My Perfect Life

Jacob POV

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It never occurred to me how much it takes to be an adult, probably because I never had to think about it before. Since moving to Vermont, I had completely changed and now looked at myself more as a man than the boy who first came over. Not only did I have tons of responsibilities, but I also was in a serious relationship that basically determined my future. In human years, I was twenty-five, but I felt a hell of a lot older. It was late October and I was feeling the pressure of mid-terms, my relationship with Nessie, and other outside factors.

Jasper had Nessie and I on a strict counseling schedule and the sessions were demanding to say the least. If I didn't love the girl much, I don't think I could do it. It seemed like all we did was sit in Jasper's room and talk, but after each session, I was mentally drained. Over the past month, I had learned that I was actually scared of Nessie and I's relationship. Well to be more specific, scared about losing her, which made perfect sense. I had never liked to be abandoned and the only other time I lost Nessie, was when Maria took her. I was scared of that happening again with worse results. Jasper explained to me that I was totally dependent on Nessie (which I already knew) and there was no way for me to live without her. In essence, if Nessie was gone then I wasn't my true self and that's why I was afraid of losing her. I also had an issue with not measuring up to Nessie. I would always think back to my first night in Vermont when I broke down in my room and we talked a lot about that in our sessions. I would think that my protectiveness, or possessiveness as Nessie calls it, would be a problem but Jasper explained that it was normal especially in a relationship as tight as ours. Nessie's problems stemmed from the thought that she failed me. I never understood her theories when she began her stories, but she thought that she was letting me down in some way. She was mad at herself for taking me away from LaPush, for not being able to have children, for being the center fighting point with my pack and other silly things. I tried to consol her by mentioning that none of that mattered to me, but she was unbending in her doubt.

I never thought I would say this, but psychiatry actually helped. Our relationship is stronger than ever and I don't know how to explain it, but we just seem…happier. I have let go of most of my jealousy issues, although I still get pissed when guys hit on her, but at least its not "phasing mad". I have also begun to have more fun. I don't worry about her being taken from me because I know that would never happen. Every moment I have with her, I cherish and we make the best of what is going on in the present time. Of course, we have a long way to go with our sessions, but we are defiantly off to a good start.

Everything was perfect. No more dreams from both Nessie or I, no more stupid Lida or Leah, Seth was holding down everything in LaPush, and I had begun to start planning more concretely for my future. Seth, Nessie and Edward were the only ones who knew what I was planning, but I wanted to tell everyone so badly. Now wasn't the right time because I was far too inexperienced to accomplish everything I wanted but Nessie was a big help. My plan was to start my own garage, but not just as a place that fixed cars, but also as a full-blown business. I figured that I would find investors and start off small here in Vermont and then head back west when Nessie and I were married. I was taking some business courses at Dartmouth and my super genius, half vampire girlfriend was amazing at crunching numbers and noticing small issues that I would never have picked up. We were actually pretty far along in the planning process, but I knew that now wasn't the right time to start anything. I surely had enough money to buy a place and could begin tomorrow if I wanted, but I wanted to learn more before I set anything in stone. Seth was the perfect person to talk to about the mechanics of it all and he knew everything there was to know about what I would need to fix the cars efficiently. When I did my own tinkering in the garage, it usually took me months to finish a project, but that wasn't every practical when dealing with a business, so Seth was helping me with being more productive.

"What about this one?" She asked sweetly while we sat on my bed discussing possible locations for the garage.

"Babe, I can't have the garage in Boston. That's too far away." I told her for the fifth time.

"But there's no competition in Boston. All the other garages are on the outskirts of the city because its too damn expensive to maintain anything, but start up money isn't an issue for you." She smiled.

"True, but I want to try and get investors and I doubt they would want to put they're money into anything in the city."

"I don't understand why you need investors."

"In my business class, we learned that people take you more seriously if you have backers. It makes you look more established."

"I guess that makes sense, but I still think Boston is the best place."

I gave her the loving but stern look that told her to drop it.

"Ok Ok, no more Boston. Well I guess the only other logical option is Newport."

"Here? Aren't there enough garages in this town?"

"Only two and they both charge gigantic prices for mediocre work. It's a travesty if you ask me."

"hmmmmmm….I think you just want me closer to you."

