Thank you so much for my reviews last chapter! I am so glad you all loved the making up of Brucas and all their little moments. I am glad you all agree with Brooke and David well most do and understand sometimes it's hard to just stop a friendship that has lasted over years. I felt like I had to put it in because I am sure like me we have all had a David. A pop up when he pleases but disappeared just as fast, wasn't 100% on their feelings until they saw themselves losing us then decide to confess their feelings at the moment you think you have things figured out.
If you have had a David trust me loves I understand and if you haven't then you are so lucky because the David's of the world make you love love yet hate it all the same haha.
This chapter isn't the David talk but it's coming up so be ready!
But I will stop rambling; just I own nothing but the story line.
Enjoy :D
I smiled the biggest smile in the history of the world when I woke up with Lucas next to me. I mean like seriously when I roll over to see him I can't help but smile like an idiot. The sheets are fallen down around his waist and he lies next to me in a pair of gray long pants. His hair is going every which way, he is on his side one arm under his pillow and one hang loosely on my lower waist, his nice tone body is in clear view and all I think is;
Damn my boy is sexy.
I gently rub his cheek, stroking just under his eye with my thumb and even with him sleeping I lean in to kiss him only because I know that as soon as I do…
"Mmm…" he grins rolling over on his back and bring me on top of him, "Morning Pretty Girl." He mumbles in our kiss.
"Morning Boyfriend." I smile kissing him back one last time before pulling back, "You sleep good?" I question as I kiss his chin; then down his neck.
"I slept real good." He smiles letting his hand run through my hair as I kiss down his chest, and stomach stopping just at his waist line before kissing back up and giving him another small kiss on the lips, "How did you sleep?"
"Amazingly." I sing tucking a small strand of hair behind my ear leaning in to kiss him again. "I love you." I smile looking at him and laugh some when he flips us over so he is lying on top of me.
"Do you have any idea how much I love hearing you say that?" he asks.
"Hmm…" I think tapping my chin, "Why don't you say it to me and I will let you know." I tease and he just laughs shaking his head at me but of course whispers back, "I love you." and I get all sorts of butterflies and I swear my heart did a complete flip.
"Yeah I definitely love hearing that." I smile wrapping my arms around his neck kissing him, "So I want to go out tonight."
"Well where would you like to go out to?" he asks copying my move from a few minutes ago but only kissing along my jaw line and behind my ear, stopping at my neck and sucking hard.
"I don't know…" I let out in a small gasp and he switches to the other side of my neck copying what he was doing over there, "What about? What about we go to Night Light tonight?" I suggest. It's a small club about half an hour away. It's like one of the only 18 up clubs around and its one that we all went to for my birthday along with the rest of the girls when they turned 18.
"Mmm…" he somewhat agrees moving up a little higher on my neck.
"Was that a yes?" I ask tilting my head to the side some as he moves up it and his hand runs up my body.
"Mmm…" he says again and I don't know what that means.
"Baby I really want to go and I don't know what Mmm…means." I tell him and feel him laugh against my neck before pulling away and smiling at me.
"Mmm…means I'll do whatever you want to do tonight." He smiles, "I mean as long as I get to do whatever I want to you tonight." He smirks taking his finger and trailing it down my body stopping right above my shorts running it back and forth the rim of them.
"Do you have any idea what effect your small touch has on my body?" I ask because it even shocks me. Just his finger, his damn finger going along the waist line of my shorts gives me chills. He isn't even doing a damn thing, its nuts.
"Would it be completely wrong if I said I love that you're kind of powerless to my touch?" he smirks pulling the side of my shorts down a little and sliding his hand in and holding onto my side.
"Only if you tease me with it then definitely its wrong." I pretend to pout sticking out my bottom lip as far as I can. Lucas however just laughs at me, bites my lip a little then kisses me.
I am happy. I am too happy. Probably one of those annoying happy things since I smile all the time and no matter how much someone else annoys me or tries to irritate me it doesn't work because I am that happy. I have a boyfriend, not just a boyfriend but an amazingly perfect boyfriend that I am so crazy about.
Is it dumb to be this happy? To smile this much and to want to tell everyone I meet I am happy in love. Love. That is such a great word when you use it. Was I scared as hell to use it? Oh yes. Do I still feel afraid to tell him it? Not at all.
I can't believe I was so scared to tell him I loved him because I think I always knew I did. I always felt it and wanted to say it just scared. I don't know why I was scared; just stupid insecurities in me. Yet I swallowed the fear and though in a crazy emotional tirade I shouted I loved him least I told him right. Oh boy I am so glad I did because last night was amazing, well last night and this morning.
Yup that line was written my dear diary because this morning was just as amazing. I may not exactly say what happened but let's just say that he definitely did not tease me with his touch. Nope not one bit. And oh yes I love him for it.
We are going to a club tonight. It's kind of like the bar but different since well it's a club. But I mean it has the whole 18 up, pool tables in the back room and of course drinks for the 21 and up. I am sure Lucas will drink I just hope he doesn't get plastered like his last night out, which I don't think he will since he normally doesn't. I think last time he was just upset hurt and wanted a drink, well lots of drinks but he is better now. He is better because he loves me and I love him.
But still I hope his drinking is to a minimum because I plan on having a fun night with him and just not at the club but when we get back.
So how weird is it that I have been back with Lucas since last night but my family doesn't know. Nope they haven't got a clue and maybe it's because I got home this morning came in took a shower, talked to Lucas on the phone in my room, then just kind of chilled on my computer. So they don't know and when they do they will probably wonder why I didn't tell them but I think it's because I want to enjoy the feeling of being in love before telling my whole family that I am.
But now my phone is ringing and I know that ringtone so I am out.
"Hey handsome." I answer my phone.
"Hello gorgeous what you doing?"
"Nothing just hanging out. Trying to think of what to wear tonight." I tell him as I go through my closet.
"Well you know what I love to see you in or not in." he smirks and I can so see his sneaky little grin.
