Previously…

"Do you and Alice fight?"

"Not a lot, but we have been known to. Do not worry, you will make up."

"I am still mad at him for not telling me, but I understand why." She yawned feeling his hand on her cheek, "Sleep Bella, you need it." She shook her head no, "I need my husband." He leaned over and kissed her head softly, "Sleep Bella." He whispered again and suddenly all was dark.

She awoke to darkness knowing it was probably either really late or really early. She suddenly panicked realizing she had not seen Edward and had slept through most of the day or night, whichever it didn't matter to her she just needed to see him. She attempted to sit up and was held down by a heavy arm.

"Edward?"

"Yes love." She turned over to see his face. It was illuminated in the shadows by the moonlight. She was at a loss for words, "You are insanely handsome." He sighed kissing her head, "Sleep Bella."

"No, no last time Jasper said that I was out forever." He heard her heart rate increase and moved his hand to her face, "Calm down, I'm not going to make you sleep." She smiled slightly moving closer to him she paused a minute saying nothing then laid her head on his chest. It didn't go unnoticed by him.

"Are you in pain?"

"Not a lot." She lied.

"You're a bad liar." She pulled his arm around her, "I want to be with my husband not playing twenty questions. I love you and I missed you can we just leave it at that?" She was hurting and a little grouchy, she would have to work a little harder at it to keep him from knowing.

"You know we can't. It changes everything." His voice was haunted, he sounded broken and sad. She leaned up, "It changes nothing Edward. It's my fault, I was upset and I pushed you. I knew you said stop, I knew you wanted to be gentle but it's not what I wanted. You warned me several times it was too much, you would hurt me and what did I do?"

"It wasn't you that listened, I should have insisted on being careful. I knew I was losing control." Just the thought made him queasy.

"But when you warned me what did I do?" When he didn't answer she made him look at her, "Look at me and tell me what I did!" She was determined that he understand she was just as responsible as he was, even more so.

"It doesn't matter, I shouldn't have listened."

"Do you love me?" She asked knowing how he would react, "You know I do, more than anything. I would do anything for you."

"Exactly my point."

"If that anything is safe for you, I crossed the line."

"I asked you to, no I begged you to. If I recall correctly I crossed it for you and you tried to fight me and finally gave in. Am I remembering correctly?"

"It doesn't matter if you are, I still hurt you." She shook her head, "We hurt me. There was no you, it was both of us. After all I helped. To be honest I…" Her voice drifted off.

"You what?" He asked now concerned. She looked guilty, "I wanted you to hurt me."

"WHAT!" He almost sat up with her on him until he heard her gasp in pain. "Oh Bella, I'm sorry. Here, let me get you something." He laid her beside him as gently as he could and slipped off the bed. She closed her eyes trying to calm her breathing. When he moved he had touched all of the places where she was hurting in some way or the other.

"I've got some pills Carlisle left for you. Here's some water." She suddenly didn't care that he knew. She felt like she was on fire from the inside out. She took it gratefully and handed him back the glass. He knelt beside the bed on the floor. "It's probably better if I'm not close to you right now."

"No the cool helps."

He sighed crawling back into the bed. He made no movement as she repositioned herself on him, her leg wrapped over his. They were like this a long time before he finally asked, "Where are you hurting Bella?"

"I was thinking maybe we could go to the park tomorrow if I feel better." She changed the subject. He couldn't believe she would try and get off that easy. "Bella, I asked you a question."

"You did and I ignored it."

"I prefer you answer it. I can be more careful if I know where you are hurting." She was extremely still for a moment then ran her hand over his chest. "Can we please not talk about this?" His hand fell over hers stilling the motion.

"Sorry love, no can do." She realized he was not going to stop asking, she should have known, stubborn vampire.

"My ribs, here," she pressed slightly then continued, " My stomach."

"Your stomach?" He looked at her oddly, "Where? Show me." Taking his hand she pressed her lower stomach right below the belly button. He groaned realizing what she meant. "Bella, I… I'm so sorry. I could've…"

His voice cracked. "Did Carlisle?"

She interrupted him, "No and he's not going to." He frowned, "This is no time to be modest Bella, I could have done a lot of damage."

"I am fine, no bleeding, nothing unusual just sore. I promised if it gets worse I'd let him know. It feels more like I got in a car wreck and jerked around a little and well technically you are as hard as a car."

