Disclaimer: Show me how it ends Stephenie Meyer, show me how defenseless they really are! Satisfied and empty inside out, that's alright we'll give this another try, (Not Stephenie Meyer)
Disclaimer Deuce: The world is a scary place now that you've woken up the demon in me.
Xavier's POV
It was a bit of work to track him down but I finally did. He wasn't hard prey to track but to also evade the Cullens while searching him out made it more difficult. He was here, and to my own surprise his eyes weren't quite as golden as the Cullens.
"Oh, look at that." I said giddily at him. This was unexpected, and welcomed. He reached out and grabbed me lifting me off the ground with without touching me.
"Ohh, and telekinetic powers! I have struck gold it appears." I said even though I couldn't move in midair.
"You're not so… noble and upright as those Cullens, now are you?"
"I would practice restraint, I could kill you this instant." I smiled.
"Oh you may well realize that I'm somewhat difficult to kill… But you don't want to kill me… no no no, shhh… No I can help you achieve what you want more than anything." I explained.
"We are nothing alike, you know nothing about me." he said letting his anger surface.
"Heh… we're not so much different you and I, and ultimately we have the same goal." I explained as he watched me with a critical eye not releasing.
"And what is it that I want?" He said trying to hide his curiosity. I smiled back at him.
"You want Embry out of the way, permanently… but you can't do that yourself, hahaha, heheheh, oh no… your little sweetie pie? No she wouldn't approve of that." I grinned as he processed my opinion.
"Why do you think I need your help to keep my girlfriend with me?" He asked me and I watched his resolve faltering.
"Because, you almost killed him… you didn't get the job done, and worse than that, she's right there with him, helping nurse him back to health… Don't you think it's possible she'll see the man she fell in love with before you dying… until the job is finished… well you can kiss your precious Leah goodbye." A flicker of recognition ran through his eyes and I flew backwards shattering a tree behind me.
"Now now… getting violent won't fix the fact that you screwed this up." I felt my body release then both my arms get ripped from my body. I smiled.
"well… I'll be around… find me if you want to get serious about winning Leah back." I laughed as I let my body die.
Mike's POV
I didn't know what to make of it all, but here I was sitting in an abandoned warehouse Xavier standing up and pacing.
"Where to start, oh this is so exciting, I never expected you to put up a fight, at first look you just look like an overweight lazy person, but no… oh boy was I wrong! I was wrong indeed, you fought very well, you fought aggressively. And surprisingly you have form, and muscle! Who would have known, I suppose the old adage about judging books by their cover is true." He said beaming like a kid in a candy shop. I was paralyzed by fear. There was nothing I could do, I'd read and seen what the Cullens could do, there was no possible way to get away from him, he was faster, stronger, and probably smarter than I was.
"Originally I was just going to kill you or suck your blood, but you will serve a much bigger purpose than that… but first we need to get you in to shape, stronger, faster, you'll be my very best student I've had… Oh it's just mouthwatering to talk about… Oh I'm sorry… that's a bad phrase around lunchtime." I couldn't argue, I'd gone stiff from fear. I didn't even argue that I'd be sucked clean, or tortured beyond reason… but I had to ask, had to say it.
"Wh…why… do you think I'll help you?" His complexion changed immediately.
"Well, I'm going to make you a better man… I'm going to show you everything you need to know… I'm going to teach you about how underhanded and tricky the Cullen's and how they've been using you… You might not believe me at first, and you may hate me for a long time… but eventually you'll know the truth…" he answered. I didn't believe it. The Cullens were my only friends and they would never betray me."
"Well I suppose now it for the hating part… You're going to run a mile right now… and if you don't make it a mile… well I suppose you can figure out what will happen to you after that… but I'm fairly sure you want to make it a mile." He said smiling.
