I'm so pissed. I wrote an amazing chapter and my phone deleted it... Wait pissed doesn't even begin to describe it. I had about 2,000-3,000 words going on here too. I hate technology.

? Clary's pov?ￂﾠ

It had been a whole three days since I'd seen Jace. Kent was a cool dude. He wasn't Jace by any means. I'm going to man up and admit I have feelings for the jerk despite what he did to me. I can't help it but it doesn't mean I'll act on them though. He doesn't deserve me. Conceited? No. Truth? Yes.

Anyways, I was heading to a coffee joit now to meet Kent. He wanted me to hear his poetry rant thing. Usually I'd only let Simon drag me out to this but I'm making an exception. I walked into the café and immediately spotted Kenny (nicknames already bitches.)

I wasn't in a hurry but I wish I had been. After waving and smiling at him, I made my way over. Before I got there a tall, blonde guy slammed into him and spilled hot coffee all over him.

"Nooooo! YOU KILLED KENNY, YOU BASTARD!" I screamed. The guy whipped around and showed me his douchey face. It was an unshaven Jace, smirking like the Devil himself.

"Don't be such a drama queen, Clarissa. He's obviously not dead." Jace sneered.

"Doesn't anyone understand South Park around here?" I grumbled.

"Rude." He commented.

"Whatever. You're the one who ran into him. So apologize. Jeez this is no way to win me back..." I trailed off, realizing what I had just said.

Pain flitted across his face. Pain? Then remorse and finally the arrogance was back.

"Honey, why would I want you back? You leaving was the best thing that ever happened to me." He laughed. I couldn't hold back the sharp inhalation on my part. Tears pooled in my eyes.

"Good. Then I'm glad I left. Wouldn't want to inconvenience you. You can explain every single tiny detail to your father then. Tell him everything you did to me. I can't believe I ever cared about you." A salty tear slipped down my face. I whirled around and ran.

Damn. I forgot to see if Kenny was okay. Oh well. I'll make it up to him later. I stopped running, panting and observing my surroundings. I was so caught up in the scenery, I didn't notice Jace approaching.

"Where are you going? You can't leave me hanging like that!" He yelled. I whipped around to flip him off.

"Not that it's any of your business, but I'm going to my apartment." I stated before continuing walking.

"Apartment? When were you going to tell me you moved? It's dangerous to live alone." He cried. Asshat.

"It's dangerous being around you. You ego might crush me, asshat. I don't have to tell you shit. You don't own me. You have some nerve thinking I'm letting you back into my life." I shouted. He was pissing me off.

"I'm your fiancé! You have to tell me everything!" He was all up in my face. Oh no home girl. I don't play this game.

"1, no you're not. You just said that me leaving was the be-" His lips attacking mine cut me off. I tried pulling back but it seems like he had arms of steel.

He licked my lower lip, begging for entrance. I must've been high but I granted clearance to my no-no zone. The kiss was heated, passionate even. I moaned. He pulled back, gulping down air. That woke me up.

"Let go of me!" I yelled. He ignored me.

"Not until you hear me out." He declared. I snarled.

"You don't deserve me listening. I don't deserve this from you. I never messed with you. All you did was ruin my high school experience and my life. I can't go through this again. I can't. I won't. It's too much pain. This relationship is like my own personal hell. You keep dragging me around and I can't take it Jace! I can't! I just- I just ca-can't!" I sobbed into his chest. The tears wouldn't stop.

"Clary, baby. It's ok. We can work through this." He promised. Liar!

"No we can't! I can't forgive you. I can't forget what you've done. I can't Jace! It's not that simple." My sobs increased in intensity.

"Why can't it be that simple? Why not? Tell me!" He shouted, his arms beginning to quake around me.

"You have no idea what you put me through. How much pain I endured. I was terrified to go to school. Everyone hated me. Everyone hurt me because of you. Only Simon cared. Everyone was so cruel with the remarks, the jokes, the everything! And now you want a romantic relationship that I can't give because I'm emotionally scarred and I can barely trust my own mother because of you? How do you expect this to work? How?! Tell me!" I all but screamed. He was silent. A tear found it's way down his chiseled face.

"It won't. I'm done. Let me go." My voice cracked on go. My breathing was uneven at best. My face was red hot and people were staring. His arms were still locked into position.

"Clary, don't leave me. Please don't leave me. We can work it out. I can't let you go. Don't make me. Please don't make me." His voice was so broken. I shook my head and continued to struggle.

"Clary. Please. Don't do this. I-I-I I love you. Don't leave me. Please. You. Can't. You can't. Oh baby, you can't. Don't go!" He broke down. His eyes were pleading with me as sobs wracked though his body. His faced suddenly crushed into my neck. I was frozen in shock.

Jace loved me?