The Arctic Wolf- Nova
Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha!
Title: Isolated
Chapter Twenty-Five: Culpable Fervor
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Next morning, Inuyasha was the first to wake. He went down stairs to see that Kagome was still on the couch. She must've waken in the middle of the night to get a blanket because her body was completely cover. He went back to his previous task, and went out the front door. Inuyasha went to his car, and searched for his cell phone.
Kagome jumped when the door slammed, and fell onto the floor. She looked around, and let out an exhausted sigh. She kicked the covers off her, and winced when her neck had an unappealing pain to it. Last night flooded her head, and she felt really depressed. She pushed herself off the flooring and walked up the stairs.
The front door slammed again, and she looked back to see Inuyasha enter. He didn't pay any attention to her and went upstairs. Kagome sighed and followed. She gathered a dark green tank top with black pants that had many pockets. She also gathered her bath materials, and went to the bathroom in the hallway.
Kagome turned the hot water on full blast, and stared into the mirror. She looked pale, bags were slightly faint under her eyes, and her eyes were dull. She realized she looked exactly like Inuyasha when she'd first saw him. She turned the water off, and grabbed her smell-good body wash. She poured the lavender smelling chemical into her hand and moved her hand about in the hot water.
When the aroma steamed off the water, she undressed, and got in. She let the blazing hot water relax her muscles. Began thinking about how to get Inuyasha to talk to her. Pain ached inside her, and she shook it off. Kagome got her lavender shampoo and washed her hair.
After so, she cleaned herself with sweet lavender smelling body wash. Then just relaxed. She didn't realize she'd fallen asleep. When she woke up, the water was cold. Kagome got out, and pulled the drain.
She got dressed, grabbed her things, and made way to the extra room. Kagome had placed her things in there before she headed to the bathroom. Kagome closed the door quietly, sat on the queen sized bed, and dried her hair with her towel. Thoughts fogged her mind,
"I still don't understand what got him so upset that he had to stab a table with a knife. All I did was hug him."
She brushed her hair, and tied it back into a low ponytail. Kagome grabbed her wallet, and keys. She groaned when she realized she'd left them at Rin and Sesshomaru's place. Kagome walked out the room, then down the stairs. Inuyasha was on the house phone, ignoring her when she went out the front door. He forced the sting of worry in him, and continued his conversation.
Kagome walked down the sidewalk, ignoring the gray sky above her. Her sister's place soon came into few, and she knocked on it. Rin opened the door, and smiled nervously,
"Hey Kagome, why are you here?"
"So I can't come over anymore?" asked Kagome, coldly.
Rin frowned, "No, that's not what I… what's going on? Why isn't Inuyasha with you?"
Rin stepped aside to allow Kagome to come in. She replied,
"Inuyasha's angry at me."
"What happened?" asked Rin, taking her into the kitchen.
Kagome sat in a stool, "I was talking to Bankotsu, he ease dropped. All I did was hug him, and we talked a bit."
"What did you talk about is what matters, Kagome." replied Rin.
She sighed, "When Kizu was just three, I confessed I loved Bankotsu. He was the only one there, and I really did thought I did. Deep down, I wanted Inuyasha so bad. I kissed him. All of it for comfort. I feel horrible for using Bankotsu, but he forgives me."
"By any chance, did you deny Inuyasha when he kissed you? When he tried to comfort you?" asked Rin, hoping that made sense enough.
Kagome gasped, "Oh my gosh."
"You're so predictable Kags." huffed Rin. "So… how'd it happen?"
She slumped in guilt, "The kiss was getting a bit intense, like it was going to go over the line type thing. When his hand… when up my shirt, and pulled away. I avoided looking at him, and sat on the far end of the couch. Then he didn't take it as an offense, but when he heard about Bankotsu and I… think it took it's toll."
"That about sums it up." she responded, shaking her head. "First off… give him some time to think. If you remember how Inuyasha acts well, he'll start to think. About how much he loves you-
Kagome interrupted, "If he still loves me."
"Don't go talking like that." smiled Rin, but it began to fade. "Is he giving you some type of…penalty."
Kagome glared at her hand, "He isn't talking to me and I slept on the couch last night. I had to get my own blanket. His place gets icy cold at night. My neck was killing me. I never slept so horribly before. It's myself to blame."
"I never would think Inuyasha would do something like that!" gasped Rin. "He LET you actually sleep on the couch! I'm going to give him a piece of my mine!"
Kagome grabbed Rin's arm, "No.. don't. It's my own fault. I'm such a hypocrite."
