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Chapter 25 .. Edward

"Bella, love, it's time to get up." I gently shook her shoulder and leaned down to kiss her shoulder. "Honey, come on."

She was awake. I knew she was, she just wasn't moving. She did the same thing yesterday.

"Isabella, you're going to be late."

She groaned and rolled over. "No."

I chuckled and and laid my hand on her hip. "Bella, I love you. Now get up sweetheart." I was trying to keep my voice just above a whisper so she'd wake up calm and maybe happy, but it didn't work yesterday, and it wasn't looking good today.

"I'm tired."

I nodded and sat down behind her. "I know love. But you have to get up. You have class today."

She sighed and nodded, then sat herself up. I quickly reached out to help her. "Be careful." She just nodded and wiped her eyes. "Don't get sick love."

She glared at me and jumped off the bed, running to the bathroom. "That's kinda out of my control Edward." Then she slammed the bathroom door shut and I heard her starting to get sick.

I sighed and quickly climbed off the bed. The morning sickness had gotten a bit better in the last few days, but still hadn't gone away completely. We were supposed to call Carlisle later tonight, see if he could hep her any, but last time all he said he could do was tell her to continue taking her prenatal vitamins. They were supposed to help, but weren't really doing a good job.

I walked over to the bathroom door and lightly knocked before opening it slowly. "Bella. I'm sorry." I stepped in and saw her sitting on her knees in front of the toilet. "Are you OK?"

She looked over and shrugged. "Sorry about yelling at you." Then she took a sip of water and spit it back out into the toilet. "And slamming the door."

I crossed the small bathroom in two steps and took the glass from her, handing her a cloth off of the sink. "Don't be sorry. You were right, you can't help it. Are you feeling better though?"

She nodded and sat back against the wall. "You're lucky I love you." She smiled up at me and closed her eyes.

I just chuckled and sat down next to her, wrapping one arm around her and placing the other over hers on her knee. "I am. I'm very lucky." I leaned over and kissed her cheek. "Do you need a minute?"

She nodded and I kissed her cheek once more before getting up and walking to the shower. I started the water and then helped her up.

I left the bathroom to get dressed while Bella showered and got cleaned up.

I felt awful. Because, technically, this was all my fault. I know I heard men say all the time that if they could just feel the pain and discomfort for their wives when they're pregnant, they would gladly take it all for them. But I really, really did feel that way. I hated seeing her sick every morning. I hated seeing her tired and irritable. There was a couple days out of the week where she was completely happy and herself, but the rest of the week she just seemed miserable. I hated that part of all of this.

But knowing she was pregnant, and that's the reason for all of this, gave me a little peace of mind. Call me old fashioned, but that's how I was raised. I was raised to cherish the girl I was in love with. I was raised to care for her and love her. And I learned a lot from my father. I learned it's my job to make sure Bella's happy. To dote on her and love her. I was also raised to see the bright side to everything. Like her being pregnant; she was pregnant with my child. I had forever committed myself to Bella seven months ago, and that's how it would remain.

I had agreed to love her through thick and thin, good and bad, sickness and health and that's what I intended to do. Love her. The beginning of this seemed like the thickest of our relationship, but the more it went by, the more days that passed, it seemed to get a little thinner. And the way I saw it, if Bella and I could do this, we could do anything.

Bella finally emerged from the bathroom and came and sat on the bed. I was already dressed and ready to go.

"Feel better?"

She looked over and nodded, "Thank you."

"Don't thank me Bella." I grabbed her hand and pulled it over to my lap. "I just want you to feel better."

She nodded again and smiled. "I know." Then she peaked over at the clock. "We're going to be late." She stood up and rushed over to the closet.

I jumped off the bed and hurried over to her just in time to catch her. For the past week or so, whenever she'd move too quick, she'd get really dizzy and fall to the floor. I was well on my way to learning when I needed to be there to catch her.

She looked up at me and sighed. "Sorry. I've got to stop that."

I put her back up straight and leaned forward to kiss her. "You'll learn. It takes time."

She smiled and nodded, then proceeded to get ready, in a much slower fashion.

Once we got to school, I walked Bella to class then went to my own. Lately, school had really been nothing but a bore for me. All it really was anymore was time away from Bella learning stuff I kinda already knew. In high school, I was looking forward to going to college. I was excited about it. But now, I had a wife and a baby on the way to worry about and devote my time to. And that's all I wanted to do. I wanted to spend every free moment with Bella until the baby came. Because, though I was really excited about this child, and I was going to love it no matter what, I had to realize this was going to be the very last months I had Bella all to myself. From now on, we'd always have children to worry about.

I didn't regret the fact she was pregnant. I never would. I just had to use my time wisely. I had just barley learned how to devote all my time to Bella. And now I had to learn how to split that time in two.