"I'm serious Broody." I laugh at him placing my phone on my shoulder trapping it between my ear, "Hmm… I think I might wear my red halter top. It's comfy but cute; it's silk and kind of a dark red. Then maybe my black tight jeans and some heels?" I kind of ask.
"Oh I like tight jeans." He laughs and I roll my eyes he is no help.
"I love you but you suck at this. I need Rachel's or Haley's help. They give a real opinion on my clothes." I laugh as I throw my stuff back on my bed before walking into the kitchen where everyone else is, "Being best friends of course they know what my body looks good in."
"Hey I think I know your body better than they do." he protest and maybe that's true but his help on picking out clothes still sucks.
"Well you suck at helping me pick out clothes." I laugh digging through the fridge.
"Who you talking to?" Kylee asks but I just shh's her.
"So what time you want to go tonight?" I ask pouring me a drink.
"Where you going?" Mom asks but I just wave my hand at her mouthing I'll tell her later.
"I don't know who is all coming?"
"Umm…I don't know if Coop can but I am sure Rachel will. Haley and Nathan are having their anniversary night tonight. God I can't believe they have been together for two years. I don't know how they do it."
"Well I know this sounds crazy but they might kind of love each other."
"Right love…what's that again?" I tease and hear him laugh, "But really thanks again for not helping on my outfit. You are just as bad as the boys."
"Don't compare me to him." I hear Tony mumble into his cup and I just look at him confused completely missing what Lucas said.
"What is that supposed to mean?" I ask placing my hands on my hip looking at him.
"That I am a guy so clothes aren't my thing. I thought that was one of your favorite things about me, you know that I am a guy."
"Oh no not you I'm talking to Tony." I tell him, "So Tony what do you mean?"
"I mean don't compare me to some guy who jumps at a girl when she is vulnerable like he did with you. I mean what you and Lucas were done a few days, if that maybe hours and David is all up on you. Sorry I am nothing like that." he growls and I just roll my eyes.
"What is he saying?" Lucas asks.
"Oh how apparently stupid I am for breaking up with…" I start but of course Tony cuts me off.
"You are stupid!"
"Tony she is not stupid." Mom says with an eye roll, "Maybe a little messed up in the head."
"Mom!!!" I freak and hear Lucas laughing on the other end, "You shut up." I say into my phone making him laugh harder, "And you explain how I am messed up in the head!"
"B we love you we all do." Kylee smiles, "But for the last few weeks all you have done is…"
"Pout." Jason finishes for her.
"Well not pout but gone through a serious depression." Mom corrects and they all nod, "And we were talking about it the other day and the only conclusion we came up with for the sadness is."
"You miss Lucas." Aiden finishes for her and ok this annoying talking without me around is not cool.
"Aww you missed me." Lucas teases and I roll my eyes since of course he knew I missed him.
"Shut up dumbass." I mumble into the phone and he once again laughs.
"And we all have decided that we are not going to be nice about it. We get some messed up stuff happened. I mean yes ok you caught him with his ex…" Jason says and I nod.
"Pretty Girl I am sorry you know that." Lucas says with a small sigh and I nod, "I know." I whisper to him, "I love you." he says and then I smile a little, "You too."
"But look you are a little to blame too." Tony says quickly and I just nod which I am sure surprised them.
"Look I know he messed up I messed up but look what I was saying was…"
"No B listen. He loves you and even though you are so incredible stubborn you love the guy too." Kylee says and I just nod ok figuring I will let them finish everything they have to say since they won't listen to me. "Brooke you talked to me about pretty much everything which is Brucas."
"Brucas?" Lucas questions, "She watches too much TV." I mumble and hear him laugh.
"But look you are so in love with that boy its crazy. And I am normally not right about these things I mean look at my track record but I am right this time. God am I so right." Mom smiles, "So why not let yourself be happy. Give you both a second chance and just love each other."
"Because he is really one of the best things that have ever happened too you B." Jason says.
"And he plays video games with me." Aiden smiles and I just gently stroke his cheek smiling at him.
"He treats you right." Mom tells me and I again nod, I know he treats me well.
"Plus he is amazingly gorgeous." Kylee giggles.
"Tell Ky thanks she is amazingly gorgeous too." Lucas laughs just making me laugh a little.
"And he is not David who will just screw with you and then leave. We all know that is what he does; he pops up when you are happy and disappears just as fast." Tony growls and I roll my eyes while trying to ignore Lucas agreeing with him on the other end.
"You do realize you all are extremely loud and the person on the phone can hear every word you are saying?" I say in a little put off tone, I mean great my family loves my boyfriend but the way they seem to talk it's like they love him more than me.
"Well good then I don't have to repeat myself to David he is a complete tool." Tony groans. I have never understood his hate for David. Ever since he found out that one time David was drunk and got a little too friendly and tried to have sex with me he never liked him again. I mean it wasn't too bad David just kind of rubbed up against me tried to kiss me and really nothing else. I mean as soon as I said stop leave me alone and he knew I was serious he stopped. He felt terrible the next day, not just terrible felt embarrassed and never stopped apologizing. I forgave him but Tony nope and from looks of it never.
"Ok I want to thank you all for loving Lucas more than me that is greatly appreciated. However I am going to go great dressed because I am going out tonight. So you all talk about it some more and here Tony talk." I growl a little shoving my phone at him.
"Brooke I am not talking to him." Tony snapped and I just roll my eye shoving the phone at him which he takes, "What do you want ass?" he hissed into the phone and I just wanted to laugh when I saw his mood change, "Luke man what you doing talking to my sister?" he asks and I just look at everyone who is just staring at me.
"Oh I know how great Lucas is. I know how amazing he treats me and I know he makes me so happy. I also know how amazingly gorgeous he is. So you see how when I was at Rachel's last night and he kissed me telling me he loved me you can kind of see why I said it back." I smile and they all just smile at me, "T tell my boyfriend that I will see him tonight. I love him and to pick me up at 8." I smile bouncing out of the kitchen and grabbing my journal.
My family is so dumb.