"I'll agree that what you did was a bit harsh, Kagome, but still. If he loves you, like he say he does, he wouldn't of done that. Unless, it REALLY hurt his feelings." admitted Rin. "Still… this is beyond Inuyasha!"
Kagome sighed, "Knowing him, he probably thinks I'll run off after Bankotsu."
"Just give him space, I'm sure he'll come around." sighed Rin.
Kagome stood, "I'm going to mom's."
"Take this jacket. It's beginning to rain." offered Rin, taking it out a small closet.
Kagome smiled weakly to her older sister, "Thanks, sis."
"Such a surprise to have you here, Kagome." came a cool voice.
Kagome looked at Sesshomaru, "Oh hey Sesshomaru."
All the sudden Rin was pale. Kagome looked at Rin then Sesshomaru. She gasped,
"Rin, please tell me you didn't tell him!"
"I'm sorry!" blurted Rin. "He was being sly!"
Kagome smacked her forehead, "This is just great."
"I'm really amazed your kind still exist."
She asked, "You have absolutely no problem being mate with a full blooded neko? Our kind is hated more than half demon's are, plus our kind wiped out a whole nation of demon's years ago. You should be pissed."
"Actually, I'm not. After doing a few test's. I found out Iza is full blooded demon. Thanks to Rin's neko blood." replied Sesshomaru, satisfied.
Kagome glared, "You're impossible."
She put the jacket on, glared at Rin, then left. Rin sighed and slumped against the counter. Sesshomaru smirked, and she glared.
Kagome closed the door behind her, and walked over to her truck. Rain was pouring pretty hard, and she wanted to get in away from it's sharpness. She got into the warm truck, jabbed the key in the ignition, and left the drive way.
Aquana Home
Kagome sat in the waiting room, her leg shaking. It was eerily dark outside, and soon Rin would call their parents house. Which she never went too. A unpleased voice called,
"Miss. Haori."
She stood, and walked swiftly threw the doors swiftly. Kagome followed a older woman down dark halls, and opened a door. She walked in and froze. There before her stood Kizu and Kouga. The door closed behind her, and she hissed,
"What are you doing here?"
"I've been here everyday, unlike you." replied Kouga.
Kizu jumped up from beside Kouga, "Mom!"
Kagome knelt down to his size, and hugged him. He clung to her like there was no tomorrow, and Kouga frowned. Kouga stood,
"I'll be leaving."
"No! Don't go Dad!" protested Kizu, pulling away, and running over to him.
Kagome repeated with a shaky voice, "Dad?"
"Yep." smiled Kizu, climbing on Kouga's back.
Kouga snorted, "Who else is?"
Kagome bit her lower lip in distress. She asked warily,
"How?"
"Simple, I talked to him. Do you wish to lie in his face and tell him I'm not?" asked Kouga.
She looked at Kizu with tears, "Kizu."
He hopped off his father's back, and ran back over to Kagome. He smiled,
"Will you get back together with Dad?"
That pinched the inside of her heart, and she glared at Kouga. She looked back at Kizu with soft eyes,
"That won't be happening Kizu, I'm sorry."
"Oh," mumbled Kizu, "that's okay! He promised not to take me away from you, now you have to promise not to take me away from him."
Kagome's voice became shaky, "Kizu… do you l… do you love your father?"
"Yes." smiled Kizu. "I love you too, momme."
Tears stung her eyes, and she sighed in defeat, "I won't take you away from him then."
He hugged her as a thank you, and ran back over to Kouga. Kagome felt her heart rip in half. Kouga let Kizu climb onto his back,
"Then it's settled. Since summer will be starting no less then three days, I'm taking Kizu to my place. We agree no court filing?"
Kagome nodded, and stood up. He continued,
"I live with my wife. It's not far from your mother's house, there's a dirt road. Souta and Shippo should know. They pass by the dirt road all the time on their bikes."
"Whose your wife, and you aren't planning to take him anywhere are you?" asked Kagome, her voice becoming more and more broken.
He smirked, "Ayame. You remember her don't you?"
"You're married to Ayame?" asked Kagome, frowning at this.
Kouga nodded, "Yes, and we had a beautiful two year old daughter, Saika."
"What about Caden?" asked Kagome, her blood boiling, he was such a…..a….player!
He smiled, "He's with me this summer as well. In a couple of months, I'll be filing custody. I found out what Kikyo has being doing to him, and I'm not pleased."
"Alright," breathed Kagome, trying to calm down. "In two days I'll come over to bring Kizu his things, and explain any medical problems he has. For one, he likes to wonder so watch him with a stern eye."
