A/N: This is just a filler Chapter that I more or less wrote out of frustration with certain stories on this site concerning Renesmee and Jacob. I used this chapter as a way to vent some of my frustration so I apologize ahead of time.
I own nothing Twilight, that's all the genius known as Stephenie Meyer.
Chapter 25 - Choose the Right
Renesmee was in her bedroom in the main house, just getting back from patrols with Leah and reminiscing about some recent conversations she'd been having with people other than Jacob. Of course not seeing Jacob yet, especially after their first kiss, it being now over 3 hours, 4 minutes, and 56 seconds, was a huge problem because he was her balance in everything. Without him, she tended to spiral and that's what she was doing now.
The checkup after her period, the training where she hurt Jacob, the kiss, and thoughts of the future just exploding in her mind and if she had to admit, she was frustrated.
Renesmee really had to control her temper remembering yet more questioning of her wants and desires. It frustrated her to know end that it was always a constant 'you're too young', 'you don't know what you want yet', 'you need other choices'. How could anyone blame her for wanting to be with Jacob every second of every day.
He's the one that supports her and her growth. He's never babied her, never treated her with anything but love and respect, treated her as his equal or more often times way above that. He's the one that has made her a better person, he's taught her how to love unconditionally, how words, actions, and deeds portray that love. Even when she felt insecure about her looks, Jacob very forcefully, causing no doubts, showed her just how beautiful she was.
Choices? That topic which almost always came up made her laugh. Jake's not a lack of choices, he is the choice.
Even if Renesmee took away the supernatural abilities part, if she was just a teenager, she was still different from most.
The man that she knew before she was born into the world is the man who she would marry, the man who would be the father of their children, the only man she would be with in the way that would seal their eternal bond. Is the world so diluted that this kind of love story, the notion of love at first sight doesn't exist? It had too, because she was living it.
This was the thing with building an evolving relationship with Jacob from birth. Everything she needed, he was there for. She knew that's what the imprint law said but with Jacob she knew without a doubt it was so much more. After all, the wolf's were not robots. The law can encourage them, or drive them to feel like they have to be a certain way but in the end, they all had free will.
The more she thought about it, the 'needs' of the Imprint was very similar to a vampires need for blood. It's up to the vampire how to deal with the urges and in her families case, a choice to feed on animals instead of humans. The need for blood was there, but they still had a choice what to do with that need.
So when some have suggested maybe seeing whats out there, or back to that stupid word, choices, that didn't make any sense to Renesmee. At the root of their relationship they were best friends. They could literally sit down next to each other and not do anything, of course as long as they were in contact with each other, and be as content as possible.
When she was scared, a soft touch from Jacob, a whisper of 'I'm here Nessie' was all it took and the fear was gone.
Protector. My God, he was the true Alpha of their tribe with abilities that even they didn't quite understand or know the limits of yet. He still had not shown his true power and God help everyone the day someone hurts her because Jacob will not stop, he will never give up, until she is safe and sound.
Big brother or even big sister. Jacob was both to her. From braiding her hair, playing dolls, to helping her understand the changes she was going through, he was everything she needed.
Physically. God-like comes to mind. Physique wise there really was no equal. Every inch of him was perfect. If she was blind, and someone asked her to describe what the perfect man would look like to her, then every detail, every description, would result in an exact replica of Jacob's body.
Lover. Well this one was something that she was just starting to understand and it wasn't fair to judge him yet, but if what he did to her with a simple touch, a simple kiss, was an indication of what was to come, then she had no doubt they would be just fine in that department.
Father. This was the ultimate closer for her. His patience, love, understanding with not only dealing with her, but with Claire, all the youth in their tribe, he was and will be the perfect father. The key was his selflessness, and this predated the Imprint so they can't blame it on that either. There was not a person she'd met yet that wouldn't trust Jacob with their children, with their life
And if any more validation was needed, standing outside her door, knocking slightly, was the love of her life. She smiled as just like he always did, he stayed to the side if the door was open or knocked if it was ever closed. He was always the gentleman giving her privacy when he darn well knew he never had to do that. There was nothing she would ever keep private from him.
"Hey Ness you got a sec?"
