A/N: ok so this is going to be the last update for the next week, I'm going away to New York on holiday! YAY! Does anyone know if R-Patzz is still there? Hehe

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BPOV

"so what do you reckon I should say to Jazz then? I mean I really want to ask him out but I don't know whether I should let him do the asking. All the signs indicate that he likes me, I'm just not sure if he realises that he likes me..." Alice had been talking non-stop about Jasper from the second I entered the car but now I was getting sick of the same shit being talked over and over again so I cut in.

"Urgh, Ali, he slept with you, I reckon he likes you. It's just whether he sees you as a girlfriend or a fuck buddy that should be the issue here. Just ask him out already."

"Sorry. I'll ask him on a date tomorrow night then." And just like that the car was silent for the first time today as Alice was sucked into her mind thinking about...Jasper.

"Oh no! Where do we go? What do we do? I don't know what he likes Bells!"

"Alice, the whole point in a first date is to find out what he likes. And just go to the movies or something." I suggested.

"Your right. I'm sorry. I've just been waiting for this for years now Bella. I'm terrified of what is supposed to happen. And I'm also terrified that the slut that slept with him before is more important than me." I winced at the slut comment and tried to shake of the guilt that followed. Shit this was never going to be easy.

"I'm pretty sure the 'slut' didn't want any more than a quick shag or something Ali, you'll be fine. You'll be a great couple."

"We will won't we!" she gushed. I let Alice continue her ramblings as I delved into my own mind thinking about the amazing weekend I had spent with Edward. There was so much more to that boy that I could have imagined. Spending the night with him on Friday was amazing, and then the picnic on Saturday...Oh, that had to be the most romantic thing ever! The setting was beautiful, but he kept telling me how much more beautiful I was. And for once I didn't go "Oh, I know", I actually took the compliment and blushed. Hearing Edward tell me I was beautiful in his shirt with no makeup felt so much better than all the twerps at school admiring me and wolf-whistling when I was dressed up to the nines as my father would say.

"Bella?" I snapped my head round in response to my name, slightly annoyed that she had brought me out of my thoughts of Edward. "I was asking what do you think?"

"I think it's a great idea." And thankfully, somehow that worked, I still had no idea what she was talking about as she continued to blabber on, and I managed to drown her hyper voice out.

When we arrived at the car park the usual crowd of boys came over to admire Alice's car, I couldn't get why they were so impressed every day. Yeah it was an impressive car, but they were taking it too far.

I got out of the car first allowing Alice some more time to get her crap from the backseat.

"Oh come on, get a grip boys! Alice will kill you if you keep touching the hood." I told one of the boys in the year below us who was busy running his hand over the paintwork.

"Chill Bella. It's fine. Oh by the way, was that you with Jasper on Friday night at his party? Going back for seconds were you?" he turned to one of his buddies and they slapped hands.

"No, Shut up." I growled through my teeth at the idiots conscious that Alice had probably heard that.

"Bella, we all heard you and him at Tyler's, come on! You so have a 'thing' going on!"

"what was that Sam?" Alice's voice had dropped nearly an octave and she was speaking slowly. Shit. I'm fucked.

"Bella and Jasper have a 'thing' going on. I can't believe she didn't tell you! As far as we know it's only happened twice but I'll bet anything they've been having secret rendezvous meetings behind the bike shed at lunch!" He laughed, clearly unaware of the bitch fit that was about to occur.

"Fucking shut-up Sam you fucking tool!" I shouted at him. "I'm not sleeping with Jasper!"

"Me thinks she doth protest too much!" he joked and all his cronies started laughing. I turned to look at Alice with wary eyes but the look on her face which was directed at me was withering.

"Maybe you should leave now Sam." She calmly instructed the boys, her head still angled so she was looking at me.

"Awright." Sam said looking carefully between us. "See you guys later!" I had never wanted to punch anyone in the face more than I wanted to punch him right now.

I closed my eyes and exhaled ready for whatever Alice was going to throw at me, she was perfectly entitled too to be honest.

"Is that true Bella?" Her voice was strangely calm, it was unnerving slightly. Go crazy already!

"I slept with him at Tyler's. That's all. I can't even remember doing it Alice! I was waaaay to drunk, and I was upset, he just was being so nice." That was probably not the best move I realised, telling her that he was really nice to me I thought as I saw her face harden. "If it makes you feel any better, he was really drunk too."

"I told you how I felt about him Bella, how did that make you think it was ok for you to go...Urgh i can't believe you! How could you! You have to be the worst friend ever, you little slut!" She slammed the car door and turned on her heel marching away from me as quickly as she could.

I heard footsteps approaching me from behind but I ignored them and ran after Alice.

"Well, maybe you should have told him how you felt. It's not like he cheated on you! You weren't even going out because he didn't know how in love or whatever you are with him. He slept with you on Friday anyway, what's the deal!"