So I sit here at Night Light, with Rachel, Tony, Nash and of course Lucas. Jason felt sick so stayed home and I don't think any of us really know where Heath is. He kinda of disappears for a few days but he always comes back.
"Tony dance with me." Rachel begs already climbing out of her seat reaching for my brother's hand.
"I don't know Rach won't Cooper be a little upset by that?" Tony teases but we all know he is saying yes since he is standing up with his hand in hers.
"Please I asked for a dance not like you are going to get lucky." She smirked as she dragged him off to the dance floor.
"I think I may go find a willing girl for the night. You both try to keep it PG." Nash teases standing up.
"Only PG?" Lucas pretends to pout making me laugh.
"I will allow a little PG-13 and maybe if you are out of my line of view R but nothing higher, got it." He jokes pouting at us.
"I make no promises." I smile leaning against Lucas slipping my hands in his and Lucas just smiles kissing the side of my head.
"You two really make me sick." Nash laughs walking away and I just turn to look at my boyfriend.
"So Boyfriend how do you feel about dancing with me?" I question tilting my head to the side a little and biting my bottom lip.
"Sure." He smiles as he takes my hand leading me to the dance floor.
The song is slow moving, but at the same time a fast worded one. My right arm hangs loosely on his shoulder as my left hand holds onto the side of his shirt, my body all but smashed against his, his face right next to mine so that I feel the small stubble on his cheeks brushing against my cheek as we move to the music. I love being this close to him, I love hearing ever so often him hum to the music in my ear. I love having his hands slide down my back into my back jean pockets pulling me closer to him and I just love him.
Halfway through the song I spin in his arms pushing my body against his. He moves his hands to my hips slipping two fingers through both pant loops and I place my hands on his. Leaning down kissing my shoulder I get chills by his warm lips against my hot skin. Like a hot knife through butter his lips on my skin just seem to melt me. And then when that hot kiss turns into a small bit my whole body shudders.
I glance up catching Rachel and Tony dancing and then Nash with some girl that makes me laugh. I look around the club at everyone around, the couples, the people who just met that night and then sadly the single girls just sitting and watching it all.
I feel bad for them, I feel so bad because I use to be them. I use to sit there and watch my friends dance with their boyfriends, see girls with guys all up and close like me and Lucas and that seriously is such a shitty feeling. The feeling of not being enough, of not feeling beautiful and not feeling like you are even worth a thing. It sucks how much we as girls put on ourselves based on our relationship status. That if you don't have a boyfriend, you must not be pretty, if you don't have guys falling all over you then you must just be repulsive. I use to hate nights going out with friends alone because I felt like that and then look at me feeling like I am so great because of having a boyfriend.
I wish there was a book out there telling us girls a guy doesn't make you. That just because you don't have a boyfriend doesn't mean a thing because it really just doesn't. I have finally realized all that and I know it may be easy for me to say because here I stand with a gorgeous boy dancing with me but it really is true.
I glance up at one girl at a table sitting there spinning her straw in her drink. She has the look I got all the time, the not good enough look. I bet her friends are out on the dance floor and she is sitting there feeling lonely and that sucks. She is looking over at Tony which makes me smile a little and I guess she saw me noticing her check out my big brother because she just looks at me and we make eye contact and she smiles a little before looking back down real quick.
"Hey could you get me a drink?" I ask Lucas as I turn to look up at him.
"Yeah sure what you want?" he asks as we stop dancing.
"Water is fine. I'll be right over there." I tell him pointing over to where that girl is and see him give me a weird look but nodding anyway and giving me a quick kiss before walking to get me my water. I slowly walk over to the girl's table sitting down, "Man it's hot out there." I breathe out sitting next to her.
"Yeah everyone looks pretty…sweaty." She says and I laugh some.
"Yeah…" I agree turning to look at her, "I'm Brooke." I introduce sticking out my hand which she takes.
"Ryann." She says and I nod looking back over at the crowd seeing my brother laughing as Nash is telling him something but still maintaining to dance.
"His name is Tony." I tell her and she gives me a confused look, "The guy over there." I point, "His name is Tony."
"Oh I wasn't…I mean I wasn't like looking at him." she tries to tell me and kind of stutters and ok this girl is so me.
"It's ok to look at him. I mean that's not his girlfriend he is dancing with." I tell her and she nods sipping on her drink but turning red a little, "Why don't you ask him to dance?"
"Umm…because girlfriend or not he picked that girl to dance and she is gorgeous. I am nothing like her." she shrugs looking down. I take a minute to look this girl over. She is cute, really cute and Tony would definitely dance with her. She has long dirty blonde hair and really pretty honey eyes. She is a little shorter than me but as I sit here looking at her I find nothing wrong with her.
"No your wrong on that but Tony is only dancing with her because she is my best friend. It's like his sister." I shrug and its true Tony and Rachel are like me and Nash or me and Heath it's just way to sibling like to be anything more.
"Why are you telling me this?" she questions and I know it may seem weird some random girl walking up and talking to you in a bar about a guy, I just hate the feeling I know she is feeling. It's really the worst.
"Let me guess you came here with friends?" I ask and she just nods, "Friends really outgoing, always have a guy no matter what and every time you turn around you they are telling you about some new guy they met?"
"Your friends like that?" she asks with a dry laugh.
"Oh yeah. Every day it seemed they had a guy and every day I would sit and wonder what the hell is wrong with me until I realized nothing." I shrug "I use to see all my friends and think ok what am I doing wrong? What do they have that I don't; because I sure as hell can't figure it out. I mean yes maybe I thought they were prettier or smarter or more fun to hang out with but then I would think I have all these guy friends and they love hanging out with me."
"Oh yeah I have tons of guy friends that I love but it just sucks because I am always the girl friend never the girlfriend." She tells me and I nod knowing that line so well. I hate that line. The best friend, the little sister, the I don't want to mess up our friendship line. Those really suck.