I smirked and she climbed over to my side of the bed for a loving kiss.

"How did you figure out my master plan?"

"I'm just that good."

She rolled me over on my back and kept kissing my lips. Every time our lips touch, its like I'm jumping off a waterfall. I feel like I'm flying and don't ever want to come down. I didn't know how it felt for her, but kissing was one of the best experiences of my life.

She laughed and got off of my chest after ten minutes, "Jacob stop it. I have to go. I'll be late."

"Oh yeah, that stupid museum trip. I don't know why you have to go." I pouted as she put on some sexy heels to complement her dark wash jeans and light blue sweater.

"It's for my art history class and the whole class is going, so I can't jus skip it." She laughed.

"But it's a Saturday. I'm pretty sure that they have rules against this kinda thing."

"Shut up. Its just a couple of hours."

"And where will you be going exactly?" I was trying to sound as nonchalant as possible, but the fear of losing her, once again rose in my chest.

"To the Boston Public Library. It's our architecture section of the class and he wants us to see the inside. It's supposed to be very neoclassical." I could tell that she was excited to get to do something that peaked her educational interests.

"Whatever that means." I said and she laughed before coming to give me a quick kiss.

"Can I come?" I blurted out before I could stop myself. Damn it. Jasper was helping me control my over protectiveness, but I guess it wasn't working.

"I was just about to ask you. Alexia isn't in this class so I wont have anyone to talk to. I don't think you can come on the bus because you don't go to our school anymore, but I can meet you there in two hours. No excuses, I expect you to be there." She said before kissing me again and walking out of my room.

I sighed and felt a little better. She wanted me with her as much as I wanted to be with her, so I didn't feel like I was hovering. I had a couple of minutes before I had to leave so I sat back on my pillows to think about how good I had it.

I would never forgive myself for leaving Nessie the night of her birthday, but luckily, she took me back without any questions. I couldn't believe that I did that. Ever since my mother died, I had never like it when people left and that's exactly what I did to Nessie. Of course, I was pissed beyond a healthy point when I heard Nahuel ask Nessie to marry him and I almost died when he kissed her, but that didn't give me the right to make her suffer for eight days. When I got home, all I wanted to do was hold her, but Edward, Emmett, and Jasper wouldn't let her anywhere near her. They shouted at me for making her cry and leaving. I could take the yelling because I deserved it, but when Esme started her rant about how irresponsible I was, I almost broke down in tears. I had never known how much I thought of Esme as a mother until that moment. I felt ashamed that I made her worry about me and apologized everyday for running away without leaving her any warning.

After the first week back home, Edward took me walking in the forest for a "chat". He told me that it would be hard to regain his trust because he had watched Nessie nearly die from my stupidity. He told me that my little stunt proved that I wasn't mature enough to marry Nessie yet, and I totally agreed. I walked out on her and if we were married, that would have been inexcusable. He told me to wait some more until I have come to a healthier place within my mind. I knew he was just worried about Nessie and in all honesty, the way I acted made me doubt if I was even worthy to marry her, but Edward said to just give it time. I took his advice and it worked. Along with the sessions and my new attitude, it was like an extra weight was lifted that I didn't even know was there. Our relationship became more…normal. No pressure from the future and we could just live as teenagers in love. I of course thought about marriage, but didn't let it consume me like I once did. It would happen when it happened.

I looked at the clock and realized that fifteen minutes had passed and I got off my bed to head to the garage. I walked down the stairs.

"Hey doggie. Where you going? Emmett and me were just about to take the sniper rifles out. Wanna come?" Jasper asked happily. I was kinda scary how much Emmett and Jasper loved their rifles that Nessie had gotten them last Christmas but I had to admit, they were cool. Esme wouldn't allow them anywhere near the house, so Carlisle bought a lot of land ten minutes away where they could practice.

"No thanks, got to go with Nessie on her school trip to Boston."

Jasper's happy face fell and I could immediately tell that I was about to be scolded by Dr. Jasper, "Why are you going on that trip? That's a school trip and you don't go to Vanderbilt anymore."

"Before you go off and tell me that I'm overprotective and hovering, she was about to ask me, but I beat her to it." I smiled hoping that it would soften him up, but it didn't work.