Jacob's POV
It was hard to watch my best friend die, but that's exactly what I was doing now. It was weird, we all put on smiles and laughs as the façade continued but I wanted to cry. When was the right time to say goodbye? When should we let go? His mother and father arrived last night. It was so weird calling my father his. It was surreal, just as it was when we started phasing to become a wolf. It first started as a nightmare, and then, a dream come true and now this. It was kind of funny in a sick kind of way. We both looked to a future without end, my future wife would never age and so I'd never stop phasing, and He would stay a wolf forever, until he found his one true love no matter how long it took. Now look at him, he won't even see twenty five.
I wanted to spend all my time with him but I had responsibilities now. I was a father and I had to take care of my daughter Layla. I wanted to spend all my time with her, but as much as it hurt me to even think it, in two days I wouldn't have Embry to watch, he'd be dead.
If that wasn't bad enough Mike Iverson was kidnapped by Xavier. I had no idea where he'd run. Edward, Bella, Emmett, and Rosalie were still out trying to track him down but he multiplied and ran in different directions making it impossible to track him. It was weird seeing someone outside of the family getting in to Rosalie's circle of people she cared about, but Mike was definitely there. Tanya had only come back to explain to Mike's family how Mike gave her a head start when four people tried to kidnap her, and took him instead. She played her part well. She wasn't emotionally stable right now. None of us would question her though. As soon as she told his family she joined up the search for Xavier and Mike. They would find him… Tanya called up the rest of the Denali Coven and now they were on their way. Garrett from what I've heard is a great tracker, but this might be a feat even for him.
I returned my focus down at Embry over the last half week his body had started to fade away. The venom we couldn't get out of him slowly sucking the muscle and fat out of his body. He was a twig now with next to no muscle. Feeding him was difficult as well since he was supposed to eat roughly a horse a day and we could only feed him through IVs. Carlisle stepped in to the room with a slightly confused look on his face then turned to me.
"Can you help me move Ms. Steramin in to the other room?" I stopped for a second remembering that was D's last name. I grabbed the bed frame and Carlisle grabbed the other side. We lifted it out of the room and Carlisle closed the door behind me. I didn't understand why he moved her. He seemed worried at first then he reclaimed his calm guise.
"Why did you move her in here, all your materials are in the other room." He looked hesitant to answer. D turned from me to him and nodded wondering the same thing. I could read conflict in his expression even though he covered it up quickly.
"There is something I need to tell you and I didn't want Embry to hear it… it might put more undue stress on his body than needed. And right now he can't have that." I nodded understanding the situation but D didn't.
"What's wrong with me, is it the baby? Did something happen to my baby? Is everything going to be alright?" Carlisle attempted to calm her down but was failing.
"Calm down Destiny, Carlisle is the best doctor I know." I said trying to calm her down, she quieted down and Carlisle continued.
"I couldn't get the ultrasound." I immediately knew what this meant.
"What do you mean you couldn't get an ultrasound, how is that even possible?" she said almost yelling. Jasper appeared stepping in to the door and D immediately was calm. Carlisle composed himself before continuing.
"What I mean is your child will at least be part vampire."
Mike's POV
I was out of breath after running a mile, I had always hated running. Xavier had a quart of water for me after it. I drank it quickly. He laughed as I finished it without putting it down.
"We're not done yet Mike... you've got weights to do today." He said point to the corner were some weights and a bench press sat.
"I know it's lacking, but this didn't all go according to my plan. I'm having a couple of my other selves grab some extra clothes and more work out equipment.
"I assume you know how to use a bench press?" He asked. I nodded laying my back on it, I was still exhausted and severely winded but it didn't seem like I had much of a choice.
"How does starting out with forty fives on either side sound." I shrugged. I hadn't bench pressed seriously before. I screwed around with it when I was in eighth grade, but that was before my body had grown. I grabbed the bar and lifted it off the weights I breathed in as the bar lowered to my chest and breathed out forcing the bar up.
