A/N- I do now own SOA, but I do own Gwen.
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Happy rolled over and looked at Gwen, she was sleep, cuddled against his bare chest. "Baby," He whispered running his hands though her hair. "Hum?" She mumbled, still exhausted. "I am sorry." He whispered, running his fingers through her short blond hair. "Uh huh." She mumbled. He sighed. "Gwen, wake up and look here." He said and she rolled over and faced him, blinking a few times to be able to see him. "Hap, can't this wait?" She rasped, her voice full of sleep.
"Gwen, sweetie, I didn't know that was going to happen." He said and she blinked again, and sat up slowly, the cream colored sheets sliding down her body. Happy looked into her eyes. "I didn't think that was going to happen, Jax and I were blindsided, there was nothing I could do." He said and she shook her head. "You killed someone, because you both thought that they were part of another gang, only to find out, that he was stripped of his patches, and he was just out picking a pumpkin for his mother." Gwen said calmly. Happy swallowed, he was in trouble, there was no doubt about that. "Baby, I am so sorry, you, you just don't realize what that guy has done in the past…" He said causing Gwen to shake her head at him. "You have fucked up a lot in the past Hap, but I haven't killed you." She snapped and he shook his head. "Gwen, what am I going to have…" He started to say but she cut him off, rolling over, "It's fine Hap. Just leave it." She muttered closing her eyes tight.
Happy sighed, thinking back to what happened, why didn't he think twice, because a killer like himself, didn't think twice. Now with Gwen, when he knew that she was there, that she could be in danger, he wanted her safe. He wanted to make sure that nothing was going to happen to her. Then all of a sudden, there he is, minding his own business, when shit hit's the damn fan. It wasn't his fault that Roscoe showed up, there of all places, after what he pulled to get him stripped from the Mayans, after shit went down a few years ago. He sighed and sat up. "Gwen get up!" Happy snapped pulling the covers off of her body.
Gwen sat up, almost robotically, she wasn't sure why, but she did. "Get dressed." He snapped at her. She frowned, not liking that attitude that he was giving her. "What are we doing?" She asked confused. "Going for a ride." He said and she frowned looking at her phone. "Its five in the morning." She said slightly confused. "Yeah, I know." He said and shoved her hoodie at her. "Where are we going?" She mumbled. "Doesn't matter, just get ready." She nodded. Sliding the hoodie over her head, and then followed him down their steps. "Well?" She inquired as they stood. "We are going for a ride, just come on." He said and shook his head.
Gwen sighed but followed, climbing on the back of his bike, he started it, and took off. They drove out of their neighborhood, and then headed towards the cemetery. "What are we doing here?" She asked following her. "I want to show you a few things." He said and she nodded. "Yeah, ok." She said and shivered slightly from the cool morning air. They walked around the rows of tomb stones, and stopped in front of one. "This is Half-Stack." He said and she raised her eyebrows. "Ok?" She asked confused. "He died when he was protecting Abel from getting kidnapped." He said and she nodded. "That's so sad." She said and he nodded. "He was protecting his family." Happy said and she nodded. "Hap…" She started to say, he ignored her and took off walking down the rows.
"This here, this is John Teller." He said and stopped in front of the grave. She looked at him. "What do you mean?" She asked slightly confused. "Gemma's first husband, Jax's dad." He said and she nodded, understanding who it was. "When Abel was taken and we went to Belfast, we found out some shitty things, like John cheated with some broad up there, and they had a baby girl, she is still in Belfast, Gemma didn't take it too well." He said and she nodded. "I think I understand." She said and he looked at her, the sun rising behind him. "I think that, you want to understand Gwen, but you don't." He said and she looked at him. "John never told anyone because he was protecting his family, protecting the ones that he loves, and he never told a soul about it." He said and she nodded. "He was killed back in the early nineties, from what we all know, he was drug by a semi, or at least, that is what they said." He said and she frowned, feeling her throat close and then open.