"How will we ever fix your codependency issues if you two refuse to be separated?"

"I guess I'm just a lost cause."

He laughed and shook his head; "No one is a lost cause when they take sessions from me. You can go, but I'm taking Nessie hunting when you guys come home and you're not invited."

"Sure sure. Have fun killing stuff."

I walked to my Hummer and got in to make the drive to Boston. As I entered the city, I couldn't help but smile as I realized how good I had it. I had been transformed into a man who could hold his head up high without being ashamed off his heritage or background. I had the perfect girlfriend and was going to be happy as long as she was in my life. I was going to a great school and was getting the finest education money could buy. For the most part, things were great. The only down side was the re-emergence of the monster knows as Rebecca. I had gotten a surprising call from my sister Rebecca and that irritated the hell out of me. She never called me, not even on my birthday, and when the first phone call in seven years was to ask for money. Apparently, Billy has been telling everyone how proud he was of me, which was cool, but Rebecca got a hold of the information that I was rich and she demanded I give her something, but I refused. I loved my sister, but there was no way in hell I was giving her money so she could waste it on booze and drugs. Nessie scolded me for being cruel to my sister, but I wasn't budging. Rebecca had been calling me everyday since then so that she could try to convince me to give her some money, but I stopped answering. The other day, Nessie picked up the phone and Rebecca screamed at her for being the reason why I wasn't sending anything to Hawaii. I had to snatch the phone away and yelled at my sister for an hour straight. Now, I just let the calls go to voice mail.

I pulled into an empty parking space a block away from the impressive Boston Public Library in the heart of the city. I walked inside where I was stopped by a security guard.

"Can I help you sir?"

"Uh….yeah. Do you know where the group from Vanderbilt Prep School is?" I asked.

"Oh yes...they're on the second floor looking at the Sargent murals. You can take the stairs." He pointed and I thanked him before making my way upstairs.

I caught her scent and followed it around a couple corners until I saw her standing in the back of the group looking bored.

"Aren't you supposed to be paying attention." I whispered in her ear from behind.

I expected her to jump at my presence because I was very quiet in my approach, but she didn't even flinch. Damn. There goes my quick laugh.

"You know what I just realized?"

"What?"

"My teacher is stupid. He's been giving us wrong dates for the entire tour. It's embarrassing. How did he get a job?"

I laughed because up against Nessie, all her teachers were stupid.

"Come on. He's not that bad."

"Jacob, he is completely incompetent and hello. Its nice to see you." She turned and smiled.

"Oh forgive me princess…hello." I kissed her lips and let the pleasurable fire make its way through my body. She pulled away after a minute and we noticed that the group had moved on.

"Damn. Oh well, I wasn't learning anything anyways." She smiled.

"No mam, you need to get your education. Go find them."

"No. I want to spend more time with you." She pouted and I was jello in her hands.

I grabbed her hand and intertwined our fingers, "Fine, but we can at least walk around."

We went up marble stairs and saw beautiful murals in a giant foyer. She seemed impressed by the architecture and tried to explain it all to me, but it just looked liked walls to me.

"Are you even paying attention?" she asked.

"Babe you know I don't understand this kinda stuff."

"Well thank you for coming. I would've died if I had to listen to that man all day."

We continued to walk through the grand library with our fingers tangled together and I couldn't think of any other place I would rather be.

"This place is very beautiful." Nessie sighed as we reached the third floor.

"Yeah. I've never been in here before."

"Jacob?"

"hmmmmm?"

"I'm going to say something, but I don't want you to get scared. Promise?"

"Of course. What is it?"

"I want to get married in a place like this. Not here, but somewhere kind of like this." She said sheepishly.

She brought up marriage so it was fair game right?…maybe we won't tell Jasper.

"Why would I be scared of that?"

"I just don't want you to run off because I want a big wedding. Most guys go crazy over that kinda stuff."

I pulled her into a kiss, "As long as I get to call you Renesemee Black at the end of the day, then I don't care."

To be honest, I was kinda scared. One year, Alice let Nessie plan her own birthday party and it was a mad house. She ordered elephants, fire breathers and crazy bungee machinates. The wolves had a lot of fun, but I didn't even want to think about how much that stuff cost.