"Keep going till you can't… believe me… I'll know if you're not trying." I slowly lowered it to my chest then lifted it again breathing out using proper form one of the things I'd learned I let the bar slowly fall down and I pushed with all my force feeling sweat dripping down my face. I felt my muscles and body clenching as I pushed the bar up for a fourth time and let it fall to my chest not hitting my chest. I clenched my teeth pressing it up in to the air. It dropped back to my chest but I couldn't push anymore my muscles were forcing it but it wouldn't lift. I felt it lift from me as Xavier put it on the holders. I winced in pain and exhaustion.
"Five… not bad for not having done bench press before. He handed me twenty pound weights and told me to start curling them until my arms couldn't. I did and I felt more pain in my body. He pointed me towards a bath tub that one of him had recently installed. It was behind a small wall and I didn't care right now I was a sweaty sopping mess I turned on cold water and stripped my clothes off and climbed in. I had to let my body adjust to the temperature. It was cold but not cold enough to send a shock to my system. I settled in to it wearing swimming trunks he'd handed me… he told me he'd be talking to me while I was in the tub and if it made me more comfortable put them on. My body was just getting used to the temperature now and he sat down across from me.
"I guess now is as good of a time to tell you as any… it might be hard to hear but I figured you of all people would want the straight, unfiltered truth." He had changed, he wasn't his sort of playful self right now. He seemed somber. He seemed honest.
"The truth is the Cullen's have been trying to control you all this time. There's so much I don't even know where to start." He said looking at where to start.
"The beginning?" He laughed without humor at my response.
"The beginning is a long time ago. I suppose we can start with the basics. Emmett and Rosalie have been together for decades… They saw you were getting to close so Rosalie brought you in." I shook my head not wanting to believe it but it made sense.
"They've been together that long Rosalie is horribly narcissistic. She may have enjoyed the fact she could hold you in the palm of your hand." I looked down trying to deny this… this blatantly obvious fact. I wanted to tell him he was wrong but I knew he wasn't. I tried to keep a straight face but felt the warmth of tears developing. That's just what I needed… I was too frickin' emotional and I'd let myself fall for Rosalie… at least I had Tanya… he couldn't tarnish that.
"Emmett simply follows Rosalie's lead… she's the ring leader of those to. Initially Carlisle disapproved of the idea believing the connection with Emmett would make it clear, but quickly you fell for her and he approved it as a way to keep you under their thumb without endangering their way of life. Carlisle is the mastermind of it all, he doesn't intend to hurt anyone but to sustain their lifestyle they must, and his family is paramount to him." I shook my head. It all made sense but I didn't want to believe it.
"No it's not like that… it just isn't!" I said straining my voice and moving, I sunk back in to the cold bath.
"I'm sorry Mike, I didn't mean to offend you but I wanted to give you the truth. I won't make myself out to be a saint. The reason I gave you that book is because I didn't want you to be without knowledge about them. That night you learned all about them I wanted you to know the truth not their version of the truth." It was all so hard to take in, it felt like it was there in front of me but I didn't want to accept it, it made sense, there was no real reason Rosalie would want me, no real reason.
"Don't worry… I'll help you get your revenge, but I think you've got enough to think about now… come on it is time for balance exercises. I climbed out of the cold tub and he tossed me boxers, basketball shorts, and a sleeveless shirt. I toweled myself off and changed as he turned around. He pointed to a balance beam.
"We're going to be fighting on that… nothing too intense because we're working on balance… come on let's go." He said motioning me to follow, I was in all sorts of pain right now.
Leah's POV
I watched Jacob and Carlisle move D's bed in to the other room. I slowly got out of bed not to disturb my baby. I moved to Embry's side and ran my hand up from his palm up his arm his eyes opened quickly and he pulled my arm closer to him. I could feel it clearly… he was much weaker. The only part of him the still looked strong was his brown eyes. They still looked deep in to me stirring a passion I had long since thought gone.