"I know right. I was like ok I am 18 never had a serious boyfriend and my friends seem to have boyfriends all the time. Like I would go over to hang with all of them and they would always have a different guy and I was like oh my god what is going on!" I somewhat yell and she laughs nodding, "But then one day my very wise and annoying big brother was like ok B look at the guys your friends have, the ones they date or hook up with or whatever and think do you really want any of them? Would you even consider dating them and the truth is no. I never once saw one they brought over that I was like oh god I want them."
"Yeah but even when that is true we go out places and I haven't found a guy yet." She sighs a little.
"Because you are shy. Trust me I was just like you." I tell her searching the club until my eyes land on a guy standing leaning on the bar smiling at us, "See that guy." I tell her moving my eyes over and she follows my gaze, "He is so checking you out right now."
"How do you know he is not checking you out?" she questions and ok is that really what I sounded like when I said that to my friends? Man my confidence is so low.
"Trust me he isn't." I laugh shaking my head at that, "Now pick one. Pick the blonde or the brunette."
"What? I can't just pick one it's not that easy." She tells me and I roll my eyes a little. "Plus just because I think they are cute doesn't mean that they think I am good looking. I can think he is cute all day but it's what he thinks of me that matters." She says and man this girl is more like me then I thought.
"Ok do you see…" I pause a second searching the room until my eyes land on Lucas who on his way back to me got caught by Tony, Rachel and Nash telling him something that is apparently so insanely funny. "Ok you see that guy right there?" I ask point at my boyfriend.
"Yeah."
"You think he is cute?"
"He is more than cute." She smiles and I nod because I know that.
"Ok that is my boyfriend." I smile proudly and her frown deepens a little.
"That's cool." She says trying to recover her smile but it's too late I saw the frown and I know the fake smile better the anyone.
"You see I never in my lifetime would think that I could get a boyfriend that looked like that. I mean I would look at him and well look at him then I would look at me and well look at me." I point waving my hand up and down.
"Brooke your gorgeous." She tells me and I smile a little, ok confidence boost right there.
"Ryann I never in my lifetime considered myself gorgeous. I rated my looks on the number of boyfriends I had and since it was none well my looks weren't that high." I tell her and she nods a little clearly getting what I am saying, "But did you know he tried talking to me all night the first night we met but I was too stupid with thoughts that someone that looked like that would ever want to look at someone like me and because of that dumb thinking I almost missed him." I tell her honestly, "Now pick one. Pick the guy at the bar or the brunette dancing with the redhead."
"I have always liked brunettes better." She says and I nod with smile, now we are getting somewhere.
"Wait how old are you?" I question because even if this is an 18 up club people still get in underage and I don't want big brother getting in more trouble.
"I'll be 20 in a month." She tells me and ok good.
"Alright I want you to make eye contact with him." I tell her, "Don't make a scary face or anything just when he glances up here and trust me he will just make eye contact, maybe a small smile. Just something that lets him know you see him."
"But what if he doesn't look at me?"
"Trust me he will." I tell her and smile when right on cue big brother glances over at us. I know he only glanced at first to see where I was because he swears I am going to get myself kidnapped but when he does I also know Ryann's eyes locked right on to his. "Smile just a little. Maybe look down a little but then back at him." I tell her and then question when I got so good at this. Maybe I always knew I could do it just had the same fear Ryann has, but then again giving advice is so much easier then taking it for yourself.
"Shit they are all coming over." She mumbles looking down and staring intensely at her cup.
"Its fine relax." I laugh as the approach, "Thank you." I tell Lucas as he hands me my water, "Guys this is Ryann. Ryann this is Lucas, Nash, Rachel and Tony." I smile at the last one nudging her in the leg.
"Umm...hi." she waves and I see how my brother is just smiling at her. I am so good!
"Well I need to go to the bathroom and I really don't want Ryann to sit alone here because there are some weird people in this place. So Rach come with me and my boys will you watch my friend?" I asked but all the boys could tell it was more of an order.
"Sure babe no problem." Lucas nodded as I eased out of my chair and he takes it.
Me and Rachel walk off to the bathroom and I know she is confused I just needed to talk to her so she knew what was going to happen, "Alright so I don't have to pee."
"So why did you drag me into this extremely hot and crowded bathroom?" she asked and I laugh.
"Because Ryann thinks Tony is cute but is too shy to talk to him by herself. So when we go back you ask Nash to dance and I will Lucas and oh look Tony asks Ryann." I smile clapping my hands together like it's the best plan ever.
"How do you know he even wants to dance with her?"
"Because I know my big brother. Plus earlier I saw him looking at her hence why I walked over to sit. Well that and I felt bad for her but still not the point." I wave my hand.
"Ok well I guess I can do that." Rachel shrugs as she checks her makeup and fixes her shirt, "Alright let's do this thing." she says walking out of the bathroom and I follow.
We head back over to the table finding the guys talking to each other Ryann sitting a little quietly adding something ever so often with a small laugh clearly nervous.
"So what is up my loves?" I ask walking over standing next to Lucas placing my hand on his shoulder.
"Nothing just apparently that girl over there was trying to hit on your boyfriend." Tony tells me and my head shoots up looking around.
"Who?" I question seeing tons of girls but not really any looking at us.
"Baby he was kidding." Lucas grins looking at me.
"Oh…" I blush a little at how dumb I get over that sometimes, "My bad." I shrug placing my hand on his cheek kissing him. Lucas just turns in his stool so I am standing between his legs and placing his hands on my hips pulling me close to him. Don't ask me why every time I look at this boy I just feel like I have to kiss him but I can't help it. I just love kissing him, "Mmm… I love kissing you." I grin pulling back running my thumb across his bottom lip.
"Really?" he smirks tilting his head to the side and I nod, "Well…" he smiles leaning up to my ear so just I can hear him, "I really love kissing you too…among other things." He whispers kissing my ear and I let out a small giggle.
"Luke…" I smile pushing him playfully against the chest but he grabs my hand pulling me into him kissing me. I can tell he wants to deepen the kiss but I don't let him just bite his bottom lip as he lets out a grunt making me giggle a little more.
