''Mommy! Daddy! Let's go!'' Teddy shouts from outside our bedroom door.
''Give us a second buddy'' Christian shouts back. ''Baby you look beautiful, come on'' I turn sideways and stare at my stomach that's popping out and sigh. Christian sits down the bag he has in his hands and stands behind me, draping his arms around me and lays his hands on my stomach. ''Baby you're 5 months pregnant,'' he always gets mad when I complain over getting fat, and scowls me like a petulant child. ''We just bought new clothes, just for this trip. You look amazing, Teddy wants to leave, like now, and everyone that looks at you can see that you're pregnant and not fat.'' I lean my head back against his chest as he continues to caress my belly. ''You're so beautiful,'' he whispers in my ear.
I smile and turn around and peck his lips. ''Christian you're making us late, let's go!'' I say mimicking Teddy's voice and he laughs and playfully spanks me on my ass. He lifts up the bag again and takes my hand and we walk out of our room and Teddy is standing there with his arms folded taping his foot. Both Christian and I can't hold back our laughter at the sight of our angry 4 year old. ''I'm sorry Teddy, daddy was being difficult, but we're ready now.''
''I was being difficult Mrs. Grey?'' I nod, and he kiss the side of my head ''now you're in trouble.'' He says handing me the bag. He starts running up behind Teddy and throwing him over his shoulder making him squeal, and we make our way over to the car.
A couple months ago Christian bought us a house, and he really had been listening to me when I told him that I didn't want an over the top house. It's still an amazing house, that normally people wouldn't have afforded and too big for us, but it's so cute and beautiful. I told him that the house was on the big side, but he had just answer with, ''we will have more kids, Ana.'' So now we live here, and I love it.
We also a couple months ago got security. With time the media is getting more and more curious about Christian, and about the Charlie Tango incident. Christian didn't want security, said he could protect his own family. But Carrick made an argument that really shook him.
''No dad, we're not getting security end of discussion.'' Christian raises his voice, and Grace takes Teddy and walks out of the room. I scoot closer to him and hold his hand.
''Christian, maybe we should…''
''No!… I said no Ana,'' he says a little gentler now, apologizing with his eyes. ''We don't need it dad, I'm fully capable of taking care and make sure that my family is safe.''
''I don't think you are, Christian.'' Carrick says and I feel Christian tensing. All his life all Christian has ever wanted was his dad approval. ''When you are at the office and Ana is home with Teddy, you're not protecting her. If there's a gun pointed at you all, who do you safe, your 4 year old son or your pregnant wife?'' I feel Christian tense more. ''Ana's pregnant Christian, keep your unborn child safe. If someone wants you they'll go after her. Get security Christian.''
''Okay,'' he whispers.
''Baby, you coming?'' Christian asks standing in front of our car. I nod and walk over to the car and place the bag in the back, before sitting in the back seat beside Christian.
''Daddy are we going skiing?'' Christian leans down and whisper something in Teddy's ear, Teddy look over at me before nodding and giving Christian a thumps up.
''What's that about?'' I whisper into Christian's ear.
''Nothing to worry about, baby'' he says and kisses the side of my head. It's no secret that we're going skiing; we're going to Aspen so of course we're going skiing. I've never been to Aspen or skied before, so I'm looking forward to that. I lean my head down on Christian's shoulder and close my eyes, thinking back to the time when we got home from Greece and told Carrick and Grace about our marriage.
''How was the vacation?'' Grace asks as she places a few snacks down on the table in front of us.
''Long needed,'' Christian says looking at me and winks. Grace hands Teddy a glass of milk, and his hands go right to the cookies in front of us. ''It was a good trip,'' Christian says reaching for my hand. Grace sits down on the other couch. Mia is seated between Carrick and Grace, and they're all smiling at us. Christian strokes my hand, and Mia gasps which makes us all look at her. She's sitting there with one of her hands over mouth and the other pointing at us.
''You're engaged'' she whisper. ''You're engaged!'' she shrieks jumping up and down. Carrick and Grace turn their attention from Mia to us, looking at us with raised eyebrows. Christian looks nervously down at me and I nod at him.
''No, we're not engaged…'' he says letting out a breath. ''We got married,'' I bite my lip nervously waiting for their reaction. None of them answers, and Christian lifts my hand and kisses it.
