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Leo's POV

It was the final appointment, Donnieslowly unwrapped the bandage around my neck, he looked up at me. Hisexpression was blank and nothing I wanted to try and met my expression, his shoulders wiggled slightly in a what?Kind of expression. I shook my head and walked out the lab. Raphlooked at me straight away, he was training on his punching bag. Hewinced at every punch, He had several bruises and his walked as ifevery step hurt, when I'd first walked out to breakfast and foundhim like this I'd asked him, but as I expected all I got was thegrunt of 'none of your business fearful' He had , again with the nicknames, least he hadn't called me cowardagain. Of course I was, I had tried to end my life...So I was in facta coward, still hearing those words... They pounding in my ears,sending a short stab up my neck. Cruel reminder, a cruel reminder Ineeded. I grimaced and walked into the dojo.

I walked straight to the crackedphotograph of Father and his family, my fingers gently brushed thelayers of dirt. Hamato Yoshi, I remembered meeting him. Thedisappointment in his expression and voice when I...attempted. I bitmy lip, I thought about myself in his position, all he had was sons, the four brothers the broken brothers. Thinking about Irealised he had his brother, and due to dangerous thoughts hisbrother became...evil. That evil killed his wife, that evil haddestroyed his daughter, that evil took his sons memory. That evilfuelled my evil. Is this what Shredder would want? My hands wereshaking thinking about it. I refused to accept Takashi. Would Yoshigive him that chance? I know Splinter would, I had tried so hard tobe just like Splinter, heck I'm surprised I didn't dress up like himfor halloween as a kid...and yet I was always the furtherest awayfrom being him. I put down the photograph. I took in a deep breathand stumbled back.
"Sorry dad." I mumbled shaking, I rolled myneck back, looking at the cold sewer ceiling.

Raph's POV

I paused and leant on the trainingdummy taking in several deep breaths. Leo grunted from the curiosity I walked into the dojo. Leo was standing in front ofsensei's shrine, shaking as he clenched a photograph. I titled myhead, and walked up to him. A long scar ran down his neck, a coldshutter ran down my body. I grimaced and took Leo's hand. It wascold, I wanted him to stop shaking, It reminded me of Donnie, Istudied to him, Did he really regret it? Was he really trying to getbetter...? Leo's eyes slightly opened, he looked towards me inconfusion.
"The foot are getting stronger." I informed,setting my mouth straight. Leo slowly lifted his head. His handtwitched under my grip. I let go of it, maybe I could trust him. Myheart wanted to, but my mind, my mind needed to protect Mikey andDonnie, if Leo wasn't, if he refused to. Maybe this was a phase andhe'd go back to the cold monster he was for two years. Donniewouldn't...none of us would. The Hamato clan would go back to how itwas. Living for the sake of living, no purpose and just destroyingeach other in the process. There would just be one, or really twomore people to join the mental blood bath.
"Did they give themto you?" He asked, pointing to the bruises along my arm.
"Bepopand Rocksteady," I asked, "They've gotten stronger." Iexplained. Leo nodded. His mouth set hard, I hadn't seen this face inalong time. His leader face, he was planning something, I... I lookeddown and noticed the frame in his grip. Yoshi and his family. Was Leotrying for him? My frown dug deeper. He was trying for sensei. Whichmeant maybe he wanted to be a leader again.
"We need to takethem down." Leo burst, I snapped my head to see his eyes. I noddedslightly.
"Right..." I said, "Do you have a plan? Or attackand go?" I asked. Two years ago I wouldn't of asked, I would'vegrabbed my sai's and prepared for war...now...Now I had to bestrong. Had to trust my leader, no matter how much I still hated was a reason Splinter had made him the leader not me; control.I just had to hope that control was still there. The control Leo wasdigging for was still there. Leo grunted.
"I will soon." Hesaid. I nodded, taking the frame from his hand slightly and placingit on the shrine again. Leo looked at the photograph and grunted. Hisshoulders lifted slightly.

I nodded and walked into thekitchen and found Mikey and Takashi talking in the kitchen overpizza. I sat across from him.
"Mikey." I said aloud. Mikeysnapped his neck to me.
"Yes?" He smiled. I looked him in theeye.
"Do we trust Leo?" I asked, he would know. Mikey's eyeslit up.
"We do." He smiled. I nodded. Right...war we preparefor.

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