"Harder actually."

"Well yeah that too, wow I didn't even think of that." She said in sudden amusement.

His eyes narrowed, "Think of what?"

"I made love to someone who is harder than a car, no wonder I hurt." He frowned, "That is NOT amusing." She sighed, "I am trying to lighten you up, I will be fine. Let's just accept it and move on." She then bit her lip,"Would you do something if I asked you to?"

"Haven't we been down this road? The answer is no." She giggled, "No not that, I wanted to see the water. You know in the moonlight, with you."

"You're in no condition to go anywhere right now."

"Right dad, watch me." She tried to sit up but her head was spinning, "Woah, can you ask the room to stop spinning please." He chuckled, "Hard head. You just don't listen." She fell back moaning. He moved leaning over her, "I'm sorry, are you ok?" Moving the arm that was across her eyes she grabbed his shirt. "I will be when you kiss me."

"Bella!"

"I asked for a kiss not to get naked, although if you wanted to I could watch." She grinned. He shook his head, "You my dear are terrible! You can't be hurting too bad."

"My beautiful husband, would you please kiss me?" He watched her a minute then leaned down to her lips. Her lips were soft and they welcomed him. He made sure not to touch her anywhere for fear of hurting her. She ran her hand into his hair playing with the nape of his neck. He sighed against her lips. "You make me crazy Bella." He pulled her hand away lifting up.

"Don't go." She begged softly. "Bella, I have to I don't want a rerun of last night." She smirked, "I didn't say you had to do that I just wanted to kiss you longer."

"And I am telling you it's too much, too many emotions right now. Not a good idea."

She shook her head, "If you say it's too much then I'll have to trust you on that. I know what happens if I don't." She giggled.

"You are still not funny."

"I'll keep trying."

"I think your pain meds are kicking in."

"Yeah, me too."

He chuckled, "Ah, so this medication makes you all loopy. This could be quite fun." She playfully pushed him, "You are an evil creature Edward Cullen. Trying to take advantage of a doped up lady."

"I didn't see a lady." He said as he pretended to look around. "EDWARD!" She said shocked but laughed, "Bad, bad boy. What am I going to do with you besides love you forever?" He smiled sadly, "I don't know."

"Don't you go getting all upset on me!"

He laid back down pulling her close, "I won't love. I won't." He kissed her head, "I love you my Bella."

"I love you too, I'm sorry about this morning. I don't know why I got so hormonal on you." He smiled, "It's ok. We were both going through a lot of emotions. I think that played a part."

"But I hurt you, and I'm sorry. I didn't mean to."

"I think we both hurt each other, we'll have to learn to talk more in the future." She raised an eyebrow, "You were talking I was not listening." He shrugged, "So we work on your people skills." She giggled, "I have a skill for you Mr. Cullen."

"Bella, medication kicking in, understand?"

"I understand you are being stuffy." He frowned, "What does that mean? What is stuffy?" She giggled, "You are stuffy, you know…you know what I mean."

"I am afraid I do not know what you mean."

Hearing a knock on the door she looked over her shoulder, "Come in."

Jasper and Alice came in quietly. "How are you feeling?" Alice asked touching her arm. "Oh just hunkey dorey, is that a real word?" she thought a minute and laughed, "You know my medication for my back was nothing like this stuff, I like it, sadly enough I don't think that stuffy here does." She pointed to Edward.

Alice giggled, "She's funny Edward." He sighed, "Great then you try and deal with her and whatever this stuffy means." She patted his arm, "Awh is she driving you crazy?" Bella shook her finger at Jasper, "You are a bad, bad man."

"Me?" He looked at her oddly, "Why?"

"You kiss me and I sleep." They all chuckled. "Did I do that? I don't recall. Maybe you just think that's what happened." There was a look of confusion on her face, "I am not crazy, I know it's what happened."

"Are you quite certain?"

"No."

He leaned towards her, "No you are not certain?" She tried to lean away from him, "No, no kisses." He met Edward's eyes and nodded looking back at her. "Bella, can I get a hug?"

"No."

"Ok, a handshake." He asked moving closer. She shook her head, "No, no you'll try and kiss me." He rested his cool hand on her leg, "I don't have to kiss you darlin', night night." She was suddenly very sleepy, "It's not true what they say you know." She began fighting sleep.