Renesmee jumped out of bed, sensing the seriousness in his tone. She walked out the door to find him leaning solemnly against the wall. "Hey." She reached up on her tippy toes to kiss him on the lips. She was pleasantly surprised when he returned the kiss, and then gathered her up in his arms to hug her tight. Her smile widened as she felt their necklace beneath his shirt. She did good that Christmas.
After a few minutes of silence, Jacob let her back down on the floor and stepped back a bit.
As was usually the case, after they ended their hug, they both instinctively held each others hand, Jacob rubbing circles on the back of her hand, following the pattern of their eternal symbol.
Jacob ran his free hand through his hair, not quite looking at Nessie.
What's wrong Jake? Renesmee linked to him, now really starting to freak out, was he upset about the kiss? This wasn't normal, Renesmee knew as she saw the change in Jacob, he was acting very reserved.
"I just… I just want you to know how proud I am of you. I know I haven't been easy on you with the training and stuff, but you're just amazing. I realize you're becoming a strong and independent woman." Jacob paused to gather himself, hoping that this came out right.
"I want you to know that I'm truly looking forward to the next phase of our relationship but these past years have meant the world to me Nessie. From our first connection to the plan to keep you with me, to you wanting to marry me, our connection, our hunts, our talks, just every second of every day I've spent with you has been the greatest moments of my life."
Jacob lifted her trembling hand up to give it a quick kiss. "I'm going to miss my little princess." Jacob shook his head, feeling ridiculous. "I know it's stupid because you're here, I'm here, and we have so much left to do. I guess what I'm trying to say is thank you so much for every memory you've given me. It truly has meant the world to me. I don't think you'll ever understand just how much I needed you." He finally gathered the strength to look her in the eyes.
"Oh Jacob." She reached a trembling hand up to the side of his face, projecting every single memory and how much every one of them meant to her too.
Jacob brought her to him again, hugging her tightly. "Sorry for the drama but after your checkup, after the training today, it really hit me the changes coming and I just wanted to hold on to my little Nessie just a little while longer."
Do you even realize how special you make me feel? Renesmee could hear his heartbeat and just like everything else in her life, it seemed that hers was slowing down to keep in step with his. It was one way he could always calm her.
After a few minutes of just holding each other, Renesmee wanted to make sure Jacob was okay. "Are you feeling better, physically?"
Jacob laughed, "Barely, you really kicked my butt."
See even something as simple as this, Renesmee thought. He could have easily sucked it up not wanting her to worry, but that wasn't the whole truth. Thus he didn't keep things like this from her. "Can I do anything to make it up to you?"
A low growl escaped as Jacob could sense Nessie was up to something. "I think just holding my best girl in my arms is all I need. You wanna tell me what has gotten you so frustrated?"
And he does it again, smiled Renesmee. "Just the whole choices discussion and all that stuff."
This was always tough on Jacob. It was such an odd line to balance on between things making sense and having complete faith that just maybe, he was the best choice for Nessie.
"Jacob can I ask you something?" Renesmee honestly didn't know why this came to her now, but with everything going on, she just wanted to see.
"Sure." Jacob gave her a quick squeeze.
Not daring to leave the warmth and comfort of his embrace, Renesmee asked, "So let's say hypothetically, Rosalie was a soft spoken, caring Nunn. Alice hated fashion and Party planning. Leah was a pixie, Esme didn't completely adore you, and I had chosen another mate. How would you really react to that? It was the only way to make me happy? I want you to be honest with me."
She could feel his hesitation. She knew it was odd timing and in the end didn't matter at all. But still, she wanted to see because others had said that Jacob would have to do whatever made her happy, even if that meant only being a friend.
"You want my honest answer?"
"Mhmm."
"Well I would take said 'mate' on a hunt to get to know him better. Then there would be a terrible accident where the individual was ripped apart, disemboweled where nothing identifiable was left, you know rabid wolves in the area and all. Then I would come back and kidnap you, taking you far away from everyone and prove to you every second of every day that I was your best choice as a mate. I would make sure there was no doubt day in and day out. And if anyone ever tried to come between us, I would destroy them, wipe them from existence. Does that answer your question?"
Silence…
"Nessie?"
"Sorry, forgot where I was for a moment. But yes, that did answer my question."
Renesmee smiled, this was her choice. Take that Imprint.