"Hi." I said smiling at him. it was a rare moment. I knew it was all he could do right now to curl his lips up ever so slightly in response to me. Ness stepped in to the room then called for Layla.
"Layla, what are you doing in Carlisle's Office?" she asked before leaving the room. I ran my fingers down the side of his face gently and I could see him enjoying it. I slid my fingers to my lips kissing them then touched his lips.
"Embry… There is something I need you to know. However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you, Whatever words I say, I will always love you." I said finishing a quote. I tried to fight back the tears but I failed and one rebel tear slipped out of my eye and down my cheek. I couldn't take it. This man had changed my life and whether I was with him or not, I'd love him and he'd be gone soon, too soon. He gently pulled on my arm and I bent down closer to him, summoning more strength than I thought he had he reached up to my face and wiped away my tear. I guided his weak arm back down to the bed next to him. I bent my face down further until our noses were touching then I pushed the last distance kissing him lightly on the lips before standing back up. I turned around quickly before another tear could sneak past my eyes.
Xavier's POV
I had learned much about Mike observing him. I'd need to be careful… He had his doubts about some of the Cullens, but he was fiercely loyal to others. With him it was walking through a mine field. I needed to turn him, and that required he trust in me. I knew he didn't trust all the Cullen's completely. I knew he trusts Edward the least, which would be my focal point. Tanya, Embry, Rosalie, and Jacob were completely off limits, he wouldn't waver in his trust of them, I might be able to weaken it, put doubt in his mind but He'd never turn on them. That was fine though, I'd find my ways around it. All I really needed in the end was a distraction, He would make that perfect distraction. I didn't want a simple distraction though, if he could be my pupil that would be best… he showed more potential than anyone I had seen in a long time. True he needed to get in to better shape but that was possible, it was doable, he and the perfect temperament to be controlled, but I could not control him normally. I had to always give him options, just make sure he always picked my option. The best way to control someone else let them believe they were in control. I curled my lips in to a smile. Everything was going according to plan. The pieces were falling in to place.
Jacob's POV
"What do you mean part vampire? How is that possible, Embry's a werewolf, I've never slept with anyone but him, I don't get it how?"D said obviously upset I had an idea of how it might have happened… but I didn't want it to be that way. It was a future we didn't know for sure. There were way too many maybes.
"All I know for sure is the only instance of this happening I've seen in the very long time I've been a doctor was with Bella. My best guess is that the venom that went in to your body spread throughout your system to the baby. When we sucked the venom out of your body we sucked all of it out, but it was too late and had already spread to the child…" Carlisle explained. I was shocked with fear, this was my niece or nephew we were talking about. What if the child was an immortal child, would we have the will to kill it? Carlisle quickly interrupted my thoughts.
"The last time this happened… Renesmee almost killed Bella, would have too if she wasn't turned in a vampire, but from what I can see your reactions have been less… drastic. I've been trying to do some research on this kind of thing, but it's very difficult to find information. Everything I've found would suggest that the venom should kill the fetus outright, but yours hasn't. I'm only speculating but…"
"What? What is it?" D interrupted quickly. She'd have her answer if she didn't insist on interrupting but I couldn't blame her. This isn't the kind of news you hear every day, and her hormones were in overdrive to top it off.
"I think that Embry's Shifter genes are fighting off the Vampire venom, or at least balancing it out…" Carlisle said.
"There's more to it than that isn't there Doctor?" D asked watching him carefully. He nodded.
"Yes… it's very possibly the genes that aren't Shifter are being converted to shifter genes or being affected by the venom… but it's impossible to know… really I don't know any of this… these are just ideas. It is completely possible that I'm wrong, or worse… You'll give birth to an Immortal Child." He responded gravely. It was my worse fear. And we would be forced to protect it, keep it… it would be the last of Embry, we'd have no other choice… I would protect my nephew or niece to I drew my last breath.
"What's an immortal child?" D asked curiously.