But when I thought about it, I had spent almost every waking moment of every day of my life with Bella. Not romantically, of course, but I still had. And though the majority of that time was spent as just friends, I'd never trade it, and I'd never forget it. Because in twenty years, when I looked back again, I'd know that at that very point, the majority of my time spent here with Bella was spent romantically involved with her. Bella was truly my other half. She meant the whole world to me and the only thing I had wanted for the past couple years was to marry her. And start a family with her. And now I was.

The day passed rather quickly. I met up with Bella in between all of our classes and when lunch came around we both drove home and made ourselves lunch.

"Bella, can I ask you something?"

She put down her soup and nodded. "Sure."

"It's about work." I set aside my sandwich and leaned forward. I didn't really know how to ask, but I felt like I should. "When do you think would be an appropriate time to.. I don't know, maybe quit? Or lay off for a while?"

She looked up at me, but didn't say anything. Instead she picked her spoon back up and continued to eat.

I sighed quietly and looked down. "Bella, I didn't mean to sound like that. I just meant, what are you planning on doing about work? I think we should discuss that. Together."

She shook her head. "I don't know yet. I haven't even thought about that." Then she looked up at me. She didn't look happy. "I just got this job, don't tell me I have to quit."

I quickly moved over next to her and shook my head. "I wasn't saying you have to quit. I was just asking. I think if we think about all of this now, it will be easier to make decisions later on." I took her hand in mine and smiled. "Don't you think? I'm just trying to help you love."

She shrugged. "I don't know. What I do know is I'm only like eleven weeks pregnant. That's not even three months. I'll be fine working for another couple months at least, so why talk about it?" She finished up her bowl of soup and got up, putting the bowl in the sink and rinsing it off.

I got up and walked over to her, stepping in behind her and putting my hands on her hips. "OK. That's fine. We'll talk about it when you're ready." I leaned down and placed a quick kiss on her shoulder as I heard her sigh under my touch. She was relaxing. "Just know I'm not insinuating you should quit your job. I'm only worrying about you and the baby. Stress isn't good for either of you, and I know with work, and school, and everything else, there is going to be a lot of stress. I just don't want anything to happen to you or our child. You know that, right Bella?"

She nodded and leaned back into me. I wrapped my arms around her waist and held her close. "I know Edward." Her voice was soft and quiet and sent a slight shiver down my spine.

"Is there anything I can do to make you relax?"

I peaked over her shoulder at her and watched her smile. Then she shook her head. "Not right now," She turned in my arms and wrapped her arms around my waist. "but I'll let you know." Then she smiled up at me and rested her chin on my chest. "You're quite amazing Mr. Cullen."

I smiled and gave her a peck on the forehead. "You are quite amazing yourself Mrs. Cullen."

Then her smile faded a bit. "I'm sorry."

I held her closer and ran my hand over her shoulder to her beautiful face. Then I smoothed the hair out of her face and cupped her cheek in my hand. "What in the world are you sorry for love?"

She looked down and sighed. "For being so mean to you. Like this morning, slamming a door for no reason. I wasn't mad at you, I was just mad that I was getting sick again. It's just in the morning, if I barley even move, I get sick. That's why I didn't want to get up."

I nodded. "Don't you dare be sorry honey. I understand. I know you're over being sick, and I'm not mad at you for anything. I think you're entitled to be a little irritable."

She shook her head. "I don't want to think of it that way. I don't want it to be an excuse."

I shrugged. "But I'm just trying to say it's OK."

"Edward, don't. I promise, I'm not going to act like that again."

I brought my other hand up to her opposite cheek and ran my thumb across her jawline. "You don't have to promise that. I know you're aggravated Bella. I may not fully understand why, but as your husband, I have to understand what I can. And I know it's just you venting. I know you Bella. I know how you act, and I know that's not you. It's OK."

She half smiled up at me. "I guess. I don't know. I don't do it on purpose Edward. I promise that."

I nodded. "I know love."

She just shook her head. "Where did you come from?"

I looked down at her confused and chuckled, "What are you talking about?"

She smiled and stretched up on her tip toes to kiss me. She entwined her fingers in my hair and tugged slightly. I gripped her hips and lifted her best I could to enhance the kiss and feel her closer to me.

She giggled and pulled away. "I mean, where in the world did this understanding, absolutely wonderful, thinks I can do no wrong, and won't argue with me like a normal husband, husband come from?" She laughed and threw her head back. "It's like you were sent directly from the gods or something. You're too perfect baby."

I smiled and shook my head. "No such thing as too perfect." I leaned down and placed one more soft kiss on her lips. I felt her hands loosen out of my hair and drop to my shoulders. "And Bella, you know why I'm so understanding. I'm your best friend. We agreed, that when it came to us, I am, and always will be, above all else, your best friend. And as your best friend, I am willing to give up anything or do anything, be anything I need to be to make you content. I would do that even if you weren't my wife, and this wasn't my child."