"Hey!" we both hear over the loud music looking over at my brother and friends, "I told you to keep it PG in my presence." Nash laughs throwing a straw at us that hits Lucas in the face making me laugh.
"Dude no need to throw stuff." He says throwing it back.
"Dude no need to eat my sister's face." Tony mocks as he throws back and I just step back from Lucas taking a seat in the stool next to him. I forgot about that. Tony may laugh with it but I know it doesn't make him too comfortable watching us together. I mean he does know we have sex, he does know that we are in love and he does know pretty much everything that involves me and Lucas. However even with knowing that doesn't mean he wants to see it.
"Nash do you want to dance?" Rachel asks breaking the weird tension.
"Of course." Nash smiles standing up and taking her hand dancing over to the dance floor.
"What about you hun you want to dance?" I ask Lucas and he just kind of shrugs clearly not catching on, "Let's put it this way come dance with me." I pretty much order grabbing his hand and pulling him with me.
"We just danced." He pouts a little and I roll my eyes.
"I know that but I am trying to do something so just go with it." I tell him and he gives me a confused look as we stand on the dance floor, "See that…" I tell him and he just looks at me, "No over there." I say grabbing his face and turning him to look at Tony and Ryann.
"Umm…it looks like Tony." He shrugs still not getting it and ok my boyfriend maybe smart but he can also be so dumb sometimes.
"I know that I mean look he is talking to Ryann. They are laughing." I smile, "Aren't they cute."
"Ok Pretty Girl they are talking don't send out the wedding invitations just yet." He teases and I slap him on the chest mumbling shut up making him laugh more.
"Oh look he is asking her to dance! Yay me!" I grin even bigger clapping my hands together.
"Awe look at the little matchmaker." He teases pinching my sides making me wiggle in his arms some, "So…" he hums in my ear pulling my body into him as we slowly sway to the music, "Are you coming home with me tonight?" he asks and I pull my excitement about Ryann and Tony to the boy behind me.
"Hmm… I don't know you going to make fun of me more?" I tease tilting my head to the side to look at him and he lets out a deep chuckle.
"No I promise I won't make any more fun."
"Ok then I guess I could come." I say dragging out guess and swaying from side to side. He however just laughs grabbing onto my hips and yanks my body against his making me giggle some, "Just kidding."
"Good. So how do you suppose I get you going home with me without Tony and Nash freaking out?" he questions and that's a good question. I mean even knowing the truth they aren't going to just ship me off to his house.
"Just say you are going to leave early. I will go to Rachel's house and pick me up there." I suggest because that's the best I can give him. He has to pass Rachel's to get to his place so it will work.
"Sounds like a plan." He smiles lifting my chin to kiss me, "Let's go tell them I'm leaving because I'm getting kind of tired." He shrugs taking his hand in mine as we walk over to our friends, "Hey guys I think I am going to head out."
"Already?" Rachel questions.
"That's what I said!" I fake pout and he laughs wrapping his arm around my waist kissing the side of my head.
"Rach, Brookie you do realize it is almost 2 right?" Tony laughs shaking his head at us and I would like to have a side note to point out right now big brother is standing there with Ryann in front of him her standing a little close and his hands placed low on her hips. I am so freaking good!
"So…" both Rachel and I say at the same time.
"Yeah well I have to wake up early to meet Dan and Nathan so I can't stay out all night like you two. Guess I'm not as cool."
"Oh honey you aren't cool either way." Rachel teases getting a tickle in the side making her yelp jumping against Nash.
"But yes I will see you all later." He says and they all say bye.
"Call me when you get home?" I ask over the loud music and he nods yes, "Love you."
"Love you too." He grins leaning down kissing me bye as he heads out.
"Oh don't pout Brooke you can be away from him for a night. You will live." Nash jokes pinching my cheek making me smile.
We hang out a little longer sitting around talking and stuff. Ryann's friends left before us and after getting Tony's number hugging me goodbye she headed out. I pulled Rachel to the side telling her that I was going to Lucas's but riding back with her so the boys don't know. With a sneaky smirk and a playful eye roll she agreed.
"Call me when you get home." I feel like I have repeated to the boys about a million times since walking out to the cars. Nash really hasn't drank that much so he is driving but that still doesn't mean it doesn't worry me.
"We promise B. We will call, text and even send an email." Tony laughs at me.
"Just humor me ok." I say with an eye roll hugging them both, "Please be careful." I say on last time pulling out of Tony's hug.
"Always." He smirks using the line I give every time they tell me to be careful. And with one last hug we part our ways and head home.
"You know you could have followed behind me a little sooner. I swear Rach's parents probably think I'm a creeper." Lucas tells us as soon as we pull into her driveway. We didn't mean to leave so late after him it just sorta happened, plus traffic sucked.
"We're sorry." I fake frown walking over to him leaning up against his car, "We are here now." I shrug and he rolls his eye opening the car door, "I'll call you tomorrow Rach." I tell her with a hug.
"All right have fun." she smirks giving Lucas a hug and heading inside.
"You know I think you maybe the cutest creeper I have ever seen." I tease climbing into the passenger seat.
"Yeah, yeah." Lucas says with an eye roll shutting my door but I know I saw a smile.
Once we get back to his apartment we just cuddle one the couch watching TV and I am really happy at this moment. Just me and him on the couch watching TV makes me smile. I may not have many times in my life I can mark as being truly happy but I know without a doubt this is one of them.
"I love you." I whisper snuggling closer against him, wrapping one arm tight around him and resting my head on his chest.
"I love you too." I hear him smile running his hand slowly up and down my back, "Can I ask you something?" he question and I just nod a sure against his chest, "Why do you hate your dad?" he asks a little randomly and I pull my head off his chest to look at him.
"What you mean?"
"It's just that as long as we have been together we haven't ever really talked about him. I mean I have seen you around him like at the hospital with Aiden but I don't know I don't get it." he explains with a small shrug and I just lay my head back on his chest picking at a piece of string on his shirt.