"Because I told you, it doesn't matter if he didn't know. you. did." She turned round to poke me in the chest really hard to get her point across. She spun back on her heel and stormed off leaving me standing there staring after her feeling as guilty as hell and with a sore chest.

Today was going to suck.

I stormed into school, anything in my way got shoved or kicked earning me a few "bitch" comments until they realized who it was pushing them out of the way. Everyone knew not to mess with me when I was in a mood. They had seen it enough before I left.

The morning was awkward. Two classes with Alice sitting next to me, blatantly ignoring me before being asked to be re-seated.

At least I was looking forward to lunch where I could be with Edward.

But when lunch came around I bumped into Edward walking out of the canteen.

"Hey." I smiled and my mood lifted instantly when I saw him and I placed my hand on his arm.

"Bella, what? This morning you don't want to talk to me, now you do? I've had it. I told you I don't want the hot and cold treatment from you anymore." He spat at me and shrugged my hand off of his shoulder, leaving me staring at the back of his head as he retreated from the canteen.

What the fuck was happening! How could I lose my best friend and boyfriend in the space of four hours?

I ran over to the nearest table and climbed up on the seat before stepping onto the table itself.

"hey! That's my lunch!" some small girl at the table shouted at me , but I wasn't really caring whose lunch I was standing on or whatever it was that had now coated my shoe. I couldn't lose Edward.

The whole canteen quietened down when they saw me, full height above everyone else. Everyone turned to look at me, everyone except Edward. Well here was my shot, I may as well take it.

"Edward Cullen don't you dare go anywhere!" I shouted.

He halted immediately when he heard his name and I could see him cringing from my height on the table as he looked round over his shoulder slowly. Everyone stopped staring at me and turned to hunt for Edward in the sea of students. He hated being the center of attention and I felt bad for doing this; I just didn't know how to get it through to him that I wasn't embarrassed to be with him and if standing on the table in the cafeteria at lunch was the way to it then so be it.

"Edward, don't you dare walk out on me like that. You can't do that. Because...well, because I really like you. I love spending time with you, I don't want to be without you." I broke my eye contact with Edward and turned on everyone else in the hall, "and you know what, I don't care about all of you snickering because I like the school 'geek' I actually couldn't give a shit. He means more to me than any of you sacks of shite. And I swear if anyone gives me trouble because of who my boyfriend is then you will regret living." I spat out the last sentence, I knew someone somewhere would try something because of mine and Edward's off pairing, just as long as they didn't do anything to him, I didn't care.

Edward was staring at me open mouthed, dumbfounded, he reckoned I was never going to admit to us. Which I couldn't do, I couldn't live a lie for the next year.

The hall was so silent, it was scary, everyone had stopped eating their lunches and were staring between me and Edward. I caught a glimpse of the 'popular table' where Rosalie was smirking at me, and Alice...who was picking a thread on her shirt. Shit, could I repair mine and Alice's relationship to by shouting out an apology in front of everyone?

"Alice, I'm so sorry for sleeping with Jasper, I didn't mean to, it was just a stupid drunken accident and I regret every second of it. Please don't stay mad at me. Please. You really are the most amazing friend ever and I can't lose you either."

She continued looking down at her sleeve picking at the thread, if she continued she would have nothing left of the shirt. Understanding that it hadn't worked washed through me and I stepped down from the table with the help of one of the boys at the table.

"Sorry for squishing your lunch." I mumbled to the small girl. Everyone's eyes were still on me. Everyone had seen me make a fool of myself and suddenly I felt so embarrassed and needed to get out of there quick to avoid the gazes of people. I made a quick dash for the doors at the far end, the ones Edward must have left through as I couldn't see him anymore.

I felt a hand holding my shoulder as I tried to move. It spun me around and I was met with the green eyes of Edward.

"I love you Bella. I'm not going anywhere." He smiled at me as he pulled me in for a kiss. I melted into him, so relieved that I had convinced him I wanted to be with him. His kiss had more meaning in it that usual and it finally hit me what he had said. He loved me? Oh my god Edward Cullen loved me! I leaned into the kiss with fever, desperate for him not to disappear.

Edward loved me.

That itself made up for the fact that Alice still wasn't talking to me. And I didn't care that everyone was staring at us. We broke apart and he took my hand walking me out of the canteen, away from prying eyes.

Today wasn't going to be shit, because Edward loved me.

He loved me.

A/N: yay! He told her! And omg I'm really as surprised he admitted that as you all are! That was sooo not meant to be in here yet!

So I'm feeling ambitious, do we reckon we can get up to 190 reviews for when I come back my holidays? That would be sooooo awesome! I would love to see my inbox full of reviews for this chappie, I would be soooo happy, and if I'm happy maybe Edward can get a little more action? Hint hint, nudge nudge!

So yes, that's me leaving for New York now but I'll be back in just over a week, so I will update as soon as I can when I get home.

Love you all!!!