"It's a baby vampire… they never age, and their outlawed by the vulturi because they never age to a point where they can make conscious decisions. The penalty for keeping an immortal child is death." She gasped slightly then slowly rubbed her stomach. I knew that look in her eye… I understood it… It was determination. No matter what happened, she would protect that baby with every ounce of her that she had.
Renesmee's POV
I walked in to the room playing another game of hide and seek with Layla. I turned noticing Leah standing over Embry. The way she stood told it all. I didn't mind, in fact I thought it was good to get everything out there. I hadn't known Embry as long as everyone else here but I knew he deserved to know how she felt. I turned my attention to Layla who had made her way in to Carlisle's Office.
"Layla, what are you doing in Carlisle's Office?" I said closing the door behind me giving Leah and Embry their privacy. I looked at the ground and noticed six broken syringes a seventh flew from Layla's hand and I caught it easily, all of them the needles were bent.
"Carlisle's needles don't work!" she said pouting. I smiled looking at her she was absolutely adorable and it took a strong effort on my part to be angry at her even now.
"You shouldn't be breaking Carlisle's medical equipment." I said calmly but firm.
"They don't work!" she said throwing a small fit. I looked at her.
"What do you mean?" she grabbed my hand then touched me using my power to show me her memories of trying to poke herself with a syringe. I didn't understand why she'd do that. I was still getting used to seeing my power used on me but we quickly learned Layla has the power of anyone she touches as long as physical contact continues, even more than that her power is twice as powerful as the original power. Her using my power on me always made my head spin a little.
"Why would you want to do that?" I said chiding her as I picked her up with a smile.
"Embry's blood is bad… I wanted to give him my blood!" she exclaimed. I laughed and smiled then thought about it for a moment. I disappeared in to the next room then looked for Carlisle who had stepped out for a moment.
"I know it's a crazy idea, but what if we transferred some of my blood to Embry, I mean I have amazing regenerative abilities like shifters but my blood shouldn't be affected negatively by the venom… it could work." I watched Carlisle go through ideas in his mind.
"Usually you need to be a blood type match, there is so much red tape we should clear." Embry's mother stepped in the door wearing a conflicted look on her face. It was not hope, but the want to hope.
"Doctor, you gave my son roughly one day left to live… if there is anything that may increase that or even have a chance to you have my consent." Billy wheeled in behind Sue nodding.
"Mine as well." Billy said with a calm affirming tone.
"As a doctor this is all new to me, This isn't treating a gunshot wound. This is a completely new area, now looking at this very basically the venom from a vampire spreads through the bloodstream turning or killing it's victim. It's been established that most has been removed hence why Embry has lived this long, and he's very strong. Logically speaking the idea of putting in healthy blood to clean it might work, but I never had considered half vampires blood to do it. I just knew human blood wouldn't work and Vampire's wouldn't either. With the healing properties a half vampire holds it is plausible to believe that there may be a chance that by giving him some clean blood without any venom could possibly work to heal him." Carlisle explained.
"There was an awful lot of possiblies, and plausiblies in there." Billy noted. Carlisle nodded. He sighed as he ran his hand across his chin.
"I wish I could give you a better answer but this is an odd circumstance. I doubt your ancestors had allies who could suck the venom out of their veins if they were bit." Billy nodded.
"Please try it… I want to thank you for taking care of him like this… he's my son, and without your help I would have never seen him again." I nodded.
"He is part of my family, I will do everything within my power to help heal him." I stepped forward as well.
"I know I haven't known him long, but he's always felt like a brother to me." I said seriously. Carlisle turned to me critically.
"If we're going to do this, I want to do this correctly. I need something to pierce your skin, and it must be sterile. So please make sure you brush your teeth before you bite yourself…" He pointed to a point in my arm.
"I want you to bite yourself right there…" he said shrugging, not completely liking the idea of hurting his granddaughter. I could see it in his eyes. I smiled.