"What is that?" Jasper questioned sending another wave over her. "Blondes aren't more fun." She murmured before falling into a deep sleep. Alice laughed, "Well, I guess she is quite the character when she is on pain meds." Edward smiled covering her up. "Thanks Jasper. I think Carlisle should give her something else." Alice kissed Jasper's cheek, "I'll be watching television, a fashion show is coming on."

"I guess we are shopping soon?"

She winked, "See ya Edward." He smiled walking to the window and looking out.

"How are you doing?"

"I'm ok."

"You know you can't blame yourself. She is blaming herself because you are blaming yourself and I want to kill you both." Edward faced him and chuckled, "I can imagine you do." He then grew serious, "We talked a little, I can see her point but it doesn't make it hurt me any less when I see her in pain and know I am the cause of it."

"Why don't you turn her? I can feel you want to."

"It's not that simple. She wants more. I won't turn her until she has decided what that is." Jasper watched him for a moment and nodded, "You want to have a child?"

"Well technically I'd prefer if she had it but…" Jasper hit his arm, "Don't play stupid with me." Edward's face was impassive as he shrugged, "She mentioned wanting one. I can't give it to her but I can let her have one. It would still be ours. I would get to watch her carry it, feel it kick. It will be a part of her. I want that Jasper. I didn't know I could ever want something like that, a family and a child but I do. She makes me want it."

"I understand, I am not against it. I know the girls will love the idea. I was just not sure what you wanted. Your emotions are in turmoil."

"I am scared I'll hurt her, now is bad enough but what about when someone else is involved? How will I touch her knowing our child is inside her?"

"The same way you did before, you will be more aware you must be careful. I know you will be fine, so does she. Not to mention I doubt if you will be able to stay away from her, I hear most men find it a very beautiful thing. If that is indeed the case you my friend will be lost."

"Tell me about it."

"I believe I just did brother." Edward shot him a look and turned to Bella, "Stay with her? I need to go to her house and get her old pain meds. I don't think I can handle her tomorrow like this and I would like to have a conversation with her."

"Go, I'll wait here."

He watched her a moment then leaned against the wall closing his eyes.

"Jasper?" He was startled she was awake and looked towards the bed. "Yes Bells?"

"I have to go to the bathroom." Crap!

"What do you need me to do?" He asked moving closer. "Just help me get there." Her voice was still laced with heavy sleep. She wanted nothing more than to go back to sleep but her bladder wouldn't wait. He pulled the covers back and gently helped her up only to feel her falling. "Woah there little darlin', I think I'll just carry you. Do I need to get Alice?"

"No, just get me in there I can manage."

He set her on the floor by the commode and she rested her hands on the counter. "You ok?" He asked before releasing her. "Yeah." He walked out closing the door.

"Jasper?"

He leaned on the door, "Yeah?"

"I'm finished." He smiled, he already knew that when he heard the commode flush but he didn't want to rush her. Opening the door he saw her trying to wash her hands and stepped behind her closing his hands over hers. "You are a bad druggy Bella."

"Tell me about it, where is my Edward?"

"Getting your other pain meds. Seems this one he doesn't like too much."

"Me either, I feel like I'm on a cloud. But I don't hurt."

"Well that is a good thing, come on arms around my neck." She turned smiling, "You know Jasper I don't have a lot of male friends, there's Jacob but… well is it stupid to say I feel close to you? Emmett too but especially you and Alice. She's not a guy you know."

"I noticed." He tried not to laugh continuing, " And I feel close to you too."

"Really? Like Rosalie? I feel better now." He chuckled, "Rosie is like a sister to me but you are more than that."

"More than that?"

"That sounds wrong, I don't mean like more than that in a romantic way, I mean in a friend way. I connect with you. Alice does too. It's not a bad thing. You can come to me and Alice whenever you need to. We'll always be here for you."

"You're so sweet." She rested her head on his chest. "Thank you."

"You're welcome. Now, let's get you back to bed."

"Alice is like Tinkerbell, doesn't she remind you of Tinkerbell?" He did laugh this time, "Yes, she does actually, small and chipper. She is always getting into something."

"I guess that makes you Jasper Pan huh?"

