Chapter 25
That night I tossed and turned in my old bedroom. Sleep wouldn't come no matter how hard I willed my brain to shut off. I tried to count sheep, but then I just wondered if Monroe would've eaten them before he went Wieder. I finally gave up and focused on the familiar crack on my ceiling. It was shaped like a lightning bolt, all zigzagged. I traced the shape with my eyes, hoping it would distract me long enough to lull me to sleep, but too many things had happened recently for my childhood trick to work tonight. I hummed Katy Perry's 'Wide Awake.'
"I'm wide awake.
How did I read the stars so wrong?
I'm wide awake ,
And now it's clear to me,
That everything you see,
Ain't always what it seems.
I'm wide awake.
Yeah, I was dreaming for so long.
I wish I knew then what I know now.
Wouldn't dive in wouldn't bow down.
Gravity hurts,
You made it so sweet,
Till I woke up on-on the concrete.
Falling from cloud nine,
Crashing from the high,
I'm letting go tonight…"
It wasn't all that long ago I was on cloud nine with Monroe and now my whole world was crumbling around me. I'd fallen hard off my happy little cloud, for sure. Everything I thought I knew was a sham. I glanced at the clock beside my bed. Quarter till four. I groaned and rolled over on my side, hugging my pillow. If only it was Monroe. I was tempted to break my mom's rule and crawl into bed with him tonight, but instead I hugged the pillow tighter and closed my eyes.
A/N: I wanted to reflect the contrast of feelings from Bryan's Adams' 'Cloud Number Nine' in Chapter 6 to Katy Perry's 'Wide Awake' in this chapter.