I guess he figures I don't want to talk about it since he just lays silent. Doesn't ask me anymore just lays there steady breathing under me and I lay still picking at his shirt.
"When I was 9 they told me they were getting a divorce." I whisper but still laying still, "I didn't get it at first. I even cried which was dumb but I did. Yet then he moved out and to me nothing really changed. It was always just mom and us with his occasional appearance at a family dinner or baseball game for Tony but other than that he wasn't there." I shrug, "But mom I could tell was happier. She seemed more I don't know alive. She cried less, seemed upset less and all of a sudden she had a real smile. I was always a momma's girl. Like real bad, so bad that on the rare occasions Richard did stay home with us and she went out which I believe happened twice but when it happened I cried. I cried for her to come home and would sleep at the top of the stairs until she did." I tell him but he doesn't comment just once against stays quiet.
"When he moved out…" I start pulling off him to sit up straight but not looking at him, "When he moved out they made us go visit. Every other weekend from Friday at 6 until Sunday at 6 we had to go with him. I hated it. I hated it so bad and I would scream, I would cry, I would kick anything just to stay with my mom but I still had to go." I say with a dry laugh, "I use to wonder why he made me you know. Like if I clearly didn't want to go, if I called my mom constantly while I was there then why did he make me. Why didn't he just let me stay home and the answer is just because he is just selfish. He is always selfish putting himself first, putting himself above the world. He does whatever he could to look like the good guy, look like the victim, look like nothing is his fault." I growl just thinking about it, "When we were little he spilled grease all over the kitchen floor and Richard being the amazing person he is didn't clean it up. So when mom walked into the kitchen baby like always on hip she fell. She fell hard and messed up her knee. Had to have a cast, be on crutches everything but did Richard help her with the kids? Nope. She was in lots and lots of pain and had some pain killers. Yet mom goes to take them one night and they weren't there. She sent Richard to go get them and when she needed them the bastard kept them."
"What you mean kept them?" he finally asks.
"Richard liked his pills. He liked pretty much anything to give him a little kick. His daily high and whether it was taking my mom's pills or taking someone else's Richard made sure to get his high."
"I'm sorry." Lucas apologizes rubbing my knee soothingly but I shake my head at him cause no need for him to be sorry. He didn't do anything.
"I was four when Kylee was born." I tell him randomly and he smiles at the mention of my little sister because you can't think of Kylee and not smile, "Truthfully I didn't even want her." I laugh and he laughs a little.
"You didn't want Kylee?" he questions and I just nod, "Brooke you and Kylee are like inspirable. Like seriously I feel like I have to compete for your time more with her then with Rachel and Haley." He teases and I nod because that's true I hang out with my baby sister so much.
"I know but when I was four I didn't see it that way. I didn't see the cool times we have when we are older or all the great talks. I didn't see any of that just saw my attention being taken away from my mom and my brothers. Yet then I got to hold her." I smile thinking about the day, "Mom made me sit on the couch put my arms a certain way and positioned Kylee right in my arms." I tell him cradling my arms how I cradled Kylee, "She was perfect with her ten little toes and ten little fingers. Her big honey brown eyes opened up to look at me and she smiled. It was truly the most perfect thing I have ever seen in my life."
"So then you liked her." he smiles but I shake my head no.
"Actually it made me madder because I thought great now I love this little monster." I laugh shaking my head, "But I promised I would take care of her. I promised that no matter what I would take care of her, protect her not let anything hurt her." I tell him and feel my eyes burn a little with tears, "But I knew she was different." My voice cracks a little.
"What you mean?" he asks moving up on the couch a little sitting up just like me.
"Like she was always a lot paler then the rest of us. Or the fact when she walked one of her feet was different. Mom could never clean around her, but not like sweeping, vacuum cleaning but she couldn't have her near the bathrooms when she cleaned. If she cleaned the shower she had to wait a day or so before Kylee could use it. We could only use certain toilet paper, only a certain type of laundry detergent, our dogs had to be outside dogs because the inside dogs hair couldn't be around Kylee. That she couldn't have latex around her so we had to get special band aids, that at the dentist certain gloves, certain stuff to numb her mouth. On vacation Papa had to test the water before she got in. Like the chlorine and everything. Before anything happened, before we did anything we had to make sure it was safe around Kylee."
"What was wrong with her?"
"She got sick like no one's business. If we had a small cold, it would be almost deathly to Kylee. I didn't get it. I didn't get any of it because she seemed like a normal baby, but she just wasn't." I shrug, "I was 13 when I found out for sure."
"Found out what?"
"It is shown when a mother does drugs while pregnant the baby has side effects. Like it is born premature, disfigured, with some sort of brain problem, all sorts of things go wrong when it's the mother. Yet when it's the father all the side effects are different. When it's the father the problems are what happened to Kylee."
"Brooke…I'm…I'm sorry." he apologizes again, "She is ok though. I mean as long as you watch all that stuff she will be fine right?"
"Yeah…" I nod blinking my tears away, "She will be fine. She is all fine but when I was a freshman she got sick. Like really, really sick and no one knew what was wrong. No one could fix her and slowly we were losing her. She lost all this weight, got so pale, was in pain couldn't move without cringing in pain. All I thought was I was going to lose her and I promised everything. I promised that if God just made her better I would never let anything hurt her again. I would take care of her and that I promised to be a good sister. I would make it all better. That day I came home from school and they said she was going to operate. They were going in to look for a tumor or anything to find out what was wrong." I tell him as a tear slips down my cheek thinking about it.
"It's ok." Lucas says moving over wiping my tears, "Its alright she's alright." He tells me and I nod, I know she is but that doesn't change it could have been worse.
"Well that day they took her back. She gave that perfect little toothy grin she gives mumbles a see you later and they wheel her out. The doctor said it would be a couple hours unless something happened. 5 minutes pass and nothing happens, 10, 15. Then all of a sudden the phone rang. It cut through the silent room like a knife in all of our chest and we all sat. Mom, me, Papa, Grandmama we all sat staring at the phone on the wall and didn't move until Grandmama told mom to answer, she had to answer. So with a shaking hand and a worried face she answered."