"Something like that." He laid her down covering her and standing back up.

"Will you stay with me?" She asked her eyes following him. "Of course, until Edward gets back." He sat beside her. "I'll sit right here. You should be sleeping."

"Are you going to force me again?"

"Do you want me to?"

"No." He smiled, "Then I won't. You seem calmer now anyway, tired and…" He looked at her oddly, "There is something else." She sighed rolling onto her side, her eyes slowly drifting. "Jaz?"

"Yes?"

"Will you hum to me?"

He raised an eyebrow. "What would you like to hear?" She moved pulling her pillow so it was close to his lap. "Anything, Edward hums to me." He nodded, "Ok." He felt her emotions and stroked her hair, "He'll be back soon, I promise. Rest now Bella, when you awaken your love will be here." He softly began to hum. It wasn't long until she was sleeping. Alice walked quietly in smiling. "She ok?"

"Yes."

She glanced down at her and then sat beside him. "You are really good with her Jasper."

"You mean because I don't try and bite her?"

She frowned, "No that is not what I mean mister know it all. I mean you're a good friend to her. You've always stayed to yourself really, you talk to everyone but you don't let anyone in."

"I let you in darlin'." He caressed her cheek. She smiled leaning into his hand, "I know. It's just good to see you opening up more. I am proud of you. She has such a sweet soul."

"Yes she does, but then so do you." She pulled his hand from her face and into hers. "I saw her having a baby Jaz. Do you think her and Edward are talking about that?"

"I'm not sure, it's possible." He hated not to tell her but it wasn't his place. She sighed happily, "It would be so wonderful. I can buy all kinds of things."

"I know you can and I'll bet she would love it."

"Do you wish I could do that?" She asked searching his face, "Do what?"

"Have a baby." He looked shocked, "Baby you are all I need. All I've ever needed. The answer is no, I love you the way you are. You my love are perfect. Why would you ask that?"

"I just wondered." He could feel her emotions and his eyes narrowed. "No, there is a reason you asked, what did you see?" She shrugged, "Not a lot really. I mean it was nothing but… I mean I guess I can understand."

"Understand what?"

"I just saw you and Bella."

"Me and Bella what sweetheart, there is no me and Bella." He watched her face. She smiled, "No, I didn't mean like that. I saw her pregnant and you had your hand on her stomach feeling the baby. You just looked so happy."

"Alice, I think it would be wonderful for Bella to be pregnant, and I am sure whatever happened to make me feel the baby clearly is something that I found made me happy but it has no bearing on how I feel about you and I. I can be happy for her and Edward without wanting us to have a child. Besides I'll let you in on a little secret."

"What?"

He moved closer, "I like my time with you too much and I don't want to share you, not to mention babies cry and I want to give it back." She giggled, "You're so sweet."

"No, I am not sweet, just in love with my beautiful wife." He kissed her softly. "I love you darlin'."

"I love you too."

Edward opened the door sighing, "Would you two please take the make out session to your room." She giggled jumping up, "Come on Jazzy." She took his hand and began to pull. He followed her passing Edward and stopped looking at him oddly.

"What?" Edward asked turning to see what he was waiting for. Alice turned, "Come on Jazz, what's wrong?" He shook his head, "Nothing." He smiled at her and followed her out. Bella turned in her sleep calling his name softly. Smiling he climbed into bed pulling her close. "I'm here love, right here. I love you, always."

Alice shut their door, "Ok spill it, what are you picking up?" He shrugged, "Nothing really."

"That look was not nothing and he knows you felt it too."

"It was nothing, he's just a little confused." He sat on the bed with her sitting beside him. "Confused?" Her face was full of unanswered questions so he decided it was probably best to answer her and not generalize, after all she would figure it out.

"He's worried love, it just kind of through me off. I guess because he usually hides a lot and I could feel it coming off of him in waves."

"Makes perfect sense he is worried about her and they are alone."

"They were alone before and I didn't feel it."

"So what changed?"

"I don't know, all I know is he is worried, I don't know why but it is very strong. He's probably had time to think about whatever it was."

"Maybe it always was and he didn't let it show."

"Perhaps."

She pulled him close, "Perhaps you should kiss me." He grinned, "Oh little lady you have no idea how much I want that." She giggled as he kissed her hard.