He turned to his left, and stopped. "This, this here is Thomas." He said and Gwen read the dates, "He was so young." She whispered. "Gemma and John's youngest son." He said and Gwen looked at him. Feeling like she was going to cry at any second. "He was just a little thing when he died, look at the dates Gwen." He said and Gwen nodded. "I see them." She said and he looked at her. "Gemma, she was heart broken, can you blame her?" He asked and looked at her. "I am sorry Hap." She said and sighed. "No, no you are not. These people all died protecting their family, and Thomas, he lost his family before he knew what it was." He said and looked at her. "Come on." His voice rough, he didn't even flinch, not regretting this for the brief second. "Hurry up." He snapped walking down the rows of graves.
He stopped and looked around looking lost slightly. He turned and walked up a few more rows of graves, and turned and looked at her. "This is almost the last one." He said and pointed towards the last grave. "Deputy Chief David Hale." He said and looked at her. "Stupid bastard, actually thought that trying to keep the law and SAMCRO separate was the way to go." He said and looked at her. "Well, he is dead now." He said and looked at her. "What do you mean?" She asked confused. "He was killed protecting, protecting the town, and the people he loved, he died protecting the family." He said and she tilted her head. "He was killed at Half-Stack's wake." He said and she blinked. "I know I told you about that, the drive by." He said and she nodded. "They ran his down, hit him, he died there on bleeding out on the street." He said and she blinked. Feeling her throat close. "He died protecting people." He said and looked at her. "Come on." He said and turned and walked away, down though the graves, and up a different set. He stopped again. Gwen stepped behind him and read the headstone.
"This is LuAnn Delany." He said and she looked at him. "Big Otto's Old Lady, porn star, porn director." He said and she looked at him blinking. "She was beaten to death, along the highway." He said and she gasped slightly. "They say it was Jax's fault." He said and she looked at him. "It wasn't not in my opinion, but she was killed." He said and she blinked. "She was someone's Old Lady, someone's wife and he couldn't protect her, he is in jail, and she was killed." He said and looked at her. "She is dead Gwen, she isn't taking a nap some where. She isn't playing hide and seek, she is cold, and dead, in the ground." He said and she blinked, letting a tear slip down her cheek. Happy smiled, he actually smiled at her tears. "Come on." He said and led her down the rows of graves to a bench.
Sitting down he looked at her. "I didn't bring you hear to scare you." He said and she looked at him, "I brought you here to make you understand, that, people die protecting the things they care about, just as easy as the people they are protecting die." He said and she nodded. "I understand." She said and he sighed. "Listen to me." He said and she looked at him. "Listen to me Gwen." He said and took the edge off his voice. "I love you, do you understand that?" He asked and she nodded. "I will do what ever it takes to keep you safe." He said and she sighed. "I understand." She said and looked at him. "Then why do you get like this, I don't fucking understand, just let me do my thing." He said and she nodded. "I am sorry, I know that you just wanted to keep me safe." She said and he sighed. "Then you need to let me keep you safe Gwen." He said and she nodded. "And the way you can do that is by letting me finish what Ethan started." He said and she looked at him. "Ok." She whispered.
Happy stood up and so did Gwen, he wrapped his arms around her and felt her body shake with sobs. "Shh." He soothed her, trying to get her to calm down. She stood there in his embrace and cried, not able to calm herself. "Don't cry baby girl." He said and held onto her. She nodded wiping her hair from her face. "Come on let's head back to the house." He said and she nodded. Happy led her back to the bike, and climbed onto it. "Come on." He said and drove though the town. When he arrived at the house, he dropped her off, having to head into Teller-Marrow for the day. "Baby, I have to go to the shop, go to bed, take a hot bath, and please, keep in mind, that I do love you, and that I just want to protect you." He said and she nodded. "I know Hap." She said and shared a sweet little kiss with her. "I do love you." He said and she smiled. "I love you too." She said and watched as he drove away. "I love you, that is why I have to do this." She said and walked into the house, letting a few more tears fall from her eyes.