"Grandpa, I gave birth to a child, this won't be so bad." I said looking at him again he smiled.
Mike's POV
The day was over. The last balancing exercise was difficult, my body was exhausted from the work outs and the balance was hard, harder than it should have been. I'd just taken a nice cold shower after the work out and my body was still on fire. I'd been given a semi private area, The curtains were hung around my bed and desk area. There were lights for reading on either right now I was just laying in bed. Xavier stepped in to my area.
"Hey… I got you some books for you to read… wrestling, ground fighting, grappling technique, you're going to be studying when you're not working out…" I looked down at the books the back at him. He sat down at the chair.
"I know this isn't easy for you to hear but… they were using Tanya also…" I shook my head immediately.
"No… I love Tanya." It was the first time I'd said it… I'd never been able to say it to her… it was too hard but in this emotional wreck I was in I must have slipped… or maybe I just let my guard down.
"I'm sorry Mike… I know she cares an awful lot for you but there is someone else." He said gently. My body tensed. I always knew she was too good for me.
"Who." He looked down then back up at me and sighed…
"It's real she really cares about you but… she's wanted Edward for half a century… maybe longer… I guess you're her second choice." I felt tears of betrayal surface. I didn't believe it, I didn't want to… It couldn't be true.
"No… no you're lying."
I could see it… I hated it in every way and I tried to push it aside like it wasn't there but it was… I was just her second choice… leftovers. It was Edward's fault. He did this to me, the fucking mind rapist seduced her and kept her at arm's length on purpose, that sick fuck just did it to build his own confidence.
I need to show you." He said. I got up and followed him. inside the large building was many miscellaneous materials laying about. There was a high window I could never reach and he pointed to it. he looked at me then ran up the side of the wall and grabbed on to the window opening it.
"Simple enough… You need to be able to do that, then pull yourself out of the building by the end of the month… if not… then you're not worth my time and you won't live to disappoint me further… one month." I stood awestruck completely unable to believe it.
"How am I supposed to do that?" I asked honestly.
"Parkour, we start that and swimming tomorrow."
Jacob's POV
I watched helplessly as my love's blood was being syringed in to my best friend. He looked like a skeleton now… he hadn't eaten solid food in days and now he looked like a shell of himself… his face was thin, his arms bare, his breathing was light and labored. It looked painful. He hadn't spoken in two days. It was horrible seeing my best friend slowly get the life sucked out of him. His very body had betrayed him, his voice was gone and now his parents stand over him holding their breath, waiting for a miracle. Not just a miracle but a stretch to a miracle, even less likely. If it worked it'd be a miracle. We all watched not knowing what to expect. We had been staring at him for a minute now and he showed no progress… and then it happened.
Embry's POV
My mind was in overhaul. I had given up on keeping my eyes open, it was so much easier just to let darkness overtake me. I felt a stab in to my collar, near where I was bitten. I couldn't tell if he was taking blood or injecting me with something until He started to press down in the syringe. I felt warmth in my collar, then my chest, then slowly it spread up and down my cold body. I felt it releasing me from the cold grips of death, and then I felt my lungs… it felt like I was breathing for the first time since being bit. I felt myself regaining control of my body. I opened my eyes slowly looking down at my mom who was in tears with her hands wrapped around mine. I squeezed gently and smiled as she looked at me.
"Hi Mom." I felt immediate pain as I tried to talk like someone had their hand wrapped around my lungs squeezing. She jumped to her feet and hugged me tightly causing me to cough. I heard laughing. I noticed how many people had gathered around me. I saw Billy next to her and I couldn't resist.
"Dada.." I said as innocently as I could. I heard Leah snicker to my opposite side as she had pushed to my side next to D who had also came by.