Kizu saw his mother flash him a motherly scowl, and he hid behind Kouga's head. Kouga nodded,
"Two days, alright. Let's go sign these papers then."
Kagome turned and walked out the door. Tears were burning her eyes, but she wouldn't let them fall. Not while Kizu was around. Once at the front, they sighed a paper given Kouga access to Kizu when in emergency, holidays, and whenever Kagome needed someone to watch him. That included Ayame.
She sighed the paper, and gave Kizu a hug. Kizu promised,
"Will you visit me?"
"Of course Kizu." smiled Kagome, kissing his forehead.
Kouga gave Kizu a jacket he must've bought, "Later Kagome."
Kizu got on Kouga's back and left. Kagome sat in the waiting room chair, and cried in her hand. The two women at the desk looked at Kagome sympathetically. Her cell began to ring, she stood, and walked out into the rain. Not bothering to put her hood on.
Inuyasha's Place
Kagome felt so many emotions overtaking her. Sadness. Betrayal. Anger. She walked into the house, and slammed the door closed. Rin, Sango, Inuyasha, Miroku, Sesshomaru, Bankotsu, Izayoi, Inu Taisho, Sienna, and Haku happened to be there. Souta and Shippo must've been watching the kids.
Sienna sighed a relief,
"Kagome! Where have you been, you had me worried sick."
Kagome tried to hide her puffy red eyes. Rin glared at Inuyasha, who glared back. Sienna made her look up,
"Oh what's wrong dear!"
"Nothing, I just want to be alone." mumbled Kagome, her voice shaky.
Haku asked, walking over, "Where did you go?"
"Aquana Home." answered Kagome, holding tears. (Yeah, I know. You all are glaring at the screen. She always gets to Inuyasha, one way or another. She he fall easily? You should know him too well. Of course. He'll feel sorry, but don't go thinking he'll forgive her full length wise.)
Sienna's face looked worried, "What happened? What happened to Kizu."
"He's with this father." whispered Kagome, hugging her mother, tried her to not her the tears fall, they hurt so much, wanting to slip.
Haku asked, "He got custody! How is that? Kagome, what happened?"
"I went to go see him. I missed him so much, and Kouga was there." mumbled Kagome, her words slightly muffled by her mother's shirt. "Kizu loves his father all the sudden. He wanted me to let him stay with him for the summer, and every other damn holiday. Either way Kouga wins."
Sienna gasped, "Oh Kagome."
Everyone looked at Kagome sympathetically. Even Inuyasha. Bankotsu spoke,
"Are you sure?"
"Of course I'm sure! Why else would Kizu be hugging up on that bastard!" spat Kagome, pulling away from her mother to wipe her tears.
Rin asked, "So he'll be with him all summer?"
Kagome nodded. Sienna sighed,
"It can't be that bad."
"Caden and Saika will be with him. He'll soon grow attached and never want to be with me anymore." replied Kagome, feeling like her soul was being sucked out.
Sienna hugged Kagome, "Oh Kagome, that isn't true!"
"Whose Saika?" asked Sango, walking over to rub Kagome's back.
Kagome huffed, "Kouga's marred to Ayame. They have a two year old daughter named Saika. Along with, he's going to get custody of Caden from Kikyo."
"Kouga's so wrong." grumbled Sango.
Kagome pulled away, "I'll be alright."
"Are you sure dear?" asked Sienna, whom looked a lot better then the time she last seen her.
Kagome smiled weakly, "Yeah."
Everyone gave Kagome a hug, and Bankotsu happened to be last. He hugged her and whispered into her ear,
"You know my number."
"Thanks." mumbled Kagome.
He pulled away, and walked out. The door closed behind him. Cars sped off in the front. Soon it was all quiet. Inuyasha stood across the room, staring at her. She took a step toward him,
"Inuyasha…"
"I feel sorry for Kizu but not or you. So don't expect me to pity you." hissed Inuyasha, starting for the stairs.
She set herself in his path, "I know I hurt you! Really, really bad! I'm sorry! I was hurt that long ago, and back then I thought you didn't care!"
"I'm not listening to your complaints, Kagome." growled Inuyasha. "Or should I call you Kahome?"
Kagome looked at him deeply wounded, and stepped out his way unwillingly. He stared at her for a long time, not moving. Kagome whispered,
"I'll pack my stuff and go back to Sesshomaru's place. I'm sorry I ever came back here. If I hadn't… Kizu would still be safe in my arms."
"And you'd still be in Bankotsu's." hissed Inuyasha.