"What they say?"
"That we lost her." my voice completely cracks and tears fall faster than ever before, "That they gave her the stuff to put her to sleep or whatever and it stopped her heart. I don't know if she was allergic or what but it stopped it. For 2 minutes and 28 seconds I was the only girl in our family and I didn't want it. With all the years of wishing that I was the only girl, that I was their only baby girl I didn't want a thing of it all I wanted was her back."
"You got her back." he smiles rubbing my hand.
"Yeah…" I nod with a smile, "I got her back, but I blamed him for making me feel like that for those 2 minutes and 28 seconds. I blame him for making my whole heart shattering and I blamed him for all of it. They can say that it was not his fault, her being allergic to it wasn't his fault but it was. I don't care what anyone says it was completely his fault. So you ask why I hate him. I hate him for making my mom's life so hard, for making her feel so low, beneath him. I hate him for making Tony grow up years before he should and I hate him for making my life a living hell but I hate him most for those 2 minutes and 28 seconds."
"I'm sorry you felt like that." he tells me pulling me into him as I lay my head on his chest nodding, "I hope you never feel like that again."
"I won't." I tell him pulling away looking at him with a small sad smile, "As long as you promise to never go anywhere."
"I promise Pretty Girl." He smiles brushing my hair back and wiping the tear under my eye, "I promise I'm not going anywhere."
I have a smile on my face when I wake up the next morning. I know I'm in Lucas's bed because I smell his scent on the pillow my head is on and I love that scent. I'm a little upset I don't feel his arm around me like most morning when I wake up beside him but at the same time I figure he is just in the bathroom or something.
Even with a good night sleep like I normally have when I'm with him I am still not wanting to get out of his warm comfy bed. Like seriously I wonder what it would take to convince him to trade beds with me because this one is so much comfortable. Yet while I am figuring out my plan to take his bed I feel his hand run down my side and smile.
"Morning." I hum with a smile but keeping my eyes closed because even if he wants me too I don't want to get up. Yet then his hand slides around my waist and slipping up his t-shirt he let me wear last night, "Why are you always so much hornier in the mornings?" I tease as his lips start kissing on my neck but something is different. His lips and kiss feel different and then when I think about it the way his hand is rubbing my skin and down the front of my stomach to my waist line I know something is definitely different. I slowly flip over to face my boyfriend to realize it's not my boyfriend; it's not anyone I know.
"Hi…" the unfamiliar person says with a smirk and with wide eyes and a loud scream I fly back from him falling off the bed. "Awe why did you get off the bed?" he fake pouts and I quickly look around the room to make sure I am in my boyfriend's room and oh yeah I am.
"Who the hell are you?!" I freak from the floor at the tan almost naked guy I woke up too. "And why the hell are you in my bed!"
"One you my love have a dirty little mouth. I don't like curse words please don't use them." He asks with a smirk and yeah like he doesn't like curse words, "and two baby this is my bed."
"Ok one I sure as hell am not your baby!" I hiss standing up from the ground, "and two last time I checked this was Lucas's bed."
"You think he is going to call you later?" he asks with a real weird tone that really creeps me out and I just cross my arms tight across my chest wondering where the hell my boyfriend is, "I'm sorry doll to be the one to tell you this but he won't call. I am actually surprised he let you sleep in this bed. Normally my man takes his little one night lovers to the room down the hall. Just so he doesn't dirty this bed."
"Ok I am not one of his one night lovers or however you put it." I growl.
"I see why Luke picked you last night. You are feisty and girl you are totally fine." He smirks licking his lips and having his eyes wander over my half naked body. I am quickly regretting just sleeping in his t-shirt and not any gym pants of his but hell how was I to know I was going to wake up to someone who wasn't my boyfriend. I pull the sleeves over my hands and pull the shirt stretching it out I'm sure but down my legs as far as I could just to cover as much skin as I could. At least now this perv can't see my underwear.
"Stop!" I order trying to get his eyes off me but he won't. "What is wrong with you? What kind of person just crawls into someone else's bed and rubs all up on the other person!?"
"Well it's not like this is the first time I have come over to a girl in his bed. Normally if they are slutty enough to hook up with him one night I just have to rub up on them, give them a smile and their sluttiness comes through again." he smirks that smirk again and it really makes my skin crawl, "Come on why don't you just crawl back into this bed and we have some fun?" he asks patting the bed and I look at him like he can't be serious. Yet before I can say anything I hear the front door shut and I pray to everything its Lucas or hell even Nathan would make me happy just so I am not alone.
"Lucas!" I yell as I hear a set of keys put on the counter.
"Sorry Keith called this morning; he needed me to drive by the shop to drop some stuff off. I was going to wake you but we went to bed late and I didn't want to bother you." I hear him say as he moves around the kitchen I guess starting to make coffee.
"Lucas get in here now!" I yell again keeping my eyes locked on the guy in his bed. I mean I don't want to look into his creepy eyes but least if his eyes are on mine they aren't running over my body.
"What has got you so pissed already? I haven't even been around you 5 minutes too…" he trails off walking into the room to see what I have been yelling, "Felix man what's up?" he smiles walking over giving him a guy hand shake thing as the half naked guy eases off the bed. My mouth however drops by the fact he isn't at all bothered by this scene.
"Nothing man just came into town thought I would stop by my favorite cousin's place." The Felix character smiles.
"This is your cousin?" I ask.
"Well not technically. I mean we aren't blood but his mom has known my mom for years." Lucas tells me and ok yay he has a cousin but I still don't want said cousin rubbing up on me.
"Well yay for that." I barely mutter to myself with an eye roll as they start talking and I look around the room for my pants.
"They are in the living room." Lucas says not even looking at me as he still talks to the weird perv.
"What?" the perv asks and Lucas laughs.
"My girl is looking for her pants." He says finally turning to look at me, "Though I prefer her not in them." He smirks and of course his little smirk and the wink he gives me makes me smile.