''No!'' Grace shouts, and Christian lets go of my hand. ''No, no, no'' she mutters. ''Why are you doing this to me?'' She asks Christian, and we're both in shock. ''Carrick,'' she says turning to look at him ''what's wrong with our sons?''
''I… we… I thought you would be happy for us.'' Christian says looking disappointed by her reaction, and confused. Grace looks back at us with a look of 'are you serious?'
''Of course I'm happy for you,'' she says ''it's just… I want… why can't… I want a wedding!'' She pouts, ''I want to plan my son's wedding, I want to see the moment my son says 'I do' why couldn't you let my dreams come true?''
''Mom,'' Christian says standing up and walking over to his mother and giving her a hug. ''We wanted to do it that way,'' he says and whisper something else in her ear, she dries the few tears that escaped and nods.
''Congratulation'' she says walking over to me and giving me a hug ''you have made my baby boy so happy, thank you'' she whispers in my ear. I smile at her, and we all sit back down. Christian then whispered in my ear what he told his mother, that because I didn't want a wedding without my father we did it the way we did.
''Ted,'' Christian says to our son who has his face full of cookies. ''You want to tell grandma and grandpa our other surprise?'' Teddy dries his mouth and nods. He sits on the couch with a look like he knows a big secret no one else knows, tapping his fingers against each other.
''I'm gonna be a big brother,'' he says with a proud look. ''Mommy is having a baby.''
''Mommy, let's go'' Teddy says, I open my eyes and see a private yet outside the window. Taylor takes some of the bags and Christian takes a few and we walk to the plane. We greet the pilot and we sit down ready for takeoff. Teddy is sitting between us and he and Christian are whispering between them.
''Am I going to be left out this entire trip?'' I ask looking at Christian. He looks with me and gives me a little smile and shakes his head ''well it feels like that,'' I say pouting, not looking at him. ''Teddy what have daddy been whispering to you?''
He looks up at me then turns his head to look at Christian and then back up at me. ''We talked about skiing, but daddy says we shouldn't talk about in front of you because it will hurt your feelings.'' I look up at Christian with a frown.
''Why would it hurt my feelings that you're talking about our ski trip?'' I ask, and then we start moving, and the pilot says something over the intercom but I don't hear it still looking at Christian. He doesn't say something all the way up in the sky, and he's looking out the window not meeting my eyes. When we get the message that we can start moving around he's still not looking at me. ''Christian!'' I say and he looks at me with an unreadable face. ''Why would I get hurt?''
''Because you're not coming with us, and I know how much you want to try skiing'' he says, still with the unreadable face.
''Of course I'm coming with you. Don't you want me to?'' I ask, hurt by what he's saying and I feel a tear escape.
''Baby…'' he whispers shaking his head ''you're pregnant Ana, it's not safe.'' I unbuckle my seatbelt not looking at him and I walk to the bedroom in the back, slamming the door and laying down on the bed, with my face mashed down in the pillow, stifling my scream. Suddenly I feel Christian's arms around and he lifts me onto his lap. ''Baby, shhhh'' he rocks me back and forth and I'm mad at him and don't really want him holding me, but it feels so good. ''I knew this would turn out like this.''
''Why are we even going? What am I supposed to do while you're having fun? Why am I even here?'' I continue to cry and he continues to sooth me. I snuggle closer into his chest, ''why?''
''Because we love you. Because there's so much more we can do together than just skiing. I know that Teddy wants to slide with you in a toboggan. Build a snowman, make snow angels… Baby I need you and our baby girl safe.'' He says kissing the top of my head ''and when we're gone, you can relax have a lazy day, read a book take a bath, enjoy yourself.'' He shifts so that I'm straddling him. ''You're home with our son every day, and then when I get home you have to deal with me as well,'' he smiles. ''How long has it been since you've had your own day? Doesn't it sound nice?''
I nod my head, and rest my head on his shoulder. ''I like dealing with you,'' I whisper.
''Do you?'' he asks, taking my face in his hand and kisses me, and I forget why I was mad to begin with. ''I love you,'' he whispers against my lips ''and our daughter,'' he smiles and caress my baby bump, smiling at me.
''Baby, wake up we're getting ready for landing,'' Christian says lifting me up and carrying me back to my seat, kissing my forehead before taking his seat again. I look down at Teddy and he's looking up at me with huge sad eyes.
''I'm sorry mommy, I didn't mean to make you sad.'' He says and leans his head on my arm in an attempt on a hug.