Kagome yelled, "I don't love him! I love you! You Inuyasha! If you hate me…."
"What? You'll kill yourself?" asked Inuyasha, his eyes flickering for a brief moment.
She whispered, "I can't… I have to be there for Kizu."
"Damn right."
She whispered, "I'm sorry, Inuyasha. I'm really sorry. Please don't hate me."
Kagome stepped up to him, and took his hand. He took his hand away. He turned his back to her and marched up the stairs. Kagome let her legs take her to the other room, and fall on the bed.
She didn't bother to change. Kagome kicked her shoes off, glad the lights had been already out. Her neko green eyes shined in the dark. Kagome hugged her pillow, begging for Inuyasha's warm arms. Her wish never came true. So this is how it felt to be isolated. Alone. Dull. Sad.
Kagome sobbed but muffled it with her pillow. After crying for more than an hour, she laughed bitterly, her neko side hissed into the darkness,
"You're so pathetic Kagome. You're a bitch and a whore. A hypocrite, a heartbreaker, a horrible mother. Everything Kikyo is. Face it…you're her equal. You never should've run off like a scrawny cat. You didn't know why he left. You jumped to conclusions, and searched for love. Bankotsu. You betrayed him. Traitor. You might as well let me take over."
"I'm sorry Kizu. I'm sorry mom, dad, Bankotsu, everybody. Inuyasha…." whimpered Kagome, her eyes flashing silver to green.
Kagome didn't notice the door open, and someone walk in. She hugged the pillow tightly to herself, wondering if she could suffocate herself right there in the room. She smashed her head in the pillow, and let it cut off any air access. The pillow was ripped from under her, and she was turned around on the bed.
She looked around to look up into amber eyes. It was Inuyasha. He hissed,
"Stop it Kagome."
Kagome curled up into a ball, looking away from him. Guilt eating away what was life of her heart. He growled,
"No matter how wrong you did. You'll never be her equal."
"I am her equal." whispered Kagome, not denying it any longer.
Inuyasha turned Kagome back around, and pinned her shoulders to the bed,
"No you aren't!"
"What do you call me using people, Inuyasha?" asked Kagome.
He growled again, "For you, I call it overreacting."
"Why are you stopping me?" asked Kagome, eager to hug him, and apologize over and over again.
Inuyasha glared, "Because."
"Why?" she asked.
He hissed, "No matter how bad you hurt me. I still love you damn it!"
"I'm so sorry Inuyasha. I never meant to hurt you. I'm still confused, I can't explain exactly what I was doing back then." she sighed and looked away. "I sound so pathetic. Just leave Inuyasha."
He looked at her with hurt eyes, "Is that what you want me to do?"
"No, never." whispered Kagome. "Though I'm sure that's what you want to do."
He let out a huff, "Before you showed up… Rin talked to me."
Kagome looked at him, and looked at him confused. She looked at him softly, and managed to touch his cheek. He leaned into her touch, then continued,
"No matter how pissed I am, and hurt. I'll end up running back to you like the idiot I am."
"You don't have too. You can always fight." whispered Kagome, taking her hand from his cheel.
He caught her hand and put it back to his cheek, "I can."
"Inuyasha." whispered Kagome. "I'm so sorry. Please don't leave me. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Please."
Inuyasha smashed his lips into hers. She gasped but then sighed. Kagome kissed him back, and wrapped her arms around his neck. She pulled him closer. Kagome felt the urge to please him, and clenched at his shirt. He pulled away, and whispered,
"No, not now."
"I'll do anything. Just forgive me." whispered Kagome, looking into both his eyes.
He smirked, "I forgive you, Kagome, I just was mad because… you kissed that bastard, and basically let him do what he pleased. Though when I kissed you, you backed off as though you were scared."
"I'm so sorry." whispered Kagome.
He kissed her forehead, "I'm trying hard to understand. I'm getting there. Just be patient."
"I love you Inuyasha." whispered Kagome, hugging him tightly around the neck, not willing to let go.
He sighed into her arms, "I love you too."
"Please stay." mumbled Kagome.
He loosened her hold, and pulled her too him. Kagome relaxed and turned toward him. He looked down at her and smiled softly. Kagome kissed his cheek then snuggled into the darkness. She soon fell into a deep sleep. Inuyasha pulled her closer to him, and let out a defeated sigh.
Please review. Once again this chapter WAS long. Yes Inuyasha gave in to easily, but come on now! The girl was about to kill herself! I doubt he's mad enough to let her do that type thing. Still doesn't mean he isn't going to be acting all distant.