"This is my only wedding, so I want all our family and friends." She said happily, "This would be the perfect place to fit us all, but I don't want to get married in Boston, so we'll have to find a place just as big but somewhere else."

"All our family and friends?"

"Yup. I want everyone. Vampires, werewolves, humans from school. Everyone. I've done a quick guest list in my head and it comes to about six hundred."

"Do we even know that many people?"

"Of course, but you said I could have a big wedding so don't back out now that I'm all excited."

During my talks with Edward, he had said that I wasn't ready for marriage yet and I agreed, but an engagement wasn't out of the question…was it?

"So…ummmmm, now that we're talking about wedding stuff, does that mean we're engaged?" I asked timidly.

Please say yes. Please say yes. Please say yes.

She stopped walking and turned to face me, "I hope you don't think that was a proposal."

"Well I don't have a ring or anything, but sure…an informal proposal."

She thought for a minute and then smiled, "Jacob Black, I love your informal proposal and I would love to be engaged to you."

"Really?"

"Of course, but I expect a real proposal some time soon, but for right now, this is perfect."

I didn't think I would feel any different, but I was completely wrong. The total joy and elation that filled my body was mind blowing. She had said yes to me and we were getting married. I had to slow down because I knew she still had a year left before she finished high school and I wasn't going to budge on the "no marriage before graduation" thing, but this was a great first step.

I pulled her around a corner and took her lips in mine. We passionately kissed for ten minutes but it seemed like hours. When I pulled back, I saw the beautiful smile on my fiancé's face and couldn't help but smile back, I knew I looked like a fool but I could care less.

"So, how are we going to play this with the family?" She asked.

"What do you mean?"

"I thought daddy gave you specific guidelines with regards to our marriage situation. Do you think he'll be mad?"

Damn. I had forgotten all about Edward.

"Probably. He doesn't want your education to suffer because you'll be planning a wedding, but if your mom is on board, then he won't be able to say no. We just got to talk to her first."

That was the way to defeat Edward. Get Bella to agree to it first and there is no stopping it. Even if he is super pissed, Bella can just give him "that look" and aggress no matter how much he hates it. It's really funny actually, but I can't say anything because I'm the same way.

"Are you happy?" I asked as we continued walking.

"About our engagement?" We both smiled at the word and it took all my self-control to not pick her up and swing her around like a mad man.

"Yes. Are you happy about it?"

"The only reason I'm not screaming for joy is because we're in public."

"Well then, we should get you home so you don't have to hold anything in any longer."

We found her group and I dropped her off before I left. I was following the bus home so that I could pick Nessie up once they reached the school. When we pulled out of the city, I hadn't realized my phone was ringing. I picked it up and saw that I had fifty-six unanswered calls. Not good. Either someone died or we're about to have trouble. I re- dialed the first number I saw and waited for two seconds before someone picked up.

Finally. What the hell have you been doing?

"Alice, what the hell? Is someone in trouble? Did you see something?"

I most defiantly saw something. I just had a vision of Rose and I in Tiffany's, which isn't anything unusual since we both love that store, but what was unusual was that everything went black after we got to the engagement rings section.

"Uh…..yeah….ok. Don't freak out. Where are you?"

Its ok. I went hunting. No one else is here. Did you propose?

"Yes and no. I didn't do the whole get on one knee thing, but yeah…I guess I did." I smiled again because I was so happy.

I could already hear the gears in Alice's brain turning as she began planning out god knows what.

Oh my god. I'm so happy for you both. I have so much to do. I know she wants a huge wedding, so I have to invite everyone and we have to start immediately. Why didn't you call me right away….Rose and I have to order flowers, a caterer, we have to find a suitable location for this thing and who's in the wedding party?

She was speaking so fast, I could barely understand it. If I didn't live with her, I would have probably thought she was having a stroke.

"Whoa Whoa, Alice…calm down. We haven't even talked about anything and you know I have to wait til' she graduates anyways. Calm down. And you can't tell Edward about this either until we've talked to him. Please Alice?"

Ok ok fine, but you better tell him quick because I don't know how long I can hold this in. My niece's wedding and she wants a huge one…this is going to be the greatest gift ever. How long do I have?