''No Teddy bear, you didn't make me sad, it's just that sometimes mommy needs to cry'' I say running my hand over my stomach ''you did nothing wrong.'' He smiles up at me and he places his hand over my stomach too, rubbing it. I can feel movements inside, but neither Christian nor Teddy has been able to feel it yet.
When I first started noticing movements with Teddy I was so scared that I started crying, it made it all more real. Dad came running into my room asking me what was wrong, and when I told him what it was he started smiling and crying. I didn't let my dad see or feel my belly I always felt uncomfortable about it. I miss him so much.
When I first started feeling movements this time, I was so happy, I woke Christian up in the middle of the night. He was disappointed when he didn't feel anything, but he still had happy tears. 2 weeks after we got home from Greece, I had this tiny little baby bump sticking out. I was standing sideways in the mirror looking at the little bump in front of me when Christian walked in and he was shocked. He hadn't stopped feeling my belly and was surprised that he hadn't noticed it earlier.
Suddenly I hear Teddy's loud squeal and I realize that we're soon touching ground. Teddy always love this part, he loves that it shakes the moment we touch ground and that we're almost glued to our seat by the speed we're driving. This is the part I hate the most, and I always grip Christian's hand to my knuckles are white. He always grimaces when I let go of his hand but he never complains and always offer me his hand.
''Wow'' Teddy says looking up at the big house in front of us.
''Christian please say we're not spending the weekend here?'' I ask folding my arms, I hate that he always wants to do everything big. He looks at me and then he starts walking towards the house. ''Christian it's too big for us... Well I'm getting my own room,'' I say walking past him, and he's soon by my side again.
''I'll sneak in every night,'' he whispers in my ear ''every night baby, you me alone after Teddy's in bed. Looking forward to it,'' he says making Goosebumps to rise everywhere. I turn around when I get hit by something in my back, and Teddy is standing there grinning trying to look innocent and points at Taylor who is just a few steps behind him. Taylor just chuckles and shakes his head as I gather snow up in my hands making a snow ball. I throw it at Christian and when he turns around I point at Teddy. ''If you weren't pregnant baby…'' he says shaking his head leaving the sentence undone.
''Teddy is in bed now,'' Christian says as he slips under the covers. ''I've shown him the way to our room about a hundred times, I sat with him reading a book while he fell asleep, so he's okay.'' He lay down and props himself up on his elbow smiling at me. ''You know what I love about you?''
''No idea,'' I say lying down on my side looking up at him. He shakes his head and leans down and kisses me long and hard. ''Now you have to tell me,'' I say ''what do you love about me? Top 3.''
''Top 3? No way can I sum it up to only 3 things,'' he says pouting. ''But… I love that no matter how big our bed is,'' he says stroking his finger up and down my arm ''you always seems to fall asleep practically on top of me.'' He laughs.
''Well you're really warm and cuddly, you know.''
''I love that you're an amazing cook; you're really amazing in the kitchen. Especially barefoot and pregnant,'' he smiles trailing his finger down to my stomach. ''And I love that you're having all my babies,'' he smile ''and that you're mine.''
''That's 4… but they were lovely, thank you'' I turn around to turn off the light, but Christian's hands grabs my waist forcing me to turn back.
''No you don't,'' he says rolling on top of me, I smile up at him biting my lip ''don't play cute Ana.'' He says leaning down kissing me ''what do you love about me?''
''Ehm… Your money, your car and this'' I say trailing my hand down his stomach and longer down until I grip him and start moving my hand up and down. He grown and leans his head backwards.
''Tell me.''
''I love how compassionate you are,'' I say and he lets out a moan as I continue to stroke him, ''I love how much you love your family'' another moan, ''and I love that you're my husband.'' He looks down and smiles sweetly at me, as he dips his head and moves his lips against mine, probing it open with his tongue. ''And that you let me have your babies,'' I say as he starts kissing my neck, and I can feel a smile on his lips. His hands find their way to my panties pushing them down, ''and I love,'' I say when he's pushed them down to my ankles ''that you always sleep naked at night.''
He smiles against my mouths as he slowly sinks in to me, making me gasp. He stills ones his fully inside, then he slowly pulls back and he does that over and over again. ''Open those beautiful eyes, baby'' he says and my eyes immediately meets his. ''I love you so much,'' he says and starts moving faster and faster until we come together.