sting I'm really sorry" Rachel said, as she cleaned them up "God you must have taken some fall"
Hannah winced in pain
"Sorry, I know it hurts" Rachel said "They don't look quite as bad now, I've got some dressing to put over them to"
"Rachel are you mad with me?"
Rachel sighed "I'm not mad Hannah no, but I cant believe you put yourself in that amount of danger, the person you were messaging on facebook could have been anyone"
This upset Hannah even more
"I don't want to make you feel worse, let's talk about it later yeah? When you've calmed down a bit"
"I just wanted to have a Dad like all my friends, I already don't have a Mum anymore, but now it's all gone wrong … he said it's the only time I'll get to see him because he's going to die" Hannah sobbed
Rachel was shocked by this, she felt so sorry for Hannah having all this on her shoulders now
"Oh Hannah" Rachel whispered, she got on the sofa next to her and pulled her into her chest "Shh it's okay, it's all going to be okay I promise" She soothed
Hannah felt as if she was Ivy's age again cuddling into Rachel and crying into her, but she really needed it, she just wanted to feel comforted
"No it's not because he's going to die and I wasn't even nice when he told me, I shouted at him and told him it was unfair" She admitted "I'm horrible"
"No darling, you're not horrible, your just a little kid who's having to deal with way too much"
"Yes I am" Hannah cried "And now Dad doesn't ever want to see me again because I was so mean"
"Hey that's not true, I think he's really worried about you, he came to the house looking for you, and he's still here now."
"Can I see him?"
Rachel didn't know what to do, she wasn't sure if it was for the best or not, but realised it would be wrong to stop her
"Okay, let me have 2 minutes outside with him then he can come in and see you"
Rachel stepped outside again and closed the door
Tony was stood in the kitchen looking really lost
"How is she?" he asked straight away
"She's still very fragile" Rachel sighed "Look Hannah's told me what you told her, I'm really sorry, I can't imagine what you're going through"
"I've got a brain tumour, they can't cure it"
"God, I don't know what to say, I'm just truly sorry, I can't imagine anything more devastating"
"I shouldn't have told Hannah, it was so selfish …now she's got to deal with it and she's already lost her Mum. I shouldn't have told her and the when I die she wouldn't have had to know, I just really wanted to see her. I've wanted to for years, but I didn't know how she'd react to me getting back in touch but I couldn't die without seeing her one less time"
"I understand that" Rachel said "It's a lot to put on a kid of her age especially when you haven't been in her life, but I know Hannah's always wondered about you and maybe seeing you has given her some sort of closure"
"I feel awful"
"Look why don't I make you a drink, then we can have a chat, the three of us"
"If you're sure"
Rachel made him a coffee and the two of them went through to see Hannah
Hannah sat up when she saw her Dad come in
Rachel sat down next to her and Tony sat on one of the chairs
"Dad, I'm sorry I didn't mean to shout"
"Don't be sorry, it was all my fault I shouldn't have told you like that, or get you to meet up today without checking with your auntie" he said
"Are you really going to die"
Tony didn't know what to say so just nodded his head
"I'm sorry" he said
Hannah started crying again
"But I want to see you again, if you'd like that"
"Yeah I really would" Hannah said "You're not going to die soon are you?"
"I don't know, it could be weeks or months" he said
Hannah was still struggling to take it in
Rachel put an arm around her
The three of them talked together for a bit longer but then Tony decided to leave, Rachel gave him her number so if he did want to see Hannah again they could arrange it
When he'd gone Rachel turned her attention back to Hannah
"How are you feeling?" she asked gently
"a bit upset" she mumbled
"I know you are love, I know, it's such a shock for you" Rachel said
"I feel really tired, can I go to bed?"
"It's only 8.30 but if you want of course"
Hannah decided to go up so Rachel tucked her in
"You'll come and get me if you need me yeah?"
Hannah nodded
Rachel then left her to it for a bit
She needed to do some work but she couldn't concentrate at all. She was trying to take n everything that had happened
In the end she made a coffee and did some work for a couple hours before deciding to go to bed
Once she'd changed into pyjamas she went to check on Hannah
The light was off but she could hear her crying, so she got into bed next to her
"Rachel I don't want anyone else to die, I don't think I can handle it" Hannah sobbed
Rachel didn't know what to say to this, she just wrapped her arms round Hannah tightly
"I know love" Rachel said
Rachel ended up staying in Hannah's bed all night as she felt very unsettled, Rachel had a feeling the next few weeks were going to be really challenging.
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