"Don't you even start Embry, we might have missed you, but we didn't miss you that much." He said trying to keep a stern disapproving look on his face but the smile was slowly escaping. I started laughing and pain shot through me. I gritted my teeth and waiting for it to pass. Dr. Carlisle came to my side, hands empty… he never used a clipboard. He smiled at me.
"It's good you're recovering… Where do you think your worse pain is?" He asked. I didn't need to think about it.
"Lungs." I said not saying more than needed. He nodded.
"Well you need to work your lungs then to get them back to strength and help the blood work." I nodded in agreement.
"The best way to do this would probably be singing a song." He said skeptically. I nodded. Carlisle turned to my parents with another smile.
"He's starting to recover… I don't know how long it will take to fully recover… but it looks like he's going in the right direction." My mom nodded. She turned to Billy.
"Hey, I think Embry will want some time to talk to his friends." Billy nodded. Mom turned and wheeled him out of the room and to the hotel they told me they were staying at.
"The best way for you to rehab right now is to talk…" I nodded.
"Okay." I said but said nothing more because of the pain. Carlisle disappeared for a moment then reappeared with my guitar.
"Something that will force you to talk through the pain… singing." I nodded… it made sense. I started to get up but in an instant I felt cold hands pushing me back down. Jasper was nearly on the bed holding me down.
"No, you can't move yet." He said as I propped myself up again.
"I'd like to use the laptop" I said forcing myself to use a full sentence even though it hurt. I felt like a five year old asking permission.
"You didn't say please." Jacob said behind me and I turned in time to see Leah backhand him. Ness smiled approving of the action. Jacob looked offended.
"Come on, Ness, you're not gonna say anything?" Jacob gaped.
"No, you had it coming." She said smiling. D even laughed at that remark. Esme returned with a laptop and I quickly looked up the cord progression of the song I wanted to play and read it over. I knew the lyrics. I put my arm over the acoustic and slowly started strumming, not sure if my voice would hold out the whole song or not. I looked down then up, unwittingly it felt like I was playing a concert… until now I hadn't realized how far to big my own shirt was on me, I was almost swimming in it.
"Send away for a priceless gift
one not subtle, one not on the list
send away for a perfect world
one not simply, so absurd
in these times of doing what you're told
keep these feelings, no one knows
what ever happened to the young man's heart?
swallowed by pain, as he slowly fell apart" I sang even though I wanted to stop, the pain was excoriating..
"And I'm staring down the barrel of a 45,
I'm swimming through the ashes of another life
There's no real reason to accept the way things have changed
Staring down the barrel of a 45" I said pushing my vocal cords harder and further. That note would have strained me before, now I was almost in tears from the pain.
"Send a message to the unborn child
Keep your eyes open for a while
In a box high up on the shelf, left for you, no one else
There's a piece of a puzzle known as life
Wrapped in guilt, sealed up tight" I forced myself to ignore the burning pain in my lungs.
"What ever happened to the young man's heart?
Swallowed by pain, as he slowly fell apart?" I blinked heavily forcing myself to ignore the pain and push on through the chorus.
"And I'm staring down the barrel of a 45,
I'm swimming through the ashes of another life
There's no real reason to accept the way things have changed
Staring down the barrel of a 45" my fingers momentarily slipped but I put them back in place continuing the song.
"Everyone's pointing their fingers
Always condemning me
And nobody knows what I believe
I believe" I coughed.
"And I'm staring down the barrel of a 45,
I'm swimming through the ashes of another life
There's no real reason to accept the way things have changed
Staring down the barrel of a 45." I said finishing the song. My lungs expanded and contracted in pain. I set down the guitar looking up at those around me with a smile.
"I'm going to be okay." I said firmly, not a question, but a statement
Rough night, rough week, rough month sorry it took so long to write and update but hey it's much longer than most the chapters in this story. Hope you like it. Please leave reviews. Thank you to the hardcore reviewers who stick with me through all this shit. Remember, knucks, high fives, rolls of twenty dollar bills and reviews, catch you on the flip side.