"Oh trust me I do too." Felix agrees once again licking his lips and I just glare at him.
"Dude stop looking at her." Lucas says with a laugh smacking him on the back of the head and why is it he laughs at Felix but when Nash or David looked at me he got pissed. "And while we are on my girlfriend why are you in my bed with her?"
"Because I thought she was just one of your little late night party girls." He shrugs and I see Lucas's face burn with redness clearly embarrassed I heard that. "But wait girlfriend? Did you just say girlfriend?"
"Yes I did. Brooke this is Felix, Felix my girlfriend Brooke." Lucas smiles over at me proudly and again I smile.
"Well just to let you know before she tells you I felt her up and tried to have sex with her." Felix shrugs like it was not at all a big deal.
"You did what?" Lucas snaps looking over at him and there is the boyfriend I know and love.
"It wasn't my fault." he defends and I just look at him wondering if he thinks about what he is saying before he says it. I mean hell it wasn't my fault. I was damn asleep and my hands never went near his pants.
"How do you assume that?" Lucas asks.
"Again I thought it was one of your sluts or whatever. I didn't think it was your actual girlfriend, if I did I wouldn't have crawled into bed with her." he shrugs but then looks past Lucas at me, "But then again she is pretty fine so I might have tried." He chuckles and then Lucas lets out a laugh.
"That's not funny!" I protest glaring at my boyfriend as I move over to the night stand grabbing my phone and then my shirt off the ground.
"Oh come on baby he was just kidding." He laughs grabbing my hand.
"I don't care!" I growl pulling away from him, "How would you feel if you woke up with someone's hands rubbing up all on you and then trying to slip them in the front of you pants just to find out it's not your boyfriend?!"
"Well as long as you shoved him off when you realized it wasn't me." he shrugs and I cannot believe he just said that to me. How dare he say that it's fine as long as I push him off. Well you know what Lucas Scott I know how to pissed you off just as well and I also know how to prove a damn good point.
"Oh so if I told you that night I stayed at David's I slept in his bed and he slept with me you wouldn't be mad?" I ask and see his eyes harden at the name, "That when I woke up I just assumed it was you in my little dream world and when his hand trailed a little south that it was ok because when I rolled over realizing it wasn't you I pushed him off. That because I pushed him off that makes it all ok?"
"Hell no it doesn't!" he snaps at me and I just shrug crossing my arms over my chest.
"Then what makes it ok that he does it?" I ask nodding my head at the guy sitting on his bed.
"Because David knew you were mine! He knew that we were together and…"
"But we weren't together." I shrug proud that I am winning this argument, "I wasn't yours that night. So whatever happened with David doesn't matter."
"Brooke…" he growls at me clearly wanting me to know what happened.
"Lucas." I smirk at him.
"Very good choice my man, very good choice." I hear Felix say and for the first time smiling at something the guy said.
"What happened with David?" Lucas asks and I just shrug with a smile and after a few seconds he starts to smile, "That was pretty messed up." He smiles clearly knowing I was just trying to prove a point.
"Point one to Brooke." I shrug pushing past him but he grabs my hand spinning me around to face him with a smirk.
"You always get the points." He grins stepping closer to me clearly forgetting his little cousin in the room. Well that or just not caring, "But again that was messed up."
"Again unless it's you I do not like being felt up."
"I'll be the only one to feel you up." He smirks running his hand up my bare thigh and holding onto my hip making sure my shirt has risen up and showing my black lace underwear.
"Yeah well until I say different you aren't going to get to anytime soon." I smirk back grabbing his hand and pulling it off my side making him pout.
"I'm always good at making you cave on that." he grins keeping his eyes locked on mine.
"Guys maybe I should step outside since you two clearly have some sexual tension you need to work out." Felix says.
"That would be great." Lucas grins but I shake my head no.
"Its ok Felix stay." I smile pushing my body up against my boyfriend, "You are so about to find out how great I am at teasing." I smirk leaning up to kiss him but pulling back when he leans forward.
"That's not fair." He pouts sticking out his bottom lip like a child.
"It seems very fair to me." I shrug.
"Dude this is your fault…" he informs Felix turning to look at him, "I just got my girl back now I don't get to touch her because you touched her!"
"It's not my fault!" he defended, "I saw her in your bed and man she is really hot."
"No shit she is hot! Do you know how hard it is not to touch her?" he tells him and I just laugh, trust me not touching me is not that hard but really ego boost there, "Trust me I went through months of not getting to touch her."
"Hey! You did get to touch me!" I tell him because if I remember correctly before we had sex he touched me a lot.
"But I love you and I want to touch you more." he pouts again and I just roll my eyes he is so dumb. I love him but he is dumb.
"Well let's see how much you love me over the next week or so."
"Week or so? That's like forever! Can't I just use the weeks we have been apart for like credit to the next week or so?"
"Nope." I tell him shaking my head with a smile leaning up to kiss him but stopping before he can kiss me with a smirk, "Bye Felix it was so nice waking up to you this morning." I say before walking away from my boyfriend and down the hall to the living room grabbing my jeans pulling them on hearing Lucas mumble, "Thanks a lot Felix." Yet I don't say anything just smile give him a wink and leave.
Ok don't worry Felix is not going to mess them up. I just needed him for some stress caused to Lucas, nothing bad for him and Brooke. They aren't going to break up anymore this story they will be together from here on out. I mean there maybe some arguing, a little fighting but nothing major to break up.
Also I don't know if the whole Dad thing with Kylee was random for everyone but that is kind of my back story in the part of the story and since in OTH Brooke's dad has always been MIA I thought it would be ok to put it in the story. Richard has been in it a few times but I just wanted to explain the hate Brooke feels for him, kinda of like I do mine. Because like the all we have a David thing I have a Kylee who is my amazing kick ass baby sister.
But again with the ramble which I do way too much.
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P.S. I started a new story you should all check out. It's called Secrets its really different from my others but I think you will all enjoy so yes definitely check it out :D
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