Then suddenly, I got hit with the most sickening feeling. The thought of Bella not being mine. The thought of this child not being mine. My heart sank and my stomach dropped. My eyes started watering and my mind was racing. I knew she was mine, and I knew this child was mine, but to think it could have been different made me sick.

My stomach lurched and I looked down into Bellas eyes.

She seemed to know a bit of what was happening to me, and took my face in her hands and kissed me. "Edward." She kissed me again. "You are mine. Don't think otherwise."

I nodded and set my mind back right. Bella was mine. Bella was mine. I just kept chanting it in my head until I felt myself calm down. I never really had to think about Bella being anyone elses but mine. And now I'm glad I hadn't.

I smiled down at her and kissed her again. "You are mine. You're my everything Bella. But like I said, you're my best friend. And I yours. That's how it will always be. And as your best friend, I'm trying to understand what you're going through. I'll never know what it's like to be pregnant, but I can take care of you and learn first hand. And I want to try my best to be there and be supportive. And getting mad over you slamming one door or having a bit of an attitude is not being supportive."

She giggled and nodded. "I guess so. But you know this isn't all about me right?" She looked up at me and her eyes captured mine in the most intense way. "This is about you too Edward. Don't let yourself get lost in all of this."

I nodded and hugged her close. "You got it love."

Then she looked behind us at the clock and frowned. "I have to be getting to work. And you need to get back to school." She tried to escape my hold, but I held tight.

"One more kiss."

She smiled and nodded quickly. "Of course."

I wrapped my arms around her waist and pulled her to my quickly. She gasped and giggled then hung her hands up on my shoulders. I cupped her face in both of my hands and just looked down at her for a moment before I slowly moved my lips towards hers. She smiled and I ghosted my lips across hers before moving down and kissing her jaw. She parted her lips just a little and I felt her warm breath hit my top lip. Then I moved up a bit and slowly kissed her bottom lip. Her smile faded and she moved her hands back into my hair. She twisted her fingers into my hair and pulled my face closer. I finally just took her bottom lip between my lips and kissed her. I wanted to make this kiss count.

I knew Bella and I were continually reaching new levels in our relationship. It was just going to be that way whether we liked it or not. I knew that. The fact that we rushed into things so quickly just meant that there were things we were yet to figure out about each other. And though we'd known each other for nineteen years, that didn't mean we knew everything there was to know. I still had a whole list of things I needed to learn about my wife. And a whole other list to learn about the pregnant woman I was living with.

There was just so much I had to figure out.

But I knew I had an eternity. I had forever with Bella, and that's all that mattered to me. If I didn't learn everything this time, the next time I might. Hopefully the next time she got pregnant, I'd be a little more prepared. I'd know how to handle things before they happened. Then again the next time could be totally different from this time.

I felt Bellas tongue glide across my bottom lip and I gladly parted my lips. Deepening the kiss, I ran my hands up her back and tangled one into her hair and the other I wrapped all the way around her shoulders and pulled her as close as I could. It never seemed close enough though. I always felt there was always a couple more inches I could get her. A couple inches less between us. There really never was though. I could feel her chest against mine and still want her closer. It never really mattered how close she was physically, it could always be closer.

I guess that's really what let me know I'd always love this girl. The fact that no matter how near to me she was, I always needed more.

I felt my lungs burning for air and my lips started trembling slightly with the urge to take a breath, but I continued to move my lips against hers. I pressed her back against the counter and heard a small moan come from between her lips. She then sighed and lowered one hand to my back. She tugged at my shirt and tried to pull my against her more. For just a second the thought of squishing her against the counter worried me, but when she tugged again, I gave in and pushed her against it a bit harder.

"Edward."

I felt her lips part from mine and she took a deep breath before looking down.

I smiled and kissed her forehead. "Ready to go?"

She nodded slowly and smiled up at me. "You're something else Mr. Cullen."

I shook my head. "Only with you, Mrs. Cullen."

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lol ok sorry. I know the last couple chapters have been nothing but a lot of fluff and sap between the two of them, but I think they deserve a dramafree life right now. They have been through a lot, and are heading toward a lot more, so for right now, I'm quite enjoying the fluff.

Also, I think I should mention that I'm officially taking down my story Forbidden and Terrified. I feel like i rushed into it too quick and it's lacking the drama and intensity I originally wanted it to have. I plan on rewriting it and reposting it, but as of tomorrow, it won't be up. Sorry for those of you that liked it and went and read it for me.

Sorry for this chapter being on the short side, but I just felt right ending it right there.. Don't you guys think?

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