I laughed at her enthusiasm; " Well she'll be done with school in a year and a half, so I'm guessing we'll get married that summer."

Good; a whole year to plan. This is going to be big. The biggest ever and I have permission to go all out?

"I'm going to say yes, but you'll have to talk to Nessie."

We talked all the way until I got to the school and saw Nessie standing on the curb with a huge smile. I pulled up and she got in the car. She leaned over the middle of the consol and took my lips for a quick kiss. Even our lip pecks sent fire down my spine and caused me to moan in pleasure.

I drove us back home and began to get nervous when I saw Alice standing on the step with a gigantic smile. Nessie laughed, "You told her didn't you?"

"I'm sorry. I know you wanted to wait, but she forced it out of me."

"No its fine. I'm proud to be your fiancé; tell everyone if you want. Just make sure daddy doesn't kill us first. I texted Alexia anyways so I guess we're even."

"I guess we are."

I parked the car in my spot in the garage and Alice ran to hug Nessie. I had never seen a vampire so close to tears as Alice ran and grabbed me for a tight hug as well. We went into the house and saw the family doing various tasks. Alice, Nessie, and I were all pretty good at hiding our thoughts, but Edward noticed that we were trying to fill our heads with mindless chatter.

"What are you hiding?" He asked after pulling Bella into his lap on the couch. So much for our "get to Bella first" plan.

Nessie smiled and went to sit next to her father while I stayed in the archway.

"Daddy, I don't want you to get freak out ok? I just want you to know that nothing is final and we're going to start off really slow. Understand?"

The entire family looked on with confused faces. She looked at me and I smiled giving her the go ahead to tell him. I could take the pain.

"Daddy, Jacob asked me to marry him today and said yes."

No one moved and I was holding my breath. Edward's face was stone cold so I couldn't tell what he was feeling, but I was sure it wasn't good. He sighed and looked at Bella. They seemed to be having a silent conversation and when he sighed again, I knew that she had approved.

He turned back to Nessie, " Do you love him?"

"Of course I do daddy. More than anything."

"Well then congratulations."

Nessie screamed and pulled her parents into a tight hug, I was congratulated as well and I felt ecstatic that I was now the fiancé of a beautiful woman and her father approved. Life was good.

Edward came over to me, "Jacob, I'm happy for you. Just make sure you don't completely take her away from me and treat her right."

"You know I will Edward or should I say, father-in-law?" I laughed.

"Please don't." He rolled his eyes.

I could see that he was nervous and I knew what he wanted to say so I said it for him.

"No Edward, I'm still planning on waiting until she's finished high school and this isn't even a real engagement, jut kinda like a pre thing. I don't even have a ring."

He half smiled, "Just don't let her get too distracted."

"I promise. To be honest, I thought you were going to kill me."

"Well I thought about it, but you've been doing extremely well in your counseling sessions and I think you've learned a thing or two. I'm proud of you Jacob.

"Thank you Edward."

We talked for another hour before I took Nessie upstairs so that we could go to sleep. We decided not to tell anyone back home until things were more final, but I did want to call Seth before I went to bed so that I could ask his opinion on thee garage. The phone range three times before I heard him answer.

Yo boss. How you doing?

"Great Seth. How's everything back west?"

Boring. Your dad's fine, the wolves are fine, Charlie's fine. Nothing to report.

"Good. Look man I have a question about the garage?"

Oh good because I was meaning to ask you about that. Um….i was just wondering if you were looking for backers because I would be happy to put up some money.

"What money Seth?"

I have a job Jacob. I've been saving for a couple years and since I'm not going to school, its just sitting there. I want to invest in your garage.

I didn't want to ask him, but I was already planning on having Seth be a key part of the garage. I wanted to start it up out here, but I wanted to move back west later, so I was planning on making him more of a liaison between the two branches. This was perfect.

"Well that's great Seth. You come up with the money and you can have a spot."

Thanks boss. Hey I guess you really are my boss now.

We both laughed and I spent the rest of the hour asking him questions and telling him my plans for the business. It wasn't until Nessie got out of the shower that I hung up and let her rest against my chest as we both fell into a deep sleep. I was lying next to my fiancé. Damn that sounded good. My life was perfect, but I had a nagging feeling in the back of my head that told me things weren't going to stay that way for long.